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When one meets girls/women at a low frequency and then at some point meets a girl, there’s a certain region of the brain which is activated and goes into hyper mode. This region is called IGCG (icky gooey cliche generator). The brain will allocate all its energy to this region in order to generate an alternative reality where this one girl is the solution to all problems in the universe.
My last post was me realizing that.
manually turning off the IGCG.
Im aware of what I was doing, and i feel much better and less attached.
On the road to becoming a healthi , independent, boi
 

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this is so sad alexa play "i want gf"
 

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Redwave:buying gf 30k
for real Im so glad I stumbled upon that article. who knows how long I would have been ruining relationships with unhealthy attachment.
Im comfortable dating, and her dating other people, feels gud.
YEABOI internet coming in clutch.
Rebis have you considered fucking yourself. If you fucked yourself with your vape, you would be a pioneer, you hipster betch.
jk we both dress the same.
 

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I issue you a challenge, @Rebis. At some point, lets have a hipster-off.
I want you to know I have a polaroid, leather satchel, glasses, a vape, and more.
Could also be a cringe-off. I see no need for specific labels.
 

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Pfft, normie grade hipster :/

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oof normie grade?
Hipster is the one word everyone seems to use to describe me.
Its pretty lame.
arent hipsters people with zero personality just trying to be different?
Im the real deal rebis, tru snoflak.

I noticed something, despite my social skills improving dramatically, I still dont return smiles unconsciously. Its fucking weird, because I know im deathstaring bitches while they are like O HAI THER :D ._. hey
MAOR OXYTOCIN, DO IT DOC, IM READY!
tried a few sites to find a cuddlebuddy, literally non within 70miles, thats fucked.
 

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I mean you gotta ask yourself what type of person specifically signs up to a website revolving around cuddlebuddies (you're caught in this crossfire, apologies) best to just tall to someone through websites and invite them over. Idk, planning to cuddle someone without it happening organically through an interest separate from cuddles seems strange to me.

Where's can I sign up for the holding hand gang?

I don't get branded as a hipster as much when people get to know me, all good in the hood.

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Lol I get that. If not for my life being a strange solo journey, I wouldnt bother, because I would have other options at my disposal. Socially, im where most people were in their teens, or even a bit younger. BUILDING THAT SOCIAL CIRCLE REBIS.
entp girl will probably help me meet some cool people if I dont scare her away.
I think most people need much more touch than they get, most people just dont want to ask for it. not my snoflak ass. Im becoming more comfortable asking for my human needs to be met, almost a real boi, at this point.
I just bought one of those fancy scarves women wear, I decided, Im man enough to wear a girl scarf if I fucking want to.
 

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eyy I had another talk with another lady. This one is like me, as far as introversion and being shy goes. I prefer shy girls, but the extroverted ones would definitely be better for growth. Life isnt just about growth, though. I would gladly have someone to hold rather than someone who makes me go the parties. A fine balance, and really, asking for one person to be everything is about the worst strategy you can use.
I sincerely hope in a year I can look back at this time in my life, and think, well, It was a fucking train wreck, BUT I did what I needed to do, to get out of the hole I was in.
Im not expressive at all, the last girl told me about 10 times she couldnt read me, im a bit worried I might scare of this coy dame. I suppose all I really need to do, is smile, try my best to vary my pitch, and be very vocal about the fact that im enjoying her company.
I think entp girl wanted space, so im giving it to her.
4858
Im quite sure she picked up on my unhealthy attachment, hopefully she will see that Im over it. whatever, life goes on. my room is clean, for the first time in 22 years. My nails are filed and clean. Got my longboard set up, my leg was a noodle after a 10 minute ride, absolutely pathetic, I used to be able to ride over 20 miles at a time.
music box is finished, It sounds great in the corner of the room, the low tones echo very well. I got a desk, cleaned it, got some awesome chemical burns from not getting the bleach off my hands.
The girl im talking to was super honest, she basically said she goes to school and reads, and thats all she did. Im fucking lame, I try to sound interesting, everyone else is just here to connect. THEME OF MY LIFE. we can bond over books, because reading was all I did through middleschool and high school.
The knees of my pants were stretched to shit, cant have stretched knees if you cut them out. smart rite


I feel that pretty soon I will need to stop using intpf, not even once Im ready to get out there, a bit before Im really ready. I had a dream entp girl found out about my account, she was like, people do suck, and im polaris.
Weird, but hey it scared me a good bit.

Im getting a couch, cleaning my room, Im finally doing the things that signify that someone is trying to find a mate. Im becoming less offensive, more self aware, more social as well. Today the guys at the skateshop decided to invite me into their talk, I wasnt interested, but I was glad they tried. His breath was so bad, I hope it wasnt genetic.

I always thought I was pretty funny, and if entp girl is a good judge, Im actually as funny as I think I am. I had her laughing like a lunatic at 3am, and pretty much the whole night leading up to that.
My dogs never slept so intertwined until they had sex, I must learn from their ways.

Right now Im trying to find the most minimalist bed setup, that isnt terrible. I considered an L shaped couch, as it would serve 2 purposes, take up less room, keep everything neat and clean. I have a DBT workbook I need to burn, I bought it used when I was having weird relations with an older woman, she made me think I was crazy enough I bought a workbook, after 3 pages I realized it wasnt really for me, I dont have borderline. Since it was used, guess what, its filled with some borderline persons hysterical ramblings, not something I need a date checking out. WHY HAVENT I THROWN IT AWAY DAMN. im throwing it away
K its in the trash, once and for all, to hell with you, dbt workbook.
Its a good thing I learn from my mistakes somewhat quickly, because if I didnt, boi oh boi, I would be alone forever.

the fact that professional cuddlers exist, and they are paid around 80$ an hour, is so fucking sad. Thats what people need, thats what they really need, just affection. I suppose, thats what they fucking get? you go to school, neglect your human needs, well now you can pay for them, dumbass. Or I suppose they are like me and they just need a bit of love, that they cannot seem to earn with human interaction.
anyways, I have some stoff planned, and im going to start longboarding again, so like, if I disappear, 99% chance I died, shit happens.

Ive got a little family meetup thing, and im going to open up about who I am, when I told my brother I had been dating he was surprised, but very supportive. neat. he actually was proud of me. Its time I had the talk, Im the big brother, and heres how it is, and if you ever need me, im here. I wonder if I will cry? that would be awkward, feeling normal human emotions, why is that so fucking hard.
Well for one I almost cannot physically cry, even if I try, and I have. My body resists to the max, Ive only really cried 2 times in the last 4 years.
What kind of person would hurt a child for crying? A monster I suppose. people develop, sometimes for the better.
I would be a terrible therapist, monotone, blank face, I UNDERSTAND YOU JANET, RICKY WAS MEAN. 0_0.

bleh, im so glad the internet exists. As I said before, im sort of learning to fly a crashing plane, and you guys are ground control, giving me little tips here and there.
Much appreciated.

We are pretty much leveled out, but shaky. turbulence surely coming up.
 

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Boi could you imagine if I went to 4chan for help. LMFAO lets be thankful.
 

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Ive been losing weight, im still about 30lbs from a healthy weight, I think. I had my bodyfat percent tested and I was 22%, not sure how bad that is. I havent been abusing my system with caffein as much. Not craving sugar as badly. Sort of surviving off chinese food, I know thats terrible, but, fuck it. Ive finally got an aptment to get my wisdom teeth pulled, I look forward to not taking my pain killers and suffering, not sure why Im like that. I am though.
 

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I talked to entp girl, things dont feel right. The whole time I just wanted to stop talking. She also seemed to get a bit aggressive, when I openly said I disapprove of getting blackout drunk. Our interaction wasnt really pleasant for me, I told her I had something to do and ditched. I feel like thats a childish mindgame thing, to just say I GTG. In some ways she is always the one leaving first, so maybe I figured I shouldnt be too available? dunno, really what I need to do is get my life together. Even though she hasnt really blown me off, Im getting the "im too busy for you vibes" im asking too much of one person again. oof.
Im kind of fake, I hide a lot of myself and my opinions, Im too afraid to sound the way my teacher was. Prioritizing a relationship over an emotional connection, UGH.
I drive me crazy. My problems are always over text, I dont have these issues in person. That shows that its me, projecting my insecurity and low self esteem.
COOL BRO, YOU KNOW THAT, NOW WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO WITH IT?
maybe I should dig that dbt workbook out of the trash, honestly I dont know.
Or I suppose I could just be honest and not play stupid ass games. If that fails, then at the very least, I know I have to fix something.
mm I suppose I can give my methods each a try. With entp girl be honest, and with k, shes korean, so shes k. I will try not to play games and be honest, but, yknow dating like a normal loser.
I think I will do research on dating, sort of funny that I havent. It worries me since most people are disasters, but I suppose they have made the mistakes im about to.
How could I even call most people disasters, fucking look at me. damn, in desperate need of being knocked down a peg.
I dont really want a relationship, I think I just want a friend, normal human connection.
I want to isolate myself so badly right now. I hate myself around people, im so much happier when I can just be alone and busy. thats just escaping myself, I suppose?

I dont really like the idea of playing games, it pisses me off. Im just going to be honest, and if it doesnt work, I will be very sad and feeling damaged, sounds like a fun friday night. I just want to make sure I dont push anyone away, thats not ok.
I havent been meditating or studying my norwegian, Ive been putting people above my goals. GOTtA STHAPP DOING THAT
I shouldnt be so hard on myself though, as isolated and lonely, I should be somewhat proud that I have people to talk to. YAY i did it. I dont celebrate, nobody ever cared about my accomplishments, and now, I dont either. Im living in a time that doesnt exist, missing the only time that does, the present. gotta stop that.
Tomorrow, im studying and gettin shit done.


big shout out to the sky gods for making me cute and funny, because man, really nothing else is holding this together.

The only thing Im aiming for, from now on, is to not miss meditating in the morning, I really cannot skip that. Women only want to talk late at night, I suppose, thats when they feel lonely.
Im glad I found k, I would really struggle not to be hurt about entp girl if I didnt have some kind of option. K is very cute as well, she seems very genuine, dorky. Adorkable is my favorite compliment for dorky girls.
I can almost sense the relief women feel when they find out im not sleeping around. Neat, K seems mature, I had a date I never talked about, she was very immature, emotionally, I never considered her. She was the one that got mad about being friends)

I hope this doesnt come down to me choosing between k and entp girl, I would feel bad, I have a strong emotional connection to entp girl, we shared too much and had way too much eye contact. To be honest though, I was seriously worried that I couldnt bond with someone emotionally, Im fully capable.
I wont be kissing either until I have chosen, I think its too intimate to share that sort of thing. I dont see why people are so comfortable sharing their bodies, I dont like it.
Thats assuming I have a choice, which im sure I dont.
K already said she wants something that is more of a friendship, I hope she was being honest, because thats what I need. I dont think K has many friends, I dont think she cares to hide it either. Clearly, she is a better man than I.
I need guy friends, I dont know where to look, I dont do guy stuff. I know a few guys from growing up, one of them is damn decent, I need to get in contact with him, he likes people, his car is fast AF too. We are both car guys, Im a car guy btw.

Im not even sure what to say, I dont know how moronic I am being, or how wrong Im going about everything. First time dating troubles, hopefully?
What if I overthought about everything AND IM FUCKING FINE.
Progress is being made. I am melodramatic, truly, not even joking, I overreact to everything. reactive, gotta meditate more.

Im super needy and clingy, im going to take a break from people for a while. ciao
 

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I'm too busy too read the whole thread. Sorry. My addvice is to take up some work at a farm for Cows. Livestock act prettu similarly to Humans If something is still unclear. I'll explain it too yoy For free.
 

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Ive decided to use this forum differently. Previously I was using it to give my insecurities and anxieties a place to echo. Im not going to do that, because that isnt productive or what I want. Im going to put me first from now on. I will get back to people at some point.
I'm too busy too read the whole thread. Sorry. My addvice is to take up some work at a farm for Cows. Livestock act prettu similarly to Humans If something is still unclear. I'll explain it too yoy For free.
I understand.
 

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did you ask if she likes daggers?
 

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Ive decided to use this forum differently. Previously I was using it to give my insecurities and anxieties a place to echo. Im not going to do that, because that isnt productive or what I want. Im going to put me first from now on. I will get back to people at some point.
I'm too busy too read the whole thread. Sorry. My addvice is to take up some work at a farm for Cows. Livestock act prettu similarly to Humans If something is still unclear. I'll explain it too yoy For free.
I understand.
Keep stuff to yourself unless you think it's different from your other posts. Given the frequency and volatility of the content in the posts you're just creating a reference frame, that is you'll post a comment on a whim, get over the thought and then someone will comment at a later date. That person quotes your posts, you revert back to the reference frame of a possible whimsical post, interpret their comment and then reinforce the emotion/anxiety you were feeling.

Basically, you don't have to materialize every emotion you experience. In fact, it's best you don't. I know it might appear as a revelation to you and maybe you assume the lack of engagement from others is because they've already went through the loop, but even considering that I think people learn to not materialize every thought/emotion anxiety.
How can you be confident if 90% of what you express is anxiety?
 

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I opened up to entp girl, about my childhood, my dad, my teacher. She didnt push very hard, I suppose I felt ready to open up. She basically just said things make sense now. She sat next to me and held my hand, we talked about stuff, she sees me the way I see her. So, someone actually knows the real me, to some extent. I almost cried when I was talking, I felt my lip quiver, I think that was when she moved closer and held my hand. Im glad she is the one things took off with, if it were some girl, with the same issues that I have, things would have snowballed and burned. Its amazing how such small things can have such a huge impact on life, quite scary actually, if you think about it.
Im proud of myself, I didnt tell her the story in a way to try and get attention and empathy, I told her the bare bones, that would help her understand the things she was curious about. She did a super cute little celebratory dance when she found out she was my first real kiss. I noticed I really do like pity parties, working on that. working on everything. I have a platform to stand on now, so im going to get up and stop fucking about.
 

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Just reading lgtb thread, see the word demisexual, dunno what that means, let me do a quick google search. aaannnnd now I make sense, It wouldnt explain my lack of bonding with men, but it would explain about everything else. WAOW so cool, thanks internet <3
I wonder how many times I heard the term but never bothered to look it up. With a name like demisexual, I figured it was some stupid shit, like sexual attraction to god. ANYWAYS, entp girl is likely demisexual too, I dont think she realizes it yet. Would perfectly explain the "good" anxiety that I cause her, that other guys havent.
Cannot wait to explain this to people, ugh.
 

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I told my dad Im dating and Im demisexual, Ive never seen that amount of disappointment on a persons face before. He didnt even say anything for a minute, then he was like, I guess thats good in some ways.

He gave me advice like I had no idea, like I havent searched the internet for all the answers. Didnt have the heart to stop him. LmFaO
Him giving me lady advice is quite IrOnIc.
What ever, my brother told him I was dating, wasnt an optional talk.
Havent told my mom, dont even want to, but I will, im sure she will be like, OMG THAT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE.

Aru out
 

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You're not going to find legitimate psychologic therapy here, so really, what else is there to do?
@Adaire DONT YOU FEEL SILLY NOW

Ive learned so much and grown so much since I made this thread. Its surreal, to me.

It actually turned out that I had so little contact with women I was just scared of them. A little exposure therapy has done the trick, im no longer scared of them.
First date with entp girl scared the shit out of me, shes a 10 as far as looks go, and I felt so smol, like why are you talking to me XD
 

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Courage can only really be measured by what one does despite being afraid. So to have that amount of fear around it and to handle it so persistently & directly (with strangers, even) is most certainly very courageous & admirable. It's not a small task.

I personally feel that's more important than how things turn out with this particular person. Regardless of how it does you still did that and it can't be taken away from you. I hope you can take the time to celebrate your own successes before the close of the year and reflect on what it shows you about yourself.

Fear is a big aspect of what limits & stunts us, so, if you can challenge that shackle, what other one's can you in 2020 to shift your life in a different direction?


(I personally didn't start dating until I was 28, and that was with someone who was already my best friend, so already had a lot of trust & safety established. Waiting that long was most certainly fear-led. People can easily be led by fear their whole lives. It is honestly a massive thing to do.)
 

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I always feel intense & serious. :D

MAXIMUM INTENSITY
 

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I'm not sure about my dating future, with the whole alcohol abstinence thing it's probably going to take me quite some time to establish a network of people to talk to. There's also the added cultural influence of alcohol and drugs in the UK(particularly Northern Ireland where I live, which is really like a 2nd glasgow).

It sounds simple: Just find introverts, but in reality restructuring your social outings, communicating with others etc isn't a straightforward task. I see like 1-2 girls that seem really nice on tinder, compared to 500 that're pretty good looking but based on their profile are bland, like alcohol and watch soap TV shows.

feels like hell sometimes. Qualities I like which are the antithesis of the tinder experience:
-Sophistication (Girls that're into literature, government and politics, maybe a dip into politics without constantly preaching "We need rights" like that hasn't been the chorus since the dawn of civilization with esteemed figureheads in power.
-Introverted gamer girls, just by virtue of having a simple leisure activity that isn't alcohol and drugs, games are quite entertaining and are relatively inexpensive. Since Gaming consoles/PCs are functionally a mulit-media device, that also adds netflix, TV and such in the mix. And given that most popular games are combative (exceptions are minecraft and sims), they probably don't watch shit TV like Big brother house or gossip shows.
- Ambitious girls, relatively rare, not by virtue of being female but by virtue that the more ambitious the less you dip your toes into online dating. Also there's only specific types of girls that would like the appeal of me as I haven't fully subscribed to the whole lifestyle around social status: Advanced phone, LinkedIn profile, Up-to-date Laptop/Mac/IPAD, clothing (The Doc Martens just can't go yet). Also the fact I've experienced the party scene a lot in the past, this is set as a red marker for them as I haven't been on the path of the straight and narrow.

I can see girls are confused by me since I've went through all these disparate hurdles, and in this fast-paced world everyone is scanning: you don't spend more than a minute on someone's profile it's best to just scan through their profile. Girls pop up time from time and I know the interest is simply that I'm mysterious but these are rare and there's less incidents for these meetings to occur. To compensate for this I've substituted this "scanning" by improving my physical attraction, fitness and the likes.

Even the littlest of things, for example interest in pharmaceuticals without conveying the scatter-brained mentality of a methamphetite (Neologism here, subscribe to this new word!) is hard to do, I think talking about them as vitamins eases the cognitive task on the person to evaluate the situation. Oh, and the fact I've been eating a vegetarian diet and there's this weird disgust for vegetarian food when it's ultimately baseless: Like sure, you don't have to like it but many of the foods you enjoy are the product of carbohydrates and fats, which meat products are generally lacking these days due to an emphasis on protein and a disgust for fat. So people have a disgust associated with the vegetarian diet talking about how the taste of meat is superior when in most cases they're not carnivorious and their food consists of processes meats, refined carbs and large doses of sugars.

Hate to sound like a narcissist but with all these lifestyle interests I just seem like a provocateur and people don't have time to be open minded, myself included (to a degree). I can see the change in frequency of responses depending on how I market myself on tinder, the trend that works best is simple, dumb, a few smiling photos, a dog and some dumbass bio like "I like netflix". And to top it all off I do computer science! Which you just cant talk to someone about normally, little segway for interpretation (or interest for that matter).

So this talk about males opening up their feelings and it's entirely on them, fails to realise it takes the perception of both males and females in a straight relationship to enforce gender stereotypes, and through these stereotypes they are cultivated in their attraction to each other. It goes beyond gender really, people easily see that which they desire as an object: A hunk guy, a guy to go on dates with, one to bring home to the family, one to drink with me, a cuddly winter guy.... yada yada, you've seen it on their bios. While males wouldn't convey it on their bio, they think along similar lines.
People are one-dimensional a lot of them like simple things, and that requires simple people. A guy that likes football, has a car and a job has the 3 ticks some girls can go for.

It just annoys me how simple it is to be simple, yet people talk about it as it's unique. Different level of perceptions I know, but people post a dog photo or a family photo and it wins the hearts of many, but people post something unfamiliar and it's not explored. It feels maddening when you've got a world in your head and no one to relate to. When you do have an opportunity it's like a dopaminergic burst, but the reciprocation is rarely fulfilled.

Kinda thinking about moving to a bigger city, I mean there's a limitation of interesting characters in a smaller city. To be honest, the city I live in currently isn't what you expect of a city it's just the closest thing we have (besides dublin).
 

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Courage can only really be measured by what one does despite being afraid. So to have that amount of fear around it and to handle it so persistently & directly (with strangers, even) is most certainly very courageous & admirable. It's not a small task.
I actually learned from longboarding, I have an uncanny ability to throw myself headfirst into something, no matter how scary it is. Im not sure if im brave or disconnected from the part of me that wants to hide. One thing is for sure, the part of me that decides, has no regard for my comfort or saftey. :D
Half of me is rebis, and half of me is a smol boi.
When I left for my date with entp girl, I didnt care what happened, I figured it would be a disaster, but I was going to show up. If I had stayed home, I would probably be in a completely different place in one year. Things like this reenforce this attitude of, whatever happens, i will at least show up.
we've developed a fairly strong bond, shared our secrets. ^_^
I would say im a real boi at this point.
The thing that pushed me, I would say, was sitting on my loneliness and depression, not escaping it, or ignoring it. Sit with the terrible feelings, use them, GROW THE FUCK UP. pull up my big girl boots and be a person.
I personally feel that's more important than how things turn out with this particular person. Regardless of how it does you still did that and it can't be taken away from you.
I completely agree. I have already considered it a success, no matter what happens.
The worst things that happen to us tend to be our most important lessons. IM READY TO LEARN, Ive been safe for far too long, im ready to experience.
I hope you can take the time to celebrate your own successes before the close of the year and reflect on what it shows you about yourself.
I recently did, it seems so strange, Im a completely different person now. Women dont scare me, im not afraid to flirt. Im being more honest and vulnerable. I actually opened up to a human, in person, with my words!
I figured she would think I was damaged, but the part of me that decides, decided.
Fear is a big aspect of what limits & stunts us, so, if you can challenge that shackle, what other one's can you in 2020 to shift your life in a different direction?
I agree. I dont believe in waiting for new years or stars to align. There will always be reasons to put things off. The only time that exists is the present, Im trying my best not to miss it. maybe in 2020 I will stop speaking in cliches? GOALS
fuck u rebis
(I personally didn't start dating until I was 28, and that was with someone who was already my best friend, so already had a lot of trust & safety established. Waiting that long was most certainly fear-led. People can easily be led by fear their whole lives. It is honestly a massive thing to do.)
Ive been trying hard to internalize we all have our own path, its not smart to compare ourselves. As long as you finally made it, thats great! You learned something from the whole thing, im sure. Indeed, fear is the greatest source of stagnation.
I talked to entp girl about this, how ive come so far, how incompetent and unwilling to grow, I used to be.
Like I said a long time ago, Im actually glad I hadnt dated, I was not ready, AT ALL. Ive done 10 years of maturing in the last month, its been...strange.
I always feel silly.
me internally
MAXIMUM INTENSITY
Me externally

It absolutely blows my mind I have come so far, just from chatting with random strangers online.
Im not sure why I suddenly decided now was the time to change, but I did.
Everyone outside thinks Ive been lazy as fuck for the last month. Cant really talk about it. FOREVER GREATeFUL to my friends on the intpf
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@Rebis can get back to you later.
I love the idea of this being the dating problems thread
Join in, share your struggles BB
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I always feel silly.
Y'know I know a guy irl, his second name is Adaire and given the commonality of his first name I tend to project him onto you. "Still adaire" sounds like something he'd say.

I tend to model people on this forum based on real life counterparts, it just happens. I'm surprised others don't (or do they?)) @Inexorable Username @peoplesuck @Serac @moody @Puffy
 

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Well Adaire means 'Wealthy Spear.' Which I think is a hilarious over compensating dick joke of a name. You need to tease your friend over it.

I didn't know what it meant when I made it up btw!
 

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I always feel silly.
Y'know I know a guy irl, his second name is Adaire and given the commonality of his first name I tend to project him onto you. "Still adaire" sounds like something he'd say.

I tend to model people on this forum based on real life counterparts, it just happens. I'm surprised others don't (or do they?)) @Inexorable Username @peoplesuck @Serac @moody @Puffy
You're a maniac, which friend am I?
I thought I was the dog, ffs this story is too hard to follow.
 

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Well Adaire means 'Wealthy Spear.' Which I think is a hilarious over compensating dick joke of a name. You need to tease your friend over it.

I didn't know what it meant when I made it up btw!
Oh my, thankyou for this info. They are one to succumb to teases, they hold themselves in high regard.
 

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You're a maniac, which friend am I?
I thought I was the dog, ffs this story is too hard to follow.
I believe you're still my friends dubz (or nicola).

However, if the dog doth "woof" I may change it.
 

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I always feel silly.
Y'know I know a guy irl, his second name is Adaire and given the commonality of his first name I tend to project him onto you. "Still adaire" sounds like something he'd say.

I tend to model people on this forum based on real life counterparts, it just happens. I'm surprised others don't (or do they?)) @Inexorable Username @peoplesuck @Serac @moody @Puffy
Can’t say that I do lol. As far as I’m concerned we’re all just digital ghosts, minds without physical form.
 

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-Sophistication (Girls that're into literature, government and politics, maybe a dip into politics without constantly preaching "We need rights" like that hasn't been the chorus since the dawn of civilization with esteemed figureheads in power.
-Introverted gamer girls, just by virtue of having a simple leisure activity that isn't alcohol and drugs, games are quite entertaining and are relatively inexpensive. Since Gaming consoles/PCs are functionally a mulit-media device, that also adds netflix, TV and such in the mix. And given that most popular games are combative (exceptions are minecraft and sims), they probably don't watch shit TV like Big brother house or gossip shows.
- Ambitious girls, relatively rare, not by virtue of being female but by virtue that the more ambitious the less you dip your toes into online dating.
You literally just described my best friend in middle school. It's a bit eerie, to be honest. (INFP)
I have a suggestion: go to a feminist group at your school or in the community, and sit by a quiet girl in the back who looks like they're new and intelligent. Prompt a conversation at some-point when you can, asking about their opinion on the matter.
A lot of girls who go to feminist clubs or groups for the first time are pretty mild-mannered, less likely to be convinced of biases towards men, and likely to be interested in the political and social influences on people.

Or just start taking an art class you could be interested in.

Extracurricular are great ways to meet people, and you're already in a context to strike up a conversation on a similar interest.

So people have a disgust associated with the vegetarian diet talking about how the taste of meat is superior when in most cases they're not carnivorious and their food consists of processes meats, refined carbs and large doses of sugars.
Hmmm...don't put it on your profile or make a big deal out of it. People get all pissy and defensive if they feel like you're going to judge or criticize their lifestyle. If they make a jab at you when they find out, then continue to do so for a while without listening to your reasons for being a vegetarian, then you know they're shallow and small minded.

I mean there's a limitation of interesting characters in a smaller city.
Very, very true. There are big differences in the vibe of a place based off the diversity. In small towns, the lack of diversity makes people more opinionated, judgmental, and/or nosy, in a general sense.
 

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-Sophistication (Girls that're into literature, government and politics, maybe a dip into politics without constantly preaching "We need rights" like that hasn't been the chorus since the dawn of civilization with esteemed figureheads in power.
-Introverted gamer girls, just by virtue of having a simple leisure activity that isn't alcohol and drugs, games are quite entertaining and are relatively inexpensive. Since Gaming consoles/PCs are functionally a mulit-media device, that also adds netflix, TV and such in the mix. And given that most popular games are combative (exceptions are minecraft and sims), they probably don't watch shit TV like Big brother house or gossip shows.
- Ambitious girls, relatively rare, not by virtue of being female but by virtue that the more ambitious the less you dip your toes into online dating.
You literally just described my best friend in middle school. It's a bit eerie, to be honest. (INFP)
I have a suggestion: go to a feminist group at your school or in the community, and sit by a quiet girl in the back who looks like they're new and intelligent. Prompt a conversation at some-point when you can, asking about their opinion on the matter.
A lot of girls who go to feminist clubs or groups for the first time are pretty mild-mannered, less likely to be convinced of biases towards men, and likely to be interested in the political and social influences on people.

Or just start taking an art class you could be interested in.

Extracurricular are great ways to meet people, and you're already in a context to strike up a conversation on a similar interest.
yeah I've met a few like this, lovely girls. Honestly I don't feel comfortable in rallies at all, most of them are aggressive. Though I'm picturing this girl in my head, and she's the one I'd go to great lengths for.

Yeah extracurricular activities is something I need to indulge in, I've been thinking of acting class recently, but maybe art will be better. I could try and draw some images I have stored in my head that don't have a physical counterpart. Art, maynnnn.
So people have a disgust associated with the vegetarian diet talking about how the taste of meat is superior when in most cases they're not carnivorious and their food consists of processes meats, refined carbs and large doses of sugars.
Hmmm...don't put it on your profile or make a big deal out of it. People get all pissy and defensive if they feel like you're going to judge or criticize their lifestyle. If they make a jab at you when they find out, then continue to do so for a while without listening to your reasons for being a vegetarian, then you know they're shallow and small minded.

I mean there's a limitation of interesting characters in a smaller city.
Very, very true. There are big differences in the vibe of a place based off the diversity. In small towns, the lack of diversity makes people more opinionated, judgmental, and/or nosy, in a general sense.
Yeah I don't make a big deal out of it, it's just little things like I mention my food, eat a lot of tofu, you literally cant eat tofu if you eat meat. I do try a decent amount of diets which I would mention, there's that too. I know people say their country is backwards but in terms of economic depravity, which includes a lack of social development (Abortion was only legalised 22nd of october this year, same-sex marriage won't be legal until january 2020) it really stifles the individual. I mean the city is not big by any means, most of the population is in suburbs.
 

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I tend to model people on this forum based on real life counterparts, it just happens. I'm surprised others don't (or do they?)) @Inexorable Username @peoplesuck @Serac @moody @Puffy
Nope. You're all your own entities. You guys have a general shape in my mind like a shadow that just kind of formed based off the way you write.

Here is what comes to mind:

Rebis, you're a college kid with shaggy hair and colorful clothing, with trousers that are non-denim
@Marbles : has a bowler had, for some reason...similar expression most of the time, but the contour of the eyes change a lot. Pale.
@Adaire : is the "are you kidding me" expression, holding a wine glass. Color of chardonnay.
@peoplesuck : is that expression "are you talking to me...?" talks out of the corner of his mouth unless hes mad
@computerhxr : has a sweater, disheveled hair, and is tired. Green colors.
@Serac and @higs : are leaders of two different nations playing a board game together, plotting to take over the world with classy alcohol and easy-going conversation. They wear tweed and business attire, and have cigars, mainly for the sake of holding to look cool while they laugh.
@Tenacity is dresses nicely and is classy. Warm colors, like orange and red.
@Animekitty : I just visualize a swirling rainbow vortex *with glasses and a cat, of course
@Polaris wears sweatshirts, messy hair because she runs her hands through it a lot, maybe glasses when she works. Light, honey brown comes to mind. And the cosmos.
@Minnued : Gray and light, grayish-blue colors. Friendly shadows. And break dancing.
@Inexorable Username : Someone I could've grown up with. I mean this in that she reminds me a lot of the intelligent people in small towns I've lived in, who often keep their opinions to themselves as to avoid stupid conversations with people who don't know what they're talking about. Yellow comes to mind.
 

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I always imagine people as their avatars, unless I see a picture of them
Like rebis, I remember his face, we dress the same.
Once I see your face I can never see you as your avatar.
 

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I always imagine people as their avatars, unless I see a picture of them
Like rebis, I remember his face, we dress the same.
Once I see your face I can never see you as your avatar.
I'd say the same, but in all honesty that dog is just too cool to not think of.

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My avatars have always represented a part of me.
I suppose thats how we choose.
Our spirit animals essentially.
 

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I absolutely hate the idea of dating someone younger than I am.
That weird cuddle girl that trapped me, made me very weary.
Also entp girl sorta disappeared mid (sext?) last night and Im confused AF. havent heard from here yet...I swear I didnt do anything...I think..LoL
I bought a good movie, but I dont want to stop thinking to watch it. UGH. mania is some bs, yo.
If it were warm I would go for a long bike ride, but its cold.
STRESSIN OUT RITNOW

CANT EXERT MYSELF OR I MIGHT DIE, BUT IM BORED AND ANXIOUS. I GET CABIN FEVER WHEN I DONT GET TO BIKE, NEED TO RIDE MY BIKE, FAR, FAR AF BOI.
UGHHHHHHHHHHGHGHGGHGHGHG bored. kjempe kjedelige
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I absolutely hate the idea of dating someone younger than I am.
That weird cuddle girl that trapped me, made me very weary.
Also entp girl sorta disappeared mid (sext?) last night and Im confused AF. havent heard from here yet...I swear I didnt do anything...I think..LoL
I bought a good movie, but I dont want to stop thinking to watch it. UGH. mania is some bs, yo.
If it were warm I would go for a long bike ride, but its cold.
STRESSIN OUT RITNOW
Taking the advice of MRAs @Inexorable Username mentioned earlier, I'll be the incel:
Bro you gotta fuck her right in the pussy
If that don't work, don't fuck her right in the pussy.
100% effective and also penis enlarger, upgrade to the TERRIBLE TEN inch today!

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BRO I TRIED, SHE WAS ON HER PERIOD, SHE SAID NO, I WAS LIAK BUT WAI, WOULD DO IT STILL. # YABOI A SAVAGE
LITTLEBLOOD AND UTERINE LINING NEVER FUCKING HURT NOBODY.
SOME WOMEN I SWAER

I want to go longboarding, but I dont have a helmet, going slow is fucking lame, I wanna go fast. atleast 30. 30 OR NO BALLS.
 

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BRO I TRIED, SHE WAS ON HER PERIOD, SHE SAID NO, I WAS LIAK BUT WAI, WOULD DO IT STILL. # YABOI A SAVAGE
LITTLEBLOOD AND UTERINE LINING NEVER FUCKING HURT NOBODY.
SOME WOMEN I SWAER

I want to go longboarding, but I dont have a helmet, going slow is fucking lame, I wanna go fast. atleast 30. 30 OR NO BALLS.
Ya boi Finna get litty off the titty as shit MF go hard on that bitch eat her ass like a cupcake hmph

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Ofc rebis, thats probably not first time having sex etiquette, since she is a virgin too.
I mean if your an actual savage, go for it.
Im a poser savage.
 

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That's it. You guys are sick.
 

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I think I actually have a bit of ptsd associated with yelling. It makes my insides turn. Unpleasant.
When people yell, I want things to move on. shut the fuck up, try to kill me, or walk away. just stop being loud.
I cant wait to move out, have silence. Im still deciding on what to do with myself. I think i want to be a bank teller. Im great at doing math in my head, its why every math teacher hates me. Fuck you, i dont need to write it down.
But when it comes to keeping track of amounts, around people, im completely inept. It would be very stressful, but its the opposite of what im comfortable with. I would have to grow to succeed, maybe that would be good for me.

Ive been applying, I made a good resume, an email that wasnt random letters, Im trying. Im working on branching out, I just dont seem capable of making guy friends, they dont like me, and I dont like them. Its weird, no matter how much you pretend,
when you hate someone, they can sense it, even if it isnt conscious.

I wonder, how many people meet my standards? maybe 20%?
I have to be more accepting, thats a worthy goal. I need to live, because im not living, and Im judging the people who are, as if I have the right. The more I become me, the more I can understand you. because we are humans, equally flawed and fallible.
Sometimes I just want to smash my head into a wall, not sure why. Some weird coping mechanism, of wanting to break things. How does one develop that, I wonder.
When I was in high school I asked my little group for our project, if anyone ever wanted to lie in the snow, until they disappeared. I didnt know that was unusual, recently I remembered that and thought, boi that must have been awkward for them.
Nobody ever asked if I were ok, nobody really tried to figure me out.
I suppose I didnt try too hard to figure me out either. Im not a hypocrite, so I shouldnt hold them to standards I dont hold myself to.
Im a straight edge faggot, I think. deeply, I get that lifestyle. Faggot is sort of a term of endearment to me, since people always think im gay, I sort of feel like thats my label. dunno.
For a long time Ive wanted to build a goldwing cafe racer, or a widebody old camaro. Im not sure I should allow myself to build a racecar, Im the type to go ABSOLUTELY MIA when I delve into a project(we the same inex). I could see myself isolating completely and being obsessed with that sort of thing.

Mine would have black rims, be white, and have some thicc firestone tires, bc im a filthy fucking hipster.
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The car would be something like this, but Im the scum of the car community, because I like rusty beat-to-shit-cars. I prefer things that are very worn, lots of wear and tear. It gives it some personality. Smooth gloss paint is like a woman wearing too much makeup. Your face looks unnatural, the way it reflects light is disgusting, no character, no landmarks. my favorite car would be an amc javelin, but they are hard to find.
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I would preferable do some kind of honda k swap, leave lots of room for parts and a crazy power to weight ratio, along with decent gas milage.

I actually know where an amc javelin is, I suppose I should take my 1st choice rather than settling.
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Golden Grams are my favorite.
Trix cereal is second favorite.

 

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This is the relationship troubles thread now?
At work, have a friend who at least expresses some sort of interest in me, don't wanna make things awkward. I was texting this one girl, who's older than me and has a child (oh lord). It was going well until I asked about politics and she said some contradicting shit like "I love my gay friends,- I'm not for or against gay marriage- I wouldn't go to their weddings" She also noted right wing political pendents like Shapiro and Crowder. I swear is this bitch testing me? This isn't going anywhere. I text a bunch of people throughout the day now, and I feel like I'm wasting my time more and more. I should just commit to forums like this for the stimulation I need.

I see most people as amorphous beings, I feel like this makes me prepared for the unpredictable nature of man. Most people are broadly the same, but specifically, the way people talk and write may give me insight into them as an individual, but this is just added to my individual model of them.
 

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Sounds like she hates gay people and doesnt want to come off as hateful.
Im striving to get away from this forum, its lower level human interaction, I think. I would strive for these talks we have, in person.
Sounds to me like your human interaction is suffering from quantity over quality. Maybe (this applies to me way more than you :s) spend more time doing things that are meaningful and save your thoughts for in person talks. Dont be afraid to be completely direct, ask what they actually feel and mean, by the stupid shit they say.
Your lady friend sounds like me, not confident enough to just come out and share the unlikable parts of her. One person shouldnt be your everything. Have a person for affection, have a person for intellectual conversations, a person to chill with, a person to challenge you, a person to learn from. Stop asking for all of these things in one person, its asinine. Im the biggest offender of such a thing. understand everyone has something to contribute. I wouldnt hate people for their shitty primal views. Its much like religion, burned into some people, some of us are resistant to these things, some of us arent. Its not always a choice to be a close minded dumbshit. watching guys kiss makes my skin crawl, is that wrong? maybe, can I help it? absolutely not.

This is probably meaningless coming from me, tried tho
 
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