caretaker of machines
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- Today, 14:40
- Apr 12, 2014
- only halfway there
I will go back to the first page and add an edit to let people know Im over my fear of women.I am not going to read 7 pages of this thread so I prescribe my advice based on my first page
(a) develop a topic plan when you talk to women, ( or potential topics rather than rigid script to discuss)
(b) right down the steps you take in process of engage women in conversation,
for example: 1 appraoch her
2. say hello and introduce yourself
follow this template, keep it simple and limit it to 5- 6 steps only
(c) hypothesize the worst fears outcome / consquence you get from approaching her, and the best outcome. after such steps are taken
(d) take the steps and see if outcomes/fears/predictions really become true.
(e) keep practice and modifying, reccord your experiences if you have to.
that is the same approach as selling things to people. the first step and try is always hardest.
EDIT: apparently you cannot edit posts after a certain amt of time.
Also I contacted entp girl and she said we can talk about it, so thats hopeful.
Im aware of the fine line between codependency and being helpful, I will make sure I know which side I am on.
At this point all of my social needs are met and I would like to hide and not date anymore.
Ive figured out a lot that I havent shared or elaborated on.
I think im fairly normal at this point, ive got enough confidence and self esteem to not take things personally or be too needy.
Most of the reason I was so sad yesterday, was that I let someone I care about reject themselves, and I didnt even try to pull them back in.
I definitely dont experience emotions like a normal person, they fade very quickly, and I didnt actually feel sad for myself, or very little.
Lately ive been putting all of my effort into taking care of my mental health, and neglecting my physical health. I havent been sleeping or eating near enough. I feel very different, healthy. by the end of this month I should have a job, visited a hospital about my heart, have some idea of where my life is going. Im going to prioritize my physical health and not socially burning myself out anymore. Id like a few days to disappear, but im not sure how people will handle that irl. Im not super sure what to do with my dates, and entp girl. I need to think about it more and figure out what I want and what im doing, and why im doing it. If I can get a job within a week or two, I will be able to move out. I look forward to being alone, not being surrounded by people who are destructive and not healthy.
Im not sure if my lack of sleep is mania or stress.
Through the last week or two, Ive become confident in myself. Ive become comfortable with women, Ive learned that rejection shouldnt be taken personally, and that life is busy and its important to give people space. Im confident in my looks, and im becoming confident in my personality. Im learning to be more honest, but at the same time not share things that dont need to be shared. I still have a lot of insecurity attached to my abilities and intelligence. I would say its valid, because I can be a real dunce sometimes.
ENTP girl asked how I had grown so much as a person so fast, She asked if I just stared at the wall and figured it out, I was like uhhhhh I talked to people XD
I dont want to die, and im enjoying life. Perhaps soon I will fear death? I dont think thats how this works.
bah damnit its 3am...>_> I have to be up at 5...
deep breath W O O P S