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[Roboman]

We think a lot. Not everything fits for a whole thread, so why not throw them all in one place? What's on your mind or are you just bored? Share your thoughts with us or comment on them.

I'll start with a thought:

I don't have a steady income, in fact I don't know now how I will pay for this month bills next month. I presume this is the stage where a lot of people would panic, get depressed or become desperate. However, I feel very much at peace with it, I like it; the uncertainty. I feel as if I'm reading a good book and can't wait for the story to develop. Where will this take me? What will I do?

 

[Zionoxis]

1. I really should be studying for my CCNA...so much to do.
2. Lots of trains of though regarding my feeble attempts and failures with women (high school crap)
3. Random ideas for video games to develop.
4. INTP random crap here

 

[Beholder]

I asked a girl out for the first time in my life last week, and although I like her, and probably would want a relationship with her (I don't really know her, only talked to her for about half an hour), just the thought of going through the tedious and awkward drudgery of dating (she gave me her number, when should I call, whay should I say, where should I take her. WHY DOES IT EVEN MATTER?!) and getting to be comfortable with her makes me want to just give up and die.

 

[Pride]

You should try to at least fuck her. That's what I'm thinking right now.

 

[Beholder]

You should try to at least fuck her. That's what I'm thinking right now.

That could be nice, but I'm starting to think it may all just not be worth the hassle.
Today I called her for the first time since then, I asked her if she wanted to do something on Friday. She said her sister was getting married, she'd be busy all this weekend, so we'd meet next weekend. I was about to say "Ok, goodbye" when she started TALKING to me! I mean, what the hell?! What could I possibly have to say to her? She's an oral hygienist, so I asker her "how are, uh... Teeth?" She responded by telling me to get an appointment with her to get my teeth cleaned. Oh god. Could you imagine ANYTHING more awkward than that?

 

[Zionoxis]

I asked a girl out for the first time in my life last week, and although I like her, and probably would want a relationship with her (I don't really know her, only talked to her for about half an hour), just the thought of going through the tedious and awkward drudgery of dating (she gave me her number, when should I call, whay should I say, where should I take her. WHY DOES IT EVEN MATTER?!) and getting to be comfortable with her makes me want to just give up and die.

Good for you. At least when you did, the girl said yes. T.T I have yet to figure the social aspects behind it out...

 

[Felan]

That could be nice, but I'm starting to think it may all just not be worth the hassle.
Today I called her for the first time since then, I asked her if she wanted to do something on Friday. She said her sister was getting married, she'd be busy all this weekend, so we'd meet next weekend. I was about to say "Ok, goodbye" when she started TALKING to me! I mean, what the hell?! What could I possibly have to say to her? She's an oral hygienist, so I asker her "how are, uh... Teeth?" She responded by telling me to get an appointment with her to get my teeth cleaned. Oh god. Could you imagine ANYTHING more awkward than that?

I had a hair stylist cut my hair once. She had my head resting quite purposefully on her boobs for as much of the time as she could, it was rather nice. Sometimes conversation is just superfluous. After she was done and I stood it took all my strength to not reach out and brush away a large amount of clippings.

 

[speiss]

Oh wow, a oral hygienist?
At least you won't have to worry about cleanliness when you get to fun things later on!
Ah-ha-ha-ha-ha.

At the moment my mind kind of skips back and forth between worries about college, should I apply to two more, the deadline for one is in five days, will I be able to pay the application fee, when will I hear back, should I do FAFSA now, what will I do if I don't get in, am I going to neglect all for 9gag and end up ruining my life?
And then there's the opposition to college, go traveling, don't follow the mold, there's always time, get a job, don't be so lazy, find some money and fly to France and become a waitress, oh no wait you need your passport and a visa, oh no wait France won't want you unless you're a college graduate, go to Thailand, does Thailand want me, if I learn Thai there will it be applicable anywhere else, will Thailand be fun, probably, you should go, but college is much safer, screw safety, how do I get to Thailand..?
And then there's my exboyfriend, and how he's so pretty, how we get along despite our not having spoken, how he's single for the first time in about a year, would he still find me attractive, we only dated for a month, am I thin enough, pretty enough, is he even that shallow, he knows I like him, how convenient yet embarrassing, should I stop visiting my friend's art class under the guise of actually having artwork to do, if I ask him out will it seem absurdly forward, I did bother him last year when he was with another girlfriend, but I'm not desperate, I've always wanted him back, I was the one who broke up with him, he said he still kind of loved me even though, yet despite how flattering it was still an absurd notion, should I just go for it, I don't want to bother him..

et cetera.

u.u

 

[lucky12]

Speiss, go for it.

Lots of hard choices, when you go 51/49 on one why not just take the plunge when you get there?

My mind:

I'm fairly happy, there is just nothing exciting in my life besides school. School is fun, I started my semester this past monday and my courses should be the most difficult I have been through yet!

I'm looking for a girl to spend time with that doesn't want to get so focused on the future. Just someone to see a few times a week, talk, go have fun, touching, sex.

And I never stop thinking about driving, flying, or inventing.

 

[Iamnotbutter]

I'm thinking about which schools to transfer too
I like the idea of going to Toronto for schooling, but my mother wouldn't allow it.
I mean most of my family is in Michigan which is pretty close ( drive-able distance) and I already have a passport.
I don't know
I'm also thinking that my indecisiveness comes from me not being able to commit myself fully to anything really. It scares me.
I also wonder why I cannot find anything i'm passionate about. I think generally i'm not a passionate person but I know there is something...hopefully.

 

[A22]

After spending some time with this girl I realized my crush was actually on the image I created of her. Now I feel sad about it, and other stuff. Pretty boring. Let's hear some Led.

 

[A22]

That could be nice, but I'm starting to think it may all just not be worth the hassle.
Today I called her for the first time since then, I asked her if she wanted to do something on Friday. She said her sister was getting married, she'd be busy all this weekend, so we'd meet next weekend. I was about to say "Ok, goodbye" when she started TALKING to me! I mean, what the hell?! What could I possibly have to say to her? She's an oral hygienist, so I asker her "how are, uh... Teeth?" She responded by telling me to get an appointment with her to get my teeth cleaned. Oh god. Could you imagine ANYTHING more awkward than that?

You better have nice teeth.

 

[SOLROCK]

My minds been cluttered lately. Worrying about applying to college. Where i should go what i want to do with my life. Whether or not i should run in school. So many projects and mid-terms. My love life has also taken a swing. The girl I have a crush on is in some of my classes and their is a tension between us that's undeniable. She gravitates toward me but she has a boyfriend. But i don't think that she's exactly happy, I'm not sure if I'm misreading social cues (might as well be socially blind) but she seems to want to be with me. My friend who is in the same class says he can feel the tension but its not like I can act on it anyway. I still need to complete 150 hours of community service by the end of the year. My guidance counselor is at my throat because I seem to stress her out more than necessary. I don't seem to be improving athletically, I'm not as big as the other guys on my team, they seem to be improving while i stagnate or improve slowly. I've started to get a bit existential again but I can't let that bog me down because there is so much to do.

 

[MKuma64]

To start off I am a fairly new member. What's on my mind? Currently I am have developed "true" feelings for someone for the first time in my life. This girl is in the same grade as I am but is showing little to no interest in me at the moment, but was very talkative only a week ago. For some reason I cannot get over her and this is the first anything remotely similar has happened to me.

 

[lucky12]

I'm drunk, AMA.

 

[Roboman]

To start off I am a fairly new member. What's on my mind? Currently I am have developed "true" feelings for someone for the first time in my life. This girl is in the same grade as I am but is showing little to no interest in me at the moment, but was very talkative only a week ago. For some reason I cannot get over her and this is the first anything remotely similar has happened to me.

Why don't you say hello?

 

[Roboman]

I'm drunk, AMA.

Having a good time?
I used to drink, then I realized it's just waste of time.

 

[ceremony]

I'm paranoid about being paranoid.

 

[Otherside]

This girl I knew 15 years ago caught up with me and has been trying to create chaos in my life, just like she did to my best friend back when I met her. She's a textbook sociopath. She lives far far away and I cut off all communication today. Closed the e-mail account, changed the number and told her good luck. I was probably easy prey for that type of person when I was 20, but I got burned by her type a couple of times and can see it coming from a mile away now.

 

[Beholder]

This girl I knew 15 years ago caught up with me and has been trying to create chaos in my life, just like she did to my best friend back when I met her. She's a textbook sociopath. She lives far far away and I cut off all communication today. Closed the e-mail account, changed the number and told her good luck. I was probably easy prey for that type of person when I was 20, but I got burned by her type a couple of times and can see it coming from a mile away now.

That actually sounds like fun. I find crazy people entertaining

 

[Otherside]

That actually sounds like fun. I find crazy people entertaining

Sociopaths are quite charming, indeed. However they wouldn't blink an eye if you were to die, and if you spend enough time in a relationship with one, you will wish you were.

This isn't the "crazy" chick you meet at a bar, who is the life of the party that you spend the night with that becomes a casual and hot relationship.

This is an emotional vampire who has absolutely no regard for the feelings and rights of others.

 

[Ex-User (5841)]

My thoughts: Why isn't it prevailing belief that gliding evolved before echolocation which evolved before powered flight in bats?

 

[zether]

I like this guy in class but I don't know if he even wants to be friends. He didn't even look over. Now I'm depressed because the hope for a quick change(adventure) was crushed. Looks like I'm an impatient romantic. Oh, and group work wasn't soul-suckingly abhorrent today. I'm really glad I got my clocks fixed. Did you know an electric alarm clock can run on an exponential timeline instead of a linear one? Yeah... so I was 20 minutes late instead of 10 minutes early.

 

[Otherside]

I like this guy in class but I don't know if he even wants to be friends. He didn't even look over. Now I'm depressed because the hope for a quick change(adventure) was crushed. Looks like I'm an impatient romantic. Oh, and group work wasn't soul-suckingly abhorrent today. I'm really glad I got my clocks fixed. Did you know an electric alarm clock can run on an exponential timeline instead of a linear one? Yeah... so I was 20 minutes late instead of 10 minutes early.

Not sure what you're trying to imply about the clock, unless it's an abstract way of saying that you overslept. Quartz crystals are ridiculously stable and consistent.

 

[Jedi]

I'm thinking about the negativeness of the universe. The hideous, lonely, emptiness of existence. Nothingness. The predicament of man forced to live in a barren, godless, eternity. Like a tiny flame flickering in an emense void with nothing but waste, horror, and degradation forming a useless bleak straight jacket in a black absurd cosmos.

 

[Otherside]

I'm thinking about the negativeness of the universe. The hideous, lonely, emptiness of existence. Nothingness. The predicament of man forced to live in a barren, godless, eternity. Like a tiny flame flickering in an emense void with nothing but waste, horror, and degradation forming a useless bleak straight jacket in a black absurd cosmos.

Barren and godless, yes. Eternity... I don't think so. You get 100 years if very lucky (or unlucky).

 

[P.H.]

Why is everybody's reply to "I'm not sure if I can do it"; "You're smart, you have the brains for it."? So yes I have the brains (humbly admitting) but that doesnt mean I can do everything. Surely I have potential, but how do I do it? People assume that just because you're "smart" (have theoretical insight) you don't need other people's help.

It's almost as if the things people find difficult are easy for me and the "easy stuff everybody can do" is the stuff I break my head on. (I'm not sure if that's awkward dutch phrasing or proper english and I'm too lazy (and frustrated) to google)

 

[Otherside]

We think a lot. Not everything fits for a whole thread, so why not throw them all in one place? What's on your mind or are you just bored? Share your thoughts with us or comment on them.

I'll start with a thought:

I don't have a steady income, in fact I don't know now how I will pay for this month bills next month. I presume this is the stage where a lot of people would panic, get depressed or become desperate. However, I feel very much at peace with it, I like it; the uncertainty. I feel as if I'm reading a good book and can't wait for the story to develop. Where will this take me? What will I do?

Just read your post. Looks like it's been about a month. How's it going?

 

[Cognisant]

I'm thinking about the negativeness of the universe. The hideous, lonely, emptiness of existence. Nothingness. The predicament of man forced to live in a barren, godless, eternity. Like a tiny flame flickering in an emense void with nothing but waste, horror, and degradation forming a useless bleak straight jacket in a black absurd cosmos.

Mmm, is the glass half full or half empty?

 

[MsAnthropy_Indefatigably]

We think a lot. Not everything fits for a whole thread, so why not throw them all in one place? What's on your mind or are you just bored? Share your thoughts with us or comment on them.

I'll start with a thought:

I don't have a steady income, in fact I don't know now how I will pay for this month bills next month. I presume this is the stage where a lot of people would panic, get depressed or become desperate. However, I feel very much at peace with it, I like it; the uncertainty. I feel as if I'm reading a good book and can't wait for the story to develop. Where will this take me? What will I do?

I have this problem practically every month... Right now I'm hoping my landlord doesn't call me about the rent I haven't paid for this month yet. I think sometimes, I've seen the people who used to live here... I'm WAYYYY better of a tenant than they were... and I ALWAYS pay up what I owe... it's just not usually on time! lol

I think the idea of juggling money around is somehow appealing to my Te and Pe and the idea that I have money and it's not being spent towards something at all times is agonizing--I feel like a crack addict with money! They're very right when they say those of INTP typing have a rough time with their own money.

 

[Jedi]

Mmm, is the glass half full or half empty?

Half-full, lawl:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D0yuqpk00Ts

 

[tepellian]

Why is everybody's reply to "I'm not sure if I can do it"; "You're smart, you have the brains for it."?

That would be a frustrating answer to an honest self-assessment. My response would be something like "Brains don't work that simply." We optimize our brains to do different things over life.

Depending on the situation, I might ask how they would do it, or explain further what I mean, or..I donno, I play those things by ear, the details of what is being asked matter to me.

 

[MizKodomo]

1. I need to make tea
2. I need to actually finish 3 books today
3. *KNOCK OUT by G-Dragon and T.O.P. playing in my head*

 

[P.H.]

That would be a frustrating answer to an honest self-assessment. My response would be something like "Brains don't work that simply." We optimize our brains to do different things over life.

Depending on the situation, I might ask how they would do it, or explain further what I mean, or..I donno, I play those things by ear, the details of what is being asked matter to me.

Frustrating indeed. Most of the time I watch others do it first, and then I try to copy that. But that's only if I really don't have a clue what to do.

 

[angelika]

YEAH! my first semester of college i was like YEAH im gonna be SMART and major in chemistry and also take calculus and violin and all of this blah blah blah and then halfway through i was like ok yeah im done. and i just quit going to school. all i did was stay in my room to "think" and "do things that actually matter" which was nothing really lol but i would "study music" or my "ideas" and try to figure things out and whatnot. And by the time it was finals, my roommates were all like wtf are you going to do? and how are you not freaking out? and im like idk... i just felt calm. like i didnt give a crap. i knew i was going to "fail out" but it seriously did not alarm me. its like...ok? and whats new? lol. so i just went home and worked. and then i got into some jr college. and it wasnt a big deal. and so i kind of went to class most of the time like ehhh this is ok...and just like moved back to my home state with my boyfriend. and my parents are like WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO NOW and im like CHILL HOLY SHIT...LIFE IS OK!!! and so i worked. my violin teacher had some connections with this really good school and got me in with a full scholarship and so i did that for literally one day. i went home and im like ehhh....not for me. id rather do stuff on my own. i mean ive graduated a technical program (it allowed me freedom to do my work on my own) and im in college again...but i just dont stress about this stuff and its just like...idk, its life. and i just kind of move along lol. i like my "leisure time" to think and whatnot...i like a slower pace of things. it gives me more time for my ideas. and btw, does anyone else sometimes feel stupid with their ideas? like either bc you think it could be too weird...or you just plain second guess yourself..or youre like no...im not really even that smart, thats stupid! jw

 

[Beholder]

So today marks a new low point in my life - my dry streak has reached one year... I'm 21 years old, I'm pretty good looking, I'm in great shape, but I just can't talk to girls (people in general) to save my life. I was at a party today, and two really cute girls were checking me out, then they start talking to me, I answer with a grunt and shrug, and that was the end of that.

 

[snafupants]

So today marks a new low point in my life - my dry streak has reached one year... I'm 21 years old, I'm pretty good looking, I'm in great shape, but I just can't talk to girls (people in general) to save my life. I was at a party today, and two really cute girls were checking me out, then they start talking to me, I answer with a grunt and shrug, and that was the end of that.

Perhaps next time saying hey and mumbling a dumb joke would be a better overture? Just see what comes up: immediate brilliance need not apply. The grunt and shrug should be nixed along with unwarranted solicitations and waving money in the air. Well, depends on the party maybe. The thing to realize is fools are getting laid all the time; ergo, act like a fool to get laid more often.

 

[Roboman]

Just read your post. Looks like it's been about a month. How's it going?

Hello. Guess it's been two months now, what can I say, it's all good. Still the same problem but I don't worry, it always work out

 

[Roboman]

I have this problem practically every month... Right now I'm hoping my landlord doesn't call me about the rent I haven't paid for this month yet. I think sometimes, I've seen the people who used to live here... I'm WAYYYY better of a tenant than they were... and I ALWAYS pay up what I owe... it's just not usually on time! lol

I think the idea of juggling money around is somehow appealing to my Te and Pe and the idea that I have money and it's not being spent towards something at all times is agonizing--I feel like a crack addict with money! They're very right when they say those of INTP typing have a rough time with their own money.

Yeah, sounds very familiar. It's not like the money is spent on anything useful either, or what could be categorized as useful.

My solution to the "problem" was to create a locked bank account. Every time the "USE SOME MONEY DAMNIT"-abstinence came around I transfered the sum I would have used to the locked account. "OK, now I used it, the budget is decreasing... DAMN"... Only reason it works is because I have to physically go to the bank to transfer it back. So now it seems I'm actually saving, I ain't going to no bank for sure.

 

[Roboman]

So today marks a new low point in my life - my dry streak has reached one year... I'm 21 years old, I'm pretty good looking, I'm in great shape, but I just can't talk to girls (people in general) to save my life. I was at a party today, and two really cute girls were checking me out, then they start talking to me, I answer with a grunt and shrug, and that was the end of that.

Don't worry man. Always remember there is people worse of than you, imagine those 40+ years old virgins. Those that have a sex drive, now, that is a dry streak.

 

[Chimera]

I'm thinking that as of this week, I'm no longer jailbait.
Whee.

/apathyconfetti

edit: And now I'm thinking that I've been on intpf for four years...
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[Roboman]

I'm thinking that as of this week, I'm no longer jailbait.
Whee.

/apathyconfetti

edit: And now I'm thinking that I've been on intpf for four years...
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Congrats!

 

[A22]

New in town, new in college, don't know ANYBODY.

Feels the same. The social awkwardness I always had around friends and family is now what everyone is feeling, since no one knows each other. I think it's pretty fucked up for me to feel as uncomfortable around unknowns as I feel around ppl I spent most of my life with. Also, living by myself is really enjoyable - although it takes some hard work since IDK this town or anybody in it.

 

[Master M]

I'm 17. I went to orthodox jewish school for my whole life. I've always doubted religion. I did some research on religion and god. I plan on going to public school for my senior year. It. Will be hard to tell my parents. I was always a thinker. As an INTP, I can't believe in myths to be real. Anybody have any advice .

 

[natesmokesdank]

Im new to this site and I dont even know if this is going to post or comment on somthing but to start, Im no doubt about it INTP when I first read about this certain personality type it pin pointed me amazingly. My question is whether or not anybody else has these thoughts, Wanting to know the ultimate truth about how life began, who we are, if theres a god, whats after death, and whats before life, so badly that I contimplate if I should just off myself and find out insted of going through "life" just to find it, and whats the point of going through it just to die? Why dont we all just kill ourselves? Obviously I'm not going to kill myself but it a thought.
Also what does it mean if I cant remeber almost any of your childhood, well from birth- to spots showing up about age 11?

 

[Moocow]

It's been three and a half years in this city. I thought I'd have lost my mind at least once by now, and I was right. Yet, learning to overcome a few varieties of madness was invaluable and I now feel equipped with what a cliché father figure might call "character" that I hope will dwarf further threats.

Tomorrow, I will taste my own choice in freedom for the first time this year: a spring break camping trip in perfect weather. That means my lingering neurosis can turn coldly to fretting over the best means of maximizing my enjoyment of this rare opportunity. Do I go equipped with my rituals and enhancements, or leave them behind and seek a happiness comparably pure?

When the world no larger than I care for shrinks to the radius of a fire's glow, my imagination for all its imperfection goes dark. The questions on my mind are irrelevant; misplaced coping reactions which wouldn't otherwise have merit outside of my necessary hell and home. Besides, to ask what improves the experience only rejects and belittles it that much more, and in this way the plague of discontent is quick to infest and rot my next brief haven.

That would be missing the point. I'll leave behind both the smog of roaring engines and the kind I inhale to ignore them. Now, whether proximal campers think to do the same I can only hope, but sadly doubt.

 

[Moocow]

I'm 17. I went to orthodox jewish school for my whole life. I've always doubted religion. I did some research on religion and god. I plan on going to public school for my senior year. It. Will be hard to tell my parents. I was always a thinker. As an INTP, I can't believe in myths to be real. Anybody have any advice .

Move out ASAP and follow your intellect.

 

[xbox]

Random thought:

Oh come on. I start a random thoughts thread last year when I first joined and it was closed.

 

[MissQuote]

My thoughts in recent days/weeks have been about whether my personality really is INTP, because I haven't been feeling very INTPish for a while now, but that is what got me thinking about it in the first place (thinking about why I am feeling so unlike myself, including over feeling everything in a way that is abnormal to me) if not them what fits better, which is most likely INFP or INTJ maybe, but neither fit very well. Which led me back to this forum, which I got distracted and completely forgot about for about six months, and now I am poking at it/you all to see if INTP ever fit best in the first place.

 

[MEDICaustik]

I'm at one of those points in my life. I'm going down a road I know I don't want to be on.

I'm following in my father's footsteps. Taking on a high paying 9-5 job. Sitting in traffic for 2 hours a day. Gaining weight. Avoiding exercise. Attitude changing. Stress almost constantly. Participating in something that I almost completely disagree with. And yet I'm going down the road and haven't found a way to stop.

I make great money, and I do enjoy not having to worry about money much. I like being a little careless with it. But that's about the only reason I stay in my job right now. And I promised myself long ago that money would not be my driving factor for job choice. Yet here I am.

So I've come up with two ideas, and your input is appreciated.

1. Give it all up, sell all the possessions and travel the world for a year. Take a year of both inner and outer discovery. This really, REALLY interests me. The thrill seems immense. It's something I've wanted to do for awhile.

The good: Endless learning, new situations, new people, learning other cultures, learning more about myself.

The bad: A year away from family and friends. A year away from school. I fear it may halt my momentum.

2. Quit the job and go full-time at school. And hit it HARD.

The good: I am incredibly motivated to do something useful with my life. Having this pointless 9-5 has completely assured me of that fact. I want to study something of value to society, and I want to love it.

The bad: I fear it may turn into a 9-5 type situation. Where I fall into a routine and begin to resent the minutia and lack of interesting situations. I fear being forced to take classes that I have no interest in.


I feel like I change my mind weekly..