Apathetic is the word.
I've a history of being apathetic in regards to the world, sucked into the far richer world of my imagination and attracted to computers, games and scary music. (Far more common stereotype in Norway than one would suppose)
I never really got the taste for drugs. My mind is a far better drug than those I've tried so far.
Black sheep are also sheep, yes.
It is far better to join the masses of the Thelema and Crowley's Law: "Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law." and " Love is the Law. Love under Will". As you interpret these you should come to terms with the question of what really is your will.
Once you can begin to formulate what your will really is, what your desire out of life is, then you can begin to understand the law as well as define your purpose, which will give you a very clear contrasting background onto which you can analyze actions and judge whether they are "correct" or not.