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Puffy

Puffy

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  • Haha...you are funny: "Sorry to reply so quickly"....hmmmm.

    I see you recognise the painting...it is by William Blake. I think he was a much more talented painter than he was given credit for. You are right, there is something about it.

    I found it on Wiki. Just Wiki his name, it'll come up. Interesting how that painting could inspire someone to kill.....hypothetically.

    Inevitable reality, hmm. That is an interesting way of viewing it. Funny how we perceive "meaninglessness" as the true reality. When, in fact, we could easily flip it. Are they both illusionary?

    Which makes me come to the conclusion that everything must be an illusion.....

    Here I go again.....argh.
    (part2) I don't think you can learn anything about poker by playing for play money other than what beats what and how the software works and indeed, playing without money is no fun.. not necessarily because you can't win/loose money that way, but because without money, the game doesn't function properly.

    Regarding the jazz festival, I didn't enjoy it too much. There was too little rehearsing, something that made it all a little stressing and uncomfortable at times. It was fair enough though:)

    What comics do you read? Do you have any recommendations? Any movie recommendations? Do you look forward towards completing school? Oh, and weren't you supposed to climb everest? if so, how did that go?
    (part1) I think playing poker somehow made money seem a little less real to me and more like a video game "high score" that you constantly work towards improving. Besides, it's not like I can do anything about it:/ I can't help but feel sorry for those that had almost every dollar they owned on there.
    I have started up playing several times, but the last time I probably started with 50 bucks or something.

    A beginner usually begins playing "small stakes" (unless they have a lot of cash to burn). I would say it's something between 0.1/0.2 - 0.25/0.50 (referring to the blinds) if we are talking cash games and between 1 dollar and 35 dollar buy in's if we are talking sngs.
    I think my total winnings amount to 3 or 4k, but I'm a pretty mediocre player really. I can probably be of assistance to beginners, or people just getting into the middle stakes though :) Not sure if you heard about fulltilt being shut down? Me neither, but I found out when I suddenly couldn't access the client anymore which means I have about 2k there that most likely will be lost.. :) What I'm up too? Well, I read some, practice some on my guitar (had to play at some jazz festival the previous week), surf the web, play some video games, spend time being tortured or comforted by my own thoughts, working out 3 times a week (started 2 months ago) and that's pretty much it:) What about you?
    I'm rusty, and I'm not that great a cash game player, but I guess I could be of use. Do you play online at all? Are you a complete beginner?
    I'm doing ok I guess:)
    II)

    I would really like a cat....:( I'm so ronery.....

    I "study" (not a great student) environmental science and management. Not sure about the management-bit. It is not scientific enough for me. Am considering changing course structure, if possible.

    How many countries....argh. Not sure, but they add up. Considering that I am European, I haven't been to that many. I loved Poland. South Korea. Japan. I have a Hong-Kong fetish. Argentina. Extreme Arctic. Some odd and weird destinations.

    But then odd and weird is what I'm all about.

    How did your exams go? You study history? Why? Just curious..

    :cat:
    Hi Puffs.....

    I'm not very good at getting back to you, am I.

    I guess it doesn't scare me that much...everyone is entitled to think whatever they want to think. And to express it. It does not affect me, so why should I be scared. I guess I meant "scared" as in: I tend towards the postmodernist way of thinking. It worries me at times, as I do not necessarily like being in that state of mind. I can depress myself....I have a nagging suspicion you may be familiar with this.....
    The pictures are from the Australian Alps, the Victorian part in the South Eastern part of the Great Dividing Range. I feel like home up there, it is beautiful. So different to the rest of Australia. You must make the trip one day, Australia is amazing :)
    :) Thanks Puffy, I'm all right.

    I have seen you beautiful siamese in that thread. She does look like your avatar. I did post my family's cat in that thread. He is a very old and distinguished member of the family now. My sister (ENFP...) dragged him home one day and insisted to keep him against my mother's will. Now mum is stuck with him as everyone else flew the nest, haha.

    Marriage, hmmmm....never my thing. I was married for six years, believe it or not. And I am still wanting to get a cat, but have this pathological fear of commitment. Oh dear...no hope for me.

    I think it is important to do things that turn your focus away from yourself. Such as charity work. I would like to think that my studies now will eventually be of a common benefit some day.
    Cavallier
    Have you ever just spent the day whistling that tune that's in all those Clint western movies everywhere you go? You'd be surprised how many people pick up on the reference.

    I remember watching all the "Man with no name" movies as a kid with my dad until I could quote most of them from memory. :)
    cheese
    I just finished one too! I probably should've proof-read it but didn't, and now you've got a PM that sounds a little tipsy too, but it's mostly tiredness. Run-on sentences, unfinished sentences, incoherent ramblings... I'm sorry. I hope some of it makes sense. (A lot of it didn't upon rereading it. It made a woolly kind of sense in my head while writing though. :| Reaching, definitely reaching.)
    cheese
    (cont)
    I've watched my mother's visions come true on television. I've had a prophet/stranger come from Sweden to see me apparently because he'd seen me in a dream and spoken to me (I smelt a scam). But I'm still not sure if I could ever be convinced God is real, actually, which holds true with a lot of biblical statements about Man (though it doesn't answer the moral implications of that).

    You've probably spoken to cryptonia already - but in case you haven't, he's had unusual spiritual experiences afaik as a result of someone he got to know (secular explanation: "contagious madness"?), and the more he has the easier he finds it and the harder he tries to explain away, even though we both (and you) think the effect should go the other way. Crypt thinks we must have an in-built mechanism to resist God. I think it's more to do with the difficulty of resisting the cultural paradigm. I dunno.

    Shit, I'm just mostly confused. :p
    cheese
    (cont)
    I've seen my mother manifesting demons - trust me, different to an epileptic fit; they talk and try to piss you off and jump off balconies to kill the host though of course this could simply be MPD (but perhaps MPD = demons? Heh. Certainly all her demons responded instantly to the name of Jesus. They'd shut up or disappear and another one would come out. My mother wasn't raised christian and has no religious trauma nor a background of abuse.). I've heard crazy stories by friends who afaik are totally honest. I've been (supposedly) haunted in my sleep, battled with demons in my dreams who taunted me and clamped my mouth shut so I couldn't pray. I've had things breathing on my neck and speaking to me while awake, and have had similar stories from other friends (I'm amazed how much is out there when you look). I've dreamed of walking through a garden with God with a peace that didn't seem of this world. (Drugs do amazing things, too. :p)
    cheese
    (cont)

    I think it *has* conditioned me, but I'm not sure in which direction. I'm best described as agnostic, but I can't simply ignore things I've seen and experienced, even if a lot are second-hand. I actually often feel like ignoring the ring of truth I hear in the bible would be far more dishonest than following the easy, secular way (anyone who really knows christianity knows it's a goddamn hard life and going against the grain is just tiring), even though the arguments for the latter are more intellectually compelling (though there are problems with that too that I won't go into now). Secular complacency is most naturally comfortable for me. There are a lot of ways secular 'theology' explains the world better, but there are still holes out there and in my head which need to be addressed. I'm not sure how.
    cheese
    Thanks! I was kinda sad that it went unnoticed. I was hoping someone could give me some insight. AI came up with some interesting stuff, at least, though not directly related.

    Could you describe the phase in a little more detail? You can PM if you prefer. It sounds very interesting. Perhaps there was something in the water :p as opposed to a collective dimension of thought. (That wouldn't really be my first option - the water, I mean.)

    Actually, I haven't come to any conclusion at all. I just suddenly realised one day that there were several interesting correlations, and I thought it only fair to bring up all the possible explanations I could think of based on our combined history. I think a lot of INTP kids raised christian either leave the faith early, or become very entrenched in it, which makes them a lot better able to make an informed judgment than a lot of ignorant atheists with watered down, chinese-telephoned information.
    Grounded, haha....but thank you, grounded is a good thing, right? Yes, I moved from Norway to Australia. I got married to an Australian in Norway, moved out two years later.

    My sister reads Neil Gaiman, I've been meaning to read his books for ages. It's just that I have so many other things to do.....

    I love your avatar, btw. :cat:

    Siamese cats are adorable, and they really talk to you! I wish I could keep a cat, but I'm too afraid of responsibility....don't like to be "tied down". What a lonely existence....

    And your photos are amazing, especially the one with the rocks in the cloud. Have you travelled much? If you ever visit Australia, come and say hello :)
    Wait -- where have I sent you malicious emails.
    If it was via hotmail I don't use that and I don't
    know how to change the password...
    Melkor
    Yes, that was a nice picture. Sadly it was missing Ex-Death,Golbez,Cloud of darkness, The Emperawr and Garland.;,;

    Whats wrong with being whale huh?

    I HAVE RELATIVES THAT ARE WHALES!

    Oh, well I decided against making a response to said thread. I think it was adequate punishment for you posting the thread in the first place.;)
    :) No worries. I try not to give advice....I kind of take in someone's thoughts and bounce off them. Perhaps because I have fooled myself into thinking I have a little more life experience now.....? When I was younger I was kind of clueless. I guess over the years I have realised what is important. I don't get that many responses to my posts, so when you responded so attentively, I was quite taken aback by how nice you seem. Your posts are always very genuine and profound.
    ElvenVeil
    well to be hones I haven't played diplomacy that much.. I mostly played mafia (another play by post game). But hehe I really enjoy diplomacy if we have some good game mechanics to work with :)
    Hello Puffy. I've been inactive for a while, so I have missed some of your comments to my posts. Just saying thank you. You are a beautiful person :)
    ElvenVeil
    As the perpetual lurker I am, I right away noticed your post concerning diplomacy :D I would at least show interest if you decided to host a game of diplomacy :)
    I will have to process this. :p

    Though I readily understand the point about all of the many references to the LORD God being inconsistently conflicting with the theory. It's easy to overlook that.

    Also, "Wellhausen's documentary hypothesis", never heard of it before. I'll have to research it.

    And lastly, : If you ask me the Priestly texts are mostly concerned with establishing ecclesiastical laws. I think the first creation is just trying to symbolise how organised God is, and his creation; a juxtaposition of how ordered priestly concerns should be. J is a folk-tale of some sort I would guess.

    Yes, I noticed. The latter style is largely informal.
    nexion
    So, the implications, I think, is there is matter which exists in a symmetry of the causal and acausal planes, but the energy from one cannot travel to the other except through a nexion. humans perceive only the acausal side of the universe, but in truth, there is both "Chaos" and "Order" which exists side by side in the universe... that is the only way anything could make sense. So, anyway, a nexion can harness acausal energy and, again, use it for "practical" purposes... whatever that means.
    nexion
    You are right. It is all dependent on one's definition of freedom. You can take a look at the responses in your thread "What is freedom?" and pretty much determine how believes in free will and who believes in determinism. But it all depends on how one does defines "choice" and "freedom." My definition is conflicting, I think.

    "Acausal", lacking cause. Something which is acasual happens without any reason or cause to it. So, from what I have read of the links Lyra has sent me, I currently understand "acausal realm" as a parallel dimension in which acausal energy flows and produces events which have no cause. Again, there is a harmony between causal and acausal... then there are entities named nexions which form bridges between the causal and acausal realms, allowing acausal energy to flow, allowing for magic and the like, I suppose. I have not read much yet, but I am not inclined to believe any such thing either.
    So you're a college student then? Do you enjoy history?


    Okay, though I'm pretty free for now. I am going back to school in the summer.
    nexion
    There is something that eludes me... but perhaps I shall find that in due time. But I have fully surrendered myself (at least I think I have) to the Flow for now... there isn't much more I could do, or much more I should do. We live and we die, but we are still greater than what we are. The Cosmos will have its way with us, and there is no reason to stop it.

    I can see many things, but I cannot comprehend them.
    nexion
    All elements seek perfection. Ti seeks logical perfection. That is not what I seek. I seek energy (for lack of better words) perfection.

    My beliefs are very disoriented right now... I am still a determinist and fatalist, however, and these beliefs guide me in my understanding of the universe. It became clear to me that, while I was looking for harmony within the universe, such already existed in the universe. Everything is going exactly as it would. The universe can start under the same conditions and it would all happen the same way an infinite number of times. So there is balance. Whatever happens, happens. My choices were not predetermined, but they are not my own. Still, I am compelled to take responsibility for them.

    I am not sure about any acausal realm... but the idea idea is truly fascinating, if I understand it correctly.
    Foreword:
    http://www.the16types.info/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=8527

    Prerequisite:
    http://psychclassics.yorku.ca/Jung/types.htm


    Introductions:
    http://www.socionics.us/intro.shtml (more compact)
    http://socioniko.net/en/articles/lytovs-intro1.html

    Community:
    http://www.the16types.info/vbulletin/

    Resources:
    http://socionics.us/
    http://socionist.blogspot.com/
    http://www.socionika.com/
    http://www.wikisocion.org/en/index.php?title=Gulenko_Cognitive_Styles(wiki)
    http://forum.socionix.com/topic/3327-reinin-dichotomies/

    Good, but secondary for misc reasons.
    http://www.wikisocion.org
    http://socionics.com

    Advanced:
    http://www.the16types.info/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=7338
    http://www.the16types.info/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=7343
    http://www.the16types.info/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=7354
    Hello. :)

    I stumbled upon it through heavy involvement of typology / personality, not sure of the exact progression.

    Socionics has something for everybody, however, it's clear that it takes a lot of personal investment to really understand it and be able to apply it. Personally, it took me within several months to grasp both the practice and the theory, and I'm still learning. :p Though I understand to the point of not needing further study.

    You said you're knowledge is scattered, well it's important to note that Socionics theory is incompatible with MBT theory, so what you have learned already will not be very helpful, besides giving you an idea of overall types / concepts.


    It's more likely than not that your type caries over, however, you can't be too sure. You have identified as INFJ, correct?
    nexion
    But there is a beautiful symmetry in the universe; balance and harmony have always existed. Even if it seems that we are destroying everything, or our minds are destroyed, still we are but dust, and dust still in the universe. But what we fight against swallows us and spits us back out. Man cannot last long, but yet all that he destroys is just a part of the Grand Design...

    Man is glorious in his own right, but what he is subjected to is greater still, and in that we can see the harmony in the Universe... perhaps then, there is still a Light somewhere.

    Do you what I am saying? There is Perfection and Harmony and Unity in everything. Two cups drink from each other eternally...
    nexion
    Everything works in an ebb and flow for me. I asked because I suspected that you made significant development, and I did not want to hinder that development with my own fluctuations and dead ends.

    Nihilism is a nation without an government: anarchy. Both are viable and valid, but neither can last long. You must be correct in saying such.

    Trying to find objectivity is resisting against subjectivity, much like struggling to live is resisting against death. But both end in one way inevitably... all resistance ends, all walls are crushed, all foundations are laid to waste. The stronghold one builds to keep everything out erodes to dust in the elements, just as the bones of every man erode in the ground...
    nexion
    Hello Puffy.

    If you don't mind me asking... where are you? In life, I mean. Are you moving? Hm... maybe kind of a personal question, so if you don't want to answer you don't have to. I don't really know how to explain what it is I am saying, so I hope you know what it means.
    fullerene
    I'm sooooo happy, haha. The more people who watch Death Note, the better. I love L mostly because I share a bunch of mannerisms with him. I also love gong barefoot, and naturally feel more comfortable sitting like he does, with my chin sitting on my knees.

    I understand your business, hehe :). Definitely don't feel obligated to keep in touch if you're already overwhelmed by the rest of the life and the world. As for me, I have a new girlfriend, hehe, so life's been filled with many snuggles. I also just got my first job offer, so I'm guaranteed at least something to do after I graduate this May... which is really sweet.

    I'm sorry to hear things have been so rough for you lately...both with the bf and your general family stuff :(. I reeeaally really hope you (and your sister) find some peace of mind sometime soon, though. Being stressed out for long periods of time really wears on you.
    Brad,

    I wish I had some specific resources for you on dreams. In fact, aside from reading an awful lot of Jung (and books on Jung, or on Jungian analysis), most of what I've picked up on dreams has come from a very small handful of friends who've all helped one another with trying to understand one another's dreams (and we've all been doing this for well over 20 years, so, in this time, we've started picking up on some things).

    I have, in fact deleted quite a few posts. My house wouldn't show this to be true, but I like to keep things tidy.

    And, you're welcome. Counseling has helped me tremendously over the years.

    Dave
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