boku
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Hi, I've been bugged by how I'm stuck between S/N and J/P for a couple of months now. Tried reading up on the differences, and still can't decide where I stand. Most free online tests place me as INTP, sometimes INTJ and ISTJ. I'm definitely not a ISTP as I don't thrive on activity and prefer to stay at home in front of my computer.
I do think the main problem lies in my temperament. I easily relate to NT and a bit of SJ (the need for stability part).
How I'm like INTP
I have a messy table and for me play comes before homework. xD I got through high school without making a timetable of what I'm going to revise with the time I have. Funny thing is, I hated mindmaps too and loathed it when my teachers shoved it in my face and asked me to make a mindmap, even though she herself said that it's up to us on how we are supposed to study.
I'm a jack of all trades, master of none. Tons of misc hobbies such as solving the rubik's cube, html coding, actionscripting, drawing animals, creating graphics on photoshop... I get very excited about it at first and jump straight into things without planning. I remembered the first time I properly learnt html coding on my own, I got so fired up about creating a website that I took quite a bit of my time finding out the best free webhosting services, where to get free 'domains', etc... When everything got settled, I went "Uh... what should this website be about?" The website wasn't created in the end for those who are curious.
Even though I have tons of drive to try out something new, I get bored easily once I reach my goals. Take for example, my goal in solving the rubik's cube was to solve it below 1 min. Once I solved the cube in 40 seconds, I didn't bother aiming for 30 seconds.
I'm interested in life hacks and sometimes do things differently from others, as long as it's logical and works well for me. Example will be that I never understood why people still use qwerty to type when it is meant to slow people down. After years of not being able to touch type with qwerty, I gave up and learnt how to type in colemak.
As for the kind of games I like, I prefer those with strategy and provides room for me to ponder over the problem. I can't seem to think on my feet and fail spectacularly in fighter games.
I love introspecting and thinking about the future more than what is present. l wonder what my motives are for almost every action, second guess myself, think about what I should do in the future regarding jobs, life, etc... For me, I want to do things I enjoy. What's the use of living if I have to do things I don't enjoy? I took up the course Diploma in Games Design and Development because I thought I would finally be able to do the things I like as a job - drawing animals. But, the industry doesn't want people who can only draw animals, they want people who can draw both humans and animals. That means that if I were to pursue a job as a concept artist, I have to force myself to do something I don't like, drawing humans. That means, I have to do things I don't like to be able to do things I don't. It just doesn't make sense to me, I might as well do nothing. Which brought me back to square one. What are my goals for the future? (I think I digressed a bit...)
How I'm not like INTP
As much as I value freedom to do the things I like, I value stability A LOT. I dislike changes because of the unpredictability itself, meaning I can't be as prepared as I want to. I'm afraid of going to unfamiliar places in case I get lost. x_X I'm somewhat responsible as I fear for the consequences. Hate being late, most likely because it has become a habit instilled by my parents from young. I'm realistic and see the world as it is, a dog eat dog world. Even though I procrastinate about the law, I choose not to break most for the fear of landing myself in jail.
Does being realistic throw you towards the S side?
Sometimes, I can't grasp certain abstract theory and/or ideas. Could it be because that particular topic doesn't interest me? Or am I just plainly not cut out to be a N?
My dad's a *STJ and my mum's a *S*J. I'm very sure that they are both of the SJ temperament. They restrict me on doing things and never listens to my siblings and my explanations and reasoning. Just earlier today, my 9 year old brother irritated my mum enough for her to use the cane on him. :/ My mum loves to say something negative on almost anything I say. She said it was unwise to become a concept artist because our country's art scene isn't as developed as other countries'. Then when I suggested that I become a lecturer or teacher teaching subjects I enjoy, she dampens my enthusiasm by telling me not to think that it's an easy job.
So I wonder, am I an INTP who lacks confidence (partially because of my upbringing) and therefore force myself to think more towards S and J, or am I an ISTJ/INTJ who lacks the motivation and self discipline to see through my plans?
Feel free to ask me more questions if I left anything vague and wow, thanks for taking the time to read such a long post.
I do think the main problem lies in my temperament. I easily relate to NT and a bit of SJ (the need for stability part).
How I'm like INTP
I have a messy table and for me play comes before homework. xD I got through high school without making a timetable of what I'm going to revise with the time I have. Funny thing is, I hated mindmaps too and loathed it when my teachers shoved it in my face and asked me to make a mindmap, even though she herself said that it's up to us on how we are supposed to study.
I'm a jack of all trades, master of none. Tons of misc hobbies such as solving the rubik's cube, html coding, actionscripting, drawing animals, creating graphics on photoshop... I get very excited about it at first and jump straight into things without planning. I remembered the first time I properly learnt html coding on my own, I got so fired up about creating a website that I took quite a bit of my time finding out the best free webhosting services, where to get free 'domains', etc... When everything got settled, I went "Uh... what should this website be about?" The website wasn't created in the end for those who are curious.
Even though I have tons of drive to try out something new, I get bored easily once I reach my goals. Take for example, my goal in solving the rubik's cube was to solve it below 1 min. Once I solved the cube in 40 seconds, I didn't bother aiming for 30 seconds.
I'm interested in life hacks and sometimes do things differently from others, as long as it's logical and works well for me. Example will be that I never understood why people still use qwerty to type when it is meant to slow people down. After years of not being able to touch type with qwerty, I gave up and learnt how to type in colemak.
As for the kind of games I like, I prefer those with strategy and provides room for me to ponder over the problem. I can't seem to think on my feet and fail spectacularly in fighter games.
I love introspecting and thinking about the future more than what is present. l wonder what my motives are for almost every action, second guess myself, think about what I should do in the future regarding jobs, life, etc... For me, I want to do things I enjoy. What's the use of living if I have to do things I don't enjoy? I took up the course Diploma in Games Design and Development because I thought I would finally be able to do the things I like as a job - drawing animals. But, the industry doesn't want people who can only draw animals, they want people who can draw both humans and animals. That means that if I were to pursue a job as a concept artist, I have to force myself to do something I don't like, drawing humans. That means, I have to do things I don't like to be able to do things I don't. It just doesn't make sense to me, I might as well do nothing. Which brought me back to square one. What are my goals for the future? (I think I digressed a bit...)
How I'm not like INTP
As much as I value freedom to do the things I like, I value stability A LOT. I dislike changes because of the unpredictability itself, meaning I can't be as prepared as I want to. I'm afraid of going to unfamiliar places in case I get lost. x_X I'm somewhat responsible as I fear for the consequences. Hate being late, most likely because it has become a habit instilled by my parents from young. I'm realistic and see the world as it is, a dog eat dog world. Even though I procrastinate about the law, I choose not to break most for the fear of landing myself in jail.
Does being realistic throw you towards the S side?
Sometimes, I can't grasp certain abstract theory and/or ideas. Could it be because that particular topic doesn't interest me? Or am I just plainly not cut out to be a N?
My dad's a *STJ and my mum's a *S*J. I'm very sure that they are both of the SJ temperament. They restrict me on doing things and never listens to my siblings and my explanations and reasoning. Just earlier today, my 9 year old brother irritated my mum enough for her to use the cane on him. :/ My mum loves to say something negative on almost anything I say. She said it was unwise to become a concept artist because our country's art scene isn't as developed as other countries'. Then when I suggested that I become a lecturer or teacher teaching subjects I enjoy, she dampens my enthusiasm by telling me not to think that it's an easy job.
So I wonder, am I an INTP who lacks confidence (partially because of my upbringing) and therefore force myself to think more towards S and J, or am I an ISTJ/INTJ who lacks the motivation and self discipline to see through my plans?
Feel free to ask me more questions if I left anything vague and wow, thanks for taking the time to read such a long post.
I doubt my 'instincts' (if any) and usually do things the practical way.
