Who are You? *inside*

[Anthile]

^That's fascinating, where did you get it from?

That's "Geopoliticus: Child Watching the Birth of the New Man" by Salvador Dali.


And, wow, I really like your images, Ermine. *marvels*

 

[Xel]

I don't picture myself as fully human. I don't know if that's arrogant or not. I am something that has human features and human mind, but my inner form is different and somehow not all together there.

 

[Mud~Eye]

If I could draw this, it would look kind of like a cross between illustrations from Shell Silverstein's “A Light in the Attic” and a less colorful “Nightmare Before Christmas”. My head would weigh a ton. And, I would be dragging it on the ground. It would be rectangular for some reason. Music, heat, and blood would be pouring out of my right ear. My left ear would be missing. My body would be long, and too slender, almost half-starved, with defined but minuscule muscular tone. The posture is laterally arched, somewhat impossibly, so that I can use my hands and arm strength to push myself along, while trying to keep as upright a position as possible. All the while, my head is actually being, sort of, pulled along with the body's forced forward progression. I'm barefoot, and my feet appear too big, like the step sisters on Cinderella, but they are size appropriate for the task before them (not unlike my own size 9 feet). I would have on an Italian style black and white striped fitted top (reminiscent of what's-her-name from the Pretenders and Pat Benatar) and plain bikini bottoms. The image is of one who has the potential from the neck down to be attractive, with the right grooming and personal attention, if she just didn't have to spend so much energy on her life's work of pushing that body forward and dragging that head around. I'm not sure why my head is square-ish, but it's heavy, like dead weight (I know I said that, but I guess I'm surprised at how heavy it is), almost as if it is stuck, but it will move if I use all of my strength. I have an ear ache right now, so I think the fire is that, but it seems like I've lost half of my hearing, not physically, and the only thing that's getting through is music and pain. Huh...


This is how I use to see me...before I even knew about the poem by Tennyson. I was just drawn to that image for myself.

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikiped..._1888.jpg/300px-JWW_TheLadyOfShallot_1888.jpg



And, then I saw Lancelot...hahaha (boohoohoo).


I'm somewhat amused by the image that has come to my mind to describe “me” now. (I wish I could draw it). I prefer to think in terms of journey rather than where I am now. But, this is a great way to keep it real and kind of check on “me”. Great idea for some inspired introspection. I can't help wondering about that square head...

 

[cheese]

^That's incredibly detailed, and very interesting. Does your mental emphasis drain you? It sounds so tiring.

 

[didyouknow]

This represents my mind, an intricate dance, a connection of ideas...

I think this is how my body should match my 'soul'

 

[cheese]

^That looks like Snail!

Do you score highly on Ne?

 

[Mud~Eye]

^That's incredibly detailed, and very interesting. Does your mental emphasis drain you? It sounds so tiring.

I've asked myself that same question. And, I'm not sure. The thing is, I was kind of shut down for awhile, and it's only been recently that I've started to think and decide for myself again (I know how pathetic that must sound, no way around that). I couldn't really trust my thinking, after some careless and hasty living. Now, a few years later, I am being reminded that I have the freedom to think and decide for myself, as well as my own way of doing that. And, the only thing I can come up with is, yes, the mental emphasis must be draining, and yet at the same time, it is the knowledge and the use of it that is giving me energy (so that's a little confusing).

Upon some consideration, I think my expectations are playing a big role in the energy area. Perhaps, I'm expecting too much too soon, thus the imbalance of energy flow. I'm not sure, but that could be it. How to remedy that is another question. Perhaps, it is one of those times when just knowing it will make the biggest difference.

Thank you for your interest. It is helpful to bat these things around with others, sometimes. Most others I know aren't that interested in symbolism and introspection. Of course, they're all showered, dressed, and ready for the world, or so it seems. Good thing I am remembering the difference between "seems" and "are" these days. I didn't for a while. Maybe there is some comparison there, as well, in my imagery, that's weighing me down. Hmm...more to consider.

 

[Mud~Eye]

@ Ermine

I am fascinated by the imagery, and hold in high esteem your talent.

 

[cheese]

That's interesting. It doesn't sound pathetic at all; we all have obstacles in our lives. Perhaps the energy imbalance happens whenever there's a weak introverted/extraverted preference? You would be energised by using that function in the preferred way, but concentrating too many resources in just one direction would tire you if you don't have a clear I/E preference (or Ti/Te, Fi/Fe etc). I suppose it could work the other way as well. Just an idea and probably not helpful!

Just read over your post again. It seems like there is too much activity and noise in your brain. Getting out of your head, ie extraverting a little more, might help.

The clothing symbolism is interesting.

It's as if I can feel what your head is going through right now - I read it as an interminable buzz of white noise and clashing dissonance around and in my head, which has the weight associated with the flu. How did you come up with this image by the way? Was it instantaneous?

 

[world]

there are (many) other faces
something like defense mech

this is my inside though, tbh

 

[didyouknow]

^That looks like Snail!

Do you score highly on Ne?

Is 82% high?

Introverted (I) 79% Extraverted (E) 21%
Intuitive (N) 82% Sensing (S) 18%
Thinking (T) 60% Feeling (F) 40%
Perceiving (P) 82% Judging (J) 18%

Maybe because I have a fairly low Thinking function in comparison to my other traits?

 

[cheese]

Yes that's high.

The innate preference in each pair is unrelated to other pairs I think. Low T doesn't mean high N/S.

The picture was all N!

 

[didyouknow]

@ Cheese: Actually I was referring to how you said that my picture was similar to Snail's.

The real question is... is that a good thing? I just went and did some more research regarding this and it leads me to believe that I have a high Ne because I've been told I have a quick wit and am usually the one to make people laugh, leaving me standing there awkwardly while they laugh their heads off.

 

[cheese]

Oh I meant the woman in the second picture looked like Snail. There's a picture of her somewhere around.

Of course high Ne is good! High anything is good, though personally Ne is more desirable than, say, Se. High Ne often means you're witty, quick-witted, possibly more able to connect with others and able to connect all the dots almost instantaneously (and other great things but I can't think of them). That's awesome. But hey if you don't want your Ne I wouldn't mind an extra helping

 

[didyouknow]

I suggest asking for it before you reveal that it's good

 

[cheese]

Did I forget to mention the fatal side-effects of too much Ne?

 

[didyouknow]

Did I forget to mention the fatal side-effects of too much INTP?

 

[cheese]

Did I forget to mention the fatal side-effects of plagiarism?

 

[Ermine]

And the fatal side effects of posting here for extended periods of time?!

 

[cheese]

And the fatal side-effects of using punctuation like this "?!" ?

 

[Ermine]

YOU KNOW WHAT?! I THINK I"M GOING TO SHOW THE SIDE EFFECTS OF POSTING IN ALL CAPS!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, I shouldn't be encouraging this derailment...

 

[didyouknow]

Oh no, what have I done? I used to love this thread

 

[cheese]

You forgot to mention it!

 

[didyouknow]

Did I forget to mention that you finally mentioned it?

*can we get back on topic now?*

 

[cheese]

Yes, let's just forget to mention any of this ever again.

 

[Artifice Orisit]

Oh, mention what?

 

[cheese]

I think I should mention I just destroyed Cognisant's circuits.

 

[Artifice Orisit]

Heh, circuits, how old school.
...
But did you have to destroy my mobile phone?

 

[cheese]

It was incorporated into your "body" - mustn't have mentioned that.

 

[Artifice Orisit]

Goodbye left ass-cheek, I will miss you ring-tone.

 

[cheese]

Did the ringtone smell as well?

 

[sagewolf]

Wai! I just did (about a day ago) the first self-portrait I've ever produced that actually looked like me. Every single one I've done for class, with a mirror, looked like my clone or my identical twin or something. This one... I didn't use a mirror, but it looks exactly like me. Real me. I like it a lot-- it's very chiaroscuro, with a little bit of colour for highlighted points. As soon as I manage to get my hands on a camera/scanner, I'll show you guys.

I can't honestly think of a way I would look if I weren't in my own body... possibly because I wouldn't look like anything. My body is the only part of me that 'looks' at all, and appearance is irrelevant to my actual essence. The self-portrait I did is actually really accurate-- down to my favorite shirt! (I had a picture I wanted to put up here but it want missing! I can't find it on the artist's website or DA, and Google images has failed me (for the first time ever). Damn... I really liked that picture too.)

 

[Artifice Orisit]

Did the ringtone smell as well?

Not since I switched to hydrogen.

 

[cheese]

^That's how I did it by the way. I called you then lit a match.

 

[Seducer of the Homeless]

 

[cheese]

Hmmm.

He's happy on the inside? Perhaps you should invert the picture.

 

[Mud~Eye]

Soth. The image is moving and very well done. I'm sure you already know how talented you are. I am sorry that you are in so much pain. The mask, is it, with the top hat seems to say, "circus show". I'm not sure how much to ask you about it, it's very interesting, but I don't want to be intrusive.

 

[Tyria]

Amorphous. Yet gentle and welcoming.

 

[kchikage]

I left out a book chained on one of her leg..
the 'weapon' i think.. is chained on her hand..

 

[XIII]

I don't know because there are 2 types of me... one who's happy and tries to make other people happy, but also the me who gets upset and volatile when it isn't working or people are being unfriendly too much.

I wouldn't show my other mood most places, but I feel like you're all really understanding... so:

But don't worry ! I'll never be like that on here, it's only when somebody tries to have a huge argument with me and I can't get away

 

[phantome]

hmmm i think that i look exactly like the way I feel.

all the people I've met say that my eyes are very mature and some are even taken aback when they see me.
I have full lips, and am most of the time smiling. However, when I just cannot be bothered to put up that smile any more, and let my face (for the lack of a better word) relax, the people around me automatically become worried because it looks like i'm extremely upset over something.
I also seem to look very absorbed in my thoughts. This is obviously because i am

Although, I suppose the "real" me would be much more "nerdy looking", that is to say, I would be seen carrying around a big stack of books (Which I do, just in my bag) wearing mis-matched clothing etc.

 

[snowqueen]

hmmm i think that i look exactly like the way I feel.

all the people I've met say that my eyes are very mature and some are even taken aback when they see me.
I have full lips, and am most of the time smiling. However, when I just cannot be bothered to put up that smile any more, and let my face (for the lack of a better word) relax, the people around me automatically become worried because it looks like i'm extremely upset over something.
I also seem to look very absorbed in my thoughts. This is obviously because i am

I guess that is you in your profile pic then - you feel no need for an 'avatar'? You don't need one anyway you are very beautiful.

 

[snowqueen]

These three photos of Patti Smith sum up how I feel inside perfectly.

First the medicine woman/wisdom seeker
Then the thinker/dreamer/reflections on mortality and meaning
Finally the frightened child startled while communing with nature, except not entirely natural.

 

[phantome]

I guess that is you in your profile pic then - you feel no need for an 'avatar'? You don't need one anyway you are very beautiful.

why thank you 0.0 that was very nice of you to say. really.


the reason i don't have an avatar is because I have yet to find one that i can actually relate to, or one that I feel expresses an aspect of my personality. I tried to draw one, but found that I was not very artistically inclined so i took a picture instead.

so once again thanks

 

[Ezro]

 

[Ezro]

Well, minus his disgustingly twisted face...

 

[y4r5xeym5]

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I'm not quite sure how to put it into words, but I hope the picture helps you understand.

 

[White Rabbit]

Nothing.

 

[Minuend]

I would be rain.

Avatars I've related most to:

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I'll think about this some more and see if I can come up with something more complete.

 

[Reluctantly]

prolly this...