Okay, so. My name is Joohanh, and I'm an INTP.
I'm now 16 (turning 17 next week, though) years old and on my second year in high school in Finland, though if someone asks my age, I pretend to be 18-20 years old, just because I can. By the way, I know that my English is absolutely horrendous, but hope you'll withstand it.
Society around me has always been troubled by me, because I just can't act like "normal people" do. I've been asked countless times to stop living in my own abstract world where everything is subjective and start doing something actually useful, to socialize with people instead of sitting in front of my screen, to stop thinking so hard about things that don't matter. Well, I've tried all those things, but I always end up just the way I was before.
I tend to sometimes dream about being socially successful, going to parties and being popular with women, but when actually doing something about it, I quickly find this way of living to be brainless and numb.
Result is, I find life ahead and around me to be pointless and without a reason. People just proceed living their daily lives in a certain rhythm, although no one really knows why. We're like ants. Or sheep. I want to know the purpose behind or ahead my life, and thinking that there isn't any gets me thoroughly depressed. Why the hell am I even here? Certainly not to work my ass off for nothing. I'm an agnostic, but it's easy to understand religious people; religion provides a quick and easy answer of all being. Not for me, though.
Guess that tells more about me than anything else I can think of.
I found this forum yesterday while surfing the Internet for that Briggs-Meyers test in order to show it to my friend. I thought that this whole idea about a forum that's only for people who get a certain result in a frickin' psychology test is absolutely ridiculous. How could these people be like each other in any way? Because one test defines them to?
I didn't venture further then, but was left intrigued enough to visit this forum again today. I read a few pages from the "You know you're an INTP when..." -thread, and was pretty mind-blown. There are actually more people like me in this existence!
I wasn't going to register at first, 'cause I really felt this kind of dimension frightening, but my curiosity got the better of me. So I hope I'll be seeing you guys around, it seems pretty cool to potentially have some people who I can actually (and finally) talk to.
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