weed (responses appreciated) :)

[Toad]

Smoking weed was a phase for me. I totally grew out of it. Now when I smoke it I just worry. I obsess about my problems and feel guilty because I told my gf I wouldn't smoke it. I'm actually happier not smoking it now.

 

[phantome]

Read the last posts by flow, Staywhatyouare and Reverse Transcriptase, and then phantome's post where she seemingly takes it as truth. I would say that it was more than just hinted at.

I don't take is as truth, however, i am seeing a common answer to the original question.
(Im not saying that anyone's right, just following up on the responses....if that makes sense....)

 

[Staywhatyouare]

I think its also important to note that weed can be classified into two different strains ( Indica and Sativa) both of which have profoundly different effects when smoked. Indicas produce more of a "Body" high, that makes you want to sit around and do nothing ( think stereotypical stoner watching tv all day). Sativas on the other hand give you a mind high, it causes your thoughts to race and is probably the one that makes most people paranoid.

While it may not seem like that big of a difference to someone that doesn't smoke, it definitely is. I think smoking Sativas every now and then especially if you pursue creative endeavours while high ( playing music, writing, anything artistic really), can be productive.

The problem of course is that weed, just like any other substance whether its alcohol or caffeine can be addictive, and thats when problems set in. In moderation, its a harmless drug and used properly many people have used it to affect their life in a positive way.

 

[Inappropriate Behavior]

Read the last posts by flow, Staywhatyouare and Reverse Transcriptase, and then phantome's post where she seemingly takes it as truth. I would say that it was more than just hinted at.

I think it is important to remember that it affects everyone differently and it's not type specific. It's the same with drinking, you don't know if you are going to be a funny drunk, a mean drunk or a mushy "I love you man!" drunk until you try it.....If you are curious enough to find out of course.

As always, it's up to the individual users to take stock of their reactions and determine any cost/benefit ratios. It can very well be what flow, Stay and Reverse described for many if not most. It can also make a person more withdrawn and slow of thought too.

 

[Toad]

Weed is not addictive. It may be mentally addictive, in the way that candy is. There is no physical nor psychological need for it though. I have been addicted to alcohol and cocaine and I can tell you, there is a BIG difference.

 

[Staywhatyouare]

Weed is not addictive. It may be mentally addictive, in the way that candy is. There is no physical nor psychological need for it though. I have been addicted to alcohol and cocaine and I can tell you, there is a BIG difference.

Yeah, when I said addictive I meant mentally addictive. It definitely does not create a physical dependency.

 

[flow]

Haha I've never felt the grip of an addiction by anything, and so far I've tried: Alcohol, marijuana, tobacco, opium, ecstasy, cocaine, shrooms, acid, and salvia... Idk, drugs aren't nearly as scary as people make them out to be. If you're not afraid of yourself you won't be afraid of being yourself on a particular drug. If you're worried you're going to become addicted than you don't probably have a lot of faith in your mental willpower. I'm pretty much over my drug years, that was college. I don't regret anything, I'd do every single drug again given the chance (except salvia, that shit is retarded). Otherwise, I'm going to continue to smoke weed until I decide I don't want to anymore, and not really seek out anything else.
I get a little tired of hearing people advise other people to not try drugs they themselves haven't done, especially weed. It's such a peaceful, thought-provoking drug. Give it a chance, or keep your uninformed opinion to yourself. I have no problem with people who don't do drugs because their body is their temple and all that jazz, but honestly acting like marijuana is some terrible drug out there destroying people's lives is questionable. The people who become major bums after smoking weed already had those tendencies, they needed help BEFORE weed. Weed makes you feel content to do nothing, so if you've got shit to do then don't smoke it! Simple!

 

[Toad]

Some people are also cursed with an "addiction" gene. I know I get addicted to things very easily.

 

[Staywhatyouare]

Haha I've never felt the grip of an addiction by anything, and so far I've tried: Alcohol, marijuana, tobacco, opium, ecstasy, cocaine, shrooms, acid, and salvia... Idk, drugs aren't nearly as scary as people make them out to be. If you're not afraid of yourself you won't be afraid of being yourself on a particular drug. If you're worried you're going to become addicted than you don't probably have a lot of faith in your mental willpower. I'm pretty much over my drug years, that was college. I don't regret anything, I'd do every single drug again given the chance (except salvia, that shit is retarded). Otherwise, I'm going to continue to smoke weed until I decide I don't want to anymore, and not really seek out anything else.
I get a little tired of hearing people advise other people to not try drugs they themselves haven't done, especially weed. It's such a peaceful, thought-provoking drug. Give it a chance, or keep your uninformed opinion to yourself. I have no problem with people who don't do drugs because their body is their temple and all that jazz, but honestly acting like marijuana is some terrible drug out there destroying people's lives is questionable. The people who become major bums after smoking weed already had those tendencies, they needed help BEFORE weed. Weed makes you feel content to do nothing, so if you've got shit to do then don't smoke it! Simple!

Very well put.

 

[motrhead]

Haha I've never felt the grip of an addiction by anything, and so far I've tried: Alcohol, marijuana, tobacco, opium, ecstasy, cocaine, shrooms, acid, and salvia... Idk, drugs aren't nearly as scary as people make them out to be. If you're not afraid of yourself you won't be afraid of being yourself on a particular drug. If you're worried you're going to become addicted than you don't probably have a lot of faith in your mental willpower.

I get a little tired of hearing people advise other people to not try drugs they themselves haven't done, especially weed. It's such a peaceful, thought-provoking drug. Give it a chance, or keep your uninformed opinion to yourself. I have no problem with people who don't do drugs because their body is their temple and all that jazz, but honestly acting like marijuana is some terrible drug out there destroying people's lives is questionable. The people who become major bums after smoking weed already had those tendencies, they needed help BEFORE weed. Weed makes you feel content to do nothing, so if you've got shit to do then don't smoke it! Simple!

Consider yourself lucky that you have escaped addiction. I have lost a friend and an acquaintance (wife's friend) to heroin, and another friend spent years hooking to support her habit, and lost her children in the meantime. I have two acquaintances right now that have also lost their kids due to crack habits.
Marijuana is definitely nothing like either of those. I have another friend, early twenties, mother of three (and pregnant again) that is a serious pothead. When she doesn't have it she is out looking for it. I doubt more than a day has gone by in the five years that I have known her that she didn't smoke pot. That sounds like an addiction to me. I agree she is also probably not typical, but it does happen to smart people too.
As I said, I've smoked my fair share, so while I can't tell anyone else not to try it (I wouldn't even tell my daughter, but thankfully she knows how to resist peer pressure, and if she does choose to smoke it, it will still be none of my business, except under my roof) I can state that it wasn't all fun and games for me.
I don't buy that *all* people that become bums after smoking it had those tendencies. Probably most, but not all.
To each their own. Personally I like alcohol. I enjoy hard liquor too much so I avoid it. I need my driver's license, and that helps protect my liver, since I refuse to drink and drive.

 

[snowqueen]

I get a little tired of hearing people advise other people to not try drugs they themselves haven't done, especially weed. It's such a peaceful, thought-provoking drug. Give it a chance, or keep your uninformed opinion to yourself. I have no problem with people who don't do drugs because their body is their temple and all that jazz, but honestly acting like marijuana is some terrible drug out there destroying people's lives is questionable. The people who become major bums after smoking weed already had those tendencies, they needed help BEFORE weed.

I smoked weed from the age of 16 to 40 - not sure if that qualifies me as having an informed opinion in your eyes. I think you're right that people who have major problems after smoking already had those tendencies - but the thing is that you may not have become ill if you hadn't smoked weed and you cannot know whether or not you fall into that category until you do. I had a really good friend at uni who was doing really well in his studies, went to India for the summer and came back in a psychotic state and never really recovered. When I worked in mental health services I saw tons and tons of young people who were suffering from cannabis-induced psychosis and whose lives were effectively ruined. Yes, they are a minority, but I certainly wouldn't want to either be that person or the parents of that person. To pretend that there is no risk from smoking weed or that it is an entirely benign drug is just as 'uninformed' as saying that it should be avoided at all costs because it is terribly dangerous.

If you have anyone at all in any part of your extended family that has schizophrenia, bi-polar disorder or any other psychotic illness, then you should seriously never do it. If you have adult onset diabetes in your family or a tendency to heart disease you shouldn't eat excess sugar or smoke - it's the same principle - it's called the 'vulnerability-stress' model.

Secondly, while I certainly had some emotional problems as a teen and also was unfortunate enough to leave school without a clear sense of my talents, I definitely think that my cannabis use held me back significantly in finding my feet and being able to form good intimate relationships for years. I genuinely didn't think weed was a problem until I totally stopped and realised how 'drugged' I'd been the majority of my life. Unlike most drugs it is not flushed out of your body quickly (heroin - 24 hours, nicotine - 3 days, cannabis - up to 40 days!!!!) so even if you are a weekend smoker it is still in your system during the week. The more you smoke, the more cumulative the effect with regular users only flushing it out of their system after up to 90 days because it gets stored in fat cells and then slow-released. Long term cannabis smokers who stop report lots of interesting effects like the return of concentration, memory, motivation and dreaming - all signs that they have been living in a brain-suppressed state - and I'm not talking about 'bums' here.

Smoking weed carries a risk - please don't imagine it doesn't. That doesn't mean it's inherently bad, evil, dangerous of course, but it is irresponsible to present it as a risk-free high.

 

[Toad]

Snowqueen is right. Anything foreign introduced to your body affects it in either a good or bad way.

Weed, however weak of a drug it may be, is still a drug. I would suggest not using it at all, but just like alcohol people like to use it to relax. So I say do whatever makes you happy, just beware of the side effects of any drug.

I don't regret smoking weed. It was a good time for me. However, like snowqueen said, I don't know what it did to me. I mean, did it change or warp my mind in any way? Would I be a different, maybe healthier person, if I didn't smoke it? I will probably never know and that is what I regret.

I know this sounds cliche, but getting high off life is probably better than living in this fake reality that drugs produce.

Just my opinion from my own experience.

 

[Atriamax]

For me, about, 90% of all my friends smoke weed pretty often. most of them its fine, but 3 or 4 are completely obsessed with it. I cannot hang around them withought them pulling a joint out, or making calls for a hookup. Its really annoying. for all of them, i Watched it be a gateway drug for them. I knew them since freshman year, them all saying nothing past weed. but then they got obsessed and they all do E and smoke grits everyday. I think it really depends on the person.
so most of my friends light up occasionally, couple times a week, which is cool, but those couple friends, as much of friends they are to me, i Know that their life is going in the shithole because of it

 

[brain enclosed in flesh]

I didn't feel like going through this whole thread, so hopefully I'm not repeating. My main thing I would say is avoid drinking or doing any drugs until you are out of high school- that way you have a clearer understanding of yourself and you have learned how to interact with others while sober. Never treat either as a crutch or a coping mechanism; if that is the case, then you shouldn't be doing them. Also, steer clear of them when you are supposed to be studying or doing schoolwork- if so, you are wasting your time and your mental abilities, not to mention your teacher's time and your (or your parent's) money.

Hopefully, though, if you do try drugs, you will eventually realize that they, too, are also a waste of time and money- and hopefully it won't take you too long to reach this conclusion.

 

[phantome]

Thanks so much for all the answers

I didn't feel like going through this whole thread, so hopefully I'm not repeating. My main thing I would say is avoid drinking or doing any drugs until you are out of high school- that way you have a clearer understanding of yourself and you have learned how to interact with others while sober. Never treat either as a crutch or a coping mechanism; if that is the case, then you shouldn't be doing them. Also, steer clear of them when you are supposed to be studying or doing schoolwork- if so, you are wasting your time and your mental abilities, not to mention your teacher's time and your (or your parent's) money.

Hopefully, though, if you do try drugs, you will eventually realize that they, too, are also a waste of time and money- and hopefully it won't take you too long to reach this conclusion.

agreed =] though I am certainly not planning on smoking pot, my friend is. Thanks for the response =]

 

[Cryss Winters]

I'm trying to quit smoking weed, hopefully reading these last few posts will be enough to steer me away from it for good.
I have to admit, I got high a few days ago and it was one of the most productive highs I've ever had. It simplified a lot of things that was making me stressful and emotional.​

 

[Da Blob]

One of my friends wants to try weed, normally i wouldn't really care-but-he's 15. I know other people who totally screwed up their life once they tried it (either by moving on to worse drugs, or by letting their grade average drop from 4.0 to 1.5)
he wouldn't listen though.

idk. lol. I don't think that trying weed when you're 15 will lead to positive consequences.

Are there any serious risks by starting to smoke pot at that age?

thanks.

There are serious risks involved in using any kind of drug - No matter what age, no matter what drug. The most dangerous drug is alcohol. 95% of all drug-relation destruction of peoples' lives and/or property is caused by alcohol use and abuse.

There is a particular problem with adolescents using drugs. It can keep them from growing up and maturing into real adults ready to deal with the harsh reality of the adult world. It is a truism in the world of drug counseling that a person's cognitive and emotional growth is stunted - if not out right halted with the onset of drug use. So as a licensed drug and alcohol counselor I have to deal with 40 year old adolescents on a constant basis. There is also the problem of self-medication. Adolescents face great challenges and there is a natural temptation to use drugs to deal with their own inadequacies, perceived or real. However, two times out of three this occasional use of drug for the benefits and/or recreational use deteriorates into a scenario of drug abuse with devastating consequences for the rest of one's life. A person can make one stupid mistake as a teenager and then end up paying for that mistake for the rest of his or her life. STDs are a another good example of that - in addition to drug use. There are no free rides, drug use has hidden costs.

That being said, Marijuana should not be illegal in a world where alcohol is legal. Of the two drugs, marijuana has the lesser destructive side-effects and has a number of therapeutic side-effects - such as being one the best ant-depressants known to man etc. However, as with all drugs, the boundary between legitimate and therapeutic drug use and that of destructive drug abuse is invisible and few who cross that boundary will ever voluntarily admit that they have. Until they are given no choice in that matter...

 

[Da Blob]

BTW - here's a relevant thread with a link...
http://www.intpforum.com/showthread.php?t=2709

 

[IfloatTHRUlife]

Its up to the kid to decide, its his life. Any thoughts and opinions you guys have about weed.. don't matter, they are your opinions. There are a lot more important things to live and die for in this world.. but if you don't live for little things that make you happy like weed too.. then what point is there in living..

Just because it makes him happy though, unless he has thought about it and completely understands what he is doing to himself.. its stupid for him to do.

Im a big fan of playing both sides of the field.. i may seem to contradict myself sometimes.. but i agree with differnet people for different reasons. Someone can be right about what they say.. but if the logic they use to get to thier conclusion is faulty.. then thier answer is faulty too because its not completely understood.

Examples in this situation are, you guys are right about the fact he shouldnt smoke, since i dont think everyone should smoke, but your wrong because you are basing what someone else should do with thier life around your own set of princaples. And I smoke.. every day.. but, this kid is wrong if he smokes because while he might think its ok to smoke, the chances are he came to the conclusion that its ok in a childishly thought out way.

So yeah.. what im trying to get around to here is.. none of us have the right to make the desiscion for him, it is for him to decide, there is no right or wrong.. because it can be percieved to be either way depending on your perspective. If he decides to smoke, and its for the wrong reasons.. let him know he is wrong and yet again, that is the most you can do.

I personally smoke.. on an almost daily basis and i enjoy it, as was said before it IS very good drug for INTPs, for the same reasons stated above, it is thought provoking and calming. It gives me the same feeling i get from stuff like staring out over a beautiful scenery on a pleasent day, that nostalgic feeling, but i can "carry" that feeling around with me all day and decide when i want it LOL >.> just my opinion though

Byebye

 

[flow]

I'm taking the month of August off, as I have to find a job in September and drug-tests are the death of me. I really wish I could smoke though, I miss my music and marijuana combo.

 

[Invoke Ninja's True Power]

honestly, I tried it when I was 18, wish I had done it when I was 16, I owe years of my life to that plant, I would have not found any meaning to life without it

BTW, why does it specifically have to be SMOKED? is that the only method of ingestion? what about different species that produce different effects? were there toxic minerals/compounds in the soil it was grown?
there are too many factors that are ignored

people call weed/drug plants unnatural but cultivation of ANY PLANT by people is unnatural, its an invention of the last 10,000 years, humans have been around for 200,000 years, do the math

 

[flow]

It does not have to be smoked. THC can be put in almost any kind of food imaginable. It's pretty common practice to make weed brownies, and they are delicious.

 

[Rain]

Well, it's not like weed is bad or anything. If he wants to try LSD then maybe be a bit bothered. Or shrooms. Pot is pretty much conversational in my opinion.

 

[Invoke Ninja's True Power]

IMO, pot is a good recreational, hell of a lot healthier and safer than alcohol. Shrooms and lsd, no, those are meant for deep exploration, some kind of purpose. Its because of all the mindless, stupid hippies that just wanted to get fucked up that stuff is illegal now.
Pot + real LSD = cure for humanity. Its amazing how so little of something can have such a profound impact on the brain/humanity

sorry, getting off topic. I do that a lot. I get sidetracked easily on related and random subjects.

 

[Invoke Ninja's True Power]

I noticed that I am fairly scatter-brained whether or not I smoke pot.

The positive: The difference when I'm high, I act on my scatter-brained tendencies less, and I seem to have a better attention span and focus better. I was going through some stomach issues for awhile that would practically give me panic attacks the moment I felt the pain. Pot was great at calming that as its a great anti-inflammatory. When I can't use pot yogurt and certain spices help somewhat but its nowhere near as strong or fast results. I can address my problems more objectively, and decreased depression. I feel smarter and I can do things a lot easier that I would normally find too boring or difficult to deal with if I was sober. I can't deal with my father unless I'm high or drunk.

The negative: My anti-social tendencies are increased unless its an energetic sativa, but this isn't 100% true. Sometimes it just depends on the day. I think a lot has to do with the legality issue and the common public perception. I am a lot more nervous/anxious around unfamiliar environments/people, and of course it slows me down unless its one of the more energetic strains. I become more paranoid, especially if I think I smell like it, like I get scared that some cop is gonna catch me at a bad moment or something. When I know theres no smell I am fine other than the feeling that I'm sure a lot of stoners get - "everybody's watching me, they can so tell I'm high" - I get that feeling a lot more when I don't smoke regularly and then smoke.

For me a slight tolerance build up is a good thing. Too much tolerance is bad though, when I start going through too much I tell myself, slow down, this has to last me awhile, chill. I prefer to think of my self as a medical user - as soon as I get the money I'm gonna see if I actually quality for the medical program that was just passed last year. There's no official distribution system yet but if I can at least not have to worry so much about getting in trouble for a small amount that works for me, better than nothing.

I know it affects everyone differently and this is how it effects me

 

[Carnap]

I'm less moody, more focused and more realistic if I smoke.

 

[Invoke Ninja's True Power]

I tend to make bad decisions on pot. I tend to make even worse decisions without pot. It helps keep me from over-spending my money. I find I spend way more money trying to find things to do when I don't have pot around and I drink more and I get tempted to smoke cigarettes again. Then I get depressed about all the money I wasted

 

[Inappropriate Behavior]

I "wasted" a lot of money on pot back in my constant use days. Looking back, I'd do it all over again. No question

 

[Invoke Ninja's True Power]

part of me hopes its just a phase I can get past. another part of me doesn't know what its like to go for more than a few weeks without getting anxiety and stomach issues

 

[Miss Led]

One of my friends wants to try weed, normally i wouldn't really care-but-he's 15. I know other people who totally screwed up their life once they tried it (either by moving on to worse drugs, or by letting their grade average drop from 4.0 to 1.5)
he wouldn't listen though.

idk. lol. I don't think that trying weed when you're 15 will lead to positive consequences.

Are there any serious risks by starting to smoke pot at that age?

thanks.

Yes, there are serious risks.

I smoked weed for 10 years or so every day. I can count on no fingers the accomplishments I made in those years.

Marajuana is the great time rape. If you plan on doing absolutely nothing with your life than it is just fine and dandy, but if you actually want to spend your life becoming more of a person than you are at the age of 15, then, well, you should probably stay away from it.

There is nothing wrong with trying something. I think that the real degree of danger comes from the liklihood of it turning into a lifestyle choice. If your friend is not surrounded by friends and family that live this lifestyle, then likely they may just experiment and move on.

 

[Miss Led]

I personally can remember being scared half to death one night; in the back seat of a Ford Pinto left in second gear, and I don't think we topped 35mph..

Me too!!!!!

 

[Invoke Ninja's True Power]

consume it, don't let it consume you. the medical debate is still ongoing, I for one have seen the bonuses of medical effectiveness. but recreationally, while better than alcohol in most regards is not so good when young. Avoid both until you or whoever else are at an age to make an educated decision. Alcohol especially. ADHD kids should be mandatory they smoke up as long as it doesn't affect them negatively, hahaha. As long as you stay focused on doing things with your life should be okay. I have made many poor decisions but then again, I never made very good decisions ever since I can remember. Its not often I have a positive outlook on life and pot does help somewhat with that. There have been times where I would have called off work if I hadn't smoked a little before going in because of physical/mental issues. I would trust that stuff before any of the pills the head doctors give out. They just want the money anyways, of course that can be said about dealers as well.

 

[ratpoison]

Wait...so if you're an INTP you're automatically prone to liking weed? =\ why?

I don't necessarily agree. I dislike cannabis after having smoked a fair amount of it. I wouldn't advise against using it, but I would wait till 18+. About one and a half year ago my friends and I started smoking, now I'm a psychonaut with fair amounts of drug experience and they're, well, recreational users (for the fun of it) of both cannabis and other drugs.

Drugs in general show you aspects and sides of yourself difficult to find in a sober state, and this can help you develop as a person, -especially- psychedelics. You can also be confronted with several uncomfortable things about yourself. Cannabis is (and some will disagree) mildly psychedelic, and can shoot you into a mild variant of what one can experience on drugs like LSD, mushrooms, etc. Be prepared, it can fuck you in the ass. And by then you best know how to unfuck yourself.

I only smoke cannabis rarely now, after paranoia, anxiety and shitty self esteem creeps up on you, it's not much fun anymore. And it takes time to rebuild, but you become stronger and more self aware on the way back. Also it stops working in the fun psychedelic way after you've smoked for a while, building up a sort of resistance that simply won't go away completely.

Also, keep this thought/experience from me in mind (especially those who say cannabis is "not a drug"):
I've been on quite a few (different) trips by now (LSD, mushrooms, 2C-B, ketamine), and I've been down on the fun/fucked up drug department just to try it out (cocaine, GHB, benzodiazepines... alcohol). I've had mild benzo withdrawal as well (certainly not fun). But nothing, nothing has ever beat my smoking experiences from the early days. My most extreme and fucked up delusional/psychedelic expeirences have been from cannabis. And nothing has given me more shit to cope with than cannabis, except maybe that benzo withdrawal, but it was a lot easier to distance from than the cannabis related problems.

Beginning to smoke at age 15 might turn out ... bad. Beginning to smoke at any time, might turn out bad. But you might just have a good time, and be one of those lucky people that don't get problems by playing too much with weed. But most likely you will change, and, depending on many many factors, you'll also quite likely (from my experience, and what I've seen) try other drugs, as long as you're not one of those ignorant stoners that think marijuana is the gift to humanity and can't harm anyone, while LSD is poison for the soul.

I recommend waiting until you're 18 with any drugs, 20+ for hard drugs and psychedelics. At 15 you're still a kid. Playing with the mind is not something for kids in development. It can give you a lot, and it can (and will) take a lot from you, as well. In the end I regret nothing and would never ever live a life without visiting the extremes of our mind.

Use your brains in this game. http://erowid.org/ has a lot of information for the curious.

 

[Invoke Ninja's True Power]

For me I'll put it like this. If I don't smoke for a long time and then smoke it becomes very psychedelic for me. I remember the first time I smoked after having probation for over a year. I had nice closed-eye visuals and very happy, relaxed. It was like it was saying "welcome back" to me. But with irregualar use and no tolerance paranoia also becomes much more prominent. Kind of why I fell into regular use for a long time.

I made an informed, educated decision when I was 18 to finally try it. I had been offered it by friends since I was 12 but refused. I finally said fuck it, I gotta see what all the hype and fuss is about one night the summer after I had graduated high school. Didn't get into regular use for another 2 years. This was after I had had a major panic attack, I dropped out of college it affected me so bad. Some think it was because of weed I had the panic attack but I know otherwise. I was an extremely occasional and light user at the time. I never actually bought my own until after that horrifying experience. Sometimes I wonder if I was slipped some acid/bad acid. I had not ever touched a psychedelic at this point in my life.

I got busted for being stupid about it when I was 22. I was smoking in my car, windows up, typical way it is practiced by a lot of stupid kids. I was used to a different state's more lenient attitude so I underestimated the situation. In a way I may have benefited from earlier experimentation/getting the stupid phase out of my system not that I advocate minors using any substance. The 1 1/2 years I was on probation was the 2nd most depressing time of my life. The worst being the past recent few months I have been jobless and lost a lot of my friends because the depression got so bad I was a complete downer. I was being rude to females. I didn't even wanna be around males. It is what got me fired from my last job. This was because my 26 year old body/mind is telling me 3 years without sex is not healthy for me. My main method of coping has been pot smoking which is hard to do when jobless. Even tougher to get to know females with no money and no job and an INTP personality type.

This may not be the best example and a bit more off-topic but I was trying mushrooms for the 3rd or 4th time in my life and it was while I was on probation. I started to freak out because of multiple factors: The probation aspect, part of my freedom was gone, I was getting drug-tested every 1-2 weeks. I could have done all the crack, meth, and cocaine I wanted but not pot because of the fat-soluble metabolites that break down slowly. I will never venture into hardcore territory. This inequality deeply bothered me and still does to this day. Also it felt like the so-called-friends of mine were fucking with me. They were staring at me like they were waiting for something crazy to happen, like maybe my head was gonna explode or something - well it did in a way. I had a full on bad trip complete w/ psychosis. I had long hair at the time and for no apparent reason I was trying to pull it out. I took my glasses off and bent them all to hell. I felt like they all wanted me to be gay and I refuse to go there. I felt sick but couldn't comprehend the idea of puking. Plus I wanted to try to "hang-on" so I wouldn't look weak. I ended up laying on the bathroom floor for what was probably hours until I felt it wearing off. I had a severe headache the next day. I knew after that these people were not to be trusted ever again, they were not my friends. The nicer one was at least nice enough to have bent my glasses back in shape for me. Besides the one which I only saw a couple times after that, never seen them since. I found out a couple years later that the biggest scumbag of the bunch got busted for meth at some point. Just reaffirms my opinion of him. Took me a couple years to recover from that trip. I am convinced that had I been able to smoke pot at the time the mental meltdown could have been avoided. I might also add this was toward the end of my probation.

I didn't try drinking until I was 19 and it does way less than pot ever did for me. I never did the whole college binge drinking thing. I had 2 or 3 blackouts in my life and I learned from it. Many never do. I feel I owe this to my knowledge of pot as it does way more positive for me than alcohol ever did besides the whole probation thing which I also learned from.

 

[Invoke Ninja's True Power]

I noticed my typing speed/accuracy really sucks without weed.