I think my voice is fine but apparently I sound nerdy on Xbox live,
Face to face I don't care but ever since a few people said I sound nerdy on Xbox live I almost feel self conscious about it.
one thing that bothers me is I can kind of feel it's a bit more nasally than some of my peers. this could have something to do with development but it could also be just the way it be.
if it's development im just fine with that because I developed slow and wonderfully. I have a beautiful body and judge everyone against it. I put minimal effort into maintaining fitness, therefore I imagine it's neglect and poor diets that result in people being FAT AS FUCK.
I don't like using projection, I feel like a fag.
I notice my extroverted friends require me to talk all loud and macho, if I don't people just speak over me. I am interrupted a lot. I usually get ticked off but dont show it, I just reserve my thoughts. I have a few friends who appreciate my value and to them, I open up, and they LOVE it. for others, they can't pick up on it, I suspect they are ES** types - "idiots" I think is another word.
I like to sing a lot but I find singing is embarrassing. so is dancing. actually any exhibition to me is embarrassing, I don't know why I find attention so uncomfortable. I especially feel uncomfortable exhibiting exceptional talents... I almost feel like I'm mocking people as if to say "Yeah I know im better than you at this, check it out"
that's why I stopped longboard dancing, I felt like I was being a show off but really I just thought it was fun. I used to sing along to sublime so much when I worked at shell, because I was a shell employee, not me, so what did I care if I made a fool of myself singing my heart out? now I only sing alone at home.
