So the mention that a person can be 160 IQ and still just draw stick figures really hit home. Maybe not in math or chess or anything where a person solves problems in their head real fast but in terms of abstract thought. I found out that drawing stick figures is associated with low white matter myelination. So my visual areas can't work together with the spatial aspect. Yet I can see where I might be good at creating new ideas. Pattern recognition is about the grey-matter thickness and it seems I have a greater tendency for cognitive control. The amygdala though is an issue, the one in the right brain. The right brain is visual and emotional and must be inhibited. Because I was constantly on edge I was suffering burnout in the right frontal lobe.
So far I have settled down anxiety-wise in the right amygdala. I think this is because I have been doing more sensory extraverted activities and people-related stuff. I was less active in thinking too much. I have been doing emotional processing while lying in bed semi-asleep. Knowing I feel bad and accepting the pain of trauma response in the sympathetic nervous system. I have been reintegrating my angry feelings too. I can read books now and other material without wanting to stop. I found the right level of books for my abilities and that helped allot also. The problem was the relentless urge to do something, which I did in the activities and now I have a calmer sense of things.
I saw the old movie Insideout recently and it seems different emotions can be male or female. This got me to think of how emotions can be gendered. By the fact that INTJ's can be male or female and usually females use words to express emotions rather than actions (male?) This could be why the personality analyzer classified me as a female INTJ at 40 years old one time. Not only can words be tonally evaluated but the contents can be screened for subject matters characteristic of those expressions with maturity.
I am trying to go back to school but I am worried that development may not be needed as much in the future. I have plans to write software in the future. I know that new tools exist that will make things easier. Specifically in automated learning tutorials, the machine helps you program itself. This is the new way forward in teaching kids programming so for adults it would make sense that so long as I buy a new computer I too can get these tools and make my own stuff without having to spend so much time at a university.
I am not so worried about my intelligence as I used to be but I am fascinated by what needs to be made in order for thought to emerge as cognitive parts working together. I know I will need an environmental setting for the process to happen. That is, if I am making an intelligent computer, I need a simulation for it to run inside of. And based on the data I have, I can make things now that I will have tools available. The project will be based on impulse control and abstraction of thought. Social aspects will be counted for as well. Avatars in the virtual setting(s).