Philosophyking87
It Thinks For Itself
Ever since I was a kid, I was always complaining of boredom. While my siblings could easily relax and enjoy a nice simple movie, or listen to some music, or read, I couldn't. And it seems that I'm still like this. I tend to have a problem sitting down to learn something new, or read a book I've been interested in, or even browse the internet (which has recently lost its appeal and excitement, as it's the same boring websites and people over and over). In fact, I can't even stand to sit down for a few hours to do many of my favorite hobbies. I'm gifted at drawing, but don't derive much satisfaction from it anymore. The passion is lost. The thrill is gone. Poetry? I was never really any good at it, so I slowly become discouraged. Writing? I usually write about my thoughts, but I've simply run out of subjects to think/write about. Thus, I find myself completely bored out of my mind, as was the case my whole life. I always need something stimulating to do. My brain must always be in some process of actively attacking something. If there isn't anything stimulating my brain, I become incredibly fidgety and some sort of mental torment ensues, and it feels like hell.
The greatest form of stimulation has always been video games. I can just sit there for hours and hours (if it's the right game) and just kill things over and over. I derive satisfaction from testing my skills constantly. It highly stimulates my brain. Social engagements also used to stimulate me. I'd enjoy hanging out with friends and cousins and just go out and do something exciting in the real world. Go out and play. When I wasn't doing something fun, I was complaining of boredom.
So I'm still dealing with this problem of always needing stimulation. Always needing some goal. Always needing a sense of progression. Always needing new information. Always needing objectives. Always needing. Does anyone else relate to this? Does your brain feel super wired up and over-active, to the point where simple daily experiences become agonizing and tedious?
The greatest form of stimulation has always been video games. I can just sit there for hours and hours (if it's the right game) and just kill things over and over. I derive satisfaction from testing my skills constantly. It highly stimulates my brain. Social engagements also used to stimulate me. I'd enjoy hanging out with friends and cousins and just go out and do something exciting in the real world. Go out and play. When I wasn't doing something fun, I was complaining of boredom.
So I'm still dealing with this problem of always needing stimulation. Always needing some goal. Always needing a sense of progression. Always needing new information. Always needing objectives. Always needing. Does anyone else relate to this? Does your brain feel super wired up and over-active, to the point where simple daily experiences become agonizing and tedious?