Wow, I've never had that comment for my username before... :)
It is hard to be happy, especially when you can see the faults and hopelessness in the world. I think it's especially hard for intuitive thinkers, as we are constantly thinking of future possibilities and coming up with ideas that can cause so much pain. To look past people's assuring smiles, and see a dark world of sadness behind it. Yet, there has to be some form of happiness in life, or else why are we here? All I can say is, I hope you feel better and hopefully you can be one of the lucky ones who discovers that genuine source of happiness (I know, I truly suck at these sorts of conversations... :/
Yeah I know, even the simple ones... its amazing how paranoid the brain seems to get in a dark room (sleep) after watching those images... perhaps it's because it has nothing to concentrate on except the utter darkness... speaking of brains, today I just read an article on this man who forgot everything he would do each day... that would suck... talk about living in the moment! (sorry if that was random, I just found that interesting... I discovered it when I was suppose to be researching mononucleosis in health class :)
yeah, whenever I watch a really gruesome movie like that I usually will go outside and take a walk alone, sometimes it helps... other times it lets my mind wander too much and I end up doubling my paranoia. I once saw this movie with this guy in an electric chair (and it showed everything- something went wrong with the chair- I was stuck with that feeling for like 2 days)
SAW...ugh. I was more than a little disturbed by it...
actually, "disturbed" is too mild of a word. Let's say paranoid. I was really afraid that I was going to wake up in the middle of an abandoned warehouse.
The fact that only "bad" people were exposed to this gave me some solace, but I didn't want to take the chance...