The Lance of Longinus
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- Dec 7, 2014
This resonates very much. I had a similar general religious experience.Listening to music is a leisure to me. It enhances my life and I've always gotten a lot of enjoyment out of it but I'm unsure if it's really changed me much as a person. It feels more like as my character has developed my taste in music has also broadened and changed to reflect that. The exception to this I'd make is participating in music, which I feel has been and still is changing me in a healthy way.
This is the only album that springs to me that I feel listening to had a genuine affect on changing my life. When I first listened to it 12 years ago it felt like complete trash. But as I'd already bought it I thought I should make the most of the purchase. It was around about the 5th or 6th listen that it all fell into place to me and revealed this alien landscape with its own eccentric language that I just intuitively understood and felt at home with.
There was something about having this album that only I (in the context of people I knew at the time) could see beauty in that really spoke to me and how deeply alienated I felt at the time. People in my Christian community of the time judged it as "demon possessed", which to me felt like they were calling me "demon possessed" and asking I suppress my natural evil preferences. It played a big part in me eventually leaving the religion, which was a major developmental catalyst.
These days I don't really get the alienation vibe listening to it. It more reminds me of the importance of playing your own tune without fear of rejection or how it might sound to others. It's still in my top 10 list 12 years later.