Playing with my NES, i inserted every game i had and ran it for a few seconds, before i reached the game i was actually going to play - all this so that the other games wouldn't feel "sad".
fucked in the head.
I was and am very confused by the simplicity of life. I was a violent child who would do things like beat up a kid at church and use a Judo throw I just learned from my friend on my sister. I had no idea what I was doing. I was just mad at the universe. I don't know if this is considered INTP behavior or not -nor do I care. This just seemed like a good area to place this information. I have learned through making mistakes that it is better to listen than to blindly act and I think this would be considered INTP behavior.
A few things.
I once stepped on a bee while at the swimming pool at my famies apartment complx one summer. Everyone kept telling me not to go to that corner of the pool to get in, but no one would actually say why, so my contrary self went there anyway and got stung. I would have been about five or six at the time. I was pretty annoyed at eveyone there for not giving me a good enough reason. Also, in first grade I kept having my recess taken away for talking in class, but was never specifically told that was why. I kept talking until my Mom told me very bluntly that I needed to shut up during class if I wanted to keep my recess. I'm not sure how indicative that is of my INTPness, but it does show the stubborn insistance on having a good logical reason to something.
Also, there was one time in a high school tigonometry class where we were doing proofs and I took 15 steps to solve one that could have been solved in 5. The teacher was actually pretty impressed.
I had my "emo" phase (if you want to call it that) from 7th grade a quart-way through the year until a quarter way through my junior year in high school. I wouldn't call it emo though -I was a very bitter person who didn't want anything to do with anyone personally. Then I started to learn. I did not grasp what I was learning until I had been out of high school for 5 years. I have learned to let the universe direct me rather than trying to change what I cannot. I am still learning this concept.
yes!! this has triggered memories of my own similar behaviour. i used to pretend to put pepper on my food (i didn't like pepper) so that the pepper pot wouldn't feel neglected/jealous because i favoured the salt pot.
for me it was with nearly everything
i most certainly was like that with my nes
and i was like that with books, movies, ect
everything had to be used for a little so nothing was sad or forgotten
Believe it or not, but I was the fucking man in kindergarten. I somehow (don't ask me how it started, I really can't remember) established my own "party", in which I was the dictator. Everyone 4-6 years old had to join. I controlled like 30 kids. I even had a chain of command involving some of my friends. Then one of my friends started his own party, and we had gangfights when it was outdoor playtime.
And no, I'm seriously not making this up.
In primary school I had a shock pen thing which zaps you if you press the button.
I used to hold it to the line of metal water bubblers and zap everybody who was getting a drink.
.... I'd do my own thing in a lot of classes, especially math. It reached a point where I ignored the teacher and found my own way of figuring things out. I never did my homework.
When I was in first grade we did art projects and the teacher would say, "Remember, you can cut paper off but you can't put it back on." I would say, "You can if you use tape." This pissed off the teacher.
I don't know if this is INTPish but In fifth grade I masturbated in class and got "caught". The teacher didn't do anything about it; she just smiled. I didn't realize until years later that she knew what I was doing.
12th grade: Graduated with the minimum amount of credits, 2.3 GPA cumulative for high school, in trouble for truancy, went through the suicide of a good friend, almost didn't graduate. Spent free time trying to find beer with a friend.
I think what happened is I became more intellectually developed than my folks when I was 11-12, and this really created a lot of complicated family issues. I could no longer trust them to do what was in my best interest because I knew better, goddamnit. I had a few good teachers, but enough bad ones to balance them out. No mentors, no older friends, nobody could or would connect with me except for a few loser friends. Blindfolded in a thick fog, yet knowing it will end.
Looking back, I think I got tired of being envied and became an easy target once the ape hormones started showing up in my peers. I tried to become like normal people so as not to give offence It was easier, but my attempt at normality just made me a weird outcast, a broken spirit. At least the nerds had spirit, and were making well use of their time at school. But I'd get tired hanging around those dorks - they'd never take any risks - boring.
At age 20, once I got away from my family, my shitty friends, and my hometown and all the bad memories, I felt free to be me again. I felt that because of my detachment from destructive elements of my past, I had the chance to design and reconstruct everything without hindrance. This is when the good side of my INTPness roared into action.