If I don't make sense, then I could better spend my time posting in 1 thread only so that I do not impact to many people with my stupidity. It makes me sad though. It does.
Dude, everything's cool. If it wasn't I'd have banned you already
To me, it seems like you're discovering new things all the time and adapting your own system and beliefs as you learn them. I understand the urge to get it out there, but it's hard for us to follow along because it makes sense in your head but we can't keep track of the sequence of thoughts that led to which conclusions. We can't see inside your head (at least not yet).
I experienced the same thing a few months back while thinking about my thesis research (agent-based mechanisms of invasional meltdown that explain lags in reproduction, dispersal, and occupancy in populations of non-native species, if you're curious
). Ideas popped into my head too fast and it was mindfuck after mindfuck after mindfuck. I didn't sleep for days. I was bouncing off the walls lmfao. No one I talked to the entire time understood me, but I kept it all written down (on sheets of paper covering the entire kitchen table, and with dry erase markers on a whiteboard, 2 glass sliding doors, 4 windows, and a microwave). Once I had everything organized so that people could see A through Z in order, I took it to my advisor and he couldn't believe it (and actually suggested I pursue a multi-million dollar grant based on the idea).
We're really just asking you to keep everything that's related in its own thread so: 1) it's easier for us to follow and 2) it's easier for you to keep track of. Personally I'd like to contribute because this sort of stuff excites me (it's a system!!!), but I'm having trouble and I'm sure others are as well. We want you to share it, but we also want to understand it. I think a blog thread would make it easier. (You don't have to post EVERYTHING in the same thread, just everything you think is related. This is why I said any threads of your choice and that I could make it any title you wanted).
When you first came here, you were a bit of a jerk, but over the past few months you've developed and changed a lot. This hasn't gone unnoticed by the mods and admin, and we want you to keep going and keep improving. We want you to become a respected member here, because WE KNOW YOU CAN.
You have that potential.
Having said that, if you're unsure of what something I or any mod means, just ask us. A big part of your personality is understanding and taking action based on your gut emotions, but remember that a lot of us are socially inept (not ALL of us
) and that there's a small language barrier between us, both of which can throw things off. We might mean "X" when we say something but you think we said "Y" instead, so double check to make sure.
Just let me know what you think of the idea. You might want to try it out and see if it works for you.
