What kind of dreams do you have?

[creepingcharlie]

When I dream, I tend to be in a state of frustration. I often have a hard time seeing what's going on around me. Many of my dreams involve chasing or being chased, but I'm really slow, like I'm running through water that is waste deep.

Are these issues common dream state issues for INTP types?

An ExFx friend of mine says that she hates waking up because she always had good dreams. I was a bit envious.

 

[creepingcharlie]

I just realized I posted this in the wrong section. Oh well, I can assume that I probably won't be reamed out by those that frequent this forum.

 

[Aphasia]

No, of course not. This is a good opportunity to hijack a thread and sail it towards the distant gulfs of randomness.

Side note: Half of my dreams are run-away nightmares, the other half random psychedelics.

 

[Agapooka]

I don't normally remember my dreams, but I recently dreamt that my dog walked off a building and died. And then an identical dog just magically appeared later that day.

 

[Ermine]

My dreams are really boring, usually. Nothing more than fantasies about certain guys (I'm a girl), and complete action-packed nonsense trying to look like a real story.

 

[creepingcharlie]

My dreams tend to be to disjointed to really be able to talk about them. People often say things that make absolutely no sense. Clear, vivid dreams only happen on rare occasion.

 

[Ermine]

When I dream, I tend to be in a state of frustration. I often have a hard time seeing what's going on around me. Many of my dreams involve chasing or being chased, but I'm really slow, like I'm running through water that is waste deep.

Are these issues common dream state issues for INTP types?

An ExFx friend of mine says that she hates waking up because she always had good dreams. I was a bit envious.

I came up with a theory for why INTP dreams might be frustrating. We are all about gaining knowledge. With that come advantages and disadvantages. Sure knowing a lot of things ca be very useful, but it's also a source of alienation (sometimes), cynicism, and never being satisfied because there's always more to know. This dissatisfaction could leak into dreams and play a big part in it.

 

[Radioactive_Springtime]

Side note: Half of my dreams are run-away nightmares, the other half random psychedelics.

Instead of Nightmares I just have dreams that your disappointed when you wake up and realize it's over. But I do get the psychedelic ones too.

 

[Agapooka]

If this is about patterns in dreams, I haven't had a recurring dream in a while, but when I was a kid, I remember a dream of a tiny race car, well... racing along a given, bland, but straight road. When the road was not perfectly smooth, I remember cringing in a desperate attempt to make it smooth. It kept changing from rough to smooth, and I was terrified when it wasn't smooth. o.o

 

[CowSavior]

Hmm, I dream of everyday things that would happen in my life, except I dream of things like... Doing something I could be doing, but know I'm not doing because I don't meet the requirements to do it at the time.

Like, for instance, I could be downstairs in my living room playing a game that I don't actually have, that is on a system that iot wasnt made for, or hasnt even come out yet.

But I usually forget my dreams upon waking up, and remember all of the emotions I went through during the dream, so I feel really drained when I wake up, but I begin to peice it back together withing an hour, and I peice it together all day, and by the time I go to sleep again, I'm thinking about the previous dream, so I usually have the same dream over and over.

The only time my dreams don't repeat is when I'm talking to someone on the phone right before bed, or if I'm watching TV, or doing some type of activity that requires some kind of an attention span.

 

[Wisp]

The night before I played WindWaker for the first time, I had a dream about the game where I was link, shooting Ganondorf with a crossbow. This was several years before the Wii or Link's crossbow training were conceptualized...

 

[Olba]

Hah, dreams?

In my case, most of my dreams, at least the ones I still remember, have all been pretty darn unrealistic if not down right ridiculous.

I guess I could list a few here, just to amuse those few that frequent these forums. I've actually tried to name each of them, just for organization purposes

Dad in Army Bar
One of my oldest dreams that I still remember. As far as I know, I originally had the dream somewhere around 1999. Basically, I'm in a bar that is filled with people from the army. I think it might've been an army-only bar. Anyways, I'm there, looking for my father for some unknown reason. I walk around, calling "daddy", but no one responds. I actually had this dream twice or thrice.

Guarding the Car
Well, this is also one of my older dreams, from the 90s. First, let's make some backstory. I had been watching this animated series about some people who were able to go into this weird, digital world somehow. Also, our family, at that time, had an old car. Well, in the dream, I'm in the car at night, guarding it for unknown reasons. Well, suddenly this bad guy from the aforementioned TV series grab my throat and starts strangling me. I started screaming for help and then I woke up, mid-scream. I was actually shouting for help in the middle of the night. Yes, my parents rushed to the room, rather panicked. It's kinda bothersome that I cannot remember the name of the series anymore. Oh wait, after some checking, it looks like the Real Adventures of Jonny Quest. Damn, scary.

Mountains and stuff
A strange name, I guess. Well, basically, the dream starts with me in some snowy mountains. Then I'm fighting some unknown bad guy, along with this strange fellow who has a lower body of a sheep. Then I'm inside my current home, with a strange coffin in front of me. The coffin really is strange, it's like covered in blood-red and navy blue leather. Somehow I know that the bad guy is going to come through it, so I tell my sister and her friend to get out. They refuse and then I tell them to get ready to battle. What they do? They get boiled water and throw it at the coffin when it opens. Out of the coffin comes a small sheep. Then the sheep transforms to the same sheepguy I was fighting with at the mountains. He's really pissed. Then I wake up.

My Class in War and On-Board
This is one of the most recent dreams that I remember. Basically, it starts with me participating in a middle-age styled war. I mean, there're stone castles and everyone's wearing metal armor. Every single one of the enemies were dressed like the Judges in FF12. http://images.google.fi/images?hl=fi&q=Judge%20ff12&um=1&ie=UTF-8&sa=N&tab=wi
Well, suddenly I hear that we won the war. Then I hear my mathematics teacher asking for people who want on-board this huge viking ship that is going for a one-year-long trip. I don't want to go, but I end up on-board due to unknown reasons. Then I realize that the insides of the ship are extremely modern, there is this modern reception booth and we all have modern baggages. Then I'm on the deck with one my classmates and the sea is horrible. The ship is rocking from one side to the other and all I see is the dark sea. Then my classmate shouts "Wait, here it is! This is a really good loot!" though he shouldn't've known what "loot" meant. Well, anyways, I drop to the sea for a small moment, only to be back on-board the ship in a moment. So, I ask my friend "Do you even know what the heck is a loot?". He answers "Isn't it something like that?". I do a stereotypically comical facepalm and wake up. I actually later asked if my friend knew what it was. He had no clue whatsoever. Ironic, isn't it?

The Cottage in the Forest
Well, to make it short. For some reason, we're in this cottage somewhere in the middle of an unknown forest in an unknown place at an unknown time. All I know is that we're celebrating something. Well, for some reason, I get this idea to hide away in the sauna together with one of my acquintances from school. As to why he was there, I don't have a clue. Well, the situation escalates to the point where the guests, including my parents, call the police and search the house. After several hours of hiding in the sauna, me and my friend decide to come out. Of course, we get scolded, but we just laugh it off by saying that it was fun. Then I wake up. If anything is strange here, why didn't the police search the sauna? It's got to be one of the most common hiding places for kids when they play hide-and-seek, so why not?

Those are the ones that I remember and am willing to post on a public forum.

As for the style of my dreams, they're usually pretty clear. Oh, and most of the time, I play a part in them as myself. As you can see by the examples, usually the setting is unrealistic and keeps changing.

 

[CowSavior]

The night before I played WindWaker for the first time, I had a dream about the game where I was link, shooting Ganondorf with a crossbow. This was several years before the Wii or Link's crossbow training were conceptualized...

The gameplay in that was great, except for that crap where you had to find the triforce.

I just gave up, and didn't care.

But the ending to that game was epic!

 

[Wisp]

I loved WW. Great, epic, but just a tad (Ok, maybe a little more'n a tad) to easy. It ties with OoT for my favorite Zelda game of all existence. Anyways...

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[Cabbo Pearimo]

My dreams are about odd things. I enter into unfamiliar places and do unusual things, like drive around in a car with a friend's sister, saying 'we really need to get to the shops'. Hehehe. Strange dream, that one was.

 

[EditorOne]

I don't remember most dreams for more than a day or two. Rare exceptions:

When I was a volunteer firefighter, the night after I'd have been on a roof to ventilate a fire or deal with a chimney fire, I'd dream I was falling off the roof. That was pretty much a given, that I'd have that dream. I'd be scared but OK on the roof (the preferred condition, for safety's sake :-) ) but it's almost as if the fear part that was pushed down during the actual activity would get back at me later when I was asleep.

The annoying part about a dream like that is the tendency to wake up at the moment of impact. I've wondered if that's because your brain can't successfully postulate "dead" without the actual experience to draw upon, and kind of throws a circuit breaker or something to short out the dream. :-)

 

[mindovermatter]

sci-fi, psychotic, homicidal, frustration, horror, dreams of existing in ages past or future, dreams of having great knowledge or understanding of the future that no other has yet imagined......
i dream each and every night........long, detailed, vivid & in color........some remembered on awakening, some remembered at a later date or not at all

 

[Heart Logos]

My dreams are often elaborate and well plotted, like movies, full of memorable verbal and symbolic detail. Frustration and anxiety dreams are very common too. Recently, an encyclopedic frustration dream. Starting with an argument in the office over the use of the telephone, scenes shifted through the gamut of typical anxiety dreams: losing my passport, being criticised by my mother, missing a plane, not having studied for a school exam, a water leak in the house, and caring for a sick animal. But the end was novel: on the deck of a three-masted schooner sailing in thick fog and high waves through what might have been the Beagle Channel, black rocks breaking through the glassy water. Scary, and beautiful. Voice over: This Is Life. Oh yeah, I think, waking up. The First Truth of Buddhism.

 

[Jesin]

I hardly ever dream, or if I do, I hardly ever remember it.

I remember one instance that happened when I had been tired out from exercise and/or manual work the day before. My alarm clock was going off, and it didn't stop when I pressed the button. I couldn't figure out how to turn it off. When I unplugged it from the wall, it kept going. I put it on a chair out on the deck, got a hammer, and started smashing the clock with the hammer. It kept beeping. Then I slowly came to the realization that my arm was not swinging a hammer but was instead hanging off the side of the bed, and my alarm clock was still beeping because I had never even pressed the button.

About another dream I had, I can only remember that it involved mind control, and that fluorescent lighting and escalators were somehow important.

I have remembered a couple of other dreams in the past, but I don't remember any of them now.

 

[CowSavior]

I hardly ever dream, or if I do, I hardly ever remember it.

I remember one instance that happened when I had been tired out from exercise and/or manual work the day before. My alarm clock was going off, and it didn't stop when I pressed the button. I couldn't figure out how to turn it off. When I unplugged it from the wall, it kept going. I put it on a chair out on the deck, got a hammer, and started smashing the clock with the hammer. It kept beeping. Then I slowly came to the realization that my arm was not swinging a hammer but was instead hanging off the side of the bed, and my alarm clock was still beeping because I had never even pressed the button.

About another dream I had, I can only remember that it involved mind control, and that fluorescent lighting and escalators were somehow important.

I have remembered a couple of other dreams in the past, but I don't remember any of them now.

I have lots of dreams like those.

My mom usually get's really aggrivated at me because She'll wake me up for school, then I'll fall back asleep and dream that I am getting ready to go to school, then she'll call and ask if I've gotten ready and I'll say yes, and she'll come in my room and accuse me a lying simply so that I could sleep in longer.

This usually all happens in about five-ten minutes, though, because she also goes to sleep, and loses track of time.

 

[Linsejko]

I have done that, only, she didn't ask me if I was ready. She just stormed into my room.

It was hurting our relationship, at the time.

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My dreams are odd, disorganized, highly transitory, conceptual, abstract, and not very concrete. It's an alternate universe where not everything is coloured in. o.O

I rarely remember them.

.L

 

[Sleep]

I mostly have lucid dreams.
I usually just do sexual things with people I know in real life or explore the dreamworld.

They are quite fun!

 

[Heart Logos]

Has anybody else here experienced Sleep Paralysis? This is a normal-but-uncommon brain state that may be responsible for many reports of ghosts, vampires, alien abductions, waking nightmares, etc. I used to have a lot of these experiences, was glad to have them explained, and wondered if there's any association with INTP-ness. Excellent article, with scary pictures. (Sorry this has to be pasted in browser, several Forum tools do not work for me, including links.) http://www.phschool.com/science/science_news/articles/night_of_crusher.html

 

[Aphasia]

I wake myself up during dreams I recognize as nightmares. Does that count?

EDIT: Wow, I'm a senior member. That's new.

 

[sloperdude]

When I dream, I tend to be in a state of frustration. I often have a hard time seeing what's going on around me. Many of my dreams involve chasing or being chased, but I'm really slow, like I'm running through water that is waste deep.

Are these issues common dream state issues for INTP types?

An ExFx friend of mine says that she hates waking up because she always had good dreams. I was a bit envious.

I'm late to this discussion, but at times I've had some of those dreams too. They can be related to sleep apnea when your breathing slows down too much - you might wake up with a start, which gets you breathing. It can also be a panic attack, if you're prone to those. You can have panic attacks while sleeping.

Fortunately for me I haven't had any dreams like that for a while, though some of those dreams have been long, involved and interesting (to me at least.) In one dream I was pushing my way through an impossibly heavy crowd of people that were heading into a church, which I was trying to get out of. In real life I was raised in a Christian family, but when I was about 19 years old I began to trust science more than religion, and became an athiest (or as they now say, a Bright.)

 

[Zero]

My dreams aren't normally nightmares. Sometimes they actually play through with perfect sense, but they can be so vivid and intense that when I wake I don't really feel like I've slept.

I use to have consistent patterns of dreams, but now they're more random. I tend to dream of ships, large malls/arcades, large and complicated houses or aquariums... Sometimes I dream of cliff areas and mountains. Usually I like being in these places... They're all very amazing and somewhat whimsical and wondrous. Sometimes it's more of a nightmare to wake up. I use to dream of being in a strange air race with some kind of flying machine and traveling through desert areas...

I tend to dream of places, but I also occasionally have dreams directly related to what's happening in my life, sometimes I have sexual dreams and sometimes I have nightmares.

The thing I dislike the most about my dreams... is the fact that sometimes I don't really want to wake from them and when I do I feel tired.

 

[pmracc33186]

My dreams are very vivid, and I usually try to find the meaning of them. Lots of dream deja vu's in my life. I always look forward to dream.....

 

[Ex-User (221)]

My dreams are always nightmares, or at least the ones I can remember... They're normally those weird ones that shouldn't have been scary once you think about them but were absoloutly terrifying at the time. A lot of the time I half wake up(?) in the middle of a dream so I can make concious decisions within it, but the world around me is still completely abstract.

 

[creepingcharlie]

I'm late to this discussion, but at times I've had some of those dreams too. They can be related to sleep apnea when your breathing slows down too much - you might wake up with a start, which gets you breathing. It can also be a panic attack, if you're prone to those. You can have panic attacks while sleeping.

Fortunately for me I haven't had any dreams like that for a while, though some of those dreams have been long, involved and interesting (to me at least.) In one dream I was pushing my way through an impossibly heavy crowd of people that were heading into a church, which I was trying to get out of. In real life I was raised in a Christian family, but when I was about 19 years old I began to trust science more than religion, and became an athiest (or as they now say, a Bright.)

Ick! There is just somethings about the term Bright that I don't like. I think it's the implication that atheists are smarter than the rest. While I would say that many are, I would also have to keep in mind that I've met a number of very dumb atheists as well. Are they also considered brights?

For the record, I am an atheist and proud to be a member of America's most mistrusted minority.

 

[LeftenantWalker]

All my dreams, yes dreams not nightmares envolve killing, death, destuction, violence etc, there is death of my family friends etc right in front of me, plus there was one dream where my town was hit by a nuclear bomb everything was killed and destroyed yet i survived. And a few dreams recently where I'm an SS officer in Dacahu and Auscwhitz and I watched humans die but never felt anything.

 

[Medb]

I have a lot of dreams where im being chased but i can only move in slow motion too. I would say that, that type is frequent but not the most common. A lot of the time I have lucid dreams where the setting is picked for me, however, I can control for the most part what is going on. I have a single chronic nightmare, but Ive had that since I was little. Or i just have damn weird dreams like where I am talking with people I know who are dead lol, or if i wear a nicotine patch to bed by accident I get some really crazy ones.

 

[moonpie]

I woke up the morning before last and was in the fugue state of half awakeness and all i remember was that I had a dream where someone was making fun of the way I was dancing.

Bummer, hater.

 

[Cabbo Pearimo]

Public mastrobation. That was a really, really strange dream.

 

[Mischz]

I have crazy dreams. I used to keep a dream diary but then gave it up cos I just didn't have time to update it. Things like sitting on top of (rounded-topped) trains and falling off and flying and such.

But of late, I have come to realise though that many of my dreams pick up little cues and random thoughts I have in my waking life and manifest them into dramatic little soap operas at night. An inhibited imagination? I have had no time to sit and think lately.

 

[Tempestas]

I'm lucky. I haven't had nightmares (the kind where you wake up in a cold sweat, freaking out, totally disoriented) in a long time.

I do talk in my sleep, though, and occaisonally sleepwalk.

I used to have those dreams that never made sense. Now I dream about either a book/TV show/ movie I watched/thought about a lot before I fell asleep or an 'almost' nightmare about school. The kinds where you go to school and forget about big projects or something.

One of the worst kinds, though, are when you're trying to wake up in the morning and you have a dream about waking up, going through your morning routine, and getting to school, only to realize it was all a dream and you have to go through it again.

Grr.

My favorite ones are the flying dreams. I never have falling dreams, thankfully. Sometimes in these ones, I realize that it is a dream and I can control it to a certain extent. That's pretty cool.

Once I had writer's block when I was trying to write a story for this summer program and I dreamt the perfect thing. It was great too in the sense that it had a plot.

Has anyone ever died in their dreams? This has begun happening to me recently, and its pretty creepy. And it is always the same way- I get shot and begin to bleed out. The first time, I woke up clutching the side of my neck and the entire left side of my body was numb.

Thinking about it still gives me the chills.

*looks up* Oh, sorry... I rambled again... Oh well... Not to mention the fact that I'm pouring out all of these things about myself to complete strangers... Hahaha...*nervous laughter*

 

[Zero]

My dreams are usually pretty strange. They may make me frustrated, but for the most part they're rather random and don't have any emotional value to me in or out of them (as far as I can recall). I don't tend to have nightmares or night terrors. Sometimes I think I just dream in black.

 

[kchikage]

Has anyone ever died in their dreams?

I had dreamt a few times of me dying in dreams, but turned out quite an adventure.

My dreams are mostly adventures or stories that relate a lil to my daily life (sometimes I'm not even in the dream). Most of them are fantasies. I only have nightmares once in a while, so, it doesn't really matter.

So far, I haven't dreamt of any falling or flying dreams.

 

[Grish]

One of the worst kinds, though, are when you're trying to wake up in the morning and you have a dream about waking up, going through your morning routine, and getting to school, only to realize it was all a dream and you have to go through it again.

Yeah, I have those pretty often, actually. Usually, when I expect someone to wake me up and go somewhere with me (like my dad waking me up to go to church), I have a dream about it.

Once I had writer's block when I was trying to write a story for this summer program and I dreamt the perfect thing. It was great too in the sense that it had a plot.

I love those dreams with plots. I've occasionally ripped fully functional plots and settings and characters directly out of dreams.

Has anyone ever died in their dreams? This has begun happening to me recently, and its pretty creepy. And it is always the same way- I get shot and begin to bleed out. The first time, I woke up clutching the side of my neck and the entire left side of my body was numb.

Yeah, I think I've died in my dreams, though usually it isn't so explicit and I wake up at the moment that I die.

And by the way, am I the only person who can't remember ever having had a dream about flying?

 

[wigglyspider]

Those don't sound like my dreams.. I do get chased, but I'm usually really fast, and I can always see a lot around me.. I guess not in great detail, like if I try to look too closely... but it's not restricted or foggy in any way, if that's what you mean.

There is usually a lot of huge sweeping scenery in my dreams. And lots of people. And recently I've been getting storylines, which is new for me and I am excited about it. :3

 

[echoplex]

I seem to have a habit of dreaming of killing people, except in the dream I'm not really trying very hard to kill them and the whole premise of the dream is that they're supposed to let me kill them. Then they resist and I can't figure out why. Maybe I've seen a few too many horror movies.

Those seem to be mixed in with the ones about travelling cross country with no particular destination. Once I realize I don't know where I'm going, I freak out and the dream ends. *sigh*

And I can never seem to have one of those sexual dreams I keep hearing about. Seriously, it's been more than 10 years post-puberty now and I've probably only had maybe 5 or 6 sexually-charged dreams. Not that I need to or anything, but you'd think my mind would've cooked up a few more than that. I mean c'mon, I'm a pervert, this should be easy!

Instead I dream about murder and being attacked by wild animals. Freud would've had a field day with me.

 

[asdfasdfasdfsdf]

i almost ALWAYS have lucid dreams.
i am almost always able to fly in my dreams.
i have had a few reoccurring dreams.
one of them i wake up at like 5 a.m. or so, walk outside.. and it is really light out for some reason.. i see military planes fly overhead, and sky turns red loud noise.. etc.. i take shelter in a huge ditch in my yard.
all my trees are fallen over and the majority of the land is torn up.
everyone around me is dead but me.. or at least everytime i have the dream i never see someone that is alive before i am awake..
the weirdest part?
im happy.

 

[Ran]

Has anyone here (especially girls) had trans-gender dreams? Whenever I have dreams with plots and characters I'm almost always the action flick guy flirting the love interest of one or more girls. Most of these can be compared to a Bond movie in terms of action and the all powerful male protagonist. I'm a heterosexual girl so it's always very puzzling to me. And sometimes I would suddenly switch roles and jump into being the girl. It's as if the little conscious part of my brain says "Wait a second! You're a female! You'd love to enjoy the attention of such a great guy like yourself!"

I think it may have something to do with an ego issue? Perhaps the need to be the best and center of attention? (That's not very INTP of me )I'm pretty head strong and usually don't want to lose to guys just because of my gender. I have that "anything you can do I can do it better and I look better doing it 'cuz I'm a girl" attitude. ... Wow the vanity.

 

[asdfasdfasdfsdf]

Those don't sound like my dreams.. I do get chased, but I'm usually really fast

most of my dreams are a game of hunter and runner.
i always am unbelievable slow as i try to escape (im rather fit, and athletically built) and when i run i feel like i am going up and down more than laterally.

the thing hunting me has never one.. somehow or another.. i normally end up realizing i could fly.. so i get off the ground until i run out of stamina (flying makes me lose my breath.. i have to flail my arms and legs to do it.. like swimming in water..)

another way i normally escape is that i play diplomacy.. befriend the hunter one way or another.

it also helps that i am always invincible in my dreams.

although in one dream i was like a vampire with drill like claws (when i was way little). i was in the church that i went to at the time. all these people were standing outside the my bedroom (which was somehow in the church) where they waiting to kill me. so i took what i though were my necessities (my ps1, final fantasy seven.. and a ps1 remote) and ran out the door into the crowd.
i slayed about half of them, and escaped.

 

[asdfasdfasdfsdf]

I have that "anything you can do I can do it better and I look better doing it 'cuz I'm a girl" attitude. ... Wow the vanity.

sorry to make you feel worse, but this a huge turn-off to me as a guy.

i had one dream where i was a girl.. i was raped.

 

[Kidege]

Has anyone here (especially girls) had trans-gender dreams?

Yes. Sometimes I'm a guy, sometimes I'm a girl, but I'm always me.

Most of these can be compared to a Bond movie in terms of action and the all powerful male protagonist.

And this hasn't happened to me. When I dream of "action movies" I can be male or female, even if it includes flirting.

I'm a heterosexual girl so it's always very puzzling to me.

Which is why I identify myself as an androphile.

I think it may have something to do with an ego issue? Perhaps the need to be the best and center of attention? (That's not very INTP of me )I'm pretty head strong and usually don't want to loose to guys just because of my gender.

I don't like losing, period. But I think it's related to a search for the truth too, it's not only a matter of ego. And being expected to lose, consistently, because of one's bodily shape/plumbing/social indoctrination simply sucks.

Some dream dictionaries say that dreaming of yourself as male/female, and even dreaming of those selves flirting may mean that you're integrating your male/female traits. (I think it was dreamdictionary.com, but I'm not sure).

i had one dream where i was a girl.. i was raped.

You know, if one were to extrapolate the interpretation above, it could mean your subconscious was telling you to stop suppressing your female traits.

Or maybe you were a girl in a past life and were raped.

 

[asdfasdfasdfsdf]

Or maybe you were a girl in a past life and were raped.

i see how you came to this conclusion, and its not too bad..
but i dont really suppress any traits because they are feminine..
although in public i tend to suppress my inner feelings, and wear a mask that is like a mirror.. so that i act similar to those i am around .
/sigh

 

[Ran]

sorry to make you feel worse, but this a huge turn-off to me as a guy.

I would be surprised if anyone was actually attracted to it too I think I developed that attitude partly to antagonize men in general due to insecurities with my own gender, like a manifestation of my defense mechanism in response to the conflicting messages I receive about gender roles between two very different cultures. I think a lot of it has to do with immaturity too, that if I have a few more years under my belt to "find" my place and be content with myself that all this competitiveness would go away. In the end it's everything is about low self-esteem?

I don't like losing, period. But I think it's related to a search for the truth too, it's not only a matter of ego. And being expected to lose, consistently, because of one's bodily shape/plumbing/social indoctrination simply sucks.

Wow that's basically everything I was trying to explain. I love this place.

 

[Adymus]

I used to lucid dream all the time, without really trying. But I haven't been able to in a while; and if I do, then it will be difficult to maintain control over the dream. I used to get the chase dreams, or ones where I am being attacked and am too weak or fatigued to defend myself. Then at one point I started having dreams where I am attacking someone because they are attacking someone I care about. The latter dreams are just the opposite of the nightmares where I am too weak to defend myself, in these I was way stronger than I really am, and would ruthlessly annihilate the other person. And then there are the broken teeth dreams...

But I haven't really had very many of these lately, now it's just trippy shit that I never quite remember when I wake up. Other than the one I talked about in the psychology subforum.

 

[Carnap]

If you're having that type of dream it must be related to something going on in your life. I used to have dreams about birds attacking me when I was in a bad relationship. Often, your subconcious will let you know stuff you try to ignore in the day.