If it's Ti I have, it's clearly different to my surroundings. I have got a very good indication on this the last few weeks. My mother, who I am close to, and who is not even 60, suffered a subarachnoid hemorrhage, a severe one, grade 5 on the fisher grade two weeks ago. I had emotional reactions the two first days, and was crying. But then it was over, I accepted what was, and I started analyzing most everything to problem solve why it happened(work load, child care from my brothers, etc), what needed to be done(farm, and she did all the administrative work), and the actual event, the mechanism of the subarachnoid hemorrhage, so I could mentally follow the workings of the hemorrhage. Basically what would be in her interest. Doing the job she couldn't do. Lastly, how to reduce the chance of this occurring again. I found all the others not interested at all in my findings, all they are concerned about is Fe, nurturing their own feelings. Taking care of each others. And visiting her constantly, when calm and rest is after my research(and clear advice from doctors, as little brain activity as possible in this period) what she needs in her coma. Basically I found they are still sucking energy out from here, putting their burdens on here, believing it is what she needs, that they give to her. While it is the opposite, and a large part of the reason why she is where she is.
I'm actually quite disgusted by all of it. I've probably been somewhat to harsh, and understanding will down on them. So I've focused the last week on the actual hemorage, and it's viscous workings. On the side looked into and sorted out the administrative aspect of a farm, the bills etc, milked the cows, sending some of them away, as there was to many. Made sure my father was fed, as got into a problem as well. Suffered problems with his back, and could barely walk. Also shocked it seemed. As she was sitting in her chair and it was as one turned off a switch. No life for 20 seconds, until breathing started again. But he has healed, as was my greatest concern, as my mother is in good hands. Basically avoid cascade events, as came off as a risk factor.
While all the others, and there are quite a lot of them, only goes to the hospital to seemingly feel sorry for my mother, but it is their self they feel sorry for. They have gained no understanding of the situations what so ever. I am very disappointed. So I have sort of explained my findings and ignored them, and concentrated on what my mother would need. I think it's the selfishness of Fe that tends to upset me, and it's manipulative characteristic, and the wielder not even aware. Very dangerous. I've had to tell several of them to be careful to not create realities from imagined data. But I presume they have no idea what I mean with that, so not sure why I bothered.
Something odd happened though. I am not overly superstitious. But when she bleeded. I was sleeping in another part of the country. I woke up at exactly that time, with blood taste in my mouth, and was wondering how that could have happened, probably bit my lip. But I never do that, can't ever remember having done so, in my sleep,a few minutes later the phone calls. I consider it an odd coincidence. But I really hope my mother wakes up, as she is interested in the spiritual stuff, she will find it utterly fascinating, I'm sure. I will investigate this here later. But now I have enough trouble to understand how blood breakdown affects blood arteries. I'll leave the feeling sorry for them selves to the others. For me that is very intense and short lived. I had also prepared for it in advance, while for the others it came as a total surprise, no surprise there though, as she was working for them constantly, without ever having time for her self. I guess most people just don't pick up on signals.
Sometimes it's painful to understand, where ignorance would clearly be much more pleasant. Unfortunately, that doesn't get stuff done. Actually, perhaps it does get stuff done, and is why they do it. IMO Knowledge must be acquired,if possible, situations analyzed, and problems solved. It is the only way. This make me feel better, but they worse. If I can understand something, often that is all that is needed. And if I then wish, I can maybe do something about it. If I don't understand , I will surely be helpless.
That is the point it does not feel at all. Te makes you feel when you are an xxTJ.