Wanting to retreat

[Dimensional Transition]

Sometimes I feel like I'm sick of a lot of people. I wish I could just restart, not knowing anybody. Or just retreat in general. I don't like it when people look at me, or even think of me. The thought of that makes me uncomfortable.

It's not always like this, but feelings like these occasionally pop up.

Does this sound familiar?

 

[ItsRelative]

Sometimes I feel like I'm sick of a lot of people. I wish I could just restart, not knowing anybody. Or just retreat in general.

I feel this way sometimes. I like to stay home most of the time and friends come and visit me often, this is safe heaven for many of my friends when they just want to relax. Not long ago i had to tell them that i need more time of my own, guess i have more friends than i would like.
I would love to go for some distant island with laptop, internet and basic services and live there for year. That's definitely going on my to-do list... oh wait, i never had one.

For being looked and thought about i really don't care, i'm fairly sure it was bigger issue in the past.

 

[Dimensional Transition]

I'm not really sure what it is. I guess it has to do with insecurity combined with being an introvert, probably. I don't like it when I think of the fact that people actually think stuff about me. It creeps me out a little. I'm not sure why, but I just don't like the idea of it. It makes me feel uncomfortable. Maybe it's that I often hear people talk behind each others' backs, or that I personally can think very mean things about people sometimes (Like everybody, probably, but still.)... I'm just guessing though.

Again, I don't always feel like this, but quite often. A day per week or so. If I feel this way at school people often ask me if something is wrong, while there really isn't anything wrong... I just need to energize at home.

 

[ItsRelative]

People are weird with their irrational habits especially in teen age. When i think about my school years all i can say it's hard to be only sane person in sight Believe in yourself more, others will catch up eventually. Just... don't get arrogant. Gossip you see and hear is mostly very shallow show for bonding with friends.

Funny thought i had is that people tend to top over in some point, first they are naive teens, then grow up and be fairly open and smart, but soon life gets them and they become cynical. Finally if lucky open up again when they notice life is mostly over for them.

Edit: lot of "people" and "them/they" in this post. I'v been criticized for talking with this tone as it supposedly suggests i'm above everyone else and somehow special. Well sure i'm special like everyone is and i too act against best reasoning sometimes, but at the moment of thought i'm above all of that. It's easy to talk, bit harder to actually act accordingly.

Just had to get that off my chest i guess

 

[jlive]

I feel this way all the time. I just want to be left alone. People are too annoying.

 

[digital angel]

I understand the feeling. It may violate our need for some anonymity. Having said that, we have the gift of being indifferent or oblivious. I agree that you should keep your chin up; have confidence in yourself.

 

[downsowf]

I'm not really sure what it is. I guess it has to do with insecurity combined with being an introvert, probably. I don't like it when I think of the fact that people actually think stuff about me. It creeps me out a little. I'm not sure why, but I just don't like the idea of it. It makes me feel uncomfortable. Maybe it's that I often hear people talk behind each others' backs, or that I personally can think very mean things about people sometimes (Like everybody, probably, but still.)... I'm just guessing though.

Again, I don't always feel like this, but quite often. A day per week or so. If I feel this way at school people often ask me if something is wrong, while there really isn't anything wrong... I just need to energize at home.

Everybody wants to escape sometimes. Well, at least I do. I have the advantage of being older and living alone. Sometimes I will even shut my phone off for a whole day and night during the weekend too. You'll eventually gain confidence. Just remember that while extroverted people need constant validation by being around people, you actually feel comfortable within your own thoughts. So who's really insecure? And remember that everyone is in the same situation you are, and something is wrong with you if you actually enjoy being in school all day.

 

[Kuu]

Suicide, ever think of that?

Life, ever think of what you want from it?

 

[A22]

Sometimes I feel like I'm sick of a lot of people. I wish I could just restart, not knowing anybody. Or just retreat in general. I don't like it when people look at me, or even think of me. The thought of that makes me uncomfortable.

It's not always like this, but feelings like these occasionally pop up.

Does this sound familiar?

It comes and goes

 

[Dimensional Transition]

Everybody wants to escape sometimes. Well, at least I do. I have the advantage of being older and living alone. Sometimes I will even shut my phone off for a whole day and night during the weekend too. You'll eventually gain confidence. Just remember that while extroverted people need constant validation by being around people, you actually feel comfortable within your own thoughts. So who's really insecure? And remember that everyone is in the same situation you are, and something is wrong with you if you actually enjoy being in school all day.

Thanks man.

Suicide, ever think of that?

Life, ever think of what you want from it?

I'm not depressed or suicidal, I really like life. I just don't really like having other people around me ALL THE TIME.


Great to read all the replies.

 

[Pride]

Precisely why I moved to a big city (well, I also love big cities; I grew up in one). Not to feel the crowd or to find fame & fortune but to.... well, to extroverts (most people) who dislike metropolises and seas of people tend to claim they "dislike the feel of anonymity."

I am the complete opposite. I love anonymity. In fact, I adore it. I want to drown in a sea of anonymity if I could.... to simply sit back and observe the fascinating thing that is our world.

 

[ObliviousGenius]

Anonymity is something that I always seek to have but constantly eludes me. I really do not like attention and I'm so different from everyone else no one can understand that. I know exactly how you feel when it comes to getting away. I feel wanting to be anonymous is the most efficient way to sit back, observe, and make deductions based on what I see. In the spotlight my thoughts become too crowded with negative energy, mainly because of how annoyed I get because of it.

 

[Banned]

Sometimes I feel like I'm sick of a lot of people. I wish I could just restart, not knowing anybody. Or just retreat in general. I don't like it when people look at me, or even think of me. The thought of that makes me uncomfortable.

It's not always like this, but feelings like these occasionally pop up.

Does this sound familiar?

Yes. In fact, this has been a (bigger than usual) problem lately. I'm around and engaged by people 24/7, I never have the space to be physically alone, and if I am, it's usually only a waiting period before I know someone will bug me again. .__.

I never stay home, as I don't like being cooped up at home (and I have roommates anyway, so I'm not even alone there), but as I live in San Francisco, no matter where you go, even in the outdoors woodsy areas, people will quickly come by and just their presence makes me want to rage.

And forget going anywhere in public. I hate feeling like I'm being watched, in someone's way, having someone in my way, bumping against people, being squished like sardines with people on the bus.

(The wonders of the buses here: it's literally sardine packed. As in, people are TIGHTLY SQUISHING you at all sides while you stand on the bus for a 45 minute ride. And being shoved by the tidal wave of people as more people board the bus. It makes me think violent thoughts.)

^ That's twice a day.

And then school, where I'm surrounded by people - and dealing WITH them. And then the bus again. And then work. More people - around and with. And then the sardine bus back home. Where my 4 roommates are crawling the tiny inlaw room.

All the while, people are calling me, friends popping up at work or at my house uninvited. People nagging at me to keep on socializing with them.

I can't take it anymore. If I had a car, I'd drive up way up to some tumbleweed town and rent a secluded cabin somewhere in nature to be COMPLETELY alone for at least 2 days.

That's all I fucking need. Just 2 full days of solitude is all I ask. I haven't had a single day of real solitude for over 18 months. I know it sounds pathetic, but it's almost making me want to cry. And that's not easy to do.

Hell, even a road trip would do the trick. Anything. Anything. I'm desperate.

I'm about to spend a fortune renting a car just so I can do this. There is no other alternative. I'm getting close to the breaking point.

 

[Zionoxis]

I guess I have my own way of doing it, but I agree. If I am around people a lot, after a while, I will become quite irritable and I just feel the absolute need to get away. I want to lock myself in my room, keep contact with people online at my own discretion, and just do as I please. I like friends, I like communication, but there are times when I cannot stand the presence of people.

 

[Jelly Rev]

I was like this. needing to recharge the day after being with a group of people.
Then one day recently I was going extremely introvert and I didnt like it. I wanted to stop the process but I could not. I didnt like the term introversion for what happens in these situations. The more correct term is having schizothymia.
Where the introversion actually becomes a schizoid personality disorder in nature.

So I used the power of google to search for a cure. I found such a cure, went to the store bought the products. I then consumed the products waited to see the effects. The effects worked correctly actually great.
I used niacin and 5HTP to restore neurochemical balance. Worked great, schizoness went down, energy went up, anxiety gone, paranoid gone, rummination gone.
like negative trains of thought dissapeared.

http://www.doctoryourself.com/niacin.html

 

[Dapper Dan]

I was like this. needing to recharge the day after being with a group of people.
Then one day recently I was going extremely introvert and I didnt like it. I wanted to stop the process but I could not. I didnt like the term introversion for what happens in these situations. The more correct term is having schizothymia.
Where the introversion actually becomes a schizoid personality disorder in nature.

So I used the power of google to search for a cure. I found such a cure, went to the store bought the products. I then consumed the products waited to see the effects. The effects worked correctly actually great.
I used niacin and 5HTP to restore neurochemical balance. Worked great, schizoness went down, energy went up, anxiety gone, paranoid gone, rummination gone.
like negative trains of thought dissapeared.

http://www.doctoryourself.com/niacin.html

His avatar is House. It must be true.

But yeah, I deal with this to a much smaller extent. I find walks to be very good for this and other problems, such as sitting in front of the computer for far too long.

 

[Jelly Rev]

His avatar is House. It must be true.

word up.

lol I just did what INTP's do best, figure out the problem and solve it. I do have placebo doubts but I will continue this supplementation along with magnesium.
Totally in the experimental phase but here is a better explanation of how seretonin, 5htp,
http://www.hypoglycemia.asn.au/articles/serotonin_connection.html

 

[Wizardry]

I was wondering if it might not have a bit more to do with oxytocin levels in conjunction with the other neurochemicals.

 

[Reverse Transcriptase]

Life, ever think of what you want from it?

Ah! Awesome. awesome awesome line to end it with. I've got a fucking book to write and a booky girl to fuck.

Precisely why I moved to a big city (well, I also love big cities; I grew up in one). Not to feel the crowd or to find fame & fortune but to.... well, to extroverts (most people) who dislike metropolises and seas of people tend to claim they "dislike the feel of anonymity."

I am the complete opposite. I love anonymity. In fact, I adore it. I want to drown in a sea of anonymity if I could.... to simply sit back and observe the fascinating thing that is our world.

Anonymity is awesome. In gigantic crowds, you often feel totally comfortable with what you're doing. Especially if you get the vibe that a lot of other people are also not sober.