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Hey, my name is Sean and I just recently took the myers-briggs personality test, my result was INTP. After reading about the personality type I started to notice some pretty startling parallels to my personality and with regard to my interaction with the world in general. I'm still pretty skeptical about the idea of personality profiling, but after reading some of the threads here I think it's reasonable to say this area of the internet remains untainted by the writhing masses. I guess I'm interested to hear what you guys have to say about me, or if you can relate to anything I say.
Well, about myself I guess. I'm 18, and pretty much directionless at this point in my life. Ever since I can remember, I've had difficulty socializing and interacting with people. Around the time I was 8, I took a standardized test that determined I was "gifted". This, compounded with the fact that I had little social grace, turned me into an outcast. Ever since I was a kid I've not only felt different from the the majority, I've been told I was. When I entered highschool, I can only laugh at how nerdy I must have seemed, although I am really the opposite, I hated school. I never really had to try in school where I took all University (AP for you americans?) courses, cruising by with an 80%, never doing homework and putting my head down on my desk or drawing in class. It's hard to describe my highschool experience; I was essentially a ghost. I never stayed for lunch or after school, just came into class, sat alone, and left when it was over.
I began to feel extremely detached from the world, feeling numb. At the time, I would describe it as looking at the world through a window while it rains, everything just a pointless blur. I fell into a dark hole somewhere during highschool, which, looking back, was probably the most enlightening thing to ever happen to me. I confronted questions dealing with ethics, reality, living, my importance in the world, death, religion, etc. My parents divorced sometime during early highschool, which strangely enough never made me feel sad or badly about it. I don't usually feel sad, just a disconnected, robotic numbness when confronted with highly emotional people I cannot empathize with. At some point, I discarded some of my naive ideals, embraced the futility of life and decided to have fun and stop sucking. I was always interested in music, so I learned how to play the guitar, which was a much needed activity and focus for my creativity.
I started to socialize more, going to some parties and drinking. I also started to notice how the majority of people, while nice and all, bore me to death with their mediocrity. So much in fact that I'll end a relationship through avoidance tactics even if the other person obviously likes me. After meeting the people I had so desperately wanted to fit in with, I wasn't really impressed with anyway. I was introduced to weed through my best friend (who is one of the only people I truly respect). Eventually, me and him were smoking weed every day. Since then, I've tried mushrooms and LSD, my first LSD trip can only be described as an epiphany, it changed me forever, for the good. I've felt happier since, I realized that I can be happy as long as I embrace my eccentricities and just have fun with life. I just realised I wrote some lame essay about myself, so... bullet points?
Well, about myself I guess. I'm 18, and pretty much directionless at this point in my life. Ever since I can remember, I've had difficulty socializing and interacting with people. Around the time I was 8, I took a standardized test that determined I was "gifted". This, compounded with the fact that I had little social grace, turned me into an outcast. Ever since I was a kid I've not only felt different from the the majority, I've been told I was. When I entered highschool, I can only laugh at how nerdy I must have seemed, although I am really the opposite, I hated school. I never really had to try in school where I took all University (AP for you americans?) courses, cruising by with an 80%, never doing homework and putting my head down on my desk or drawing in class. It's hard to describe my highschool experience; I was essentially a ghost. I never stayed for lunch or after school, just came into class, sat alone, and left when it was over.
I began to feel extremely detached from the world, feeling numb. At the time, I would describe it as looking at the world through a window while it rains, everything just a pointless blur. I fell into a dark hole somewhere during highschool, which, looking back, was probably the most enlightening thing to ever happen to me. I confronted questions dealing with ethics, reality, living, my importance in the world, death, religion, etc. My parents divorced sometime during early highschool, which strangely enough never made me feel sad or badly about it. I don't usually feel sad, just a disconnected, robotic numbness when confronted with highly emotional people I cannot empathize with. At some point, I discarded some of my naive ideals, embraced the futility of life and decided to have fun and stop sucking. I was always interested in music, so I learned how to play the guitar, which was a much needed activity and focus for my creativity.
I started to socialize more, going to some parties and drinking. I also started to notice how the majority of people, while nice and all, bore me to death with their mediocrity. So much in fact that I'll end a relationship through avoidance tactics even if the other person obviously likes me. After meeting the people I had so desperately wanted to fit in with, I wasn't really impressed with anyway. I was introduced to weed through my best friend (who is one of the only people I truly respect). Eventually, me and him were smoking weed every day. Since then, I've tried mushrooms and LSD, my first LSD trip can only be described as an epiphany, it changed me forever, for the good. I've felt happier since, I realized that I can be happy as long as I embrace my eccentricities and just have fun with life. I just realised I wrote some lame essay about myself, so... bullet points?
- I am an athiest. Religion is so illogical it hurts me a little bit inside.
- I am have an understanding of most generally accepted scientific theories, which still amaze me in their complexity. Things just get more and more vague and abstract the smaller they get (quantum theory, natural laws of the universe) or the bigger they get (Relativity, Origin of the Universe). I've become comfortable living in relative uncertainty of these fine details, and feel like physics is something I'll never specialize in.
- I like music, but the pop music on the radio and tv these days tends to disgust me. I have a specific penchant for indie music, but I like all sorts of music. I will give anything a decent listen provided it is music created by an actual artist, not fabricated by the record company as a product to be sold.
- I enjoy reading, fiction and non-fiction. I like to read philosophy, psychology, political science and history books especially.
- I've never had a girlfriend. In terms of looks, I'm pretty frequently told I'm good looking, I have no worries in that department. The problem is, I think, is that when I talk to most girls I have to almost dumb myself down to talk with them. Instead of talking about my true interests, it's always something trivial, or some touchy-feely nonsense. I feel an extremely intense desire to love, though, I just want to make someone feel happy with me.
- I have a pretty good vocabulary, but it rarely gets any use in my daily conversations. I appreciate the elegance of language and words, and I find it irksome when people don't understand me and give me that ignorant look.
- Although I feel I'm an exceptional person, I don't demonstrate my talents or knowledge to many people, if at all. For example, In school when the teacher asked questions, I would never raise my hand, even though I did know the answer most of the time. I feel the need to know things but don't feel the need to share my knowledge with others.
- I really became a completely different person in highschool, becoming more confident and self-assured in my individuality.
(I hope I'm not being too obtuse).
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