Really Tired: INTP on a Journey

[quitejaded]

You can tell I'm tired. Why? Because I accidentally typed INTJ in the search bar. Signed up for the INTJ forum. Spent my sane hours there. Realized later that I meant INTP...

I'm going to copy and past my intro from there. And I felt the need for the intro because someone is already referring to me in strange terms that I do not understand.


And here... we... go!

Howdy, people!

I just want to say how relieved I feel right now. There is a place for me to come with people who think like me! With problems I can relate to! It feels so good...

I'm a young college student who has been told over and over how bright she is. How creative she is. And so, I had high standards for myself. Only to find that I constantly cannot meet them. At one point, I lowered them as low as they could go and I fell splat on the ground.

So, I have taken a month to really do some digging. I found many mentors and took a few tests (and more tests are to come). Figuring out my personality and what I might want to do with my future. This month has been wonderful. I am still on my journey to full understanding who I am and what I need. This forum can help! And I might help others! (I'm eventually going to put cutely editted youtube videos just because I love the prospect!)

I am really enjoying what I am seeing here. God bless whomever made this forum. I'm very curious and interested in meeting many new people! I like to be flirty, but I can control myself.

Oh! Uhm... My family is from West Africa. I was born in Australia and lived in England. Now, I am proud Texan! YEEHAW!

 

[Thaklaar]

Yay, another Texan. Welcome, quitejaded. Hope this place helps you on your journey.

 

[snowqueen]

YAnd I felt the need for the intro because someone is already referring to me in strange terms that I do not understand.

goodness I can't imagine why!!

 

[Haruhi]

goodness I can't imagine why!!

Indeed. I shall call the SOS Club to investigate.

 

[loveofreason]

I'm gazing into my crystal ball, jaded.... you have a verrrry interesting future....

*creepy smile*

I expect we shall be seeing you around....

 

[quitejaded]

Thanks for the warm (and... strange? Actually, no thanks on the strange :/) welcomes!

Someone showed me another INTP forum. Doesn't seem as interesting as this one. Well, these both have their differences I think the colour scheme has a lot to do with it, oddly enough.

 

[saffyangelis]

Hiya Jade

And hello and welcome to the forum! Have a sack of hand grenades, chances are, you might need 'em! *tosses bag to Jade*

 

[quitejaded]

Haha, uh, alright!

 

[Toad]

"Has been told over and over how bright she is. How creative she is. And so, I had high standards for myself. Only to find that I constantly cannot meet them."

I can relate to that. I always felt that people complimenting me all the time made me really lazy. It made me think I didn't have to work hard to accomplish things. But the truth is, no matter how talented you are you still have to work hard. In the end the hard workers will survive us all...

 

[quitejaded]

Red Toad, my problem was I WOULD work hard. I worked so hard and so against my natural grain that I eventually fell apart and collapsed.

That's why I'm so, so sad. Or... WAS so, so sad. I feel much better now that I have a new direction and trusted mentors to talk to.

 

[Ogion]

Hi and welcome to the forum, quitejaded. May you find interesting and enlightening discussions.

Ogion

 

[Anthile]

Gurren Lagann avatar? You are probably an awesome person.

 

[quitejaded]

Thank you, Ogion. I have already started and been in some promising threads.

LOL, Anthile, from the looks of your avatar, you should prove to be ultra cool, yourself.

 

[Weliddryn]

Really tired? I hear you... lol....

...Welcome.

 

[Ermine]

I'm a young college student who has been told over and over how bright she is. How creative she is. And so, I had high standards for myself. Only to find that I constantly cannot meet them. At one point, I lowered them as low as they could go and I fell splat on the ground.

Yes! I'm sick and tired of people telling me how smart and creative I am. I keep feeling that I'm really fairly average, just getting by (according to my standards). I don't know if these hopes are in vain, but I really hope that in college, I can be in an environment where the standards can be closer to my internal standards. Even though I have an intense fear of being incompetent, I just want someone to tell me I can do better than that!

Someone tell me I'm not doing my best, dangit! Most people can't tell if I'm doing mediocre or if it's my very best. They don't see a difference.

And welcome to the forum. You seem pretty cool.

 

[Haruhi]

Stop worrying about what they say or think, my dears.

They are the sheep, we are the shepherds. If they bleet, bleed them.



Wait.



Is he leading them off a cliff?

 

[Enne]

You can tell I'm tired. Why? Because I accidentally typed INTJ in the search bar. Signed up for the INTJ forum. Spent my sane hours there. Realized later that I meant INTP...

I'm going to copy and past my intro from there. And I felt the need for the intro because someone is already referring to me in strange terms that I do not understand.


And here... we... go!

Howdy, people!

I just want to say how relieved I feel right now. There is a place for me to come with people who think like me! With problems I can relate to! It feels so good...

I'm a young college student who has been told over and over how bright she is. How creative she is. And so, I had high standards for myself. Only to find that I constantly cannot meet them. At one point, I lowered them as low as they could go and I fell splat on the ground.

So, I have taken a month to really do some digging. I found many mentors and took a few tests (and more tests are to come). Figuring out my personality and what I might want to do with my future. This month has been wonderful. I am still on my journey to full understanding who I am and what I need. This forum can help! And I might help others! (I'm eventually going to put cutely editted youtube videos just because I love the prospect!)

I am really enjoying what I am seeing here. God bless whomever made this forum. I'm very curious and interested in meeting many new people! I like to be flirty, but I can control myself.

Oh! Uhm... My family is from West Africa. I was born in Australia and lived in England. Now, I am proud Texan! YEEHAW!

Wow. My family is also from West Africa. You've traveled a lot! What kind of mentoring did you find? I always thought that stopped w/ the guidance counselors. BTW, welcome.

 

[QSR]

I've always sort of been told that I'm underachieving, and for those who don't say it outright, they imply it. Lots of people tell me I have potential of course.

 

[Kuu]

I'm really tired too. We can be tired together. Unless that would involve too much of an effort.

Someone tell me I'm not doing my best, dangit!

YOU CAN DO BETTER THAN THIS, ERMINE.

I think the only teacher I've actually respected was the one that told me that, just as he gave me a failing grade on a class for the first time in my life. I needed that. Wish people would care enough to do that more often.

 

[snowqueen]

I think the only teacher I've actually respected was the one that told me that, just as he gave me a failing grade on a class for the first time in my life. I needed that. Wish people would care enough to do that more often.

That's interesting to hear. There is a view around in teaching at the moment that we shouldn't be criticising students as it damages their confidence. Of course being highly critical and not offering praise or guidance is useless, but I think there is a danger of letting students down if we don't let them know that they need to work harder.

I had a student who was very stubborn, arrogant - had come out of the army so he wasn't used to being told what to do by civvies. I thought he had lots of potential but he had a closed mind, thought he knew best and always challenging. I don't mind challenges though. I had a strong altercation with him in front of the whole classroom once - he eventually backed down but I could tell he was pissed off with me. I was really worried. Then later in a practical session he had to do something and it didn't go well and I knew it was because he thought he didn't need to prepare properly and so I had the opportunity to let him know that he had let himself down big time. I asked him if he would have prepared so badly in the army if he was going on a mission - that really hit home. The next year I supervised his research and he took every bit of advice without question and ended up getting the highest mark he had ever had at university and sent me a big thank you card.

But at the time when you confront a student you simply don't know if it's the right thing to do. I rely on Ne a lot in those situations.

 

[snowqueen]

whoops I didn't mean to derail your intro jade!

Hopefully once you've been here a while you won't feel so tired.

 

[quitejaded]

I was tired because I was pulling a pointless all-nighter, lol

Where in West Africa are you from? (to whomever said that)

I am seeing a minister, a therapist, and a career counselour.

My issue is that I already know that I can do better. For some reason, I don't. And it hurts me to know that people think I have so much potential and I somehow can't make myself live up to it.

 

[quitejaded]

Help! I'm trying to post this link:
YouTube- 2012: The End of the World

in the 2012 thread but everytime I post, it disappears!

 

[fullerene]

lol, sorry 'bout that... that's our spam filter. Every post with an external link (minus a few specific exceptions) gets eaten by the spam filter until it's approved by a mod. The mods will eventually go through the spam-collector and let it through.

It's a little annoying, but not too bad. The longest one of my posts has been held up has been 2-ish days, I think, and more likely than not you can find a mod in the IRC room or flashchat if it's a critically impotant post, and ask them to let one through.

 

[quitejaded]

Woah, there's a chat? Where??

And I'm trying to figure out what 90!11 is.

 

[fullerene]

flashchat is at the bottom of the main page, right below the list of online members. Click the three little people to get there.

As for the IRC, server is "irc.ecnet.org" and room is #intpforum.com

If that makes no sense to you, read Anthile's tutorial on how to get into the IRC room. INTP Forum - View Single Post - IRC Tutorial

 

[Enne]

I was tired because I was pulling a pointless all-nighter, lol

Where in West Africa are you from? (to whomever said that)

I am seeing a minister, a therapist, and a career counselour.

My issue is that I already know that I can do better. For some reason, I don't. And it hurts me to know that people think I have so much potential and I somehow can't make myself live up to it.

Nigeria.