WALKYRIA
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How do you deal with poverty? Seriously? Can you seriously grow into your( "become who you are" said Nietzche) full INTP potential without the proper money ? Do you think that the expression of/ fruition of intellect in INTP is directly dependent on the quality of the upbringing(money?)? I heard that there were basically two kinda INTPs... On one hand: the high achieving/ highly intellectual/sholar/and recognized genius... And on the other hand: the unrecognized/lazy genius/underachiever/pseudo-intellectual... wa u think of diz dude?
It seems that I'm trying to go from the latter to the former... but psychologically difficult/impossible? Poverty has developed Fe and Ne prematurely... you know, poor people are not supposed to behave like dicks lol(it's politically incorrect isn't it ?). I don't regret my poverty though, I learned to love it.. and I became INTP lol.
Personally, being poor and having antecedents of low achieving(in high school, mainly becoz of a mild form of depression...later things changed!)... I feel a bit like a fraud(to the professors and my family) when I somehow perform highly. And the feeling(fear to be a high achiever/ considered as an intellectual) kinda sets boundaries to my abilities.
I'm a totally self-educated and self-made(next year) man, and really I never thought It was as hard as it is to go from the bottom way up to the top.. It's really hard-mentally- , because you cannot hide your non-rich behavioral patterns... and rich people sense that you'r an outsider.( humility, wisdom, and a non intellectual speech pattern...)
I am a student and I feel like my lack of socialization and aloofness is almost directly or...is partly due to poverty(If one person is interested in me, I will withdraw because my financial and time potential are very limited !!); becoz I'm self conscious about my money status... I'm poor. For instance, I can't date as well as I potentially could(since I live in a little room, and I'm not confident when I bring a girl in my lil home,nope.. It's just not how I envision a relationship with a gyal). I can't eat what I want. I can't do the cultural/intellectual activities I wish I could do. I can't offer quality stuffs to the people I love. I can't buy the books I love. I can't have a lifestyle like I would want to have . I cannot pursue my dreams. I don't meet the people I wish I could meet.( because med school as you know it is filled mainly with boring/ rich/good family TJ's and FJ's... I'm the more laid back NT) ..
I wonder if deeply I'm not a restricted/limited ENTP(because it seems I have a certain charism, wit and aura, I'm pretty popular but in a very low key way.. but that could just be a well developed Ne-Fe)... and also wonder how I would behave if I had good money and time for myself?I feel indeed limitated by my lack of money. I doubt I would stay home all time like I do now if I had money(would be traveling and meeting plenty of intelligent people out there, starting educational blogs, starting business projects in parallel with my jobs, get involved with politics, photography, ... !)...
I think I would be more balanced between I/E and the P/J.
SO INTPS: Is money a factor in your happiness? Did your happiness somehow increase when you started to earn good money?
*** CONTEXT: I've been always in the top 1% poorest people. dude, that's lame. For one reason or another I didn't have the chance to grow up with my parents( maybe the reason for my INTPness?); I grew up in poverty with my single grandmother( who couldn't read nor write nor educate me in the required occidental cultural ways !); It was great and difficult at the same time... I taught myself everything at school(I endured everything alone: from the bullying till the depression in my adolescence till entrance in university... ) ; I actually educated myself... I'm like one of those wild kids in some ways... never had opportunity for outside school activities/passions( besides soccer, because it was the cheapest-a ball-; so I became a star at it !)
Never tried music( although I loved it), never had chance to meet people like me ( NT*), actually it was a shock to find out there were other NTs.
OK, I'm tired... back later...
It seems that I'm trying to go from the latter to the former... but psychologically difficult/impossible? Poverty has developed Fe and Ne prematurely... you know, poor people are not supposed to behave like dicks lol(it's politically incorrect isn't it ?). I don't regret my poverty though, I learned to love it.. and I became INTP lol.
Personally, being poor and having antecedents of low achieving(in high school, mainly becoz of a mild form of depression...later things changed!)... I feel a bit like a fraud(to the professors and my family) when I somehow perform highly. And the feeling(fear to be a high achiever/ considered as an intellectual) kinda sets boundaries to my abilities.
I'm a totally self-educated and self-made(next year) man, and really I never thought It was as hard as it is to go from the bottom way up to the top.. It's really hard-mentally- , because you cannot hide your non-rich behavioral patterns... and rich people sense that you'r an outsider.( humility, wisdom, and a non intellectual speech pattern...)
I am a student and I feel like my lack of socialization and aloofness is almost directly or...is partly due to poverty(If one person is interested in me, I will withdraw because my financial and time potential are very limited !!); becoz I'm self conscious about my money status... I'm poor. For instance, I can't date as well as I potentially could(since I live in a little room, and I'm not confident when I bring a girl in my lil home,nope.. It's just not how I envision a relationship with a gyal). I can't eat what I want. I can't do the cultural/intellectual activities I wish I could do. I can't offer quality stuffs to the people I love. I can't buy the books I love. I can't have a lifestyle like I would want to have . I cannot pursue my dreams. I don't meet the people I wish I could meet.( because med school as you know it is filled mainly with boring/ rich/good family TJ's and FJ's... I'm the more laid back NT) ..
I wonder if deeply I'm not a restricted/limited ENTP(because it seems I have a certain charism, wit and aura, I'm pretty popular but in a very low key way.. but that could just be a well developed Ne-Fe)... and also wonder how I would behave if I had good money and time for myself?I feel indeed limitated by my lack of money. I doubt I would stay home all time like I do now if I had money(would be traveling and meeting plenty of intelligent people out there, starting educational blogs, starting business projects in parallel with my jobs, get involved with politics, photography, ... !)...
I think I would be more balanced between I/E and the P/J.
SO INTPS: Is money a factor in your happiness? Did your happiness somehow increase when you started to earn good money?
*** CONTEXT: I've been always in the top 1% poorest people. dude, that's lame. For one reason or another I didn't have the chance to grow up with my parents( maybe the reason for my INTPness?); I grew up in poverty with my single grandmother( who couldn't read nor write nor educate me in the required occidental cultural ways !); It was great and difficult at the same time... I taught myself everything at school(I endured everything alone: from the bullying till the depression in my adolescence till entrance in university... ) ; I actually educated myself... I'm like one of those wild kids in some ways... never had opportunity for outside school activities/passions( besides soccer, because it was the cheapest-a ball-; so I became a star at it !)
Never tried music( although I loved it), never had chance to meet people like me ( NT*), actually it was a shock to find out there were other NTs.
OK, I'm tired... back later...