Just because...(Blame Lor)

[Melkor]

http://www.snapvine.com/vc/lOETHvfWEd2HUAAwSFxx0g/0f9WAQ

 

[loveofreason]

*disentangles Melkor from her skirts and pushes him forward to take a bow*

...poor timid creature.

 

[cheese]

I thought you were going to sing.

Also, you sounded like an evil mass murderer.

 

[Weliddryn]

He reminds me of Jigsaw. O.O

 

[Cognisant]

Yay, Melkor hates my name, I feel so special.

"It's better to be loved than hated, unless you hate being loved, because then you'll love being hated" - Hypothetical Machiavelli

 

[Dormouse]

Also, you sounded like an evil mass murderer.

I actually found his voice rather hypnotic...

Though I suppose that would be a good quality for the vocals of a serial killer.

 

[Auburn]

Yes, most all either gone or inactive. It's rather sad isn't it.. Yet the beauty of a thing is found in it's sorrow, for only in sorrow can it's true beauty be appreciated.

As for the name.. it was an act of mercy; a desperate attempt to end the life of an already decaying identity. Auburn is dead to this forum - having exhausted his intimacy, self-expression, and openness, to the point of vacancy. Auburn belongs now only in the memory of those who chose to preserve him. But it is not safe for him here any longer.

 

[Cavallier]

Did that bastard purr at us? What the hell?!?!?

I agree. We need to hunt down Snowqueen and tie her to a chair until she makes reasoned intelligent witty responses to every single thread made in the last month!

Also, I've been thinking about doing some book review threads but I was under the impression I was surrounded by techies and not bookies...was I wrong in my assumption?

 

[Lyra]

Auburn, I agree. The forum has long hardened to the kind of sensitivity which was suited to you expressing yours.

It's a basic rule of good (thus, always, rare) internet forums, I think: they degenerate. Beauty only flourishes online in the undiscovered and generally undervalued, and by the time you've gotten used to it it's gone. That this place once was home to it necessitated that the forum would fall to a low in comparison to what it once was. That it would be homogenised by the endless and relentless filth in which it is submerged-- the modern internet-- was as inevitable as the rape of virgins in villages beset by hordes marauding barbarians.

The forum is a microcosm of the macrocosmic development of the internet itself: the internet only got uglier and less refined over time, and the ubiquitous human-masses which desecrated it weren't even aware of the profanity they were committing. As above, so below: as on the internet, so in its sub-sections.

(I recognise that that might not be what you're referring to-- perhaps your reasons were more personal.)

...but Azarath is a truly terrible name.

 

[lightspeed]

Beautiful voice.

 

[Auburn]

@ Lyra - precisely.

It seems inevitable, and natural, just as the climax of sexual intercourse and the decline that follows. The most precious things in life only last for a fleeting moment, or so it seems to me. I've never been able to grasp onto true beauty for long; it slips away all too soon.

Anything holy is all too quickly tainted by the impurity of the surrounding world. Yet it's amazing to see just how much impact such short angelic moments have; the waves they cause continue to swim through the ocean for decades.

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The name is very symbolic to me. It is an incantation of dark magic used by the character Raven; who I can synchronize with perfectly. She is also a fragmented personality in her internal world, just as I am. One of my favorite animations of all time: http://www.bigvidpro.com/?v=pZsbJ3EMXtUZI59qtpATQA

And I also wanted a name that is not necessarily aesthetic, approachable or entertaining. Perhaps I did too good of a job..

 

[Lyra]

I know this might seem odd, but I think you'd greatly benefit from reading two stories which, in a veiled but precise way, deal with exactly what we're discussing: the presencing of the numinous in the common causal world, and the subtleties and beauties of that process. Incidentally, they're written by a black magick group that I'm affiliated with.

http://www.nineangles.info/breaking_the_silence_down-v1-1.pdf
http://www.nineangles.info/the_greyling_owl-v1.pdf


I'm linking them for you not because I want you to read about or become interested in the group that wrote them, but because I think that they might speak to your sensitivity. Such sensitivity usually faces little but crushing non-recognition in the world, and can be a source of great pain, which is why I find these stories as precious as I do: they not only see it for the beauty it is, but also describe a way of... flowing with it... in the world, and of making a hidden magick of it. Without being tainted.

For you, specifically, I don't recommend reading any of the other stories or online material to do with the group. That's because it, to, was subject to a similar process of degeneration; those who talk about online now are mostly ugly, ugly after-effects. And because the other 3 stories in the Deofel Quintet deliberately play with stereotypes and horror in a way which, given your posts, I think wouldn't be best suited to you. You're a subtler person than the type they're meant for.

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The acausal (the beautiful, the numinous, the rare, the sacred) can't, in our causal world, establish itself with any stability or permanence. It can always be found, but often only in the darkness and the shadowed and, above all, the unseen-to-the-many. When it does presence itself in causality, its influence can be felt, as you said, like waves running through the ocean of time. Its beauty can linger on for decades, living through all those who were touched by it, and who by that encounter discover the secret, fugitive wonder that life can hold.

What is this forum now?

The ruins of a temple passed.

 

[Claverhouse]

Fraternal Greetings to Comrade Melkor, self-criticism is an essential part of socialist practice and the Central Committee gladly encourages all party members to engage in awareness of their short-comings so as to better serve the cause of international freedom and solidarity with workers and peasants alike.

Your frank statement has been noted in the highest echelons of power, and action will be taken.






After that act of defiance Grigor was never heard from again


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After that act of defiance Grigor was never heard from again. And none in the company ever spoke of the incident. He was my best friend.



( From the insanely perfect, but necessarily short-lived Rolcats. )





Claverhouse

 

[Jesin]

they not only see it for the beauty it is, but also describe a way of... flowing with it... in the world, and of making a hidden magick of it. Without being tainted.

Hmm... Something about that post makes me a bit uneasy...

I admire what you're trying to do here, Lyra, but I'm not so sure about your methods. I ask you to carefully consider the possibility of unintended side effects.

Most importantly (and this goes to Auburn/Azarath as well), please remember: there is never only one way.

 

[Jesin]

What is this forum now?

The ruins of a temple passed.

Are we lamenting the decline of the forum again?

Because we've done that before. It recovered.

 

[Lyra]

I certainly recognise that there is never only one way.

I'm afraid I (genuinely) don't understand the rest of your meaning, though. I'd appreciate it if you clarified, either by pm or in this thread. Just... describe your thought in a little more depth.

Edit: cross post. This is in response to your first. In response to your second: I am not lamenting, but praying.

 

[Jesin]

Hmm, I'm not entirely sure myself. Perhaps I was erring on the side of caution (or thought I was)?

Meh. Point is, never mind.