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Since I started noticing boys at age 11, I've been drawn to the strange and edgy. I know that most women tend to like "bad boys" but I think my situation is a bit different. I've found myself being sexually attracted to extremely violent boys and men. I mean like serial killers, school shooters, the guys that dress in all black and practice vampiric blood-letting with their girlfriends.
Yeah. Like that.
In high school, there was this guy who completely fascinated me and I don't think he had one screw tight in that head of his (above, I was referring to him). He had a behavior disorder (he told me this one day although I kind of assumed as much) and it completely turned me on. It was weird, which made the situation all the more attractive to me.
Do you know what totally killed it for me?
The following year on the first day of school, there was this buzz going around about him which, given his prior status, seemed odd. When I finally encountrered him for the first time that school year, he had COMPLETELY changed his look and demeanor. Don't get me wrong. I'm totally for people getting psychological help when they need it so I didn't fault him for the demeanor thing. But he'd done away with the black trenchcoats, the wicked fro-hawk and painful looking piercings and traded them in for a varsity football jacket and college-cut. He seemed "cured" from his disorder, which I was happy about on a level (no more suffering) but his foray into the world of Abercrombie & Fitch just killed any sexual feelings I had for the guy.
And then there's the movie "Mr. Brooks". I suppose you see where I'm going with that so I won't go into detail but I will say that now I have the biggest jones for Kevin Costner when in the past he'd always seemed like the typical tired actor.
I'm not saying I would have a relationship with someone like Mr. Brooks because logic says this guy would undoubtedly kill me. But it sure is...alluring?
Do any other INTPs feel that they are inexplicably attracted to the maniacal?
Yeah. Like that.
In high school, there was this guy who completely fascinated me and I don't think he had one screw tight in that head of his (above, I was referring to him). He had a behavior disorder (he told me this one day although I kind of assumed as much) and it completely turned me on. It was weird, which made the situation all the more attractive to me.
Do you know what totally killed it for me?
The following year on the first day of school, there was this buzz going around about him which, given his prior status, seemed odd. When I finally encountrered him for the first time that school year, he had COMPLETELY changed his look and demeanor. Don't get me wrong. I'm totally for people getting psychological help when they need it so I didn't fault him for the demeanor thing. But he'd done away with the black trenchcoats, the wicked fro-hawk and painful looking piercings and traded them in for a varsity football jacket and college-cut. He seemed "cured" from his disorder, which I was happy about on a level (no more suffering) but his foray into the world of Abercrombie & Fitch just killed any sexual feelings I had for the guy.
And then there's the movie "Mr. Brooks". I suppose you see where I'm going with that so I won't go into detail but I will say that now I have the biggest jones for Kevin Costner when in the past he'd always seemed like the typical tired actor.
I'm not saying I would have a relationship with someone like Mr. Brooks because logic says this guy would undoubtedly kill me. But it sure is...alluring?
Do any other INTPs feel that they are inexplicably attracted to the maniacal?
