dream-of-roses
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For a little over five years, I believed quite stubbornly that my type was INTJ but there was always a grain of doubt and finally I began to think that I may indeed be an INTP. Of course, now I cannot resolve the issue on my own because there will always be some lingering suspicion of my reasoning and bias. I am therefore here to ask the neutral observers to comment (though that neutrality is contingent on the potentially biased information I present...but I digress).
I have always been uncomfortable with large groups, though I am fine one on one with others (and online). I tend to talk at people rather than with them and am guilty of losing interest very quickly once they start talking if I do not find their subject fascinating (though I am fairly indifferent as to whether they take interest in what I have to say or not). I tend to write people off as merely stupid (though not without careful observation and I give credit to intelligence if I think I see it)--a trait for which I am routinely scolded if I dare to bring it up (because categorizing people as intelligent or stupid is apparently bad...not that I'll stop). I can be quite talkative. I do not see myself as quiet and am not seen that way by those close to me. Others, however, have periodically joked that they had no idea I was capable of speech (in less elegant terms).
I love reading. I will re-read my favorite books many times, looking for small details that I missed the first time through (I read so quickly that I sometimes only catch half the words in a book) and plot holes. A book can go from being my favorite to being despised if I happen to catch a plot hole. I like television but I will rarely re-watch even my favorite series as I grow bored easily. Films can go either the way of books or the way of television.
I am generally unemotional. I can go months without even recognizing that I have emotions at all. I get incredibly uncomfortable when anyone mentions feelings...especially someone I respect. Tears make me want to hide under my bed and never come out again. I am better with anger than with sadness. I don't know where to go with affection. If, for some reason, I am reminded I have feelings, things can go very badly very quickly. Remind me that I have anger and it will blow up into a temper tantrum. Remind me that I have sadness and you will get a flood of tears. This is usually an uncomfortable situation for both myself and those around me. Once it is over, however, I go back to believing emotions are things only other people have and I do not want that horrible plague. Even writing this paragraph has made me uncomfortable...
I love to make schedules and lists. I will make lists of my lists. One of my favorite computer programs is Excel, where I organize my carefully gathered information. I go through periods of fervent cleaning where I create a place for everything which makes complete, logical sense. That said, I rarely keep to my schedules, no matter how carefully planned. I have yet to learn how to use a day planner. I am a procrastinator extraordinaire. My projects are rarely finished and, if I do finish them, I usually scrap them and start over. There are also likely living things in my room that I don't know about (though my cat may have taken care of that, I don't know).
I can, at times, be quite eloquent. This is usually on paper but it can also come during "prepared" speeches. Conversation is rather the opposite. I can frustrate myself (and others, I assume) by talking in circles around what I want to say. Often people will present what they see as a view that complicates what I have to say and I will respond with, "But that's what I meant." If I ask for advice, I often am accused of being ungrateful because when I receive suggestions I often respond with, "I already thought of that and ruled it out because it won't work." I have been called stubborn and argumentative. I have also (sometimes in the same breath) been accused of not being stubborn enough.
If something (like MBTI) catches my interest, it will be stuck in my head until I can work it out or I find something new and shiny to think about.
That's it. I don't expect definitive answers. I just want to know what your observations are so that I can take them into consideration as I think about my type.
I have always been uncomfortable with large groups, though I am fine one on one with others (and online). I tend to talk at people rather than with them and am guilty of losing interest very quickly once they start talking if I do not find their subject fascinating (though I am fairly indifferent as to whether they take interest in what I have to say or not). I tend to write people off as merely stupid (though not without careful observation and I give credit to intelligence if I think I see it)--a trait for which I am routinely scolded if I dare to bring it up (because categorizing people as intelligent or stupid is apparently bad...not that I'll stop). I can be quite talkative. I do not see myself as quiet and am not seen that way by those close to me. Others, however, have periodically joked that they had no idea I was capable of speech (in less elegant terms).
I love reading. I will re-read my favorite books many times, looking for small details that I missed the first time through (I read so quickly that I sometimes only catch half the words in a book) and plot holes. A book can go from being my favorite to being despised if I happen to catch a plot hole. I like television but I will rarely re-watch even my favorite series as I grow bored easily. Films can go either the way of books or the way of television.
I am generally unemotional. I can go months without even recognizing that I have emotions at all. I get incredibly uncomfortable when anyone mentions feelings...especially someone I respect. Tears make me want to hide under my bed and never come out again. I am better with anger than with sadness. I don't know where to go with affection. If, for some reason, I am reminded I have feelings, things can go very badly very quickly. Remind me that I have anger and it will blow up into a temper tantrum. Remind me that I have sadness and you will get a flood of tears. This is usually an uncomfortable situation for both myself and those around me. Once it is over, however, I go back to believing emotions are things only other people have and I do not want that horrible plague. Even writing this paragraph has made me uncomfortable...
I love to make schedules and lists. I will make lists of my lists. One of my favorite computer programs is Excel, where I organize my carefully gathered information. I go through periods of fervent cleaning where I create a place for everything which makes complete, logical sense. That said, I rarely keep to my schedules, no matter how carefully planned. I have yet to learn how to use a day planner. I am a procrastinator extraordinaire. My projects are rarely finished and, if I do finish them, I usually scrap them and start over. There are also likely living things in my room that I don't know about (though my cat may have taken care of that, I don't know).
I can, at times, be quite eloquent. This is usually on paper but it can also come during "prepared" speeches. Conversation is rather the opposite. I can frustrate myself (and others, I assume) by talking in circles around what I want to say. Often people will present what they see as a view that complicates what I have to say and I will respond with, "But that's what I meant." If I ask for advice, I often am accused of being ungrateful because when I receive suggestions I often respond with, "I already thought of that and ruled it out because it won't work." I have been called stubborn and argumentative. I have also (sometimes in the same breath) been accused of not being stubborn enough.
If something (like MBTI) catches my interest, it will be stuck in my head until I can work it out or I find something new and shiny to think about.
That's it. I don't expect definitive answers. I just want to know what your observations are so that I can take them into consideration as I think about my type.