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Convince me to quit school, please! I can hardly take this madness any longer. I want to escape. I want to go to some place in Germany or France or something and live there.

Help me, please. I want to escape.

I WANT TO ESCAPE.
 

Helvete

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What convincing do you need? Why Germany or France in particular? You want to leave, which is something you can potentially do by yourself, so figure out what you need to do in order to do so. What will you do when you get there, where will you live?

What makes you believe you can escape the madness?

I quit my education, went to college and quit that too. Hated it all, no desire to go back and it made me stressed out and depressed.
I'm now sort of floating without direction, doing low paid work with too many hours with depression levels fluctuating.
Escaping hasn't really worked for me, but then again I never left the country.
What do you hope to gain through changing location?
 
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Why Germany or France in particular?
What do you hope to gain through changing location?

I have this impression that people are largely less boring there so I wouldn't be as unhappy.
Basically what I already mentioned. I want to be exposed to more interesting types of people.
 

nanook

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find a real hippy community somewhere? It's what i would do, if i had basic social skills and the means to get there and nothing to loose, lol.

rather than going for a whole country. people in germany are very mixed, we also have a majority or backwards people and social groups are rather closed up. for me it's not easy to find interesting people here. depends on the town and social skills of course. for finding a job, germany sucks for everyone who has no history of being someone in germany. we judge much more based on history than americans do. it's a bit of a hidden cast system. in america you have to deal with competition, in germany you have to deal with the ideas of order of your superiors.
 

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hey, nanook next year i'm going to live in istanbul, supossedly a lot of germans take that destination to spend their erasmus, do you think i'll be lucky enough to find some german like you who teaches me the roots of universe while we practice turkish?

OP: i have had that necessity as well in the past, in fact right now i want to go outside my country. Pretty much becuz of my past relationship and becuz i'm getting tired of the place i am living. All my life i've been going from one place to other so i guess i get used to it.
But i think you should focus on doing something creative, uncommon in your enviourment rather than in France, also why that shitty country? i have a friend living there and she tells me it ain't no big deal. As nanook said, germany seems to be verrryyy XXTJ driven.
I dunno if you have studied something but if not there' little chance of working outside, besides cleaning jobs in downtown restaurants for 4$ / hour. London has tradition in this.
You can apply for some voluntaree work in la pampa down there in argentina as well. I looked some info some years ago but it was way too expensive for me at that time. Also, they normally look for graduated people in medicine / physcology and stuff like that.
I have a friend who tried to apply for one of those in africa for some ONG, but they didn't give her any guarantees.
 

Cherry Cola

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dude you need a plan if you're going to quit, if you're serious about it you need to have some other option and it needs to be realistic and planned out, practical details checked etc

if you seem serious and realistic maybe you can convince your parents to help you? I don't know how shit works in Singapore so it's hard for me to say something concrete

furthermore, you may be partly projecting your unhappiness on school, things aren't going to get better just cause you quit

finally, you sound like you're really depressed, is there any counselor you can talk to? or some kind of therapist? things aren't going to be this dark forever, you're just in a bad place right now, try to endure //hugs
 

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german people work, watch television and consume. the products are the same everywhere. competition has driven out all variety. the internet has taken over so rare products are ordered online. all fashion is trendy and symbolic of casts, few second hand shops exist. if you want a variety of healthy foods and spices, you have to look for a rare asian supermarket in the next larger town. we socialize by eating in restaurants, often italian or greek restaurants. if you can't afford restauratns, there is no socializing for you. in most towns people don't hang out in parks or similar places. it's difficult to find toiletts and you have to pay. low-lifes drink beer in pubs. while eating together, people talk about stress with their bosses and similar subjects. young people may dance in clubs that are often rather hidden outside of towns. even one of the most alive towns in germany (berlin) has this boring feel to it. people who don't know each other, who would much rather study a map than ask somebody for directions, carrying their shopping bags through towns. these days everyone is talking on their "handy" (german word for mobile telephone). somehow seing people who are carrying rice bags is more sympathetic to me. i wish i would occasionally see a rat hushing over the street. we have pigeons but they are killed off regularly, so that there aren't too many. from october to march i have to contemplate suicide, because the sun is gone and it's cold like fuck. people are boring everywhere, but if you would love to hang out with materialistic people who design weapon systems that are sold into other countries or who do work that involves deadly chemicals that will be dumped into our foods, we have it all. the purpose of germany is to produce economic wealth for no reason at all. germany was fully destroyed in 1945 and we still appear to be traumatized to the effect of being overly materialistic, without being hedonistic.

http://youtu.be/WYFe2-hqA2Q

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=io2cAtwR57c

http://youtu.be/jxqVTW7Z4AY

singapore has a fucking skatepark next to a beach.


http://youtu.be/3Ie_yJ8yTAY



@themanbeyond

>do you think i'll be lucky enough to find some german like you who teaches me the roots of universe while we practice turkish?

i don't even know how to answer to such an irrational and extroverted question. there are no germans like me and going to a country like istanbul would feel like attempted suicide to me.
 

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Everyone I know who have been there say Berlin is awesome and they are quite a few. I think you're a bit overly negative :P Then again I don't live in Germany. But then still, a lot of the stuff you mention is true in plenty of places in the western world. Like that stuff about mobile phones, the sun and people being boring and materialistic.

Though the culture does seem quite formal and introverted, would one be justified in drawing parallels to Japan? Sometimes I think Japan is the Germany of Asia. They too got fucked in WWII and they seem to have some other similarities. Of course Germany was never isolated like Japan, but the region of Germania was always under the threat of some outside force or other native tribe.
 

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my perspective is that of someone with social anxiety. i bet there is cool stuff about berlin, but i don't think much of it is literally inviting. you probably have to be told about it by someone else, because it's behind closed walls and you have to pass security guys. someone took me to a bunch of wanna-be shamans in berlin, who rattled their rattles around me to clean my energy and tell me some stuff about my father. but germany isn't berlin. most towns are really dead, because german culture is about business. when i was young, kids would stunt ride their bikes everywhere, but now everything is concrete and secured and shit. old people don't play boule anymore, in 99% of the places they used to. we are just a bunch of happy obedient consumers now.

my parents (who were born ~ 1940) are very much like japanese people, but the average german family (born 1960+) isn't at all. we are more like seinfeld now. sort of pluralistic, but very apathic, cyncic. but most our politicians are in deed agents of economy, much like japanese are serious about business. stage wise our core infrastructure core is probably still rational/orange. our pluralism manifests in laws, but somehow not so much in the culture of what we organize. the consumers are not so willing to support creative projects, they still buy into cheap but secure and reliable mass production stuff.
 

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If we have to convince you you obviously have doubts about leaving but i suppose if we are to help it would benefit us to know where you are in your education because yhat could influence the arguements.
 

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Convince me to quit school, please! I can hardly take this madness any longer. I want to escape. I want to go to some place in Germany or France or something and live there.

Help me, please. I want to escape.

I WANT TO ESCAPE.

It may not seem like it, but you are in control of your life.
 

k9b4

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Wtf you don't need a plan just get on a plane.

Why do you need us to convince you lol? If you wanna go just go. It's really not complicated.
 
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I feel suffocated..gaah..

Meanwhile, what do you think of this poem-thingy I wrote? Some of the order of words and phrasings might not make sense. I meant it that way.

Mist evaporates the wrath of the distant sun
I shed tears due to the agony that is now present
Always present
A crack opens up in the wall behind me
The cackling of voices that reside inside
Inside, outside, I don't know what difference there is
Inside, outside, I wipe my tears away and let my soul crumble
Into the floor like a hardened heart smashed against the wall
And so therein lies the mystery behind the cracked wall
The cackling of the voices that reside within
Consistency has gone to the grave
To be buried under layers and layers of hypocrisy, lies, equivocations
The glob of light begins to expand
The cackling of voices make their appearance, once again
The glob of light is expanding still
Ever expanding
BUT NOT TODAY!
LET IT OUT, OLD FRIEND!
LET IT FUCKING OUT!
I AM RISING
BRANDISHING MY KNIFE
ACROSS IT GOES
BARREN ROCK
I feel nothing
pale
The cackles start to fade
My eyes take their rest
GOODBYE CRUEL WORLD!
 
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And I just wrote this. It's sort of a depiction of what I'm feeling like at the moment. Both the poem-thingies are real. I feel or have felt exactly the way I've described

Claustrophobic, I suffocate
Unable to whine nor cry nor unleash my wrath
A sense of stillness surrounds me
This stillness is not of the calming variety
This stillness sinks its teeth into every surface of your soul
Chewing its way through every iota of contentment you had
Leaving you as nothing but paranoid
Pure paranoia
Paralysing
The racing of hearts
Pale, cold
A sheet of ice to reckon in the midst of the blaze
The blaze turns cold
It grips tight the innermost memories
Smashes it against the wall
Shards of nightmare are raised
From memories you once cherished
The laughter within
Endless, persistent
To be in such a state for eternity
What worse agony can there be?
 

Fukyo

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I'm sorry, but I find it somewhat hard to take your plight seriously after these phaggy romanticized pretentious poems. :ahh: You sound like an attention seeking angsty teenager.
 

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Immigration will be a worse hell than you are experiencing ryt now.
 

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I like the idea of living with ducks.

In my teenage years, I just kept to myself and ignored everything around me to keep my sanity. Eventually graduated, saved up money, left.

Some wonderful music/art of sound could also be helpful, loved The Residents' 'Third Reich 'N' Roll' album. You could find me on a Friday evening curled up in a ball, rocking back and forth with that on repeat. Glazed eyes staring out vacantly, ha.
 

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France is great. I've only been there for a month or two. But a lot of times. Friendly people, ok food. Bring a big backpack, Then you can hitch rides wherever you need to go. As there is an attitude to help out if they think you are an athlete. They will even drive you long distances off track to get you where you need to go.

I would advice to bring a tent and stay in the wild, only venture out when in need of supplies. As prolonged socialization will be upsetting, regardless where one go, unless of course one is dialed in for that sort of activity.
 
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