farewell Nia

[loveofreason]

Eudemonia is leaving us and I would just like to make a public place for goodbyes.

Goodbye Nia! You became part of the landscape around here, and a wonderful counterpoint to some of us more jaded types. You'll be missed.

*HUG*

*A real hug - I mean it.

 

[Kuu]

Really? Why? I mean, its a virtual space. Coming and going is only an internet connection and a couple of clicks. So why such a final, cutting thing like "leaving"?

(We don't want you to leave, but we own no one, so if you must, then I hope your stay amidst us leaves a positive influence upon you. Or at least nightmares of a certain blue man )

 

[fullerene]

*waves* bye bye, hun. *stares off at the horizon*

*single tear falls*

We'll meet someday

 

[flow]

I'm wondering how you "leave" a website? Seems more like it'd be a boycott.. either way, I fare thee well! And wherever the internet (or life) takes you, godspeed!

 

[severus]

What? ...Leaving?
Forever?

 

[Dissident]

Why all of the sudden?
Because of this:?


This is too bad

Your wisdom and sincerity will be missed, can you come to visit once in a while to say hi?


Honest respect and best wishes.
Dissident.

 

[FusionKnight]

This news makes me very sad. I have really enjoyed talking to you, Nia, and getting to know you a little bit. I have found all of your words to be heartfelt and genuine gems of wisdom. You're a very authentic person, and I hope you know how valued you have been in our little community here. I have learned much from our similarities and our differences, and I greatly respect you.

I hope we've done nothing to drive you away, and that your decision to leave us is just the next step in your journey. Whatever you do, wherever you are going, remember that we care about you, and that we believe in you! I think you're going to be doing fantastic things soon, and I hope you'll pop back in from time to time to let us know what's new.

Anyway, I guess I'll just say goodbye with this:

You're brilliant, Nia!

Fare well.

 

[EloquentBohemian]

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[Jesin]

But... All that stuff goes in a separate section!

Don't go away yet.

(Hmm. A lot of the good discussion has been happening in the chat lately.)

 

[Waterstiller]

What a shame; you will be missed. I hate getting attached to people. :kicks rock on the ground:

I can understand (from the linked post) why you'd not appreciate some discussion topics, and I can understand why overcrowding is an issue. But I do not agree with your argument from age. The age of those you're discussing with shouldn't matter - only the quality of the discussion and its relevance to your interests.

And so if the nature of discussion has turned so that you're not getting much out of this place, that is understood and I agree with your decision. I do need to (firmly) state that age shouldn't be an issue. One of my friends who is 50 years old just got married to a guy half his age. Their family is interesting because I can also have great conversations their 13yo INTJ daughter, despite the incredible age difference.


I appreciate and learn from you.You're a beautiful person.

Heather

 

[Auburn]

Because of this?

I saw that coming, actually. I know how you feel. That's one of the reasons I took the snapshot of the forum. It almost seems like INTPs are too dynamic to stay in one community for long. It seemed too good to last that way very long...

I don't like crowds either, and that's probably why I haven't been as active posting anymore. I can understand how the current discussions may be unfulfilling, and I don't have anything to argue against that. I just want to point out that it's people just like yourself that bring that very meaningfulness to the surface here. It's people like you that make this place worth coming to for me.

It's always been a blessing to read your posts. I thank you for all that you've taught me by them, whether intentionally or indirectly...

~Auburn~

 

[eudemonia]

Hi Waterstiller,
I just quickly popped in to see what was going on! I have thought about this a lot and your post has helped to swing my decision. I will share with you the reason why I won't be posting here any more - and its not due to that link (which I hadn't noticed and was meant as a joke in another thread ). No, it's not to do with age - I agree with you about that.

I can't share it now as I've got to rush. But I'll probably post something later this evening or tomorrow.

I WAS hoping to disappear unobtrusively - Thanks Lor - but as I can't I'll tell you my story....

Are you sitting comfortably?

 

[Jesin]

OK, I guess you don't have to stay if you don't want to.

You don't have to go away forever, either. I hope you'll still pop in from time to time, even if you're mostly gone.

 

[eudemonia]

Right, this will probably be the longest posting you'll ever come across. I don't apologise for that. For those of you who are interested I hope it will be diverting; for those of you who are not, zap that 'new posts' spot right now

Before I found this forum I was probably a bit depressed. I was taking time out of work because of lots of things that didn’t feel right in my life, mostly work related, but also in other areas such as life style and friendships.

Like many others, I came upon the forum by accident. But, unlike others, I didn’t really know what a forum was. I simply came across this virtual conversation where people were exploring the scientific arguments used to support theistic or non-theistic beliefs. I was in the midst of organizing a series of talks on the subject for local people so I just jumped in – probably rather rudely, not introducing myself or anything.

As I engaged in the conversation things started to happen. Firstly, it was fun! And I realized I hadn’t had fun for ages. I felt I had come alive for the first time in years. I realized that I had probably been depressed before I started to engage with people on the forum. Well, depressive would be a better way of putting it; I was not clinically depressed but had lived life in a half-hearted kind of way. Secondly, I felt I connected with the people I was arguing with – I had things in common with them even though they were half my age and lived half way round the world. The community at the time was small and it was easy to make relationships. I was interacting with about 10 - 15 people and I discovered that I was not alone – that there really were people like me out there, even though they did live tens of thousands of miles away!

However the strangest part was yet to come. *Atheists please ignore the following* Whilst I was debating every religious subject you could think of, (and completely tiring Dissident out ) I had what Christians would call an experience of the Holy Spirit. It was weird. I had a sudden feeling that, for the first time in my life, I actually 'loved' God. Before He had only been an idea, a concept. I had become a Christian only 15 years prior, and had lived most of my life as an atheist, nihilist and as someone put it an ‘apatheist’ Marxist up to that point. Since becoming a Christian I had settled for a conceptual faith; more like a philosophy really but nothing that stirred me. I had long ago given up on the hope of having a living, vibrant faith, which I knew some people had. But now, for the first time, God seemed real. It was weird, like being in love. I lost a lot of weight and didn’t sleep at night. I went to sleep at 1 am and woke at 4 or 5 in the morning, totally refreshed and couldn’t wait to begin the day. In RL, I was networking with local people wrt setting up my talks. So I was meeting new people in new churches and was having a lot of fun. But most of all, I just felt like worshipping God and praying all the time. Let me say, that I was NOT a religious freak, a touchy-feely charismatic, definitely not Evangelical or fundamentalist in any way. I called myself a postmodern Christian – and the reason I did this was mainly to shock people – which was a hobby of mine. I used it to amuse myself in the many interminable bland conversations that seemed to characterize my life.

I know the non-theists will have lots of explanations for how I responded, mostly rooted in my psychological state at the time. But, my psychological state was not unusual for me to be honest. I do know one or two people who have had similar experiences and, well, all I can say is, you just know what you know. This is truly ‘non-transferable knowledge’.

Unsurprisingly perhaps, I became hooked to this forum and my home life started to become chaotic. I was forgetting everything! My husband became really annoyed at me – I forgot appointments and turned up to non-existing ones! It was quite funny really. The children found it very amusing and enjoyed their new youthful mum, who kept forgetting to do the shopping and forgetting to cook their meals!

Then I had a second experience of again, what Christians would call the Holy Spirit. I was facilitating a day for Christians in Human Resource Development. We were discussing a question – what do you want to be known for. The question had been irritating me for a few days. Everyone answered as you’d expect and I still hadn’t decided what to say. Then it came to my turn and I said, quite simply, that “I don’t want to be remembered for anything. I just want to BE. If I died tomorrow, I wouldn't care. I am happy not to be remembered by anyone for anything. I am exhausted with trying to be remembered.” As soon as I said this, there was a silence - I had uttered a taboo and a hell of a row ensued! But, I just felt a physical weight being lifted off my shoulders. And since that moment I have felt free. I have felt as if reborn. And strangely, every member of my group came up to me during the day and thanked me for what I had said.

I discussed these experiences with people on this forum and they helped me make sense of them. One person in particularly influenced me very profoundly and introduced me to many new ideas in this area. Then I started to use these ideas in my work and have found that they are very powerful. People are moved by them and want to know more…..but I know nothing!

I had a think about this on my recent visit to Grenada, which was a working holiday. On the working part, I referred to my new ideas to help a senior management team make sense of what was happening to them and their organizational culture. Again, I was taken aback by how people were influenced by them. I realized that I have to learn more and that there is a lot for me to do. All sorts of opportunities are presenting themselves.

Also the forum HAS changed. The core has expanded. We have all moved on. We can’t have the kind of conversations that we had before and I now need to acquire more knowledge – I can’t debate subjects about which I know very little!

So I have to be more disciplined. I can’t spend 2 – 4 hours a day chatting about nothing very much – though I would if I could. I LOVED the virtual dinner party btw But remember, ‘time’ for a 49 year old busy working mother is a very different entity than it is for a 20 year old student – lucky you guys, enjoy your freedom and your immortality!

So, as you see, this is not a judgement on anyone. It is simply that we all move on and I have so little time and so much to do! I didn’t want to make a fuss. I just wanted to tell the people who have shared in my journey that I wouldn’t be around much. But hey…..

And, it’s probably just me, but I can’t post occasionally or intermittently. For me this has been about relationships not just ideas. And you can’t go off for 3 months or so and come back to make an occasional post then disappear again, expecting things to be the same.

Anyway, I hope this has been diverting as well as informative. Make of it what you will – you will anyway. For those of you who believe I am delusional – don’t knock it. You should try it, it takes years off you - physically, psychologically and sexually!!

For those of you with a more spiritual bent, always expect to have a living vibrant faith, even if it takes 15 years to get it. You can’t beat it. I disagree with those of you who claim you shouldn’t expect or want experiences. The Bible isn’t enough; we all need the love of God and love isn’t a concept it is an experience.

That’s my view, for what its worth. I wish you all the best in your journeys. And most of all, have FUN!

 

[EloquentBohemian]

eudemonia...
Know that there is probably not a person within the group of people you spoke with who hasn't been touched by your candor, your journey, and your words; yet we must all walk the paths we create. You have definitely made an impact on me.
For you, all I can say is may the Lord's will be done and God's speed on your chosen path.

Namaste.

 

[loveofreason]

You weren't meant to exit quietly, dear Nia.

I'm sure your beautiful explanation will create many ripples.

Thanks for sharing.

 

[Inappropriate Behavior]

Then it came to my turn and I said, quite simply, that “I don’t want to be remembered for anything. I just want to BE. If I died tomorrow, I wouldn't care. I am happy not to be remembered by anyone for anything. I am exhausted with trying to be remembered.”

Beautiful.

For everything Nia, Thank You.

 

[Jesin]

About your "experience of the Holy Spirit": I think something like that happened to me, too. Only not as much. And without the religious parts.


The core group of members here hasn't expanded all that much, has it? I mean, yes, we've gotten a lot of new members, but relatively few of those actually stuck around and became part of the core group.


I'm glad you got so many good ideas from this forum. You added a fair share of your own, too.


And I'm still not convinced that coming back once in a while will never work. You're welcome to come back any time.

Bye. We'll miss you.

 

[Agent Intellect]

However the strangest part was yet to come. *Atheists please ignore the following* Whilst I was debating every religious subject you could think of, (and completely tiring Dissident out ) I had what Christians would call an experience of the Holy Spirit. It was weird. I had a sudden feeling that, for the first time in my life, I actually 'loved' God. Before He had only been an idea, a concept. I had become a Christian only 15 years prior, and had lived most of my life as an atheist, nihilist and as someone put it an ‘apatheist’ Marxist up to that point. Since becoming a Christian I had settled for a conceptual faith; more like a philosophy really but nothing that stirred me. I had long ago given up on the hope of having a living, vibrant faith, which I knew some people had. But now, for the first time, God seemed real. It was weird, like being in love. I lost a lot of weight and didn’t sleep at night. I went to sleep at 1 am and woke at 4 or 5 in the morning, totally refreshed and couldn’t wait to begin the day. In RL, I was networking with local people wrt setting up my talks. So I was meeting new people in new churches and was having a lot of fun. But most of all, I just felt like worshipping God and praying all the time. Let me say, that I was NOT a religious freak, a touchy-feely charismatic, definitely not Evangelical or fundamentalist in any way. I called myself a postmodern Christian – and the reason I did this was mainly to shock people – which was a hobby of mine. I used it to amuse myself in the many interminable bland conversations that seemed to characterize my life.

but how do you know it was your God? (sorry, force of habit)

Unsurprisingly perhaps, I became hooked to this forum and my home life started to become chaotic. I was forgetting everything! My husband became really annoyed at me – I forgot appointments and turned up to non-existing ones! It was quite funny really. The children found it very amusing and enjoyed their new youthful mum, who kept forgetting to do the shopping and forgetting to cook their meals!

i was forgetting things long before i came here... i think thats just you getting in touch with your INTPness.

Also the forum HAS changed. The core has expanded. We have all moved on. We can’t have the kind of conversations that we had before and I now need to acquire more knowledge – I can’t debate subjects about which I know very little!

you expect everyone else to just start threads you enjoy? you could always get off your high horse and start your own about shit you're interested in!

So I have to be more disciplined. I can’t spend 2 – 4 hours a day chatting about nothing very much – though I would if I could. I LOVED the virtual dinner party btw But remember, ‘time’ for a 49 year old busy working mother is a very different entity than it is for a 20 year old student – lucky you guys, enjoy your freedom and your immortality!

i have just as much of a chance of getting hit by a bus or shot by a mugger tomorrow then you do. hell, with all this goddamn snow were getting, i'm probably more likely to die soon then you are!

Anyway, I hope this has been diverting as well as informative. Make of it what you will – you will anyway. For those of you who believe I am delusional – don’t knock it. You should try it, it takes years off you - physically, psychologically and sexually!!

the truth isn't everything... its the only thing. the day i give up on the truth is the day i truly die.

but anyway, enough with the mushy shit. if i hear that someone was throwing rocks at the Coca Cola headquarters, i'll know who it is. peace out.

 

[Jesin]

And Ogion's still away for Christmas.

 

[Kidege]

Understood.

Doesn't mean I won't miss you.

Your arrival to this forum made me think of a storm. You were loud, maybe abrasive, and that made me uncomfortable. You were tough and unafraid, and that made me like you.

I am somewhat familiar with the non-transferable knowledge. And I know that someday we'll meet again, if only to say hi.

See you later, Nia. We've all so much to learn in our own ways. I'm glad the forum helped you and I thank you for your time, for your ideas, and the passion you showed in every post.

 

[Dissident]

Okay! Its good to know that you are joyful and busy with new projects Nia! Thanks for explaining.

But no quiet exit for you ma'am
Your pass through the forum should be celebrated

 

[Ermine]

WHAT?!? Understood, though. I probably don't do enough with my free time myself.

I appreciate your contributions here, and God be with you, whatever you do.

 

[Waterstiller]

Nia, your last post was like the end of a good book that leaves one content but also sad that there's nothing left to read. I hardly think you loony for your experience of God; I'm slightly envious. I hope that you live the rest of your life feeling like you do right now and that you grow in proximity to God.



When I leave I won't tell anyone. Like a book you were half-heartedly reading, misplaced, and weren't bothered enough to go searching for it.

 

[Decaf]

Nia,

I'll let what I PM'd you stand, but I want to add that you are a role model of mine. I apologize if that feels like a lot of pressure, but hey, its there.

When I was part of a church, and more importantly going to Bible School I wanted those moments. I desperately wanted to experience the moment that religion would become real for me, and the more I wanted it, the more distant it seemed to be. I only got a taste when I started looking at personality theory and I suppose that's why in many ways it has taken over my world view. I am very happy for you in finding that moment (and a tad jealous).

I hereby pronounce Eudemonia an INTPforum Graduate with a major in Religious Insight and INTPness.

Just warning you right now. Someday you're gonna get an email asking you to show up to a Virtual INTPforum Reunion. I hope you come.

When I leave I won't tell anyone. Like a book you were half-heartedly reading, misplaced, and weren't bothered enough to go searching for it.

You better not. Your presense on the forum has forced me to learn about my own perceptions in ways I had not the wisdom to seek for myself. I admire your bravery. We have all had experiences where something was forced on us against our will (some to a stronger degree than others) and you are one of the people that inspire me in your decision to deal with it instead of coping. All that is just dealing with you as a person and the positiveness that you have expressed in your thoughts. I'll save the rest for your graduation.

I'm just saying that you better not slink away.

 

[saffyangelis]

Bye Nia, It was nice meeting you, even if it was only for a short time.
(please do come back and visit everyone sometimes! on school days or something!)

 

[FusionKnight]

In many ways, I felt like Nia was the heart of this place. She blazed in here, shook things up, made us look at ourselves in the mirror and deal with what we saw. She was unapologeticly earnest, honest, down and dirty, with a "let's figure this out" mentality, and the urgency to make sure her Big Questions were getting answered. It was like she was made of fire, and the INTPforum became a beacon.

Okay, this really wasn't supposed to sound like a eulogy... sorry Nia! Didn't mean to talk about you like you were dead or something... (Of course, if she really doesn't come back to read this, then it is kinda like a eulogy... okay, that's a little creepy...)

I just wanted to say something about how I perceived your contribution to all of our lives. You have the courage to ask the questions that need to be asked, regardless of where the answer might come from, or what form it might take. I really admire you for that.

Fare well!

 

[Chimera]

_________
____________


Aw...I really don't know what to say...
Nia, you're one of the people who proved to me that you can be INTP and still have a big heart. (Sorry guys, but it's true!) I think you had wonderful insights and perceptions of things, and I think your departure is one of those happy/sad occasions... Happy, because you're now strong enough to face "reality" head-on, and sad 'cause that means we'll miss you (really really a lot...)
If it means anything, I just want to tell you that you had enough spunk to fit in with the young'n crowd here. Just sayin'.
I hope you'll find happiness wherever life takes you. ^^
____________
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[grey matters]

Nia, I will miss you.

If time management is the problem, perhaps you could choose only a thread or two to post to and resist the rest.

If you are concerned that you are wasting your time here I would recommend that you consider the contributions you have made, and then reconsider your departure.

If you have some religious dilemmas about participating in this forum, discuss your concerns with God and wait for a response. Be a little patient. I have had a few concerns myself but have come to a conclusion about them.

If age really was a problem, remember that you were not the only old person here, I'm 39, E.B. and editor one are old too (as I recall).

I suppose I can't do anything to convince you to stay, so perhaps I can post some advice. I have been a Christian for 26 years. I have had many spiritual experiences with God. I am no stranger to the supernatural. Most people don't know this because I have difficulty talking about this.
Anyway, here is my parting advice. * DISCLAIMER: the following will be very religious*. You can be an INTP with God. You can ask him to explain to you things you can only ponder. Explanations take time, sometime years, but when you do get an answer, (one that you can understand) you don't just get head knowledge, you get a little insight into who God is. God made you the way you are, enjoy it, don't try to change it. Go with God and enjoy the mysteries of the universe together. I apologize if this was too religious. Believe me when I tell you that I was not doing this to prosletize, Talking about my relationship to God is difficult for me.

 

[Dissident]

Sorry, off topic and seemingly random: Come one people, you dont have to apologize everytime you speak of religion! It sounds as if you were an oppressed minority in the forum. This is not an atheist club in which you are unwanted guests, jeez!

 

[grey matters]

Sorry, I just don't want to offend, hence the disclaimer.

 

[FusionKnight]

Come one people, you dont have to apologize everytime you speak of religion!

Agreed. If someone is offended because you have a belief in God, then they have a very small mind, and we probably won't abide them being here in the first place. I've found this to be a very safe and supportive place to discuss my faith, even (especially?) with some of the resident atheists.

Stand tall Grey!

 

[Dissident]

That what I meant, with the lack of subtlety and elegance that characterizes me
I think we can partly thank Nia for this openness, and what better way than making use of it?

 

[grey matters]

Ah, so with the possible exception on Melkor, you're ears wont bleed if I talk seriously about God.

 

[Agent Intellect]

Ah, so with the possible exception on Melkor, you're ears wont bleed if I talk seriously about God.

mine will...

i kid i kid. even i'm not that intolerant.

 

[eudemonia]

Guys, I am overwhelmed at your replies to my story.

Seriously, I didn't expect this; I was not going to make a fuss but I'm deeply affected by the responses to this thread (LoR's revenge ). It has helped me see things about myself that I was less conscious of - and left me with a legacy that will remain with me for the rest of my life

LoR - thank you. Your revenge has been sweet (for me!) and I really appreciate you doing this. Goodbyes are important, even for INTPs

Jesin - you are unique and incomparable. I loved your comment about the experience without the relgious bits. Only you could have said that! You are great!

Auburn - wise beyond your years - I stick to that comment. Your threads have done so much to build this community and have been so much fun. You have a great gift.

EB - thanks. I don't think I need to say much more, do I

IB - we never got to discuss that book, did we? Time - both chronos and kairos. I've enjoyed our discussions and would really have liked to have got to know you more. I hope all goes well for you in the future.

AI - we'll never agree on anything. When will you see that Truth is so much more than simple evidence I joke You have opened my eyes in so many ways. Mushy stuff, out.

Kidege, thank you so much for your honest description of how I came across to you. They are words that I do not normally apply to myself but your metaphor of a storm has opened up new insights for me! I have really enjoyed getting to know you, learning from you and really appreciated your courage in sharing your story.

Dissident, I LOVED your fireworks. I love colour and the dramatic; the picture says so much to me. Thank you. You are the voice of balance on this forum and I love how you say so much both succinctly and elegantly. Your english is awesome. I hope you find the path that brings you happiness.

Ermine and Waterstiller, thank you. Thanks for your understanding and your company. Ermine, I love your sane insights, your unique perspectives and your constantly changing identity - I have learned a lot just from this
Waterstiller, I support what Decaf has said: 'Do not go gentle into that good night'; the forum is about relationships and you would do others and yourself a disservice by not saying goodbye.....but hopefullly you will not be following in my footsteps. Also, I shall NEVER forget 'sex for the brain'

Decaf, what can I say? THANK YOU - I really appreciated what you said and as for your accolade, it is the ultimate (whatever AI may think ). I waited for 15 years to have this type of experience; I was like dog with a bone, I refused give up and be content with an arid, intellectual faith. I feel that God gives you these experiences rarely and when you most need them. As He will in your case, one day. I am happy that you have found what you are looking for and am sure you will be an outstanding psychologist - in fact you already are

If I got an invite to a virtual INTPforum reunion, I would come like a shot

Saffyangelis, thank you. We didn't get to interact for very long but I hope you enjoy and benefit from the forum as much as I did.

Fusion, you're a star. I have learned so much from you, as I think you know. You have been a long, staunch ally. Shame the forum meeting you suggested didn't really take off; contemplating that and thinking about how it would have turned out gave me a lot of pleasure

Chimera, I will take that compliment with me as I go out into RL - fitting in with the young crowd eh? Wait till I tell my daughter I have really enjoyed your contributions - I never would have guessed your age. Your posts have always been mature, provocative and witty.

Grey Matters - I really appreciate your courage in sharing these thoughts. I would have loved to have discussed them further and in more detail. I do understand what you mean. I feel sometimes as if the dominant paradigm in the forum (and for most INTP's) is still the scientific/materialist paradigm, despite almost a century of postmodern thought questioning it. Truth is still equated with material evidence. So I shall hand over the baton to you. I'm afraid I haven't done a very good job of defending idealist/spiritual notions of truth. And, I suppose, in the end, I gave up. You do have allies in Fusion Knight and Cryptonia and probably some newcomers here. I think sharing your story is probably one of the most powerful ways of expressing post-rationalist thought. So your courage in doing this has a real impact. Like a broken record, I do recommend Brian McClaren's A New Kind of Christian - its probably the most influential book depicting postmodern Christianity today AND he's from your neck of the woods. Thank you for your comments - they meant a lot.

I will probably lurk a bit, just to check up on you all. And, who knows I may even post occasionally - but quietly and with great humility.

I have got to DO Christmas now - in two days. I wish you all the best and would so love to meet you all one day. Just don't make it too long; I still want to look beautiful

You never know.......

With blessings to you all.

Karen/Nia

 

[loveofreason]

*claps hands and waves*

...shoo!

 

[Snail]

I wish that I had gotten more time to get to know you, because you seem interesting, eudemonia.

 

[Artifice Orisit]

Hope I'm not too late...

... X( I don't know what to say

good by, you'll be missed
*hugs*

Edit: If your posting on occasion then you're not really gone, but my sentiments all the same.

 

[Oblivious]

http://www.disarm.se/data/bildunttext_nsfw/legendary_thread.jpg

 

[Jesin]

I will probably lurk a bit, just to check up on you all. And, who knows I may even post occasionally - but quietly and with great humility.

Yes, exactly. Don't you dare close that door behind you when you leave.

 

[NoID10ts]

I just noticed this thread. Some explanation is due I suppose, because, as I am sure you have guessed, this is all my fault.

One evening I posted one of my charming little anecdotes that was directed at Nia. You know the kind. The ones that always seem to be misunderstood around here. Well low and behold, Nia flew over here to Texas looking to kill me for some reason. She didn't fly by plane either, but out of the sheer will to murder me.

Well when she found me, in my sewer home of course, and saw what I was doing she said in that wonderfully sexy, Elizabeth Hurley style, British accent of hers "Good Lord, you bloody freak of nature! Well there is no way I am coming near you now, even if it is to kill you."

So she flew up to the street above and started punching the concrete in around me, with her bare hands. Well I cleaned up as fast as I could and made a break for one of the small pipes that leads to the surface, dodging large chucks of asphalt along the way.

Normally, I don't fit in that particular pipe, but that evening I was covered from head to toe in vegetable oil so I squeezed right through and popped out of the other side like a cork popping out of a champagne bottle, even made the same sound.

Well this just annoyed Nia so she started shooting lasers at me. And not with a laser gun, but from her eyes, driven again, by the pure will to kill me. Well its funny, because as it turns out, vegetable oil coupled with my natural shade of blue is a nice laser deterrant.

So Nia put on some very thick gloves, dipped them in a pesticide, which really hurt my feelings, and decided that she would squeeze my head until it collapsed in on itself. Well of course I was very slippery and hard to get a hold of. It was a bit like trying to get a hold of a greased olive when your hands are covered in vegetable oil.

"Come here damn you!" She yelled in that wonderful accent of hers. When she saw that talking to me was only getting me excited (I guess I should have been dressed for this occasion), she said "You're bloody hopeless."

Just then, she noticed a series of 30 foot tall light posts and she ripped them from the ground and used them to fashion a prison for me. Well she did a good job but I still had limited access to my sewer and full access to my computer.

Well that annoyed her, because the whole point of her excursion to America that night was to free intpforum of NoID10ts. Now, all I have is intpforum, so Nia thought that as long as I am trapped here, she can freely go mucking about the rest of the world without ever having to encounter me.

So there you go. The real reason she is leaving. But I have no hard feelings.

Well I do have some hard feelings, but not the kind you usually associate with hard feelings.

I really miss Nia, though. Even if she did try to kill me.

 

[Ogion]

Oh damn! That's why i hate being offline for longer than a day!!
So maybe i am too late with this, and i could not in any way say it better than the ones before me.
This place is at this point in my life one of my primary points of interest, because it engages me, real me, not like "everyday life's" worries and stuff. And so it is of course irritating and saddening when it shrinks...Which is not to say i find you irritating, nia. I only mean to say that i will miss your presence, even when i never were much present in the religious threads...
But since this is a place about finding and defining oneself and learn some personal growth, it is without any question that you should follow this course (you described in your longer post) if it is one that shall bring growth to you.

Fare thee well and live long and prosper *insert vulcan gesture emoticon*

Ogion

 

[didyouknow]

Aww. I may not have been here long but I'm going to miss your posts. You seemed to just pop up out of nowhere in strange places and offer your wisdom. I will remember you by your avatar, a tall strong tree braving the winter snow.

That last post was touching, I have trouble accepting that you can love God while everyone else around me seems to get it so easily. Thank you for saying that. It's a true encouragement of persistence.

Thank you Eudemonia