ILYGodney
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My development's a bit odd as my parents are abusive and I've been depresssed for half of my life. I'm just going to start typing about whatever comes to mind.
It’s insulting when people think I do certain things because I care about them. I have never done anything for the sole purpose of making someone happy in my life. Everything I do has to do with either my morals or my goals. I have a problem with being too empathetic, and I don’t mean that in an I’m-such-a-helpful-saint way. I feel for everyone even when I shouldn’t. One of the saddest things about life is not being able to help everyone out. I’m kind of a misanthrope when it comes to people yet I still love talking to them and getting to know their stories. I love talking to others and exploring their essence. I literally have this mental list of moral/behavior rules I have to follow no matter what. They’re based entirely off of my personal feelings. I don’t believe in excuses when it comes to doing the right thing.
Nearly everything I do has to do with a 40 year goal. I don't believe in short term goals because everything adds up in the end. I want to decide things right away but I can't since I want to make the best decision possible and I always end up changing my mind. My goal in life is to become my ideal of perfection and to make my visions/fantasies a reality. I have extremely high standards for myself as they're not based off of reality.
One thing that makes me doubt me being an Ne dom is how focused on the future I am. Isn't Ne supposed to be focused on the immediate? One thing that makes me doubt me being an INTJ is how extraverted I am. A conversation a day keeps the depression away.
It’s insulting when people think I do certain things because I care about them. I have never done anything for the sole purpose of making someone happy in my life. Everything I do has to do with either my morals or my goals. I have a problem with being too empathetic, and I don’t mean that in an I’m-such-a-helpful-saint way. I feel for everyone even when I shouldn’t. One of the saddest things about life is not being able to help everyone out. I’m kind of a misanthrope when it comes to people yet I still love talking to them and getting to know their stories. I love talking to others and exploring their essence. I literally have this mental list of moral/behavior rules I have to follow no matter what. They’re based entirely off of my personal feelings. I don’t believe in excuses when it comes to doing the right thing.
Nearly everything I do has to do with a 40 year goal. I don't believe in short term goals because everything adds up in the end. I want to decide things right away but I can't since I want to make the best decision possible and I always end up changing my mind. My goal in life is to become my ideal of perfection and to make my visions/fantasies a reality. I have extremely high standards for myself as they're not based off of reality.
One thing that makes me doubt me being an Ne dom is how focused on the future I am. Isn't Ne supposed to be focused on the immediate? One thing that makes me doubt me being an INTJ is how extraverted I am. A conversation a day keeps the depression away.