There is quite a lot of posts, so I will start of by quoting a few, stating my statements and asking my questions.
I offer you a short cut, an opportunity to utilize someone else's past experience to your benefit. You must continue to ask yourself questions and listen for your answers. Why do you think it is important to be published in a journal? Why do you think school or GPA is important? Why are their so many examples of college drop outs becoming hugely successful? What is important to you? Why?
The answers are as follow: I attach no importance to school or gpa's, I despise the system and it's effect on society, holding the opinion that it can be improved by a massive extent. The only importance that school holds for me is the ability to go to an university, wich is the traditional way to further one's knowledge. I don't want to be published in a journal per se, it is rather some or other idealistic notion flitting about within my head, where I aim to show my worth as a physicist by discovering some or other new theory and thus securing a position at an institution(Way too idealistic for my current proficiency in physics.)
College dropouts have attained succes for many reasons, but the one that they all have in common is motivation.
What is important to me? I can only answer this in a philosophical manner: It is of utter importance that I savour the improbalistic gift of life, enjoying it to the best of my abilities, and studying the framework in wich it takes place.
You state that I can learn from your experience, so I now ask: What has transpired in the 20 years after you left high school? (Career-wise, income-wise, etc)
If you couldn't even meet high school standards because of procrastination, you won't do any better in university no matter how hard you try to justify that you will.
Get an entry level job and work for two years full time. Commit to being good at it, regardless of whether you hate it and think it's the worst job in the world or not. If you're at least halfway intelligent you'll learn:
- workplace politics are everywhere, even in academic institutions
- shit people make work shit, good people make work okay, irrespective of the job
- how to deal with stress, bullshit expectations, failure, success, stupidity of others, your own stupidity, avoid procrastination; all of which will factor into and affect your studies at university. If you want to succeed, you'll need to learn to navigate through all of this shit for 3-4 years, and assuming you want to complete a Ph.D, 4 more on top of that.
- you'll also save up some money that you can use to pay for education, food, accomodation etc. as opposed to going straight from high school and into debt
After that, go apply to university. You'll appreciate the importance of study that much more, and be more committed to succeeding in your chosen field of study. The drop out rate in hard sciences for people who come straight from high school is huge - if you think procrastination caused you problems on chump-level science in high school, you're going to be in for a rude awakening at university if you're not prepared. I don't mean intellectually either.
Makes sense. I do think procrastination is the main deterrent at the moment, and two years of working is bound to tame it to some extent. I had the idealistic notion that once I enter university I will engage physics with gusto, but if am not doing it now, how the hell will I do it next year? Perhaps then doing something for two years will give me some work-ethic, wich I can transfer to self study.
The OP stated that he had a problem with procrastination. Building endurance, learning to work through it, is one viable option for overcoming procrastination. Another option is to explore why he procrastinates. Maybe asking questions from those who have already lived through similar situations would help him understand himself better, or at the very least help him view his situation from a fresh perspective.
Don't limit yourself. There are many ways to achieve your goals, explore them all.
Good advice, thank you. As stated above, doing real work may lessen my procrastination. I have not yet arrived at the true reason for my it, but there is a confluence of possible cuases. By arriving at the main cause of it all, I may overcome it, or simply motivate myself on the way.
One possibility that I am strongly considering is working for a while, saving up, and going overseas to work there, while exploring the new environment. Has anyone on the forum ever attempted such an endeavour, and if so, what was the general experience?