A proper introduction

[Auburn]

Cryptonia, thank you so much for bringing this thread back to life, honestly.
I never knew about this thread, and it would have been a huge loss for it to go unnoticed. Perhaps a few re-introductions would help bridge the gap between newer and older members...


Come to think of it, I've never given a full description of myself - although a fairly complete account exist dispersed throughout all of my posts. For what it's worth, here goes...

*will try not to write down common intp traits, as that goes without saying*

Strangely enough, Auburn is a name I'm more personally attached to than my real name. To be honest I think that I would actually respond in real life if you called me Auburn, even though I've never been called that before... ^^;

Um, let's see here, how do I do this...
I'm not sure how well this format will work, but I'll start by listing a summary of all my major interest throughout the years. (I may have forgotten a few)

Age 5-11:

Bikes
Swimming
Mathematics
Drawing
DBZ
Chess
NES
SNES [DK/Mario World/Mortal Combat]
Gameboy Color [Silver/Crystal/Yellow]
N64 [Super Smash Bros!/Mariokart]

Age 12-15

Yu-Gi-Oh Trading Card Game
GameCube [SSBM!/Double Dash/Sunshine]
Music [Evanescence/Linkin Park]
Japanese [Katakana/Hiragana]
Kung Fu [Wing Chun Class]
Naruto
Storywriting [Merry Melody]
Journaling
Charcoal Art

Age 16-19

The Search for Truth
Christianity;
--Public Preching
--Door to Door Ministry
--Intense Prayer/Bible Study
--Veganism
--Guitar
Psychology [MBTI]
Philosophy [Determinism/Nihilism]
Personal Relationships [Forums/Friendships]


There are traces of all of those interests still residing somewhere inside, although many of them were nearly erradicated with the dawning of Christianity in my life. I'm not Christian any longer, but it did have a permanent, and positive, effect on my life.

I went to a Christian dorm school for the last three years of high school. I can't even begin to describe how passionate I was for Him. During that time I was fortunate enough to go to several Christian revival conferences from California to Minesota to Baltimore with a small group of dedicated classmates. We would then come back and minister to the school - preach to it, give studies in the dorms, ask for prayer requests, and much more...

Senior year I was introduced to the MBTI in a class and then my interest shifted to psychology. I then began to learn how human behavior works systematically and I found logical answers that explained people's actions much better than the Bible - which, in essence, attributes all negative human behavior to our sinful/fallen nature. This lead to my current belief in determinism, and this amazing forum.

In regards to personal relationships...
I'm a very curious person, and love to understand people.
There is a great lack of deep and genuine understanding of people - the type of understanding the goes beyond the courtesy and into the core. I love to get to know who they truly are behind the sometimes countless layers they hide beneath. I've also been very blessed to have met chimera, an amazing individual whom I love deeply.

And lastly, there is something that I seek after...
I have no clue if I will ever find them or not, but I guess I'll just keep searching. If all fails and I cannot find them, then I hope to at least one day become one of them so that those coming after me may have such a person to look to...


~Auburn~

 

[Melkor]

Umm..woah..

An insight into Auburn..

For the record
Chess, drawing, ANYTHING- Nintendo, storywriting and Japanese=<3

I am most surprised by your Christianity.

I know that personalities morph with age, but really, I never thought preaching was an Intp thing.

Granted, a few Intp's are religious,(though not many I feel) but often they don't go about enforcing their beleifs-so to speak.

Were you a rare 'passive preacher'?

I guess this explains why you're such a freakin angel.

Honestly, I'll have to force you to kill someone someday, in order to break your spirit and taint your holy robes.

 

[Artifice Orisit]

I know that personalities morph with age, but really, I never thought preaching was an Intp thing.

Sure it is, I do televangelist pisstakes so well people can't tell if I am one or not.

Televangelists are fair game

 

[Jennywocky]

Sure it is, I do televangelist pisstakes so well people can't tell if I am one or not.

Does this mean I shouldn't have sent you my rent and grocery money last month?

 

[NoID10ts]

I know that personalities morph with age, but really, I never thought preaching was an Intp thing.

Believe it or not, Melkor, I've preached close to a hundred sermons in my time and you know what a sweet little angel I am.

 

[Auburn]

I am most surprised by your Christianity.

I know that personalities morph with age, but really, I never thought preaching was an Intp thing.

Granted, a few Intp's are religious,(though not many I feel) but often they don't go about enforcing their beleifs-so to speak.

Were you a rare 'passive preacher'?

Preaching was indeed an enormous challenge for me, but, at the time, a challenge I decided was necessary for the reformation of my character to His likeness.

In retrospect, I think I was more of the type of speaker who presents uncommon perspectives to the same ancient truths - very thought provoking points of view.

Also, I did not really leave Christianity willingly. My mind, and the reality of what I was now learning forced me to reconsider my beliefs and eventually decide that there was a better explanation of reality that what the Bible presented.

It's because of this that I still have a deep respect for true devout Christians - even thought I do not believe what they do any longer.

I guess this explains why you're such a freakin angel.

Honestly, I'll have to force you to kill someone someday, in order to break your spirit and taint your holy robes.

 

[Melkor]

BTW, I snapvined you Auburn sweetie.

Hmm...you went from firm believer to none-believer?

I respect you a whole lot more for some reason.
You really must have had one hell of a self interrogation.:P

I went from semi-afraid, questioning kid, believer to master atheist.
I'd like to question you further on this though,the correlation between faith and personality amazes me.

I wonder how you see, or rather, saw God, and why you beleived it was so, and how exactly that relates to how you process things.

 

[fullerene]

hit up the science, faith and philosophy forum, if that's gonna break out into discussion . I want some of the other people who have expressed interest (ermine, IB, I'm looking at you --but don't think I'm not waiting to hear from the people who haven't expressed interest too) to have some room to post things about their life as well.

Thanks a lot, aubbie... that means a lot to me. As thanks: I'll never call you 'aubbie' again if you tell me not to

 

[Ermine]

Alright, Cryptonia, I'm coming! But what would I say? What kind of format? I guess I'll steal Auburn's format. Here goes.

My real name is Sarah Jarvis, though I kind of wish I could have a different name. I'd probably respond to any of my online usernames IRL, even Fernando, for you old timers. Just wear an INTP t-shirt and keep calling for Fernando, and I'll find you soon enough.

Age 0 to 11

reading - I started reading at 3, and it's been one of my favorite things to do ever since, though I was particularly consumed by books when I was a little kid. I just sat on the front lawn and read all day while the other kids played sports.

daydreaming - I was an extreme daydreamer back then. Let's just say I broke my arm jumping off my bed thinking I could fly. 'nuff said.

school - Yes, school was a hobby for me back then. I was a total teacher's pet, and all the teachers I've had to this day loved me for some weird reason. I was also a bit of a stickler with rules as well, and I liked enforcing them in my class back then.

observing - I always loved being in the middle of the action, not because I wanted to participate or be the center of attention. I just liked people watching, and still do. I kind of equate it to bird watching or something. When I'm in observation mode, they're all animals to me. I'm not a big fan of being in the middle of the action anymore. For example, you'd have to bribe me to get me to go to a formal dance, though there would be some prime people watching opportunities.

journaling - This kind of goes under the observing category, as self observation. I started journaling when I was 9. At first it was very silly trivial diary style stuff, but it got more useful and meaningful beginning when I was 13.

Ages 12 - 15

music - I really started getting into music when I was about 12. My first love was classic hard rock, with the likes of Van Halen, Aerosmith, Deep Purple, and similar bands. That's also the reason why I picked up guitar when I was 12, and earned money for an electric guitar when I was 13. I also have played piano since I was 8, because my mom, a piano teacher, strongly insisted. I didn't really play piano because I wanted to until I was 14. My mom's hard work paid off though. Also, this is when music in general started having a lot more depth for me. It has become my main spiritual medium. Church would be almost nothing to me if it weren't for all the songs we sing, along with more occasional musical performances in the services. It has also been my consolation, my mood stabilizer (especially during those traumatic early teen years) my everything.

fashion - This was also the time when I started caring about looks, not just to impress others, but from an aesthetic standpoint. I also started developing the art of first impressions in clothing. That being said, I didn't always do well in that department. The punk fashion episode didn't work out so well... Neither did the tomboy stage...

writing - I started writing for myself at this point, in journal writing, essays, poetry, short stories, and a small novel gone wrong. For various reasons and because of my extreme self analysis issues, I don't like most of the literature from that stage of my life. I still like writing, but I need to get over that if I'm going to be able to write like I used to.

art - This was also the time when I started getting serious about art. I always enjoyed it, but now I love it. It was yet another means of catharsis along with writing and music for those needlessly traumatic hormonal early teen years. It's also one of my primary means of illustrating ideas that don't come out as well orally or in writing. I wasn't much of a talker. I was always stumbling over my words (which I blame on a bunch of ear infections early in life that may have slowed my speech development) so I ended up favoring every nonverbal medium I could get my hands on, like art, writing, and music.

Sega Dreamcast - Ah, good times. My family has always been behind in getting video game systems, but this is the one I loved the best. I would play the Sonic the Hedgehog games for hours. I still like videogames, but I have enough timesuckers as it is aka THIS FORUM.

school - It was still a big thing I took pride in. My high grades were the main source of confidence at the time.

Ages 16-18

art - I got even more serious about art, got into an art magnet school. At this time I also really got into computer imaging software, mainly Photoshop, and photography.

psychology - It all started when I took the MBTI online somewhere and found this forum! Ever since, I've been going on this forum all the time, and kept thinking of people in terms of psychology and personality dynamics. As a result, I get along better with people, especially my mom, and I spend more time on the internet than ever. It's also been very helpful in my self analysis and improvement. Thanks guys.

debate - I started debating last year (specifically Lincoln Douglas), and it's made all the difference. I'm more confident, I'm better at commanding a crowd, and putting my ideas and beliefs in an organized format. I also got formal training in witty comebacks . It bulked up my Ti in a more positive way.

music - At 16, my love of progressive metal began with Dream Theater. Yes, it's made a big difference in my life. Ever since, I've had much more complex and varied music tastes, and it's led me to genres other than rock and metal, such as classical, experimental stuff, folk, and ethnical music. By the sound of this, you'd think I'd primarily be a musician. Perhaps I should be.


Aside from that format, another big part of me is that I'm a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latterday Saints, born and raised. Many INTPs would consider this a bit antithetical, but it has worked for me. I've analyzed and examined my beliefs over and over, and it still fits. The only thing I'm honestly at odds with is the dogmatic culture that can sometimes result.

Another thing that has been ironic but nonetheless beneficial is how much time I spend in church activities. The services on Sunday are 3 hours long, there's youth activities every Wednesday evening, youth leadership meetings in my case, and early morning seminary (basically scripture study guided by a teacher) every weekday before school during high school. And I can honestly say that I've benefited enormously.

If there's anything else you want to know about me, feel free to ask.

 

[Inappropriate Behavior]

God I hate being stared at. Even a virtual stare!

So to make it stop......

I won't quite use the same format as Auburn and Ermine because time and distance has blurred the ages 0-18 into less discernable segments. The years 19 to 41 blur together for different reasons. Such is life but here it goes.

Hi, my name is Dave. That should be enough to go with since it is easier to look up a name when it is on the phone bill. Not to say it would be a problem or anything. Anyway...

I was born in Corpus Christi Texas way back in the "Summer of Love" (aka 1967). I don't remember what I liked doing beyond playing with building toys (tinker, lincoln logs, leggo etc.) as well as with plastic cowboy & indian sets and an ant farm.

My first year in school was the best! I went to an 'experimental' school run by "church hippies". Back in the early 70s, being a churchgoer and liberal was a common combo not to be utterly destroyed until Falwell formed the so called Moral Majority a few years later. But I digress. The school was awesome because there was no classroom. We got to lay about on couches and learn at our own pace with one of the teaches coming around every so often to help you along the way. Otherwise they'd just watch and wait to see if anyone seemed to have troubles of some kind and then they'd dtep in for a little one-on-one time.

Unfortunately that only lasted one year. I suspect it was in part due to the building getting condemned because of all the mice. I'm sure there were other reaons though but the important thing is the effect it had. I developed a taste for learning at my own pace and it spoiled me for the following 11 years of rigid structures of the classroom that I instantly hated and never got over. I still hate a formal learning environment. This is the only place I can get away with saying this but I felt I learned faster than anyone else and resented having to wait for everyone else to catch up.

The family upped and moved to Virginia in '76 during my 4th grade year. Culture shock!! I went from having friends in my neighborhood to not. I went from walking to school to being bussed across town. I saw my first 100 or so snowfalls in the following decade.

I wasn't an avid reader of novels until much later in life. During those years I preferred history books to anything else. I also watched way too much tv. Contrary to popular opinon however, it did not turn my brain to mush. My imagination/daydreaming was as strong as anyone's even in the pre Star Wars era of moviemaking. I found movies rather dull back then and felt my imagination was much more entertaining than anything Hollywood came up with until Lucas changed everything. I often wonder how a child of today's imagination can compete with the heavy stream of entertainment thrown out these days. That's another topic though.

I should have taken some time off between high school and college but I didn't. I was so focused on getting out of the house and being 'free' that I wasted 2 years of college partying and having a good time. I skipped more classes than I went to and didn't do very well so I went to work for several years. Scut work. Cleaning out cars for a rental company. I also did a lot of drinking and drugging during those years. I could write a book on that so I'll just move on.

At 23, I went to culinary school. That was a lot of fun as 90% of the time was spent in the kitchens and then eating what the class cooked. I did restaraunt work for about 7 years after that. I refused to work in some pre-fab chain restaraunt and opted for independantly owned establishments instead. That allowed for a lot more creativity and personal flair. The downside is the ridiculouslt long hours. There was one stretch I remember when I worked from 6 am to 11 pm every day for a little over 2 weeks. I often worked 60-70 hour weeks. Paid pretty good but you had NO life outside of it. I once had the power shut off for a few weeks because I didn't pay the bill. Too tired when I'd get home at night and no time during the day. The life got tiring soon enough. During this time I almost got married to one of the string of waitresses but didn't. Long story.

I moved to North Carolina in '96 where I still reside today to help my sister operate a business she started up. I began reading so much more once I left the cooking biz and found all this time on my hands. The business lasted about 6 more years and then we closed it down. After that I felt like I wanted a labor intensive job and got one at one of the big home improvement warehouse stores where I worked as the garden manager. It felt great being outside and doing so much. Until I blew out my back that is. That was 3 years ago and I've been on the DL ever since.

I try writing sometimes these days and hope to actually finish a novel before I turn 100. I really should set a loftier goal than that though.

You can now wake up out of the stupor I've put you in. I'm done

 

[Kianara]

My real name is Juan Sandoval,
Strangely enough, Auburn is a name I'm more personally attached to than my real name. To be honest I think that I would actually respond in real life if you called me Auburn, even though I've never been called that before... ^^;

I can understand that, Auburn. My "real" name is Emily. 'Kia' was a nickname given to me freshman year of high school by an aquaintence in my history class. It was originally an acronym for 'Know It All' I started using it online last year, and, to be honest, it feels more natural than my own name. I extended 'Kia' to 'Kianara' officially when I joined this forum stalking Wisp and wanted my name here to be similar, but not obvious.

I answer to 'Kia' in real life, however. The aquaintence who gave me the name is long gone, but I speak enough with other online friends on the phone and Skype that being greeted by, "Hey Kii!" sounds better to me than "Hey Emily."

My real name fits well enough, but it feels like a jacket, a bit loose, while Kia feels like a shirt. Comfortable, well worn, and mine.

 

[tom]

Hi. Sooo introduction eh?


Well its not like I'm active so I doubt that there are any people burning with curiosity.

Real Name: Tom Ball (I do sometimes answer to my forum name)

I'm 18 years old and i live in the UK in Surrey. (stalkers form an orderly line)

School: my early school life was by far and away the most fun, My year two teacher was totally ok with me going to sleep across two chairs during lessons .

The general consensus of all of my teachers has been: "Intelligent but doesn't get much down on paper."

I would imagine many INTP's have experienced very similar judgements...

I've spent the last two years at sixth form studying Biology, English Language and Philosophy and Ethics.

I went to church from a young age and was baptised 2 years ago. I experienced God in a powerful way and wanted to know more about Him however my faith is made difficult due to God acting in a manner that hardly appears to be just... My current aim is to find a decent theologian who can answer my questions without falling back on emotional traps. Failing that, i dont see how i can continue to be a Christian

My political beliefs vary with mood. I often describe myself as a libertarian but I find that without a strong government people all too often behave destructively. I also believe that a persons value should be based on their actions and not those of their parents, the state should intervene to create a level starting position and allow one to proceed by merit.

As far as the future goes I don't know... My intention was to join the army as a combat medical technician but am unable to do so as i had a detached retina 8 years ago so I'm now considering becoming a paramedic instead

any Q's?

 

[sagewolf]

Ah-- a demi-biography? IMO, there's not much to tell, but let's see what I come up with. This is the aptly-named 'random format'.

My name is Devyn Ranere-Carleton (First name's not exactly common here (where I live), so I might as well tell the whole thing). Sagewolf is a username I came up with when the one I'd planned to use on another site was already taken. I like the name a lot, use it almost everywhere online, and I would very probably answer to it IRL. I don't think it's more me, though: just the name of a different facet.

I'm 18 years old; in a month I'll be 19, and as I write I'm in the middle of my Leaving Cert (read: final exams). So far in my life I've lived in the US, UK (Northern Ireland) and Republic of Ireland: I can tell what age I was when things happened to me by just remembering what house we were living in when it happened. Never have I yet lived in the same house for three years running. Until I was six, I lived with my mom (my parents were divorced) until she married my Da when I was eight. He's Irish: that's why we live in Ireland.

I have a dog. This probably sounds irrelevant, but I can barely remember a time in my life when I haven't had some treasured pet or another; one of my earliest memories is of picking out my first puppy when I was 4 and riding home in the car with my mom, trying to decide what to name her. Since then, I've had three more dogs and rabbits, as well as a stray dog we took care of for a few weeks. One of my favorite past times is playing with the dog and trying to decode his body language: trying to get inside his head and figure out what he's thinking. He's the gentlest creature in the world, which is good, because he's as big as me (although I'm not exactly tall).

I've played trumpet since I was nine, and I've been in the band/orchestra of every school I went to, except the current one, which doesn't have one. I still play here and there, but since I'm never working toward a concert or a performance, or even a practice with other people, I put it off a lot too. I'd like to get back into a band soon, and I'd also like to learn to play some other instruments: I've always been captivated by the sound oboes make.

I enjoy drawing and writing, and I've been doing both since I was about ten (I produced a very short, and thankfully lost, illustrated story around then, as I remember), although I've been dreaming stories up for as long as I can remember. Storytelling is one of the reasons I'm interested in researching psychology, although I like researching anything in general anyway, and I plan to spend this summer doing a lot of writing and drawing, since this year with my final exams coming up I've let them slip. All my teachers love me: I have no idea why. I have ninja-like abilities to look attentive and yet not hear a single syllable of what they're saying. I'm also one of those people who gets good grades without doing a lick of work, but I hide it so well that all my teachers think I'm studious and diligent. They couldn't be more wrong, really.

During my life I want to work in animation or in comics, storytelling and art at the same time! I also plan to travel if I can-- if I have the means. If there were only one far-flung place I could go to see, it would be the arctic circle somewhere, for the chance of seeing the Northern Lights. I would love to take in as many stray dogs as I could after getting my own house, although cats would be welcome too. Before I die, I have set the minimum requirement for myself that I must complete at least one story: a film or a comic or a novel. Or whatever.

Yeah... so.... Sin mise. (That's me.) It's actually quite long...

 

[Ogion]

Uhm, just a thought: Did you think about posting realnames here?You do realize someone you know might be googling your name once and see this forum and then being able to read al your posts?
I would say maybe the first name is enough, really.

Ogion

 

[snowqueen]

God I envy you younger ones - much less life to have to write about.

I can't write my real name here as it's totally unique. I am the only person with this name in the world (thought I can't imagine Sagewolf's name being replicated either) and supremely googlable so please forgive me for not revealing it. I can tell you that my first name means 'the smell of the earth after the morning rain' and my surname is 'an islamic spirit that preys on dead bodies'! My name is arabic.

Both my parents were refugees - my father from Palestine and my mother from Silesia - so they were not only refugees but displaced people. They met and married in London where I was born in 1956. When I was 2 they moved to Scotland where I grew up - though they moved to Beirut in 1968 and I stayed at boarding school. I was an only child and bore the brunt of my mother's PTSD as she beat me every day till I was about 8. I grew up thinking I was a vile monster child.

I loved school - always came top in everything except Maths (I'm dyscalculic) until I was 16 and my English teacher decided to ruin my life because my father's friend had 'stolen' her brother's Chair (professorship) at Cambridge university. I only found this out much later. At the time I went from being top in English to being a bottom-feeder not having realised that my teacher was actually lying about my grades. I stopped working and instead of leaving school with high grades and going to Cambridge uni, I scraped through and ended up going to another university to study Spanish. By then I had become a rebel, iconoclast and a druggie - was a heavy cannabis user, took LSD and for a while was hooked on speed. Kids - don't do drugs!!!!!!!! They fuck up your life.

I dropped out of university after a year and drifted from one course to another and one job to another. Had some excellent fun - saw Bob Marley in 1975, moved to London in 1977 just in time to make the most of the punk scene - went out every night to see bands. Finally got my act together enough to train as an occupational therapist. Worked for 3 years, got married first time, then my dad got cancer and died, I got divorced and I couldn't cope with work and had a breakdown.

I worked here and there for a while doing an odd variety of jobs - marketing, secretarial and then got a job setting up art projects with disabled people which was one of the best jobs I ever did. I also became a potter and exhibited and sold my work. I moved out of London to Reading and worked as a community arts worker and did OT as well and then met the father of my children and moved back to London. Had a baby and gave up my work, got post natal depression and then we moved to France for a year while he worked at Eurotunnel. Worst year of my life.

Then we moved back to the UK - I went back to work in mental health and raised the kids. When they were 6/8 we separated but amicably and agreed to live close to each other till the kids grew up and left home. 10 years ago I decided to move into education and got the job in the university. So I'm rather stuck and no longer have such control over my life but all in all I've done well from such a poor start in life.

Throughout my life I have found amazing people who have helped me just at the right time and I feel truly lucky. I was a buddhist from 18 until 42 when I just decided I didn't need to label myself any more.

When I was younger I was very idealistic and really wanted to change the world. I was a feminist activitist and I am a lifelong peace activist - lived at Greenham Common for a while and can be found at most demonstrations. I try to fight my creeping cynicism. Currently in the UK it feels like we are living in Italy with all the goings on in parliament. It's fascinating and horrifying.

I love silliness and cutting wit and I cook a mean curry. I love my two children and we live happily alongside each other - one's an ENTP and the other is IXTX . We have a lot of fun and I largely leave them to get on with their lives because I did a lot of work instilling values and safety into them when they were younger. They are their own people already and so I enjoy getting to know them each day. They are hilarious and beautiful.

I worry terribly about not seeing them grow up. I have some health problems and my father died young so that weighs over me. I hope I live long enough to see both of them into their 30s.

 

[Auburn]

@ Kia - I know what you mean by the jacket metaphor. The same is true for me - although my real name probably fits me more like an oversize trench coat than a jacket.
And: "Know It All" - lol

@ Ogion - I did consider that possibility, and truly I have nothing to hide. There's nothing that I have said here that is inconsistent with my real life, or that I would regret someone knowing in the future. But thank you for your concern...

@ Snowqueen - I'm in awe...
Granted you may not be very proud of every aspect of your life, but I know that each experience must have given you it's own measure of wisdom and insight. You must have a lot of advice to share with this younger generation - advice which I would openly welcome.

@ Ermine - Wow...
The things you've done are all things that I wish to do someday. However I was not fortunate enough to be raised surrounded by the means to pursue them - even though I very much wished to.

And it's interesting to hear about your faith. Back then I was a member of the Seventh-Day Adventist Church, which was well aware and admiting of the LDS's great influences in Christianity as a whole. I must admit that I had a bit of a healthy rivalry with them... ^^

I remember studying the LDS doctrines and comparing them to SDA's looking for the differences and similarities between them and learning how to approach/convert an LDS member. But I digress. I no longer have a reason to defend SDA, nor do I desire to convert you... But, nevertheless you have my respects.

 

[Agent Intellect]

I remember studying the LDS doctrines and comparing them to SDA's looking for the differences and similarities between them and learning how to approach/convert an LDS member. But I digress. I no longer have a reason to defend SDA, nor do I desire to convert you... But, nevertheless you have my respects.

can you try converting me? honest question, i want to see the "tactics" used.

 

[fullerene]

I never did really come back to this, but wanted to say: thanks, to everyone who posted. I really did appreciate the responses

 

[hope]

I'm 16 and quite bored. I live in a rich suburb, with my mom,dad and sister. My dad is an INTJ, my mom is an ENFP and my sister is an INFJ. I've spent the majority of this year's waking hours on a computer.

Last summer was a rough time for me. I got depressed over a girl. I tried escaping through reality by avoiding people. I went weeks at a time without sleeping, clad in boxers, glued to my computer pwning nubs in Weichi.
After severe sleep deprivation I began hearing voices(no joke). After about a week of auditory hallucination I informed my parents and they took away all my electronics and sent me to math camp.
Oddly enough, I enjoyed math. My love changed to hatred when the numbers became a substitute for the voices. After about a week I acted up in class and convinced my parents to send me home...
For about 6 months of the school year the time wasting disorder continued, during which I was diagnosed with severe depression and ADD. Eventually I got sent to a boarding school and got my computer back and lived happily ever after...
Kidding! It's now one in the morning and I'm afraid of going to sleep. The next meaningless day will bring nothing more. I've been told I suffer from existential depression.

hobbies
Baduk/Go/Weichi/Igo, tennis, ping-pong, biking, swimming, weight-lifting, calisthenics, kayaking, looking up random crap on the internet, video games, reading, thinking and winning
summer goal:stop sucking at guitar

 

[Auburn]

Hey there hope,
Hm, you've been here for a little while but I never directly communicated with you. Your story caught my attention, and thought I'd comment ^^;

From seeing you are currently the Asteroids and Moon Lander champion, I can tell you really do like winning. Not to mention that in your profile, under your interests, you put "winning" and you also mentioned you like to pwn nubs at Weichi.

It almost makes me think you're actually INTJ, however, you mentioned your father is INTJ and I'm assuming you see a clear distinction between you and him. I would venture to say this is in the field of tidiness and organization. However since the difference between J and P is more clearly seen in drive/goals than in cleanliness and organization, it's possible that you are just INTJ who's motivation is just not geared towards such fields. But then again, I just met you, so I doubt my analysis is accureate ^^;

On another note, I find it rather odd that someone with such a motivation for winning would have severe depression, when depression is characterized by a complete lack of motivation. It makes me wonder if they didn't diagnose you as such because you just lacked the motivation in the field of social interaction.

Anyhow ^^;
I either way I wouldn't mind playing a game of chess or sumthin with you to help alleviate some of that boredom.

 

[hope]

My social interactions have been characterized as losing situations, why should a winning obsessed, possible INTJ continue a situation where I always epicly fail and end stuttering?

 

[Auburn]

My social interactions have been characterized as losing situations, why should a winning obsessed, possible INTJ continue a situation where I always epicly fail and end stuttering?

~nods~
You're right...
I would expect nothing less....

Hmm...
Wanna play online chess?

 

[hope]

If you're serious message me about it and we can play on yahoo