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Consider being a sensor, just for the sheer fact that most people are sensors.

Which is why I wrote this: What makes you think I didn't? Honestly no, I haven't disagreed much with people about my situation really at all. If anything the things I've disagreed with are people's opinions on things outside of my situation, or I'm just correcting people to bring about...

Thanks for the advice and at this juncture I would. But the problem is I don't have the money, and I won't until I get a job. And that could be tricky with the anxiety What do you use? Primal defense or jarrow formulas? I did a quick shopping search and the former was the most expensive, the...

I generally agree -- thanks for the advice and I'll try, at least limiting my internet usage.

It's fine to feel annoyed by others, but once you let those feelings turn into judgements, that's where it becomes an issue. You also have to recognize it might just be your opinion. Some people just aren't that smart, it doesn't always mean they don't mean well. ^ This.

I will. I'm browsing positive subreddits right now. Going to exercise downstairs once my family leaves for work and school, go for a jog, and then talk to my mom about some things (which i fucking hate, but I have to go against the grain -- listening to Kuu.) Now I'm done.

I was going to let this thread die because I felt like it was mental masturbation but after re-reading some posts, there are some things I do want to clear up because I do see a certain practical need to it. Actually, no, in many of my responses I haven't been like that. A lot of it has just...

It's an anxiety thing. I just realized my question was stupid. How the fuck will some random person online determine that I can't achieve my goals because of how bad my situation is? And because of that now I feel like people are just giving me an answer to shut me up. Forget I asked. Like...

Are you implying that you think my situation is that unfavorable for achieving my goals?

I developed social anxiety and depression due to living in a bad upbringing (family abuse) for a few years. I talked about my experiences leading up to my situation in my previous thread I posted last year. I think there's a difference between my situation with mental illness compared to someone...

Why do you ask this?

No, it's not that I'm listening to society. If anything my short term goals of finding stability being self-sufficient and independent look like conforming to society, when it's actually just, well, trying to be self-sufficient. I've always wanted to be completely self-sufficient and...

I still live at home with family. I spend every day on my laptop. Occasionally I might go out for a walk, and I have therapy once or twice a week, but I'm pretty much 99% in my head. I've been like this for the past 6 years, even in school. I have shut myself off from other people temporarily...

The way I described this makes it seem like it's some perfect fairy tale Wizzknee bullshit storyline lifestyle -- but that's definitely not what it is. It's really not that far fetched. I'm not aiming for perfection here, there will be problems that come along with it and that's totally fuckin'...

It's not that I'll hate myself if I don't accomplish my goals, it's that I'll feel hatred for my life -- although I'm realizing that would be irrelevant since I'll just have to focus on the positives I guess. However, and I'm talking absolute worst case scenario here -- if this is the case I...

Well I was talking about the intense emotional want of a specific relationship. It's irrational, but that doesn't mean it's stupid. Yeah, but it's a matter of time. Given my bad position/situation, can I quickly stabilize to the point where I'm ready to commit and have someone involved in my...

Well letting go of the stress and anxiety would probably help, yeah. (aka not giving a fuck). I'm just worried I'll get to caught up in not giving a fuck, and end up wasting my younger years without a relationship because of that. I think there's a difference though between getting stressed out...

I guess that's just the way you feel about it.

This is not what I meant at all. I just want to have the experience. It sounds emotionally adventurous and thrilling. It's purely emotional, so it's not purely rational. It's also just me personally. I used to think it was really dumb to want it so much. Best to accept it rather than fight it...

I have updated this thread, but bumping it for reference. http://intpforum.com/showthread.php?t=23442

This is an update to this thread I posted a year ago: http://intpforum.com/showthread.php?t=21434 Thanks to escapism, I didn't make any progress in the past year. Now, that I find I'm unable to escape any more, I realize I need to get shit together PRONTO. There are still lots of parallels to...

I don't count an official diagnosis as definitely having it. Some doctors make mistakes.

What?

I'm gonna be a pain in the dick again, explain.

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I'm honestly curious to hear what people think. If you dig deep enough a few of them illustrate facets of my judgement. https://www.reddit.com/user/t0_0l

Ugh, another one of these.

How tall are you?

Just wanted to update this thread about trying to take everything in and get into a meditative groove, and how that's going: I want to exercise, but the anxiety being in public fucks me up. I want to have a clear mind while exercising, even jogging. Should I wait until I have a clearer mind...

Maybe I'm projecting but it just appears to me that it's about society and people in general. The quote you have "it's a cold world...sometimes I'm getting a little frosty myself" kind of confirms that. And then you have the way it's spelled (goddamn it I'm sure there's a term for this I just...

Just wanted to say, I appreciate your username.

INTPs aren't real.

Bolded can mean several things -- bringing yourself back into the physical environment by letting thoughts fizzle, or noticing how thoughts are rooted in the internal environment (your mind and body)?

I know I'm proving some of your points here, but I feel like I just have to exchange some ideas about some things you wrote here: Maybe, but you realize that Autism is an internal process that can seriously affect quality of life, right? I said before -- I don't want a perfect life, I just...

Thanks.

Ultimately, this sounds accurate as fuck.

God damn, you know thinking about it I really don't know. Perhaps the sense of accomplishment, being of the belief that I am not insane (and yes, that's condensed). But even with this, I still have the racing thoughts and feelings of needing to rush through everything because it's so damn close...

What if it's just a hobby of mine?

True, but the stress takes away from the experiences because Autism is ultimately an internal process. That's no way to live. I guess if you want to get more specific, when I say I want a more dynamic lifestyle, I mean an ideal relationship, traveling, taking charge of hobbies, ones that I'm...

Sometimes realizing this sucks though because there are older people who experience these that give you insight on how you may experience the future, based on their circumstances. I guess you could say just focus on the positive outcomes, but it's kind of 50/50. What did you read that...

I'm giving it some thought.

It was an analogy. There is a connection between my worst case scenario and having a bad experience on a rollercoaster because they are both bad experiences, and my analogy just played off of Bill Hicks' metaphor. Your point is faulty. I see the connection you are making but it doesn't add up...

Slow in processing certain information. Exactly, so now you understand my dilemma. Not that I want a normal life (no such thing as "normal" in that sense as it's objectified, culturally mandated bullshit) but eventually everyone has to take advantage of the system in order to get what they...

And yeah, I know it sounds like I'm arguing to the point where I'm not listening, but I'm just finding inconsistencies between advice and my situation, so I'm just addressing them so I can improve understanding. I'm eager to put feedback into action, any feedback I feel is relevant.

What if "real-reality" is a more dangerous trigger?

Then again, it's kind of hard to tell through text. Again, I explained why it conflicted with my values above. Maybe for you it wouldn't be such an issue, maybe you're pursuing a less adventurous or dynamic lifestyle. And actually, self identification with a brain disorder can actually be...

I wasn't looking for people to tell me I was autistic or not, it was partly a rhetorical question, actually. I just need advice on how to ground myself with this chaos. I know some INTPs have had issues grounding themselves (though not experiencing the chaos I've had) because of how they cognize...

ya thx Yeah, maybe not to you. That's because people have different values, different road maps. For me, where it fits into the mold of my ideal self, and life -- it's bad. Yeah, like I implied -- next 15 years down the drain because of it? Done. Do I think they're interesting? Probably...