Hey Jenny,
I was only going to say I think I find myself coming to the position you describe. Morality, goodness, truth are all concepts I feel I bind and loose as a means to live by, and best reflect on myself. I am unsure if I could call myself Christian because of verses such as Luke 14:33 - Christ is not my top priority, I feel I would always put my family and cherished ones before Him, and am hence unsure if I can honestly say I am one of His disciples.
I'm sure your experience would suggest a much greater understanding of how existentialism and Christianity co-operate, but I suppose for myself I am unsure how it works without a stable basis of objective claims to plant a faith in.
Either way thanks for your responses, I have been open about it here and it has not been very well received. I am fortunate only my Mother is Christian, in the family. My sympathy goes to you, I am sure it must have been much more difficult for yourself.
Puffy