Rose is dumb

[Black Rose]

I will not question what others think.
All this leads to is eternal frustration.
I did in the past thought I could.
Talking to people gave me something to do.
Now there is nothing to do.
But I tried to learn computers.
I was not the best at doing this.
However, doing nothing is worse.
If I can overcome my attention issues.
I might be able to make something.

 

[kora]

I don't think you're dumb !!

 

[Puffy]

Hope you don't mind me sharing an anecdote.

My Mum dropped out of school with no qualifications because she believed she was stupid. She's believed that about herself her whole life and put off pursuing a career as she believed she was too dumb to earn any qualifications.

When I left home, she was around 45, she fell into a cleaning job and started seeing opportunities to expand the business. She became an owner of the business, expanded it into gardening (which was always her passion) and made a 6-figure salary out of it. She's clearly not stupid.

A few years ago she was diagnosed with dyslexia. So she's believed she's stupid her whole life because the schools of the time were judging her on the basis of skills she had to put more effort into on account of her dyslexia. She's been conditioned from a young age to see herself as less than others on account of it.

She's not stupid. You're not stupid either. You've just had it ingrained into you from your environment that you're less than others on the basis of unfair judgements and comparisons. Keep going with your computing and coding if you enjoy it, and if you don't enjoy it try something else, and I'm sure you'll get there eventually as I wouldn't be surprised if self-belief is half the battle.

 

[dr froyd]

as ive said many times before AK, ive seen your coding skills and there's nothing wrong with them. Take it from someone who writes code for a living

you just need to define some concrete goals and follow through. Making a superhuman AI straight out of the gate would not be a concrete goal - not only is it inconcrete it's also wildly unrealistic. That is why you feel like you're never getting anywhere with it

and btw - you might very well have an additional challenge regarding attention, but you might treat it as just that - an additional challenge. Adapt.

 

[Puffy]

If AK got a programming job that would make me so happy (if that's what you want, that is.)

 

[Old Things]

Why do you let these things get to you so much? Seems like a pity party to me.

I think your debating skills are horrible. But you might have other strengths that you can work on that can get you the success you so crave.

Experiment with things. See what you have a knack for. Pursue the things you have talent for.

 

[kora]

I know that I know nothing
And so do you
So that makes two

 

[Drvladivostok]

I will not question what others think.
All this leads to is eternal frustration.
I did in the past thought I could.
Talking to people gave me something to do.
Now there is nothing to do.
But I tried to learn computers.
I was not the best at doing this.
However, doing nothing is worse.
If I can overcome my attention issues.
I might be able to make something.

Reading this I feel like looking at a reflection, I'm somewhat simmiliar, I have a hard time paying attention to one thing, I have trouble commiting to a task, and I don't think I'm half as talented as I thought I was.

But the beauty in being flawed as how we're made (all humans are flawed in a way), is to experience the fulfillment when you finally improve yourself, go find a task that is challenging but still attainable, piano, gym, programing, foreign language, martial arts, whatever, then have the bravery to try it again and again, half of success is pain tolerance and if you can bite your teeth and endure it, you can feel great when finally you notice the progress.

The road will be difficult, but you can make it.

 

[EndogenousRebel]

If you're dumb I'm pretty optimistic about the rest of world.

 

[fractalwalrus]

I would doubt that anyone is the best at things that they have just started, even those with natural talent usually must practice to achieve mastery, if that is what they desire.