Boredom

[DesertSmeagle]

For some reason, as i was watching a documentary thing about 9/11, and the thought came to me that my life is incredibly boring. Maybe it was a subconsious process where my mind thought that all these people died without acheiving anything real or important in their lives, and maybe i want something to happen..I really dont know.
But Im sick of all these garbage mundane activities that my life is centered around. Im in college now, and ya awesome, stress, and testing of my ability to remember things, so i can eventually get a degree, which represents that im able to put up with a bunch of bullshit at once, and am used to being worked. So then I go on after college to settle down and get a job, live the rest of my life and die.
Oh yea, college is great. Im goin to this small school with about 1000 people. They offer fantastic activities to distract themselves from the denial that college is fukin boring and stressful.. I actually have only one proffesor i can respect. Although i hate him as a person and hes the biggest narcicist on earth, hes on some tv show every morning and recognizes that traditional education is wrong andrecognizes that most teachers just get kids to remember shit.He wants us to understand and have an opinion on facts. And hes a fukin history teacher. Constsantly trying to justify his "historian" label. SO easy to psychoanalyze. He doesnt make eyecontact with the students because hes better than all of us and we are lucky to learn from him. He also surrounds us and himself with all of his acheivments. Ive heard him talk about the books hes written and the news show hes on everyday so far.
I made a video while i was bored, ill post it here later, but do any of you find your lives incredibly boring and unfullfilling? I feel as if I have no motivatin to live. It could be depression, but its a different feeling or thought. Its like an anxiety that is eating away at me everyday because i want more out of life..

What do you guys do to distract yourselves from boredom? I play video games and think..Besides thinking, what do you guys like to do? and are you incredibly bored as I am?

 

[EyeSeeCold]

Eh I just surf the net for random stuff, watch tv. I'm not incredibly bored, but I have this strong recurring urge to go out and do something exciting.

 

[Black Rose]

I like conspiracy's

Sunspots causing global warming.
The powers that be engineered the economic collapse to bring about world government.
Shadow governments (black ops) funding trillions of dollars to make human ufo technology to fly to the moon in 30 minutes.

People think its crap but I my Ni says different.

 

[snafupants]

How can you say that those hapless people who died on September 11th died without purpose to their lives? Did you know them personally? What is your idea of purpose in life?

 

[DesertSmeagle]

I didnt mean to say it that way, to say that they died without purpose. I just assumed that because they work in a giant ass office building, chances are that they spent most of their time in a cubicle at a computer, which i find rather boring. I didnt mean to say that they died without purposes. Them dying just reminded me of living a boring life without out any concern that we all may die tommorow. You saw people in suits jumping out of the 6,000th floor, and those people could have gone to work that day saying, oh fuck. I hate my job. Im sure they all had families and are greatly missed, and i meant no disrespect.I just dont wana end up working at a shitty job only to find out that im gonna die tommorow. I wana do something, go on some kind of adventure, or do something i truly would enjoy.

And yes, i knew every one of them personally. They were all of my reptilian children and the attack was a government conspiracy to take out a family of reptoids. We reproduce like rabbits and lay millions of eggs. Theres actualy a secret egg storage base somewhere underground in Arizona.

And ya Animekitty, i went through a conspiracy phase, and still find them incredibly interesting. 2 summers ago i was obssessed with 2012 and area 51. Area 51 still pisses me off. Thats how i know so much about reptilians haha. Now i laugh at myself. But im still fascinated by Area 51. Its probably just a place to test incredible technology in aeronautics. Like in the 70s they were testing the sr71, the fastest airplane in the world, and it looks like its strait from a movie. I cant even imagine what theyre testing now.

 

[DesertSmeagle]

YouTube- Tough Guy
Heres that video i made while there was absolutely nothing to do. Bunch of random bullshit made into a video.

 

[Black Rose]

I want to say that I don't believe every conspiracy I hear. I'm just really open to possibilities. I don't like to limit my mind to Fox News, CNN and Paris Hilton. I like normal people who give a damn about what they are saying, not talking heads that parrot what their corporate masters want them to say.

Nasty people in this world like to keep secrets. Thats why they lie to us and commit conspiracy's. Reptilians in my mind is a metaphor about people who benefit off the suffering of others by acting or pretending that their the good guy's.

I think its possible that aliens exist and that they created the moon. This does not mean I know for sure.

2012 is a cycle in the earth and solar system - The Movie is not what I think will happen - I think that it is possible Global warming is caused by gravity pulling on the earth because the planets are in weird position's relative to it - It only a theory but a possible theory.

I could be could be completely wrong. Thats why I'm not religious about it. I don't think I know all the answers I just ponder the possibility's. No one is my guru, I must figure it out on my own.

 

[EyeSeeCold]

YouTube- Tough Guy
Heres that video i made while there was absolutely nothing to do. Bunch of random bullshit made into a video.

Omg dude that is trippy as hell, the crazy part is that I kind of understood it in a way.

 

[nexion]

I am so bored all the time as well. All I ever do is stay on the computer. TV sucks to me, movies curb my boredom a little for two hours, but two hours of slightly less boredom does not even compare to ten minutes of thinking for me (though, there are some rare occasions of movies being epic, like Inception). I play guitar and drums ranging from some to a lot; they both keep me from being bored. Music works wonders, but oftentimes it is in the background of something. I have been fixing my computer. The greatest way to get rid of boredom is to learn something or read books. I'm just not motivated enough. Even though I should be. I can't wait until college. All my free time where I'm bored now will be turned into studying and reading. It's just too long away... a whole additional year. The last year though, of my boredom.

If this post seems at all to be constructed oddly, it is because you don't feel boredom often. Your life is defined by nonboredom, and boredom is something you don't feel often. My life is defined by boredom, and nonboredom is something I don't feel very often. So it is from that perspective, that I might do something to counteract my boredom.

 

[DesertSmeagle]

Ya. I basically just find things to do. If for some reason i cant do anything and my familyis just chillin on the couch across from me, i cant just sit there and do nothing. And they say to me "just sit there and relax". I have to be doing something consantly...Even if that means eating something. A meal takes up a good 15-20 minutes to eat.

Or i make a stupid video. I made that video because my internet was down for the day, and that meant no youtube or ps3. So i made a video. Then the internet came back and i uploaded it.

Im goin to college now. commuting from home but i dont mind the 10 minute drive. Im taking psychology, sociology, history, english, and a media class. I hate English. I really do. More than i hate history. I took a college English class last year in hs, but my guidenence counselor fuked up, so now i didnt get the credit for that class and have to take it again. I usually dont like history in school because its usually just remembering useless shit over and over, but my proffesor, who is the biggest asshole you will ever meet, is actually really smart. He has recognized that school shouldnt be just remembering facts, and the whole class is talking about or views on historical topics, and i respect him for that.

But college is nice so far. 3 days i start at 9 and get done at 12, and 2 days i start at 8 end at 9:20 and have almost 3 hours until my next class which is at 12:30..So i go home and sleep from 9:30-11:30. and then my day is over. The 2 days are my psychology and sociology days, so it doesnt even feel like im going to school...Except for the shitty little desks that cant handle my large body.

And in my media class, i guess we have a college radio station. Im only in that class to make awesome youtube videos with expensive software.

 

[DesertSmeagle]

Like i just got done with my day today. I got home at about 12:30, now im home. I have baseball practice at 4:30. College baseball practice is completely different from what i expected. We hardly run, and we just do stuff, even though its longer, i actually like it. Was the first freshman to hit a homerun while we were scrimmaging haha. In hs i had a bunch of asshole coaches and had to fukin squat and catch the entire practice. My knees are done, and my legs are like tree trunks. I can kick a soccer ball 40,000 miles. Im really not into the whole sports thing though, i just play to make my parents happy.I enjoy a good fun gym class, where i can pwn noobs and noone expects anything of me, but i hate organized competition. I guess i hate coaches and teammates, because then i have commitment and obligation, 2 things i hate. I would consder intramural badminton though..Badminton is the SHIT.

 

[IfloatTHRUlife]

I have understood how simple and boring life really is, even when i was extremely young, to the point that i have simply no interest in life itself. Its interesting because i enjoy the thought of life itself, the complexity of our existance and the world around us, but when it comes to what we are to do in our lives, i find it almost ridiculous that i am here.

The way my mind works is that i learn until im bored with things, everyone here knows this and can more than likely relate to this. I see something simple, i think about it and seek to understand how complex it really is, then once i understand it, its complexities become simple and it becomes a worthless thought. This has gone on since i was young, and the world itself has become.. simple... My personal life has been crippled by this, since i dont see value in people, things, success, etc. i just cant go do things, i want to enjoy life but it is.. boring.

So im pretty much stuck.. dont have a job, cant really afford college (and also despise the thought that it is so important in our society and see it more as a conspiracy), dont have many friends, have little involvement with my family except my mother and one of my brothers. This has been going on for so long that it just constanly gets harder tobegin a life, i have pretty much no work history, the work i have done, has all been under the table and cannot be referenced on an application. The more time i spend without a job, the worse it looks on my job history, making it nearly impossible to get a job, especially with the current economy.

In conclusion, life is boring, there is probably very little that could make me genuinely enjoy life, but pretty much anything is better than being 20 and living with your mother.

P.S. I would be intrigued to hear suggestions about what i could do, from people with a little more insight, i might be bored by life and not want to particapate, but that would just be irrational. Guardian types pretty much always say go to college, the idealist friends i have tell me to just move to a city and more or less jump headfirst into life. The artisan friends i have.. are more or less slaves, and are happy working in resturaunts etc, so i dont see much value in what they have to say. Suicide is an acceptable answer but i think ill save that for harder times.

5 cookies for anyone who inspires me to get a job

 

[EyeSeeCold]

5 cookies for anyone who inspires me to get a job

http://www.cnn.com/2006/US/Careers/02/24/cb.no.degree.jobs/

Alternatively, you can go to college. Yes I know it's very cliche, but without any work experience, a college degree is the next best thing.

 

[IfloatTHRUlife]

Nice, good thing they are mostly supervising positions, anyone can stand around, watch people, and run their mouth a little, but i am good at it, even enjoy it.

Im holding the cookies until i get my first pay-check

 

[EyeSeeCold]

Blast! I practically had them in my hand! Very well, I shall be counting the days.

 

[Black Rose]

IfloatTHRUlife

I feel like I am almost in the same position your in. 22, on SSI, going to college for no reason at all, dont see the point in a job.

I have an IQ of 108, You probably have one > 120 and this is why you are board being INTP and all. But guess what. You have the intelligence to do what ever you want to do. Go to a Barns & Nobel bookstore or what ever. Read everything you can about politics, history, technology, your local community. Don't settle for a job or college. Instead enter contests, impress people with your intellect. Look for people that need something than tell them what is needed to achieve it. Look at the world as if your the one that is in charge of finding all the solutions. Start a company like Google did. Crap I should be taking this advice myself. If you have anyone that listens to you than you can as a group do tremendous things. Generate ideas become a renaissance man. The US is going down the shit hole but we don't have to go with it if we just take care of ourselves instead of big business.

In conclusion don't get a job or go to college, just do what ever that hell you want so long as its not illegal and you make money doing it.

BTW My advice is worth 10 cookies so you better pay up

 

[EyeSeeCold]

^ Good advice, not everyone is prepared to live that kind of life though.

 

[nexion]

What's wrong with it being illegal?

 

[DesertSmeagle]

Its like acceped society is built for one personality type..And it sure as hell isnt INTP.....holy fuck..my family is pissing me off...my mom is nagging the shit out of me because she doesnt want me to fail college becasue i wouldnt be able to play baseball...im not showing any signs of failing anything, its been 3 days, and shes acting psychotic. But if i cant play baseball then im apparently a failure, who cares about school itself...my whore sister likes to drink out of all of the 2 liter soda bottles with her disgusting lips, so i have to drink our disgusting water that smells like sewage...And i dont have a car..that pisses me off too. If i wasnt playing baseball, i could get some kind of job, becasue apparently my parents have shit insurance and its an extra 60 billion dollars to add me to the insurance..So i either take the mini van to school or my dad drops me off.He drives a kia rio, and got a standard and only he knows how to drive it. Its all a control thing with him. He loves being in control evem if that means only he can drive his car..Ya, i drive a fuckin mini van. I should get a bumper sticker that says "dont come a'knockin, when the vans a'rockin"..thatd be cool.....shit im bitching..sorry...I have no one to talk to, so i talk to all of you imaginary people.

 

[nexion]

Damn this thread is depressing.

 

[DesertSmeagle]

indeed.

 

[IfloatTHRUlife]

No cookies until i get paid

And @ animekitty - I dont neccesarily beleive in IQ, but i got like 128 on an online test meant for an adult when i was around 11 or 12, so i doubt that has anything to do with me being a bored INTP. If anything, being as intelligent as i am, is what makes life boring when mixed with not having something to focus on. If i were interested by more things, or had more hands on access to the things i do enjoy, i obviously wouldn't be bored. The worst part is, i dont even have 24/7 access to a computer right now, mine is currently down for the count, so i get on my moms every now and then, which is actually why i have been posting more recently. I dont have all the free time i want to skim the internet, so i just come here and bounce topics. Of course i dont neccessarily think i learn as much coming here, since i just end up reading threads about our own behavior. Every now and then i read some pretty intriguing things though, be it theoretical, factual, or simply a different view on something i already knew.

And i think i have decided on setting my life goal as being a ring announcer for midget wrestling.

 

[Ermine]

I can't believe I'm actually posting here...

But get a grip. You're overlooking a ton of things here. I've yet to get to that point personally, but there is much more to post-college life than "live your life and die". There are people to meet, things to do, things to learn, and things to see. It may or may not be for some grandiose higher purpose, but there is so much more to life than just being alive.

You probably don't want to hear this, but coming from another INTP, you are thinking way too much, or at least in the wrong way. Of course you're going to hate college if you're psychoanalyzing everyone with the expectation that they should be what you want them to be. They never will conform to your personal idea of perfection. You can easily hate everything life throws at you with that attitude. Why don't you throw them a curveball by being what you want to be despite what others may tell you?

And I can only guess in this department, but I think it will be easier for you to think and live bigger if you make sure you surround yourself by good things. You really are only as good as your intake eg. good positive friends, good books/music/media, good food, adequate exercise, activities that make you happy.

 

[IfloatTHRUlife]

I never said i hate people or hold people to high expectations, i do hate people and cant deny that, but at the same time i am very patient and tolerant. For example, my girlfriend is an ISFJ, which is nearly my polar opposite obviously, and our relationship works amazingly well because we both put in the effort.

As for college, i maintain my position, i know its stubborn and wont get me anywhere but its more about principle. Its not about individual people at all, i dont care what people think of me, i just despise the whole system and see it more as a huge pyramid sceme than an education system. I can learn the same things taught there, possibly to a better extent, and from more perspectives, just using the internet. So as long as i can prove i understand and can perform anything i would need to for a job, what point is there really for a college degree, its just an outdated form of education that people refuse to let go of because its such an integrated peice of society.

And to conclude, thank you for posting, i know i think too much, and need to surround myself by more posative things, but as i said above, im kind of stuck in the middle of nowhere for now, so that will have to wait. And the whole, "throw them a curveball by being what you want to be despite what others might tell you", isnt that pretty much the way i have handled myself so far LOL? because it hasnt worked, maybe i should try something different and go kiss some peoples asses and ask for a job.

 

[DesertSmeagle]

Ya I guess it's the little things that make me happy and make life worth living. I don't know what I'd do without music, video games, or books. I've learned so much just by reading tons of non fiction books before bed. There would be no point in living without the little things.

 

[Ermine]

I never said i hate people or hold people to high expectations, i do hate people and cant deny that, but at the same time i am very patient and tolerant. For example, my girlfriend is an ISFJ, which is nearly my polar opposite obviously, and our relationship works amazingly well because we both put in the effort.

As for college, i maintain my position, i know its stubborn and wont get me anywhere but its more about principle. Its not about individual people at all, i dont care what people think of me, i just despise the whole system and see it more as a huge pyramid sceme than an education system. I can learn the same things taught there, possibly to a better extent, and from more perspectives, just using the internet. So as long as i can prove i understand and can perform anything i would need to for a job, what point is there really for a college degree, its just an outdated form of education that people refuse to let go of because its such an integrated peice of society.

And to conclude, thank you for posting, i know i think too much, and need to surround myself by more posative things, but as i said above, im kind of stuck in the middle of nowhere for now, so that will have to wait. And the whole, "throw them a curveball by being what you want to be despite what others might tell you", isnt that pretty much the way i have handled myself so far LOL? because it hasnt worked, maybe i should try something different and go kiss some peoples asses and ask for a job.

...to clarify, that was directed at the OP.

 

[IfloatTHRUlife]

Glorious, i knew it seemed a little indirect.