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Well, I don't feel like posting a wall of text like I usually do, so I'll post a video describing myself. One thing I am sure about is having Ne at least in my aux. I shape shift a lot in discussion, make frequent connections. And I'm even more sure about having Si, which would back up Ne. So Ne-Si axis for sure, I'm just torn over Ti/Fe or Fi/Te and where it could be in hierarchical order. However it has been taking me a while to figure out my type, and that being said could very well be an indicator that I may have a Pe function as dominant, although I would say that some Ji-dominants, with strong Ne especially, could also keep their options open. I'm also new to studying Jungian typology, and since it is one big abstract theory (seemingly) it can get misinterpreted by so many people, leading to inconsistent data, sometimes. I was feeling lazy, and was preoccupied with other things, so I didn't really feel like doing more research in regards to figuring out my type.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6S7w93bYXHw

I'll give you guys some more data later. Meh.

EDIT: I also wanted to mention that socially I appear very introverted, but being cognitively extroverted is certainly a possibility since keeping my options open, struggling to come to conclusions in terms of figuring out my type all points to strong Ne, or Pe, potentially in a dominant function. Someone analyzed me on another forum and suggested ENxP based on this. It sounds plausible, but I still think a Ji-dominant with strong Ne could have the same problem. However, I could be wrong. But that's something to consider IMO.
 

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I watched up to 2:26 when there is finally evidence of a smile, and it's suppressed before it even shows up.

The eyes seem quite focused, not really like they graze over the environment with rapid sacchades ... that being said, the shape seems to resemble Ne, based on the other videos.

7:03 (randomly skipped forward) - a moment of contemplation. I wonder if you're alternating between Si and Ne here.

7:50 - another example of T dominance.

My guess: INTP.
 

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I'd guess INFP :o

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And it's a funny perspective to think you to be an INFP, as most people on this forum have a huge misunderstanding of differentiation Fi and Ti.
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The inhaling to think, that what you do very often, often is being called to be Fi. The argument that goes in that is: To judge introverted emotive sensation, inhaling and environmental-detachment is being done to sense a purity of emotive balance, ready to be discerned by Internal Discernment Fi.

Doing it often/regularly, defines that the subject is Fi dominant due discerning internal emotive balance is required in their cognitive hierarchy.

Assuming this to be true, makes you Fi dominant.

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Ji is basically a discernment function which guides the subject's thoughts. Are your thoughts guided by internal emotive equilibrium, or internal structured equilibrium. I'd say Emotive, ergo Fi.

Your eyes constantly are focused inwards on subjective/internal sensation. Which is Ji. Ti is harsh, it is detached from the self while it discerns the internal sensation. Fi is attached, it personalizes itself with the sensation in order to discern it.

In your case Fi is also shown. That is because as your eyes are focused on your subjective sensation, you can see the attachment. Your eyelids will slowly 'close' and in general there is a soft look to it. It gives the distinct signal: "How do I feel about this?"

Also, with Ti, detachment from the environment is less inclusive as Ti has a goal for objective discernment. Ti is whilst focused on the internal sensation, attached with the environment in order to be detached from the self- This to then successfully judge systematically without being influenced (guided) by the internal sensation.

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Now that I have read you as a having Fi dominance, I'll amplify why you are an INFP in particular.

You are Adaptive (P). This is utmost easy to notice. Directives, have a constant objective judgment of how the subject himself enters the environment. A directive, with every movement he makes, comes an objective judgment. You aren't influenced like that when you enter the environment (make a movement). Besides, your movements have no objective purpose.

And basically I'd say INFP because I sense your INF similarities with me (I'm an INFJ).

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But hey, You might be an INTP for all I know. :)
(I only know 1 male INFP irl, and you don't share the similarities that I would suspect in an INFP. So due my lack of IRL experience with INFP males, I can't determine your type per definite)
 

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On the contrary, I believe at 9:00 this person is clearly demonstrating Ti-dominance to explain and rationalize Fe behaviour. The entire comment is subject to (what appears to be) Si validation at the end.


Edit: it could be an attempt at describing Fi personal convictions but the appearance of Ti is very real, from what I understand.

I am 100% sure my girlfriend is INFP.
 

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On the contrary, I believe at 9:00 this person is clearly demonstrating Ti-dominance to explain and rationalize Fe behaviour. The entire comment is subject to (what appears to be) Si validation at the end.


Edit: it could be an attempt at describing Fi personal convictions but the appearance of Ti is very real, from what I understand.

I am 100% sure my girlfriend is INFP.

Interesting. 9:00 perfect time-stamp as to why he is Ne/Si.
My opinion stands though. Fi Rather than Ti.

Yes, he is using Ji at the very least. But why Ti? Why Fe behavior?
He explains when he would make a promise. He builds up a context which involves that he must love a person deeply to keep a promise. And he thinks that that would be the only time he would commit to promises. And checks this with Si (if that indeed is true).

EDIT: I'm not entirely sure he is Fi dominant. But I'm willing to argue it. And I'm curious as to why (what perspectives) would argue him to be Ti dominant. (I myself could give dozen of arguments as to why he is Ti rather than Fi dominant, but I'll argue Fi to avoid confusion)

Also, Articulation (Je). Would you argue his articulation to be that of Ti'd Fe? Rather than Fi'd Te?

Also. 10:08. Te? He is counting Te things with his fingers in a Te way.
 

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Impossible to argue with you because you'll go back and edit all of your posts to look "right", this behaviour will be disguised however, as "elaborating" on your initial thoughts, being an Ni lead you'd suppose there is depth in your intuitive reasoning that is not going to be apparent otherwise.

It's a tactic to sway the opinions of others.


Now back to the video ...

Unfortunately (for me), the rationale for making promises does come across as Fi - this assessment based on my understanding of what Fi is. Obviously, I do not speak the same language as you ( @own8age ) when it comes to typology. The whole "I don't make promises based on my own moral convictions" has more of an Fi feel; while "I don't make promises because it is irrational to commit to something when you can not foresee every potential obstacle that might prevent me from fulfilling the promise" is a little more detached, like Ti.

The desire to make others happy, sort of like going out of your way to please others, to the point where you could potentially impose on yourself for the sake of others' well-being, well that's pretty much Fe in a nutshell isn't it?

What's more, is I really don't have many ideas of my own. I've pretty much gathered "this much" information on the topic and that's all I really have to base a guess. I used things like visual cues to try and identify Ti.


Last point, regarding the supposed use of Te at 10:08. I agree this has the "look" of Te, including the quippy head-shakes that accompany it. Only thing is, between every articulation the eyes disengage downward to process the next thought. What's more, is the individual does not seem to accompany his "Te" with any sort of feeling (I've noticed, for example, my best buddy [INTJ] just seems to laugh at things mid-sentence (Fi), and I have NO IDEA (none) what he is laughing about).

Finally, the whole moment is reflected upon at 10:26 with the sharp inhale and downward gaze. Would you identify this as a P or J moment?
 

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Finally, the whole moment is reflected upon at 10:26 with the sharp inhale and downward gaze. Would you identify this as a P or J moment?

This is what I think/guess.

I'd argue the inhale itself to be a P-moment. What comes after, has a directive intention. (Adaptiveness reaching into Directiveness)

The inhale:
Identifying internal sensation to discern this (Ji). The inhale (and his gaze) effected in getting a clearer vision for Ji to discern. (A clearer Pe platform).

Ji and Je, Pi and Pe are connected though. And thus, whenever Ji/Pe gets a clearer view of things, so does Je/Pi.

Whilst the Ji inhale, Pi/Je kicks in. Je discerns Pi. (Directive). Objective judgment, judging context. He is judging the context he was in objectively in order to implement objectivity in what he had said. He uses Si for this. (Note how he uses concrete perceptive examples to make a point: that is Si).

However, whilst his Directive moment, at any time he stays Adaptive. That is because he is Adaptive. His Directive-ness is merely there to support his Adaptive-ness.

Proof of concept: At 10:35, he restrains. This shows us that his confidence is not in Directiveness. He was in the outside world making a point which is directive, but then after he did that he immediately restrains in uncertainty and says: "Idk." whilst his arms go into an Adaptive position. He want's to move on, and does so by striking the subject-closing phrase: "Stuff like that." This phrase it's purpose wasn't merely for us, but also for himself to move on (To lose the directiveness he was in).
 

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The desire to make others happy, sort of like going out of your way to please others, to the point where you could potentially impose on yourself for the sake of others' well-being, well that's pretty much Fe in a nutshell isn't it?

Not specifically. It is F-ness. I know, it's very confusing.
Fi users would lie to make you feel better, but so does Fe.
Their goals/purpose differs. Fe wants objective justice, and Fe users overall put the blame on themselves when there is unjust. Thus, a Fe user will fight for a stranger if this will serve justice (even if the Fe user will have to go through danger). Fi can be thought of as : "How do I feel about that?". Fi users won't tell you the ugly truth.

Also, what makes it even more confusing... In every Fi user, is some Fe and vice versa. But that 2nd F-function is less aware, though it does influence the subject.

I think of it like this: Fi is internal equilibrium. Fe is external justice.

But to answer your question more specifically, yes that would be Fe. Fe users get pleasure from pleasing others (if they think it's just). Fi users wouldn't impose on themselves that easily. (However... Te could do this).
 

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Interesting perspectives on the visual cues!

Here's the other data that I promised, here are some questionnaires I completed on some other sites:

0. Is there anything that may affect the way you answer the questions? For example, a stressful time, mental illness, medications, special life circumstances? Other useful information includes sex, age, and current state of mind.
Well, I am an 18 year old male. I was diagnosed with ADHD, social anxiety, depression, PTSD, and another disorder that I don't feel like mentioning (I feel insecure about it mainly due to societies approach to it). The past few years I can strongly relate to the loop theory, if it actually reigns true. I am taking Abilify for depression, Stratterra for social anxiety, and Adderall XR for comprehension issues. I took Adderall on and off, especially when I was a little kid (30mg) due to behavioral issues, it amped up my senses very well and radically improved my behavior, especially in terms of maturity and composure.

1. Click on this link: Flickr: Explore! Look at the random photo for about 30 seconds. Copy and paste it here, and write about your impression of it. http://www.flickr.com/photos/benanet...ore-2013-03-23 "Fin de fiesta"
I assume it is a bunch of fireworks coming out of a tower of some sort. But it looks like it's some sort of alien spacecraft shooting lazer beams onto the ground, or a really cool neon mega-tarantula. Or it's a lazer shield spiraling downwards to protect crops from harm by selfish humans. I have no idea. My mind is full of fuck.

2. You are with a group of people in a car, heading to a different town to see your favourite band/artist/musician. Suddenly, the car breaks down for an unknown reason in the middle of nowhere. What are your initial thoughts? What are your outward reactions?
I'll just say this: I'm not the biggest fan of concerts (albeit, I've never been to one) since they strike me as a second rate version of a song, plus I feel uneasy in crowds, and have sensitive hearing. But, I'll put myself in this hypothetical situation. I would likely keep my inner calm, and try to discern what is going on, and maybe come up with some possible solutions. Deep down, I'd probably be relieved that I didn't have to be stuck in a crowd for likely an hour and a half with music blasting into my ears.

3. You somehow make it to the concert. The driver wants to go to the afterparty that was announced (and assure you they won't drink so they can drive back later). How do you feel about this party? What do you do?
I'd think it's fair to let him go. Why not, right? Unless something seemed a little off about him, then I'd second guess his proposal.

4. On the drive back, your friends are talking. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward reaction? What do you outwardly say?
I would probably accept his judgement, but discern it and either pick apart parts of his claim that seemed wrong, or inconsistent, or showcase other sides of my judgement, to try and get the point across. Not aggressively, but fairly. I wouldn't try to sway him, I actually wouldn't really care. If I thought it was foolish, I might laugh, and make a few smartass comments.

5. What would you do if you actually saw/experienced something that clashes with your previous beliefs, experiences, and habits?
Hmm. Well this sounds similar to #4, so it would probably be a mix of that. Some parts of this question seem rather vague, how necessarily would I experience a situation that would clash with a belief? I have experienced situations that were not ideal, even to the extent of homelessness. I try to hold my own, sometimes I might freak out though, from anxiety or uneasiness, to the point of withdrawing.

6. What are some of your most important values? How did you come about determining them? How can they change?
I don't have many values since I am pretty fair-minded, and I don't have much going for me in my life right now, so it's kind of hard to value something. But I would value what my mother has done for me and my sister, she works her ass off to support us! I would value my stamina, something that has gotten me through many bad situations and continue to do so. I would value gaining knowledge, if I had more motivation to do so. I would definitely value a relationship I would be in, and my partner herself.
As far as determining values, I do have to think about why, but it is the positive components of something that turn it into a value.
I guess they could change if more plausible information comes into play, or it loses meaning to me. Hmm.

7. a) What about your personality most distinguishes you from everyone else? b) If you could change one thing about you personality, what would it be? Why?
Tough question, since no one knows their true personality, they can only judge it subjectively and focus on acting like their judgement. But in terms of what makes me unique, I can only speak for myself, and I cannot truly tell what is unique about me unless I consult the external world (aka asking people). I'll take a guess though. I can be very quiet, introspective, etc. and then make comments out of nowhere, either joking or joining into a discussion pertaining to an interest of mine. I have been told that I am an old soul, very mature compared to other people my age, and also tend to block out emotions when I am talking about...anything (I would agree)
I would change my approach to anxiety. It sometimes forces me to withdraw, overanalyze everything, and even become irrational and closed minded. Hopefully I'll push through it stronger, it seems like I am starting to.

8. How do you treat hunches or gut feelings? In what situations are they most often triggered?
I don't usually trust them, unless I think about them and throw away irrelevant hunches. They can be triggered by pretty much any type of situation, but mainly things related to me personally.

9. a) What activities energize you most? b) What activities drain you most? Why?
I get energized by my interests (mainly doing research on things that I am interested in), daydreaming about myself, and how my life could be. I get energized by the idea of being in love, since that would make me feel like I am worth something. Sometimes I get energized by socializing, if I'm confident; this tells me I am beating social anxiety so that is the cause of energy. Although socializing can drain me sometimes (it depends on my mood, really), and playing video games for a while can also have this affect on me. Other than that, I can't really tell.

10. What do you repress about your outward behavior or internal thought process when around others? Why?

I'm not sure how I would repress my internal thought processing system, but in terms of behavior in the external world, I hold back comments that I don't think would fly. I tend to overthink how I may appear in a certain situation, which breeds fear and fuels my anxiety.
 

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2. Study these two images here and here. Which one do you prefer and why? How would you describe it?

http://farm9.staticflickr.com/8287/7...4da6df716d.jpg http://farm7.staticflickr.com/6005/6...c083ea9f_m.jpg
Picture one: Waves lightly crashing against sand. It's either sunset or sunrise, I give the edge to sunset since the stars are peeking. At the left corner of the photo what looks like clouds, though, could be mistaken as a smoke of some sort, and it looks like there's a mountainous landscape of some sort peeking though. Volcano? Is this in Hawaii? Other than that, not much to discern other than waves and the sky reflecting in the water.
Picture two: A lady is breaking apart food, so it's easier to eat, or she just prefers to break it apart. Looks like croissants, or stromboli? I would say croissants just based on the fact that there is a mug of coffee on the table, and who would drink coffee while eating stromboli? Unless it's breakfast stromboli consisting of eggs, sausage and the like, or you're some sort of hipster rebelling against common rituals of schedules pertaining to food.
As far as what photo I prefer? #2 amused me. Hmmm.....#2, probably.

3. Please describe yourself as a person if you were to introduce yourself to someone else like in a cover letter. What kind of person are you and why?

Hmm....it depends on the job, really. I tend to describe myself in ways that feature sarcasm. But you have to be serious if you're describing yourself in a cover letter, like this question mentioned. So...."My name is Louis. I am 18 years old. I have never had a job before, but I have some experience in this field. I can be a very hard worker if I am in the right mindset, and energy varies. I like doing this because.....blah blah, etc. etc." Something like that.
If I were to describe myself ideally (like on a social networking site), it would probably be more like this: "Hi, I'm Louis. I live in a bubble of ponder, with everchanging wind directions. My brain is equipped with an extra-analyzing processing unit (xAPU) where thoughts, ideas, and theories are generated at a rate of 85 Mbps (that's on a slow day). These thoughts, or bits of internal data, circulate around and through the psyche, and during that process of circulation, more data branches out from related data, which can create brainstorms at times. I manifest in mysterious ways, and I am prone to, at times excessively, daydreaming of complex situations and potential future transmutations. My social skill system is flawed, with socially awkward components; how much leverage applied to these components usually depends on the day, analyzing speeds of data flowing through the psyche, types of data being processed, the situation I am applied in, and the overall temperament of the persona. I have a musical fervor; it's in my blood."

4. What kind of person would you LIKE to be? Why? What kind of person would you NOT want to be? Why?

I would like to be smarter, gain more knowledge, things like that. I want to be musical. Philosophical. Insightful. Even tempered. Competent in the external world. I want to be content with my life. I want to be the type of person that people come to for insight/perceptions/advice. Why? Hmm, if I feel like everything I am doing is right (and sometimes this is influenced by the external world) then I am content.
I don't want to be someone who is shallow. Insecure. Immature, both emotionally and intellectually. Impulsive. Incompetent. The list goes on, but as an 18 year old adolescent with insight on how adolescent society is, and common behaviors pertaining to this society, I have a distaste towards it in general, and strive to be different.

5. Do you think there are any differences to how you described yourself and how people actually perceive you? How do you think others would describe you? If there are any discrepancies between these two that are you are aware of; do you know why exactly that is?

I really don't know how people would describe me as a whole. But people have said that I (and most, if not all are of these people are older than me): usually have the best perception on things, honest, overthink things too much. I think if people got to know me well, people my age would find me refreshing compared to the majority of people, appreciate my honesty, and think I am intelligent compared to the majority of adolescent society. Or, they'd be put off by my weirdness and at times awkwardness, for reasons that I can't really specify, since it is purely hypothetical.
What isn't consistent between external world and internal self observations; I am quiet, and this leads me to be understood. A year ago (when I was very loopy by MBTI terms, I suspect) I was very rigid and closed minded in my views, strongly fueled by anxiety and doubt. This led people to brush things I said off. Other than that, some people may think I am stupid, due to my aloofness. People that know me very well have pegged me as intelligent, however, so going by this, there's a discrepancy.

6. What in life do you find to be of importance? Why? If you are unsure you can always take the Value Test and post the results here. Do note that it helps if you narrow it down to 20 or ideally 10 values as suggested at stage 2.

It depends on what kind of person you are. If intellectual pursuits are your lot (like Einstein, Carl Jung, etc.) then what is important is coming up with groundbreaking objective subjective standards of philosophy, science, whatever. If more artistic pursuits are more your style, then go revel in those fields! I'm not sure because being the young person I am, I'm staring the elements of life in the face and discerning them piece by piece, figuring out what is suited for me, what is cool, etc. But music is something that is really important to me. It's a trip filled with sounds that, if composed really well, tend to replicate emotions, thoughts, and internal sensation, topped with lyrics analyzing the purpose of it all, crafted into a fascinating composure that really can't be described in words, you have to get a feel for it. The world without music...I can't imagine what it would be like, but one of the magic elements of life would have lost it's pepper, certainly.

7. How do you react to new situations in your life? Can you describe an event in your life where you were in an unknown situation? How did you deal with it?

I can be anxious, and need to let it synthesize and settle in before I can adapt to it. I need to think about it and make sense of it all, basically. The last really unknown situation I was in was when I found out my family was going to be homeless. I don't remember what my state of mind was (I was 12, BTW) but I cried hysterically when I found out, and had to let it sink in in order to accept it. Acceptance came from talking with my mom about it and how she tried to help me think positively, if I can recall.

8. Please describe yourself when you are in a stressful situation. How do you act and why? Real life experiences are welcome.

I withdraw, and analyze everything related to it or associated with it, until I feel like I have figured things out, or I feel better. I can be pretty reclusive. Stubborn, even. Anxious. Eerily silent. I try to bottle up my emotions but when I am really in a state of internal discomfort, madness, and confusion; I may explode. This manifests at home, since my SA kicks in in public so I hold a much tighter reign on it, however manifestation may peek through in terms of how I may say things or facial expressions, posture, and overall nature.
A year ago I was in a period like this. I was very close minded, and thought people were against me. I was even deluded, to an extent.

9. Please describe yourself when you are in an enjoyable situation. How do you act and why? Real life experiences are welcome.

Depends on what kind of situation, and what "enjoyable" really is, but my sarcasm can peek through, and I can make fun of well....anything. If I'm really comfortable I can be a little jovial, strange, and silly in my behavior. I try to be pleasing, and if it is an intellectual situation pertaining to an interest - I'll definitely speak my mind, showcase my beliefs, and get involved.

10. Describe your relationship to socialization. How do you perceive one-on-one interaction? How do you perceive group interaction?

I prefer one-on-one since it has the idea of "depth in relationships over breadth", but group interaction (mainly with peers I know well) can be fun when I'm in extroverted, sarcastic-humorous-observant-smartass mode. That doesn't mean I'm always in humor-mode; I can be courteous socially in groups.

11. Describe your relationship to society. What are the elements of it you hold important or unimportant (e.g. social norms, values, customs, traditions)? How do you see people as a whole?

I feel somewhat disconnected from the external world. I certainly don't fit into the social norms and statuses of typical adolescent society - what's popular, etc, and with reason, it doesn't resonate with me and I prefer it not to. However, some people seem to admire me, since I don't always brush people off - and they seem to enjoy my sense of humor and observations in general.
What I find important....I'm not sure. I try to be courteous, and some elements I agree with, but some I don't - like how it's cool to give someone a gift on Valentine's Day (which I find silly - every day should be Valentine's Day to an extent, and varying from couple to couple) but it's weird to do so on a regular day. Or "goodmorning" texts. Bleh. It all seems.....overemphasized.
People vary person to person; some are in generally good states, some the opposite, some dull, some fascinating, etc. But in general, I think society has a tendency to overemphasize certain things, and people try to take control in many situations and try to force "power", which only creates more stress. We also tend to focus on hyberbole when describing things, or we are too impulsive; we don't spend the time to think before acting. We sometimes have a tendency to use, abuse, and do things for our own benefit. People are getting lazier due to electronic devices, which breeds distraction from thought, and thought ---> ideas, ideas ---> creation. This is also breeding ignorance since laziness is seemingly increasing.

12. Describe your relationship to authority. How do you perceive authority? What does it mean to you, and how do you deal with it?

It depends. Sometimes it is needed, but in any case, it can be overemphasized. Authority that takes a more rigid stance can be annoying. It doesn't really mean anything to me, and I keep an even temper when dealing with it. I may try to work my way around it if I feel like it doesn't resonate with a situation.

13. Describe your relationship to order and chaos. What do order and chaos mean to you? How do they manifest in your daily life?

Hmm....not totally understanding of this question. But order doesn't really mean anything to me, and chaos?

14. What is it that you fear in life? Why? How does this fear manifest to you both in how you think and how you act?

Being alone for the rest of my life. Not being competent enough, especially by society's standards (even though the latter is slowly diminishing the more I perceive that societies standards can be silly). Losing friends, sometimes. This creates more anxiety, and I will overthink (of course) what fear and anxiety bring to the table of contemplation.

15. What is it that you desire in life? What do you strive to achieve? Why? Where do you think these drives and desires stem from or are inspired by?

I desire a happy, successful marriage, with intimate components. To raise a family. Have a decent career that I enjoy. To achieve content states in terms of happiness, intelligence, skills. Achieving abilities pertaining to hobbies and interests. All because self worth and achievements pertaining to world rituals are the key to living a content life. I'm not sure where these stem from; however, I have done a shit ton of reflecting over the past few years (and continue to do so in fact) and have been trying to figure myself out and where my life is headed, and what resonates well with me and my abilities. So that's given me more insight in terms of what I should do. Though, I'm not quite sure yet...

16. a) What activities energize you most? b) What activities drain you most? Why?

I get energized by my interests (mainly doing research on things that I am interested in), daydreaming about myself, and how my life could be. I get energized by the idea of being in love, since that would make me feel like I am worth something. Sometimes I get energized by socializing, if I'm confident; this tells me I am beating social anxiety so that is the cause of energy. Although socializing can drain me sometimes (it depends on my mood, really), and playing video games for a while can also have this affect on me. Other than that, I can't really tell.

17. Why do you want to know your type? What type do you think you are? Why this/these type(s)? Is there a type that appeals to you, to your self-perception, that you would like to be? Why? If you know your enneagram, please post this here. If you have done any online function tests such as the Keys2Cognition, it helps if you post these results here as well.

I just want to understand myself better, and how I process things. I think it may also help me be more self aware of my true abilities, leading me to fields that suit me best. I think I'm an xNxP, based off of all of the research I have done over the past few months, and also external estimates from people on some other forum, some other forum, and other sites. I'm pretty sure I'm type 5 based off of what I know.

I also wanted to mention that (and this is probably because I haven't experienced a relationship before) I feel like an intimate relationship would actually inspire me, since it would make me feel like I am worth something.
 
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