Who are You?

[Beat Mango]

I am a bundle of matter and energy, flanked by eternity on either side.

Too deep?

 

[AnnaC]

I am Anna.

I reach for many goals, and am slowly achieving them all at once. I am more intelligent than most of the people around me, and for that reason I tend to avoid people, given the time to do so gracefully. I could see myself remaining alone for the entirety of my life, so long as I have a faucet through which to channel my tumultuous thoughts. I love my family and one very close friend, but beyond that I have no patience for anyone, and most people know it. I'm far from being a loser. I'm exceedingly vain and proud to those outside my inner circle. I generally have a very difficult time getting along with other girls and women, because their shortsightedness and preoccupation with gossip stomps all over my nerves, but I seriously don't care that most girls don't like me. I go after what I want and attain it, given the means to work toward my goals. I have an obsession with becoming perfect in body, mind, and reputation. Anyone who gets in my way gets cast aside, and I fail on letting people down easily on every level. Due to that, I often find myself driving people away before relationships or friendships even begin, and I'm never sorry about it until I realize that I have in effect ostracized myself from society. Secretly I hope to grow above that society. I would love being a god, given the opportunity, for the power - and so I could create a new race, perfect and entirely surpassing all of humanity.

Personally, I think I'm amazing. However, you may want to see the "I'm terribly proud and vain" sentence in the paragraph above. In my mind I have very few faults, and once those are overcome, I will be invincible. Invincible to what, I don't know... But I'd never be content as an underachiever. Never.

Reading back through this, I've drawn the conclusion that I sound like an evil maniac.

 

[Chad]

Chad I love your naivete. You put up this sweet thread that everybody wants to post in, yet you complain that they're not posting the "right things", because their posts aren't mirror images of yours.

Isn't part of this "experiment" to document how others see themselves?

I don't expect people to fallow my post format. That would be a little much and like you said it would taint the experiment.

I was commenting on one post that didn't seem to be taking it seriously.

However, after reading his response I realized that I was just misunderstanding his post. Which is a major fault of mine.

I believe I have already stated this above however, If I didn't I have no problem restating this.

However, like you said part of the experiment is letting everyone type there selves in what ever way they see fit without rules. I don't exactly understand why some people are commenting the way they are however, I believe that you are right and I should have keep my "mouth shut".

Sorry again.

 

[Jennywocky]

gosh.

 

[Chad]

gosh.

Curiosity may kill the Chad however, May I ask what this is in response to?

I assume my previous post however, I don't understand the significance if that is indeed the case.

 

[Jennywocky]

Curiosity may kill the Chad however, May I ask what this is in response to?

I assume my previous post however, I don't understand the significance if that is indeed the case.

You seem to prioritize (1) giving credibility to any criticism raised, versus analyzing it for internal and external consistency, and (2) avoiding conflict and trying to perpetuate a harmonious atmosphere as the end result of your contributions.

I just didn't realized how pronounced it was until this thread.

Even redbaron's comments, where he was playing around even in his final response, got taken very seriously and straightforwardly (rather than joked back with) because you didn't want to dismiss him or hurt his feelings. (I would have joked back / poked him, albeit good-naturedly.)

 

[DelusiveNinja]

You seem to prioritize (1) giving credibility to any criticism raised, versus analyzing it for internal and external consistency, and (2) avoiding conflict and trying to perpetuate a harmonious atmosphere as the end result of your contributions.

I just didn't realized how pronounced it was until this thread.

Even redbaron's comments, where he was playing around even in his final response, got taken very seriously and straightforwardly (rather than joked back with) because you didn't want to dismiss him or hurt his feelings. (I would have joked back / poked him, albeit good-naturedly.)

Would that be a sign of Introverted Feeling?

 

[Cherry Cola]

-extending oneself unto others (as seen in thread)

-can criticize self but cant have others criticize self (as seen on this page)

-uses cheap safeguards to allow for boasting (underlined red letters)

The stuff just keeps adding up.

Anyway about me:

I am something of a loser, but nowadays things are going forward at a solid albeit slow pace, I'm happy that my life isn't at the standstill it was before.
Wasted 5 years post post secondary school being completely unproductive and stuck in negative ruminations, but hey I also got to marvel and learn a lot.

I'm scatterbrained, have trouble telling left from right; got poor motor skills, am quite feminime tbph. Place a lot of weight on ethics and wrong or right irl, but I find that impersonal logical analysis is required to arrive at any sensible conclusions regarding the former, hencewhy I have difficulties with fluffy stuff and prefer the company of rationals.

Mind before heart; mind for heart, makes sense to me.

Self image was quite low before, but I was such a procrastrinator when I was feeling down that I didn't even get around to do much in terms of self destructive actions. Figured I might secretely prostitute myself in order to bring in some cash at one point, but failed to get that going. Used to think I didn't have any empathy at all for anyone, and that if someone had to die then I'd be a good pick, because my existence was pointless.

I used to come of as arrogant at times, now it doesn't happen all too often (I hope), but I don't reign myself in as much online where I probably appear arrogant most of the time.

Keep on building some of kind system of knowledge for figuring out the world, it feels like I rely on this system in all my doings, it automatically applies to anything novel or tries to integrate it. If things don't make sense in a holistic sense then they don't make sense!

Also can't remember, dates, peoples names, streets etc for shit. But my long term memory feels like it is a strength of mine. I don't forget people or locations, my mind just doesn't seem to store them by their given titles, I remember some kind of impression instead. Diagnosed with ADD which seems to run in the family. Good at drawing/singing/writing/teaching, horrible at hands on stuff (I worked in construction for a bit, man that sucked so much).

I want to be a psychiatrist because it will give me time to follow my intellectual pursuits, and a decent salary. Plus it seems to come naturally, I can listen to people for ages and I love figuring them out individually til I feel like I get exactly what's going on with them.

 

[Chad]

You seem to prioritize (1) giving credibility to any criticism raised, versus analyzing it for internal and external consistency, and (2) avoiding conflict and trying to perpetuate a harmonious atmosphere as the end result of your contributions.

I just didn't realized how pronounced it was until this thread.

Even redbaron's comments, where he was playing around even in his final response, got taken very seriously and straightforwardly (rather than joked back with) because you didn't want to dismiss him or hurt his feelings. (I would have joked back / poked him, albeit good-naturedly.)

I do take thing too serious especially in written form because it hard to understand the difference. (at least for myself).

However, I normally don't care about conflict however, I am aware of my own limitation and my own faults. (I.E. self-aware) Therefore I have no problem admitting when I am wrong when it is clear that I am wrong.

However, there has only been a few cases on this forum were I realized that someone made an obviously accurate critique about my post. In that case I would be hypocritical for my to try to argue when I realized I was wrong.

You should read my conversations with Duxwing, Own8ge, and Cherry Cola and to some degree SpaceYeti. I also remember having some interesting conversations with you but not nearly as forceful.

Basically, if I believe I am right I will argue with no concern for anyone else. However, when I know I am wrong I will admit it. This is for my own concern not there's. (Basically I hate being wrong so I try to make it right as soon as it is point out to me) Just some introspective to help you understand my mind since you seem to be trying to probe at something with you recent comments.

 

[Cherry Cola]

So is it also inferior Se, to overeat rather than undereat, when stressed? I guess it's an abuse of tactile stimulation to serve a different need.

Yes I'd say it is, although there's more to binge on than food so it needn't necessarily be that.

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I think it's about struggling with achieving a balance in ones relationship towards the sensual domain of the external world; whatever the stance its all or nothing.

 

[Jennywocky]

I do take thing too serious especially in written form because it hard to understand the difference. (at least for myself).

However, I normally don't care about conflict however, I am aware of my own limitation and my own faults. (I.E. self-aware) Therefore I have no problem admitting when I am wrong when it is clear that I am wrong.

However, there has only been a few cases on this forum were I realized that someone made an obviously accurate critique about my post. In that case I would be hypocritical for my to try to argue when I realized I was wrong.

You should read my conversations with Duxwing, Own8ge, and Cherry Cola and to some degree SpaceYeti. I also remember having some interesting conversations with you but not nearly as forceful.

Basically, if I believe I am right I will argue with no concern for anyone else. However, when I know I am wrong I will admit it. This is for my own concern not there's. (Basically I hate being wrong so I try to make it right as soon as it is point out to me) Just some introspective to help you understand my mind since you seem to be trying to probe at something with you recent comments.

It's funny that even when you try to respond, it's just the same thing but you don't really notice it.

Whatever, I think this line of conversation has already been played out and isn't going anywhere, I was just making an observation. Let's move on. At least you're getting some responses now, even if they didn't fit the format you had hoped.

 

[Chad]

It's funny that even when you try to respond, it's just the same thing but you don't really notice it.

Whatever, I think this line of conversation has already been played out and isn't going anywhere, I was just making an observation. Let's move on. At least you're getting some responses now, even if they didn't fit the format you had hoped.

I will repeat myself.

I don't care much about how people respond (as of right now). Its all a forum of self expression as pointed out by Montresor and I agreed.

The point is to see how people will answer an open ended question.

My response is how I would answer the OP.

However, most people are not Chad and this is expected.

I am only commenting on your post because

1)I have seen some great insight from you in the past (I.E. I respect your opinion)

2)While I see what you are saying in an isolated involvement your often don't see the reason or the over all picture.

Therefore because I respect your opinion I chose to share with you my rationality behind my words. So that any conclusion you make can be based off of all the facts instead of a few isolated facts without any place.

 

[Cherry Cola]

Oh now its this scenario again, you've got your fix and now you've just gotta make it out of the whole thing without admitting any failure to yourself, the other people don't matter anymore.

I refuse to have a debate with someone when I don't care if they agree with me or not. That is the definition of waste of my time. /Chad

 

[Jennywocky]

No need to repeat anything. Thanks.

 

[Chad]

I'll just note again that I said I was done. Thanks.
And my last comment was an attempt at reconciliation or at least segue things forward, but screw that in the future, since it was misconstrued. I'll just drop it next time.

Your Welcome.

At least one of us learned something here.

 

[Jennywocky]

Your Welcome.

At least one of us learned something here.

I deleted my comment because it was pointless, but I guess you were too fast on the trigger.

Yes, I learned something. Wish you had.

 

[Chad]

I deleted my comment because it was pointless, but I guess you were too fast on the trigger.

Yes, I learned something. Wish you had.

 

[SpiralHacker]

I'm a phenomena of the Universe having a sentient experience that came out of the other parts of the Universe and is headed back into it.

 

[redbaron]

2)While I see what you are saying in an isolated involvement your often don't see the reason or the over all picture.

 

[Chad]

Oh now its this scenario again, you've got your fix and now you've just gotta make it out of the whole thing without admitting any failure to yourself, the other people don't matter anymore.

I refuse to have a debate with someone when I don't care if they agree with me or not. That is the definition of waste of my time. /Chad

I am glade you understand.

 

[sworm09]

Who am I?

There's a question that underlies everything that I do. It's the biggest mystery of my life and I'm constantly gathering information trying to indirectly get to that. Someone asks me how I feel about something, and I can never answer directly. If someone asks me to tell them about myself, I usually give them a blank stare. I would say that I am an individual attempting to find ultimate understanding...whatever that may be.

 

[UfarkTheRipe]

I'm the one that has your attention right now and I know you won't listen when I tell you not to think about your breathing.

 

[Magus]

Haven't decided yet.

 

[Seed-Wad]

What I am and who I am are in discord.
& I am under-stimulated.

Other than that, having found out this INTP stuff, seeing a description of myself so miraculously astute here, I can't tell you much more about myself than what is already said there. Mostly the things you can say about yourself is just an effort of the mind to get control itself. To quote once again one of my favourite quotes: Harry Frankfurt's On Bullshit: "Facts about
ourselves are not peculiarly solid and resistant to skeptical dissolution. Our
natures are, indeed, elusively insubstantial--notoriously less stable and less
inherent than the natures of other things. And insofar as this is the case, sincerity
itself is bullshit."

 

[ThouArtThat]

Who am I? I am the ground of being, and I spend eternity playing a game of hide and seek with myself, pretending to be you and the whole world around you. I get myself lost and forget who I am, and I go on incredible journeys to find myself, and by doing this I never get bored.

 

[kora]

I'm pretty screwed up but very good at hiding it (which has given me the world view that everyone must be screwed up and hiding it). There are things about myself that I'm taking to the grave with me. (oooh mysterious)

I simultaneously love and hate the fact that the compliments I have most received throughout my life are apearance based, I realise that it's the easiest thing to compliment, but somehow I think it's negatively affected my personality. I also hate the fact that that's the first thing I've written about. I'm far too easily seduced by superficial charm and "glamor" . I don't dislike anyone really, but find alot of people boring and not worth my time.

I am very lazy and can sit for hours just staring into space, it really frightens me how much time I spend doing nothing, sometimes I'm not sure I'm even thinking anything during these time, I suppose I must be though. I get stuck in these crappy cycles where I'm bored out of my mind but am too lazy to find anything interesting to do.

I consider myself more intelligent than other people until I actually speak and then I think I'm stupider than all of them. (Probably like most people with some kind of social anxiety)

Despite all this self centered arrogant/inferiority complex crap, I actually have quite good empathy and am therefore quite "nice", as in I care about hurting people.

I find it hard to make up my mind about anyhting. Sometimes even about what I like and don't like.

I'm ungrateful for what I have.

I'm nervous about posting this.

This is a very short answer for a very complex question though.

 

[kora]

And of course now I feel like my post is totally innacurate ha. I suppose I haven't really grasped what I am yet. Damn.

I like to think I'm a mix of Black book's Bernard Black and uuuuh... this smiley :

 

[Perfectly Normal Beast]

And of course now I feel like my post is totally innacurate ha. I suppose I haven't really grasped what I am yet. Damn.

Perhaps it is not possible to ever grasp that.

My experience of self-perception is one of constantly shifting variables which are influenced by whatever events/thoughts have recently dominated my life.
If i were to write a description of myself today it could be completely different to one i wrote last week.

One can never perceive oneself objectively and one's subjective experience can never be shared for the objective assessment of others.

Who am i? Who knows

 

[kora]

^ This can be my answer too.

 

[crippli]

I am your next door gurl.
I am not special.
I am like everyone else.
I am you.

 

[DrGregoryHouse]

CHAD THIS IS A GREAT THREAD (the number of view and posts is evidence enough). Also, personally, I read every bit of your personal self identity disclosure post and found it to be totally relevant, fascinating and...too short actually.

I am genuinely nice, and self conscious.
I'm a failure with a big mouth and grand plans.
I seek knowledge for no end.
Boredom haunts my steps and yet I fear change.
Responsibility scares me.
I am a man child.

Everyone will find out that I'm not as awesome as they say I am.
Well liked, but I don't know why.
My value is minimal, my skills high.
People have told me it would be a shame if passed
I really don't think they are being reasonable
But who am I to say?

I'm a lazy, pervert
a know-it-all, must get the last word, self righteous, anger laden, coward

I love myself, but I hate my flaws
I can't see myself
Just see my flaws
So I hate myself with unjust cause
I burden my soul
... At least I'm still alive

^^ Yes. Thats it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M3U83QLoATU

 

[Jennywocky]

I think Chad doesn't live here anymore.

 

[B.C.P.]

Despite the bickering this is an interesting thread because it raises fundamental questions.

The most fascinating ones, I think, are:

1) Can a human have a comprehensive view of themselves?
2) Is their self-image (what they can put into words) reflect their actual personality?
3) To what degree does it affect their behavior?
4) If a person can understand themselves, can they then say that it is current considering they are always developing as a person. For example, the very act of self-analysis can change the course of a person's life, so who is to say it reflects the being it is written about by the time someone reads it?

We're all shooting at a moving target with no bulls-eye painted on it.

It has been interesting to see the variety in self-description among people of the same type (INTP, and of course, INFJ's and ENTP's, too). There is a ton of variance between each of us.

Is it caused by our interpretations of ourselves? Another interesting question. Sorry I'm just dumping questions on you guys, but I think they are the reasons why this thread has not unfolded through a concrete process, and why it has had even some turbulence.

 

[BigApplePi]

Ya talkin' to me? Here I am. Fifty 50 seconds in:

Spoiler

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cUBfzq8ysdg

You donno who yer lookin' at? Huh? Huh?

 

[Brontosaurie]

I read every bit of your personal self identity disclosure post and found it to be totally relevant, fascinating and...too short actually.

what a hipster

 

[SOLROCK]

Read the topic. Sat down and stewed for a few hours. That about sums it up. You ever have one of those ideas where it strikes you so heavily and you are almost forced downward because you can't seem to bear the weight of the thoughts you're having. That kind of big. Frighteningly enough I feel I can't answer this question.

 

[chatelking]

It's a simple question, but really make me think.
I see myself as a rigid person, uninterested with general things. I'll say that I'm interested in many things, a lot of things, but just stuff most people not interest in. I'm a pretty head strong person, it's quite difficult for me to change my opinion especially when I argue.
I was told that I'm like robot, because of my flat stoic cold expression and voice tone. I was told several times that I'm heartless just because I rarely cry at sad stories. My sister once say that I'm an apathetic person and she said it to insult me and I take it as a compliment, strangely.
I see myself as someone who is driven by mood, when I'm in the mood of drawing I can draw a dragon, a very detailed sketch but I never finish it. For example I only draw it's head, or it's wing, but never a completed sketch. I just got bored. I draw many comic, but finish none. lol

 

[SpaceYeti]

Me.

 

[SpaceYeti]

I am a bundle of matter and energy, flanked by eternity on either side.

Too deep?

"Deep" is an illusion. You either understand something or you do not. Saying something's deep is nothing more than saying you don't have a real answer to a baffling and potentially important question.

 

[inhibitions]

Who am I? I am the ground of being, and I spend eternity playing a game of hide and seek with myself, pretending to be you and the whole world around you. I get myself lost and forget who I am, and I go on incredible journeys to find myself, and by doing this I never get bored.

I love this description.

Other than being a lost person, I'm cold and observing. I don't mind being this way because if I wanted to change, I would. Everyone has there niche and mine is watching others and taking notes. It's a lonely life in the background of things, but I don't want anything else.