What's your worst fear?

[jameslikespie]

As the title says, what's your worst fear?

 

[xbox]

Barriers.

 

[A22]

Dying I guess

 

[Hadoblado]

Snakes and maggots (phobic level fears), looking like a complete tool, dementia/mental diseases, pain without escape.

Death I am rly scared of or not at all. I haven't decided which yet.

 

[Cheeseumpuffs]

Boredom. That point where you have nothing to do and are totally unable to find anything, anything at all, to occupy you. Moments like that kill me a little on the inside.

Oh, and also spiders.... creepy little fuckers...

 

[ItsRelative]

Boredom. That point where you have nothing to do and are totally unable to find anything, anything at all, to occupy you. Moments like that kill me a little on the inside.

Oh, and also spiders.... creepy little fuckers...

So true, to be more precise it would be boredom not in that you can't do anything but in that there's nothing else to discover and contemplate on.
If that happens, even a feared spider would be interesting to fiddle with in hopes of something new.

 

[nanook]

right now it's INTJforum. registered yesterday.

next best answer would be loss of identity. i guess people with materialistic worldview call that dying. but it can happen while your body is alive. i never fear dying because my body is healthy and young. but loss of identity is like less than one millisecond away. it's not even away in terms of time, it's right here right now. out there, in me, everywhere. but i am blissfully ignorant about it. yet. well, almost. see, this is how a spiritual worldview eases your fear of death. it doesn't.

next best answer would be what they call enneagram type. the introspective truth behind this superficial typology. the face i put on the above fear, so that it looks even more scary. but i haven't figured that out, exactly. in my own words.

 

[Cheeseumpuffs]

So true, to be more precise it would be boredom not in that you can't do anything but in that there's nothing else to discover and contemplate on.
If that happens, even a feared spider would be interesting to fiddle with in hopes of something new.

Yeah, that's what I meant to say. I kind of encompassed the discovering and contemplating in a general "do something" way.

 

[Zionoxis]

As for phobias, I guess I would say bees. On a more thought-based level, I guess I would have to say the actions leading up to death, or looking like an idiot in front of people.

 

[Puffy]

right now it's INTJforum. registered yesterday.

next best answer would be loss of identity. i guess people with materialistic worldview call that dying. but it can happen while your body is alive. i never fear dying because my body is healthy and young. but loss of identity is like less than one millisecond away. it's not even away in terms of time, it's right here right now. out there, in me, everywhere. but i am blissfully ignorant about it. yet. well, almost. see, this is how a spiritual worldview eases your fear of death. it doesn't.

next best answer would be what they call enneagram type. the introspective truth behind this superficial typology. the face i put on the above fear, so that it looks even more scary. but i haven't figured that out, exactly. in my own words.

I think I relate. My identity has died a few times though, unlike the body identities can come back, new or old ones.

To be honest I think my main fears are the more standard loneliness and failure. I've tried so many jobs and the only thing I can see myself being happy doing is being involved in some form of artistic creation, whether ideas in academia or in story-telling or film. They're near enough the only things I get any feeling of achievement from.

One fear I keep trying to overcome is the paralysis I face when pen comes to paper. I can write page after page expanding on plots, character designs, scenes, ideas and images, but as soon as pen comes to paper to actually create it, I just freeze up and nothing happens. Getting through 300 words takes hours for me. I'm guessing it's because by not trying the possibility always survives, a fox-hole to hide in while people search for me on the surface. I want to get better though, I genuinely believe in some ideas, bringing them to fruition is a dream I hope I don't leave unattained.

I'll just leave loneliness as a no-brainer, typical self-doubts for someone my age.

 

[snafupants]

Dying alone, going crazy, a loved one dying in the midst of personal conflict, and having my intelligence significantly blunted. I could care less about actually dying, ceasing metabolic function and all that.

 

[Puffy]

Oh, oh. I know another good one. I'm scared of my body.

Not in the "I'm so hideous!" fashion, but I've noticed that I spend so much time in my imagination that self-awareness of being in a body is something that rarely strikes me. When it comes it's like an uncomfortable epiphany; I don't know what to make of my body. When I have that awareness it is like I am inhabiting a mechanism, and that 'me' is just a face which could be so easily peeled away, dismantled and shown to be an ugly nothing.

I'm reminded of one of the issues of the graphic novel series Sandman, where Adam (of Genesis) sees the first Eve literally made from inside-out. He's so horrified by this that he is unable to take her as his wife, as when he sees her he only sees those insides which ultimately alienate him from his own body as well.

 

[Awaken]

Death per se does not scare me at all. A painful death, however, does. I have seen people in agonizing pain and it is not something I would want to go through myself. My worst fear would have to be lying in a pit of tarantulas. I would much prefer a quick death.

 

[Roran]

Off the top of my head... bees, wasps, horseflies, insects in general, looking like an idiot, death (I fear the end).

 

[Jesse]

I think I'm weird as I kind of want a painful death. When I go I want to know I'm about to die. None of this in my sleep stuff for me.

What scares me most is being a vegetable.

 

[snafupants]

Off the top of my head... bees, wasps, horseflies, insects in general, looking like an idiot, death (I fear the end).

Although I would not do anything to bring about a premature death, I greatly look forward to dying and definitively finding the answer to that puzzle. Hopefully I have some shred of consciousness to appreciate it.

 

[Vrecknidj]

The devil turning out to be real.

 

[crippli]

The devil turning out to be real.

I agree, for you that is. She is probably not going to look kindly on your lack of capital letter on her name.

 

[dark]

Being alone.

My ex also scares the shit out of me, good thing I live 3 hours from her now. But that is part of another fear really, being manipulated and hurt emotionally. I fear that almost as much as being alone.

Death doesn't seem to bother me at all. I have accepted it as an inevitable thing, the ultimatum of life, it is the ever presence of death that shows me how alive I am. Take for example, when climbing the rock wall at the gym, I am high enough to where the fall will kill me and I slip, the feeling that over comes my body is unexplainable, I feel so alive in those moments falling to my death then the rope grabs me, just the whole damn wall itself is like spitting in deaths face and saying, "fuck you!"

I fear that religion will control everyone someday. That scares the shit out of me, regardless of your beliefs, not all religions can be correct.

I look forward to a zombie apocalypse. The only thing I fear from that is it happening when I am in like some building and we are trying to hold back the zombies and some religious nut goes loonie and decides to sacrifice the atheists so god will save them, that I've feared since I watched some Stephen King movie when I was a little kid.

 

[Dapper Dan]

Honestly, the only things I've experienced so far that induce total, irrational fear in me are treacherous/unstable heights and free-fall. Maybe they are related.

Like, I'm fine with flying and being inside tall buildings. Rock climbing is fine, too. But looking down over a cliff with little/no railing just messes me up.

 

[kubikub]

I don't fear death as much as I used to. The thing that worries me more about it is the impact it will have on those around me, all the loose ends I will never get to tie. I think what really gives me anxiety is the thought of getting old. Not in a 'buh I'm gonna be all wrinkly and pathetic' kind of way but in a 'holy shit I can't even comprehend the amount of identity transformation I will have gone through at that point I won't even be the same person I'm beginning to have a panic attack' kind of way. Even comparing myself to where I was last year astounds me.

Otherwise... somewhat irrational, but losing my memory or my sense of self. Waking up and not recalling the last ten years of my life. Or just not knowing or remembering who I am. Or involuntarily disassociating completely with reality. Basic loss of control and self-awareness type situations.

 

[Oedipus]

I've been mulling this over for a couple of days and I' struggling to find something that I fear as such. Mostly it's a "Wow that would suck" sort of situation.

Having said that though, up until about a year and a half ago I was terrified of people throwing up on me and car sickness (in others). I wouldn't sit in the car for 4 hours to get to the nearest international airport, so we had to fly from the closer domestic airport to London and then onwards there. She must have thought me so stupid, oops

 

[joesmelley]

Not being successful(intellectually) when I grow up. Finding out Im not as smart as I like to think I am.

 

[Essence]

Death not so much. I'm more afraid of the void that would be left afterwards. :/ I'm also afraid of not being able to trust my own senses for whatever reason. Mental illness scares the crap out of me.

Also, i'm afraid of going through something horrible and living through it. Like getting my legs painfully crushed in a car crash or something along those lines. :E

 

[M0d3RN]

Letting the world (yes, the entire world) down.

 

[Tudordee]

Becoming dust and fading into oblivion.

I hope all of this is not for nothing..

 

[Tudordee]

Oh yea I fear that I would come up with something brilliant but people would just think I'm crazy, and every instinct in me would say I'm not. But a century after my death, people realize my idea was ingenious, but I died always doubting my sanity.

Even now, I feel crazy.

 

[M0d3RN]

I am in the same boat, except that I already have the brilliance ;p Some people think I'm crazy, but I keep getting signs that I'm not.

 

[Dr. Freeman]

Either drowning or burning.

I'm more or less fine with the concept of my own death, but I would rather that it would be fast and relatively painless.