Cogwulf
Is actually an INTJ
It turns out that I'm actually an INTJ. 
Various trains of thought have been ticking away in the back of my head for several months now, eventually leading to a slow realisation that I was failing to understand my thought patterns because I was approaching my analysis of said thought patterns from a flawed perspective using an incorrect framework of thought patterns. Or words to that effect. Basically a catch 22 situation.
The heart of the problem is that I have never understood Ti because I don't actually use it. Instead, I realised that my main introverted function is not so much "thinking" as it is waiting for ideas to come to me, then I periodically organise these ideas as they related to the external world. This "organising" mode is also the way I interact with other people, something I haven't ever been able grasp before.
As for Se, not knowing that Fi was there in the background, I think I have always been confused by the feelings generated by it, leading me to misinterpret this as Si.
I've always been completely out of touch with my Feeling function, believing myself to have been Fe, hence I have always blocked out my true feelings out of a sense of distrust.
Fi is utterly peculiar, but completely right at the same time. One thing is this forum, as much as I love this place, there has always been something there telling me something isn't quite right. Reading posts, the direction of the thought patterns is always just slightly different to my own in a way I just couldn't put my finger on. Conversely when I visited the INTJ forum in the past or read posts by them elsewhere, there has been a sort of "uncanniness".
From the dichotomy perspective, the difference between P/J has both driven and been driven by my problems with anxiety over the years. For example, the classic question "do you prefer solid deadlines, or be free to change plans at will". I have always chose to leave plans open in the past, but only because this leaves me free to find excuses to get out of doing things and just leads to a viscous circle of worry and anxiety for me, whilst I've always worked more effectively and been more comfortable when sticking to plans. As for questions along the lines of "do you like to make lists", I have always taken this too literally, I may never write things down on paper, but lists feature very strongly in my working and mid-term memory.
Oh light at the end of the tunnel, I have found thee.
Also I've been up since 6am and haven't had a proper dinner either and so can't be bothered to proof-read and re-write this a couple of times like I normally would.
Various trains of thought have been ticking away in the back of my head for several months now, eventually leading to a slow realisation that I was failing to understand my thought patterns because I was approaching my analysis of said thought patterns from a flawed perspective using an incorrect framework of thought patterns. Or words to that effect. Basically a catch 22 situation.
The heart of the problem is that I have never understood Ti because I don't actually use it. Instead, I realised that my main introverted function is not so much "thinking" as it is waiting for ideas to come to me, then I periodically organise these ideas as they related to the external world. This "organising" mode is also the way I interact with other people, something I haven't ever been able grasp before.
As for Se, not knowing that Fi was there in the background, I think I have always been confused by the feelings generated by it, leading me to misinterpret this as Si.
I've always been completely out of touch with my Feeling function, believing myself to have been Fe, hence I have always blocked out my true feelings out of a sense of distrust.
Fi is utterly peculiar, but completely right at the same time. One thing is this forum, as much as I love this place, there has always been something there telling me something isn't quite right. Reading posts, the direction of the thought patterns is always just slightly different to my own in a way I just couldn't put my finger on. Conversely when I visited the INTJ forum in the past or read posts by them elsewhere, there has been a sort of "uncanniness".
From the dichotomy perspective, the difference between P/J has both driven and been driven by my problems with anxiety over the years. For example, the classic question "do you prefer solid deadlines, or be free to change plans at will". I have always chose to leave plans open in the past, but only because this leaves me free to find excuses to get out of doing things and just leads to a viscous circle of worry and anxiety for me, whilst I've always worked more effectively and been more comfortable when sticking to plans. As for questions along the lines of "do you like to make lists", I have always taken this too literally, I may never write things down on paper, but lists feature very strongly in my working and mid-term memory.
Oh light at the end of the tunnel, I have found thee.
Also I've been up since 6am and haven't had a proper dinner either and so can't be bothered to proof-read and re-write this a couple of times like I normally would.
