I just want to teach everyone about my ways of thinking about reality and will connect all of their subjects to my frameworks. I just know of no other way of connecting or being useful. So I talk about entheogens like they are legal and can't get my mind around how stupid, prejudiced, closed minded some people's worldview is (I mean: really???), meaning i realize too late, that i should not even have tried to explain to a particular person what a visionary experience is like, because at the end of the conversation they just accuse me of having a drug psychosis and recommend a psychiatrist, lol, when they are the ones who have a drug deficiency.
People don't understand the intellectual potential that i am trying to offer and get the false idea, that i just want someone to listen to me, like i am the one who needs help with my worldview, when they are the ones in whom more questions arise, as they listen to me (which i could answer). Because they are used to having no questions and everything being clear as daylight, because it's their definition of sanity to avoid difficult questions. Extroversion.
I can't help but to choose clothes that make me stand out, as opposed to fit in with any scene. Even though i try to fool people into thinking that i belong to a scene (any scene would lend me social status - only loners are everyone's carpets) i can't get away with it. It's like a split personality. One hand grabs for trendy pants, the other hand grabs for the crazy hat.
I don't know how to greet people in passing or similar things and people take it personally. My way of moving in space irritates people. I am not predictable/steady enough. Constantly change the lane, the tempo, suddenly i just stand still to close my eyes and follow a thought, other times i look around too much and people feel bothered.
I lazily ignore or mistreat my physical environment because of extremely selective awareness. Messing up my room with stuff like old packaging & always forgetting to clean my fingernails.
Also i am a native german who is sometimes dropping in an english word, because i forgot the german word, like a foreigner would. Because i spend way more time communicating on the internet than locally.