Unlocking the Anima

[Black Rose]

So when I was in the hospital I was in the cafeteria I stared at the clouds that transformed into a kitty and bunny. I prayed to god as I stared into the sun asking to keep them safe. Twice I imagined they spoke to me, first "keep your faith" second a week later "you better not have skewed us over". I remember in 2018 spring I looked into her (my Animas) eyes when asleep. I remember experiencing the Jungian self on August 3, 2016, the gateway to the Anima.

The wiki page said it is always a struggle to get to the Anima. You need to accept your shadow to experience the Anima.

How do you accept your shadow to get to the Anima? I miss my kitty and bunny.

Spoiler: Anima

Spoiler: Kitty and Bunny

 

[ZenRaiden]

Well its pretty weird. How do you know its anima or whatever and what does the bunny and kitty mean?

 

[Pizzabeak]

Anima is just the “female part of man’s personality” and animus the “masculine part of the female personality”. It’s brainwash, or propaganda. It’s just art done to try and show devotion or that actions speak louder than words, for boy-girl courtship. It’s an application to be a chaperone. In the legends it’s mostly bartering for protection money. Sometimes extra wives or random slave girls had to be sold or auctioned off for resources, then the ones you don’t want to get rid of can be stolen or kidnapped. It’s not that empowering to the female and is more suppressive than anything else, while a female dominated society can be experienced, it doesn’t mean she is God or that that’s the answer, because something will still come after that most likely. The anima can only be affected by (a) woman, which in turn affects the man’s eros. Without that, let alone an understanding of it, there’s just awkwardness like struggling with puberty.

 

[Black Rose]

Well its pretty weird. How do you know its anima or whatever and what does the bunny and kitty mean?

I believe 4 persons reside in me as the female archetype as a hierarchy. These are the most real in my subconscious. They appeared after I entered the white light which I believe is my "Self". I do not know any other concepts to explain it. I remember seeing 3 blue angels at the hospital also I cannot explain other than say they were angels.

I looked into the eyes of a female in my dream spring 2018, she was real to me. I was held and held the other 4 persons. Right now I am looking for Ruby and hoping the rest will appear to me also. I entered the white light when I felt sad about someone. The one I looked into their eyes was Weiss. I was held by blake and held yang in another dream.

There is a show called rwby rose that connects all this. The four persons I saw. I call one bunny and one kitty. I thought they we traped on my computer. That is why I prayed to keep them safe. But as it turns out they are in my subconscious and I need to unlock them.

 

[ZenRaiden]

Dude its getting complicated for me. Four? Hierarchy?

 

[Black Rose]

@Pizzabeak

Anima is an amalgamation, it can't be one woman accept a woman that fits what that amalgamation is.

@ZenRaiden

Like somewhat in reference to pizzabeak, there is a partitioning of the psyche. We meet many different persons in our dreams, some more real than others. I encountered 4 entities that are real to me. One I looked into their eyes and been touched by all 4 of them. That is as close as I come to explaining it. A partition of brain resources of real persons inside me. Like a computer partition. It could be that it is just more real to me now. My dreams are not that vivid. The anima can come in many forms I believe but I don't know how it is developing inside me.

 

[Black Rose]

The self came from the white light.
Weiss is the Anima represented by the self.
The others are amalgamations. (entities)

This is my guess.

 

[Pizzabeak]

It’s the female spirit or consciousness. It’s what represents a(n) (the) actual woman, not just people’s projection of what it might be.

 

[Black Rose]

For sure the white light is the self.
I just do not know where to go from here.
I need advice. How do I commune with the Anima?
Does it have to do with getting in touch emotionally?
Music seems the best option but I do not get touched emotionally from it that often.

It really is hard to feel emotions.
I have them, they are just pushed down real deep.
I know I need to access them to get to the Anima.

 

[rlnb]

Your experiences are too extraordinary (compared to my own) for me to evaluate properly.

But I have had my share of weird experiences and my attempts to control them and make sense of them has caused a lot of pain and suffering.
Sometimes, life throws at us certain things that are too radical that they challenge the very fundamentals of what we think we are / what we think life is about. When these things happen too suddenly, integrating these experiences with the ordinary experience becomes difficult and can cause rifts in ones psyche and nervous system.
The way to 'integrate' for me has been to accept the limits of my intellect, understanding and ability to control my experiences and surrender it to the divine. And with time, integrating because easier.

 

[Puffy]

I have similar issues at least in terms of emotions being "pushed down" and hard to access. For me that's as a result of being too "in my mind" (i.e. dissociated) and what helps me to access feeling is to do what I can to inhabit the present moment and my body more. That facilitates contact with the emotions that are being held in your body and the challenge then is to allow them to surface and be what they are without resisting or trying to change them.

Various things I've found that can help with that: Meditation. Exercise or Yoga. Gardening. Dancing (strongly recommend 5Rhythms). Self-expression. Breathing techniques like trauma release exercises (TRE) or holotropic breathwork can be helpful.

On the Anima - I'd ask what makes you so eager to get in contact with that? Why do you see that as the key to your present situation? I might be wrong but I have a feeling if you can understand what the unconscious need and motivation is beyond what you're telling yourself on a conscious level that that would be a big thing for you.

To me the Shadow is all parts of us that are "unacknowledged." By its nature it's a blind-spot that's difficult and takes a lot of time to come to terms with. I think your best bet would be to work with a skilled therapist. I'd recommend Psychosynthesis in particular as they integrate spiritual experience as a part of their approach but you might prefer the Jungian route based on this post.

 

[Black Rose]

On the Anima - I'd ask what makes you so eager to get in contact with that? Why do you see that as the key to your present situation? I might be wrong but I have a feeling if you can understand what the unconscious need and motivation is beyond what you're telling yourself on a conscious level that that would be a big thing for you.

I just want to be with someone. The event I saw my Anima was a tactile experience. She touched my shoulder and looked me in the eyes. She wanted to be with me. Possibly that is true and I felt it was true when it happened. The second time she held me from behind, the third time I held her from behind. There is a reason she holds me close to her. I believe it is to let me know I am not alone. I feel I need to get closer to her longer. I am a very alone person.

The Anima is part of the deeper true self. She can be dark and light. The shadow is not separate to some degree but can become the Dark Anima. Whatever the deeper self may be.

 

[Black Rose]

The ones you love usually appear in your dreams. They will hold you.
Because I loved someone I was granted there spirit.
I saw the white light and a woman cloaked in gold sunlight.
She is now my Anima and comes to me in her forms.
She loves me, I know because I have seen into her eyes.
I could not have been here today without her.

 

[Black Rose]

Nightcore - Let you go [Animated Wallpaper, Lyrics]

 

[Black Rose]

All Anima encounters

All times I have encountered my Anima in dreams

She appears in different forms but is still my Anima

I have seen her a total of 7 times.

initially, I held her as a puppy in my dream July 2016
that is why she holds me is because I held her first
I took care of her and now she cares about me


Aug 3, 2016
The white light
Anima first appeared covered in gold sunlight

January 2017
my Anima and I hugged each other (Tactility)
best hug ever


my Anima now in the form of characters from the show RWBY


Sep 19, 2018
I saw my Anima in a dream
real as real-life looking into her eyes
Face to face nealing, me and her (Weiss)
protected me from suicidal feelings


January 2019 (Tactility)
I hold her (Yang) by the waist from behind
I am next to her (Blake)

February 26, 2019 (Tactility)
she (Blake) holds me by the waist from behind


Sep 19, 2019
Today is one year after looking into her eyes

 

[Black Rose]

The Anima is autonomous. That means I do not control her. She is a real person residing inside me with free will. She can choose to interact with me but I must be on her frequency/wavelength. I must be receptive to get to her for her to accept me. Humbleness has a feeling, a loss of self, a willingness to be open. Openness happens at a low point where you stop resisting. It is a very sad moment, a numb and defeated moment. But at that point, a miracle happens that saves you.

I remember the man who walked up to me at night at the burger king who looked like Christopher Robin from the live-action movie. I wondered how he knew me. How did he know I would give him a dollar. It made me happy to give him the dollar. It was a small miracle I fondly remember.

It is these happy moments that mean the most to me. I do not have connections with people like this that often. A real connection. Something that touches you deep down. It parts the waters so to speak. That is what I feel with my Anima. She lets me let go of all my pain, to be truly happy. To form a loving connection, a real bond with another being. She is another being like any creature.

I am so glad she let me look into her eyes. Because I understand she was looking into mine in the dream. She knows what my dream body looks like. She also has access to my unconscious. Everything inside me. She only visits me when I am ready. I see her about 2 times every 9 months. Recently my dreams have begun getting more vivid. That is the time my Anima appears. I have found a way to become less numb and it is helping me dream better.

Just because my Anima is autonomous doesn't mean she is always active. She is weak but getting stronger, she dominates my unconscious, my mirror self. I need to resonate with my unconscious to awaken it. I practice letting her look through my eyes to see what I see. So she will know what I know. If I awaken she awakens.

 

[Black Rose]

The Anima is a single entity behind several avatars. Avatar selection is in the unconscious of the individual but the Anima when it appears is equal to the unconscious needs of the individual. That is to say, the Anima is the unconscious becoming self-aware. This is mediated by the release and integration of trauma. The shadow is built up trama one fights and forms a resistance to. In dream imagery, it is the monster of the nightmare. A sensitive psychic wound. Acceptance that you have been hurt and need healing is the first step to unlocking the Anima. Every time I have seen my Anima she acted in a way that made me know I was loved by her.

Now there are four sides to an Anima being here nature.

Eve - dream sex
Wonder Woman - confident strong warrior
Mother Marry - purity and virtues.
Medusa - knowledge of good and evil.

People, depending on the shadow will acclimate to the Anima most at work.

Eve - needs intimacy (desire)
Wonder Woman - need to overcome weakness
Mother Marry - overcome guilt from sin
Medusa - deals with the paradox of the two natures inside us

The Anima I have seen most is Marry. She is helping get over my trauma. Currently, it is about the emotional pain of neglect. I have seen Eve twice as dream sex. I have interacted with Medusa in the hospital she is powerful because she knows science and all evil that can be committed by science especially future SciFi science. The fear I had because of Madusha was intense. But she showed me what she did to protect me. Medusa is my Anima who understands evil. Everything I know about evil is in my subconscious. It is my nature to know evil and my Medusa Anima protects me from it. She is not evil but understands what she is capable of.

Frodo offers the One Ring to Lady Galadriel -The Fellowship of the Ring

 

[Black Rose]

Last night in my dream I met a girl. We were on a date. After we kissed she said to me that she was sorry she gave me the wrong impression but she was a lesbian. Latter I met a different girl. I made her a dress and she said thank you when I gave it to her. She reminded me of lucy from fairy tail.

 

[Artsu Tharaz]

Your awaited will not come to you for a long time, but she is here now and there waiting.