Subconscious

[Zionoxis]

I was recommended to attempt to see what was within my subconscious through the use of meditation and clearing my mind. So, being curious as I often am, I tried. Assuming what was floating through my head WAS my subconscious and not just ADD thoughts bouncing around with little logic behind them or reasoning, than I was not happy with what I found. I was hoping you guys could give me a little insight as to what to about it, and more importantly, the meaning behind it.

On a vague note, what I saw, heard, and 'thought' first was different projections of my own insecurities...ironically, the many projections took the form of different senses randomly. Sometimes I could hear myself speaking of them, sometimes I could see an image of me being part of it, and other times, the thought was just there. Unfortunately, I cannot give details due to lack of memory. I can almost promise one of which dealt with social insecurities....

Now, here is the odd one out. The last thought rang through my ears and stayed in my head with complete clarity. It almost sounded like I was being shouted at. "I demand growth". Ok, what in the world?

I am trying to figure out why my intuition has been a little on the non-responsive side lately, and it seems my subconscious is drowning in a sea of insecurity and something about not growing. Mind you, I am 18, but still...I was not quite expecting to find this.

Ideas? Feedback?

 

[Awaken]

No point in being happy or sad with what you find, just look. Any other demand on your attention is counterproductive. You will, however, feel happy or sad about it, so just look at that too. Then you will probably feel bad about being sad in the first place, so just keep looking.

 

[rattymat]

sounds about right. in order to clear your mind to have productive thoughts you must first understand your own insecurities and be aware of them, otherwise you wont trust yourself to really make valid judgments as you wont be coming from a place you respect (yourself). interesting last thought, goes along with everything i just said, you must develop, as in you must be aware of your insecurities and how to better yourself in areas you may consider weak or utilize what areas you consider stronger. either way, all of your development must first be about yourself.

 

[Vrecknidj]

Now, here is the odd one out. The last thought rang through my ears and stayed in my head with complete clarity. It almost sounded like I was being shouted at. "I demand growth". Ok, what in the world?

Lucky you. At least your subconscious is cooperative. I've heard much, much worse.

I am trying to figure out why my intuition has been a little on the non-responsive side lately, and it seems my subconscious is drowning in a sea of insecurity and something about not growing. Mind you, I am 18, but still...I was not quite expecting to find this.

Ideas? Feedback?

Follow the advice elsewhere, to just be aware, just pay attention. And, you'll know a lot more in 10 years.

Dave