Silent Fury
Redshirt
Hi. 
I'm your average screwed up INTP.
I'd like to talk a bit about my self, to let you guys know about me, and to come back and read about myself when I forget.
People I live with:
Mother:ENFP
Father:ISTJ
Sister:ISFJ
Me:ENTJ, hehe Jk INTP.
I thought that would be useful to understand the rest
So, I'll get to the basics. My mom has always been for of my crazy sister, my sister has always been more of my mom, and my dad, well he's always just been the guy who plows my mom and lives with us.
My moms relationship with my dad:
She's emasculated the shit out of him, and he does whatever she wants to make her happy. She's very spoiled, very childish, very manipulative, etc.
My moms relationship with my sister:
My sister has always told me that she's been depressed since she was 7, because my mom was always so mean. An exaggerated perfectionist, she was so forcing in her nature of raising my sister to the point where my sister attempted suicide. My mom says "It's cuz I knew the world was so disgusting and horrible I was so domineering because I didn't want her to be exposed to it..."
My relationship with my sister:
I've always loved my sister. I remember when I started getting older she would tell me her childhood stories about how she could never be friends with just anyone because mom would criticize hard about everything and how she had to be the perfect daughter for her but it wasn't enough anyways. My sister normally took out her anger at me by hating on me.
My relationship with my mom:
We're NP's. so we get along. We either get along VERY well or we're WWlll.
She always kind of spoiled me in a way, cuz I was her favorite child. (She told this to my sisters face) out conversations would consist of either theory (F based or T based, but I'd give in to her NF ones because she's the E and, meh, it's theory, it's interesting, why not?) criticizing, or how awesome we are. Yea she made me full of myself as if I needed her help lol.
My relationship with my dad:
(Cricket) Yea, well, with a dad Who isn't really much of a man, and works 6am-8pm there's really not much of a relationship. Of course in addition to my mom bein the dominant parent and the one Who basically raised me.
I spent most of my life with my mom and sister. An ENFP mother? Any masculinity I've retained was all self-taught. It's really pathetically embarrassing.
Recently I've discovered I'm very angry, having Fi as a last function didn't help with that. I've also discovered it all goes to my Parents, like any other amirite?
This whole thing is a really hard thing to explain, having a dad who was never really 'there' a stubborn child mother, and an influence I looked up to that was poisoned by my mother and went on to passing down the hatred to me. My life is a clusterfuck that I've noticed my mother plays a huge role in. But I can't just say its all her, my dad played an important subtle role, so I'm sure there's other ones I have yet to identify.
Things I've gotten from my mother:
I'm an E at home. I can use F things like empathy and being very nice at will, but I've retained my direct and more T-like nature. My manipulation skills are very good, but I only use them on my family, why? Because my mother 'must always be the loudest and the one everyone must hear' therefore I've grown used to not talkig unless I'm talked to and that why I sound like Stephen Hawking when I talk to strangers....and why I have no friends
So, forgive me if I'm an E online as well, I guess I want to speak like never before, but, this isn't speaking no matter how much I try, I have a need to 'talk'
I'm full of many voids, that need to be filled. ;/
So talk to me, I'm good in online chats. 
I'm your average screwed up INTP.
I'd like to talk a bit about my self, to let you guys know about me, and to come back and read about myself when I forget.
People I live with:
Mother:ENFP
Father:ISTJ
Sister:ISFJ
Me:ENTJ, hehe Jk INTP.
I thought that would be useful to understand the rest
So, I'll get to the basics. My mom has always been for of my crazy sister, my sister has always been more of my mom, and my dad, well he's always just been the guy who plows my mom and lives with us.
My moms relationship with my dad:
She's emasculated the shit out of him, and he does whatever she wants to make her happy. She's very spoiled, very childish, very manipulative, etc.
My moms relationship with my sister:
My sister has always told me that she's been depressed since she was 7, because my mom was always so mean. An exaggerated perfectionist, she was so forcing in her nature of raising my sister to the point where my sister attempted suicide. My mom says "It's cuz I knew the world was so disgusting and horrible I was so domineering because I didn't want her to be exposed to it..."
My relationship with my sister:
I've always loved my sister. I remember when I started getting older she would tell me her childhood stories about how she could never be friends with just anyone because mom would criticize hard about everything and how she had to be the perfect daughter for her but it wasn't enough anyways. My sister normally took out her anger at me by hating on me.
My relationship with my mom:
We're NP's. so we get along. We either get along VERY well or we're WWlll.
She always kind of spoiled me in a way, cuz I was her favorite child. (She told this to my sisters face) out conversations would consist of either theory (F based or T based, but I'd give in to her NF ones because she's the E and, meh, it's theory, it's interesting, why not?) criticizing, or how awesome we are. Yea she made me full of myself as if I needed her help lol.
My relationship with my dad:
(Cricket) Yea, well, with a dad Who isn't really much of a man, and works 6am-8pm there's really not much of a relationship. Of course in addition to my mom bein the dominant parent and the one Who basically raised me.
I spent most of my life with my mom and sister. An ENFP mother? Any masculinity I've retained was all self-taught. It's really pathetically embarrassing.
Recently I've discovered I'm very angry, having Fi as a last function didn't help with that
. I've also discovered it all goes to my Parents, like any other amirite?This whole thing is a really hard thing to explain, having a dad who was never really 'there' a stubborn child mother, and an influence I looked up to that was poisoned by my mother and went on to passing down the hatred to me. My life is a clusterfuck that I've noticed my mother plays a huge role in. But I can't just say its all her, my dad played an important subtle role, so I'm sure there's other ones I have yet to identify.
Things I've gotten from my mother:
I'm an E at home. I can use F things like empathy and being very nice at will, but I've retained my direct and more T-like nature. My manipulation skills are very good, but I only use them on my family, why? Because my mother 'must always be the loudest and the one everyone must hear' therefore I've grown used to not talkig unless I'm talked to and that why I sound like Stephen Hawking when I talk to strangers....and why I have no friends
So, forgive me if I'm an E online as well, I guess I want to speak like never before, but, this isn't speaking no matter how much I try, I have a need to 'talk'
I'm full of many voids, that need to be filled. ;/
So talk to me,
I'm good in online chats. 
