Sad news (for me)

[Papimojosten]

My best friend of 7 years is moving away in three weeks! I met him when I was just a very young possible hard turbulent intp or infp and we became fast friends over the years hes proved a true friend and always a good sounding board for me and my hairbrain ideas, also a good anchor to the real world for me when I've gone very abstract in thinking or just being alone. We are family at this point and I'm closer to him than any blood relatives. Hes leaving though and neither one of us thinks we'll see each other again... I guess I'm sorta of venting and whatnot, we're so close and in such abstract ways of thought that basically by my self I seem crazy and without an anchor I'm afraid of completely losing touch and never making another friend or getting married... I guess ni is leading now over ti... I'm not looking for sighs or "I'm sorrys" I just have no one else to really share the sad news with... Believe it or not I actually shed a few tears over the thought and I hadn't cried in YEARS!

 

[QuickTwist]

My best friend of 7 years is moving away in three weeks! I met him when I was just a very young possible hard turbulent intp or infp and we became fast friends over the years hes proved a true friend and always a good sounding board for me and my hairbrain ideas, also a good anchor to the real world for me when I've gone very abstract in thinking or just being alone. We are family at this point and I'm closer to him than any blood relatives. Hes leaving though and neither one of us thinks we'll see each other again... I guess I'm sorta of venting and whatnot, we're so close and in such abstract ways of thought that basically by my self I seem crazy and without an anchor I'm afraid of completely losing touch and never making another friend or getting married... I guess ni is leading now over ti... I'm not looking for sighs or "I'm sorrys" I just have no one else to really share the sad news with... Believe it or not I actually shed a few tears over the thought and I hadn't cried in YEARS!

That's rough hommie. Don't be ashamed of crying. That shit would get anyone worked up.

 

[Papimojosten]

Also I'm scared of being one of those hardcore deep intp nerds who only surface from playing league of legends or old school d&d to pop their gross face pimples, code a little, grab another mountain dew code red, and pop in the bewest religiously pessimistic Dawkins type propaganda and live a overall fruitless and pointless existence... (no offence to any of the people who actually enjoy those things)

 

[TheManBeyond]

Today is the gay pride parade here in my town. U can find more friends, its so easy these days.

People come and go. You will make new friends.
You can always stay in touch. It depends. Just relax.

 

[TheManBeyond]

Also I'm scared of being one of those hardcore deep intp nerds who only surface from playing league of legends or old school d&d to pop their gross face pimples, code a little, grab another mountain dew code red, and pop in the bewest religiously pessimistic Dawkins type propaganda and live a overall fruitless and pointless existence... (no offence to any of the people who actually enjoy those things)

Please feel my empathy, I would be scared too

 

[Papimojosten]

Yea I sorta did it like getting an unexpected paper cut like,"oh, I forgot as a human I did this healthy display of these weird things that I feel"... then it just got prioritized lower on the scale of things I was thinking for the day, yet the sadness never left just lessened...

 

[Polaris]

May not be the same, but many people here are always willing to listen or provide a sounding board, at least. Most of us here have extensive, or more than required field experience in isolation and madness.

Hang in there, bruh

 

[Papimojosten]

May not be the same, but many people here are always willing to listen or provide a sounding board, at least. Most of us here have extensive, or more than required field experience in isolation and madness.

Hang in there, bruh

Hey, thats somewhat comforting haha....
"
Some are born mad, some achieve madness, and some have madness thrust upon them"....

 

[QuickTwist]

May not be the same, but many people here are always willing to listen or provide a sounding board, at least. Most of us here have extensive, or more than required field experience in isolation and madness.

Hang in there, bruh

This is correct.

FYI, I have sever ADHD so I cannot read for very long because I find it incredibly tedious. Take this as a huge compliment OP, but I always read your shit because I find you interesting.

Also, I would not be sold on you never seeing your friend again, far from it. If people can become very good friends simply from online engagements enough to actually fly out to make a visit, take it in good faith that you can do the same for someone who is essentially closer to you than family.

 

[TheManBeyond]

Hello darkness my old friend
I come to talk to u again

 

[Pyropyro]

It's okay to vent once in a while OP.

 

[Jennywocky]

Also I'm scared of being one of those hardcore deep intp nerds who only surface from playing league of legends or old school d&d to pop their gross face pimples, code a little, grab another mountain dew code red, and pop in the bewest religiously pessimistic Dawkins type propaganda and live a overall fruitless and pointless existence... (no offence to any of the people who actually enjoy those things)

It's a good thing you have some control over that.

... sorry your friend is moving. Life seems to be a series of hello's and goodbye's, but just because someone leaves your physical proximity doesn't necessarily mean you've lost them forever.

You can also take active steps to expand your world and engage others if you can find the right venue.

And yeah, shed whatever tears you feel. It's more important to be honest than put on a strong needless front of not caring. We're not actually robots, even if we play them on TV.

 

[Papimojosten]

This is correct.

FYI, I have sever ADHD so I cannot read for very long because I find it incredibly tedious. Take this as a huge compliment OP, but I always read your shit because I find you interesting.

Also, I would not be sold on you never seeing your friend again, far from it. If people can become very good friends simply from online engagements enough to actually fly out to make a visit, take it in good faith that you can do the same for someone who is essentially closer to you than family.

I really do appreciate this and find it comforting in a way, I also find it interesting to be found interesting... though hes going full incognito, no phone, no car, no internet, the only thing I know is where he is going, but I'm just about to try to start going to college in a few months which will take roughly six years to finish for what degree I want and gen eds and what not, so I don't think I'll be able to make the flight, which is the only way to reach it, over there. Plus all the money for college (that won't be going to a roundtrip plane ticket).

But this is some comfort though... I must ask are you an intp and if so how does adhd affect one such as yourself, I seem to be able to read for hours at a time somedays then others I can't even get 15 mins in without just getting angry at myself for not focusing....

 

[Papimojosten]

Hello darkness my old friend
I come to talk to u again

Because a vision softly creeping, left its seeds while I was sleeping....

 

[QuickTwist]

I really do appreciate this and find it comforting in a way, I also find it interesting to be found interesting... though hes going full incognito, no phone, no car, no internet, the only thing I know is where he is going, but I'm just about to try to start going to college in a few months which will take roughly six years to finish for what degree I want and gen eds and what not, so I don't think I'll be able to make the flight, which is the only way to reach it, over there. Plus all the money for college (that won't be going to a roundtrip plane ticket).

But this is some comfort though... I must ask are you an intp and if so how does adhd affect one such as yourself, I seem to be able to read for hours at a time somedays then others I can't even get 15 mins in without just getting angry at myself for not focusing....

Would it explain it if I said I am ISTP as opposed to INTP?

My ADHD makes me not be able to pay attention to reality for very long. This is kinda at odds with the fact that I am ISTP because ISTPs can pay attention to the real world very intensely for extended periods of time if they don't have ADHD. I must note that just because I have ADHD means diddly squat about my intelligence. I am relatively intelligent but because I have ADHD and another much more serious mental diagnosis means that I can come across to people as not making sense, when I know exactly what it is I am thinking, but it is sometimes hard to articulate into comprehended words. The other mental illness I have is called Schizoaffective Disorder, which I am sure you have prolly never heard of in your life. Its basically schizophrenia with a mood disorder on top of that. There are two types to this mental illness: bipolar type and depressive type; I have depressive type.

One of the hallmarks of how ADHD effect me is that there is something seriously fucked up about the way my brain handles dopamine. For Schizoaffective Disorder, I really have no fucking clue how this affects my brain chemistry. Basically, my brain chemistry is a right mess.

 

[Papimojosten]

Would it explain it if I said I am ISTP as opposed to INTP?

My ADHD makes me not be able to pay attention to reality for very long. This is kinda at odds with the fact that I am ISTP because ISTPs can pay attention to the real world very intensely for extended periods of time if they don't have ADHD. I must note that just because I have ADHD means diddly squat about my intelligence. I am relatively intelligent but because I have ADHD and another much more serious mental diagnosis means that I can come across to people as not making sense, when I know exactly what it is I am thinking, but it is sometimes hard to articulate into comprehended words. The other mental illness I have is called Schizoaffective Disorder, which I am sure you have prolly never heard of in your life. Its basically schizophrenia with a mood disorder on top of that. There are two types to this mental illness: bipolar type and depressive type; I have depressive type.

One of the hallmarks of how ADHD effect me is that there is something seriously fucked up about the way my brain handles dopamine. For Schizoaffective Disorder, I really have no fucking clue how this affects my brain chemistry. Basically, my brain chemistry is a right mess.

Ahh, I guess so. I had an old roommate who was istp. He was like 30 though and as I was always younger treated me like I was dumb or he had already been through what I was going through, it was kind of annoying. Not to say thats how you are though.... I've been like that before, though I don't think I have a disorder but I find it hard to fully explain theorys or other things about what I think to people, I have concluded though that they are unintelligent. Well, I read a little about that disorder after looking at your post, bottom 3% of people in the world are affected by it so at least your unique, I've often wondered if I am crazy but don't think so... its like a sandwhich of your personality, schizophrenia, and depression or bi-polor or mania from what I can tell.... Do you know what hallucinations or things you "see" or do you take medication and are considered "normal", I used to see things when I was a kid but I chalked it up to being alone and having a vivid imagination, my mom, who battleds with mental illness still to this day, used to say, "normal is overrated and for that matter what is normal anyway".... I kinda agree and also digress, nice to meet you....

 

[QuickTwist]

Ahh, I guess so. I had an old roommate who was istp. He was like 30 though and as I was always younger treated me like I was dumb or he had already been through what I was going through, it was kind of annoying. Not to say thats how you are though.... I've been like that before, though I don't think I have a disorder but I find it hard to fully explain theorys or other things about what I think to people, I have concluded though that they are unintelligent. Well, I read a little about that disorder after looking at your post, bottom 3% of people in the world are affected by it so at least your unique, I've often wondered if I am crazy but don't think so... its like a sandwhich of your personality, schizophrenia, and depression or bi-polor or mania from what I can tell.... Do you know what hallucinations or things you "see" or do you take medication and are considered "normal", I used to see things when I was a kid but I chalked it up to being alone and having a vivid imagination, my mom, who battleds with mental illness still to this day, used to say, "normal is overrated and for that matter what is normal anyway".... I kinda agree and also digress, nice to meet you....

I don't mean to needle you here, but Schizoaffective disorder occurs in roughly .3% of the population, not 3%. Technically it occurs in .2-.5%, but .3% is an accepted metric.

The thing about ISTPs and them telling you they have been there and done that is there because ISTPs can actually be quite intuitive and are able to get to the heart of the matter rather easily. This is completely different than the INTP where the INTP will deliberate on what something means much more thoroughly than the ISTP. But the thing about ISTP is that they are considered people who generally have a wide variety of experiences - enough that when they get older they feel like their experience is evidence in and of itself. I hope you know that the guy prolly was just trying to help. Ofc this can come across as kinda like he is trying to lessen what it was that you were/are going through, but this is due to the poorly developed Fe that he prolly had. I am someone who is known for their honesty when someone is asking for a critique of something. I don't sugar coat it, I tell it like it is and what can be improved. You have to understand that ISTPs are much much more concerned with solving the problem as fast and efficiently as possible rather than what is prolly your approach to where you will try and consider every possible angle and then even when you take action there MAY still be some doubt. ISTPs come accross a bit like judgers in the way they approach problems in some ways. They have some parallels with INTJs in this regard. The difference between INTJ and ISTP tho is that and INTJ is going to plan for specific instances and exceptions a bit more than an ISTP. An ISTP is just going to go with the solution that is likely best in a general sense covering the most amount of ground with a single action.

This might interest you:

https://youtu.be/BwHFjtBoxEI

And sorry if it feels like I am telling you a bunch of shit you already know. I don't know what you know about MBTI so I am just trying to cover my bases here.