Such as intelligence? Creativity? Would you mind to elaborate?
Actually I shot both of those down pretty quickly. I'm probably doing better than the average, but the average isn't very good. Am I smart enough to be fairly certain I won't make stupid decisions that could bring harm to myself and others (as I would argue most people do habitually throughout their lives)? Or to be able to predictably make meaningful contributions to things? Or creative enough to have genuinely original ideas instead of just slight variations or recombinations of other people's better ideas? Probably not.
Two that did occur to me:
- I tend to see things more objectively and not get caught up in trends and fads. But this isn't really true, I just manage it in different ways. I've completely deluded myself into believing what I wanted to before, despite all evidence to the contrary (particularly with women,
this xkcd explains the story fairly well). Also I have been sucked into trends, just not the typical fashion/sports/politics stuff most people get into. I wasted years of my life thinking I was going to be some kind of great scientist/engineer, when in retrospect it seems more like I'd just read all this poetic stuff about such people and wanted to mimic them as some kind of vain hero-worship. That goes back to the objectivity thing too: I couldn't just admit that to myself, I had to come up with complicated theories to explain why it would all actually work out in the end.
- The compassion thing mentioned above, or at least a lack of malevolence and general desire to make things better. But that's not really true either, since when the going gets tough I'm just as bitter and hateful as the next guy. If I get stepped or on feel I've been treated unfairly I tend to just say fuck it to everyone and everything and lash out indiscriminately. So it's really only true circumstantially: as long as everything's going ok for me then it's probably true, but as soon as things aren't I'm not much better than anyone else.
It could just go on and on like this. There really aren't many positive things I could say about myself that would really be honestly true. I do take good care of my dog though, even when he's being annoying, aggressive, causing trouble, or severely inconveniences my life. Also I suppose I am fairly good at introspection, since I've actually bothered to think all this through.
That's probably more explanation than you wanted.
Hail Ermine! I can only knit, very slowly, and not without looking, but I hope to improve myself over time! :smiley_emoticons_mr
