I don't personally mind how others choose to perceive themselves or their personality, others are the experts on themselves. But for me I adopt the mindset that my challenges can be overcome or at least mitigated to a point that I can live with them and be happy. Ultimately that's what motivates me to work hard on myself.
It is good to work hard but then is it possible that personality at the core is what is able to change? Can you, for instance, change yourself to be the opposite of who you are? This all goes back to the ideology of behaviorism. What conditioning can and cannot do.
I've never wanted any kind of psychiatric or neurological diagnosis as I believed being labelled with that would have an unconscious affect on me, of defining a limitation that can't be overcome and making me feel limited by the condition.
That is good. I have been labeled though and this label has led to learned helplessness. But the feeling of helplessness had been there for more than a decade before I was "diagnosed". I was not raised to take care of myself in the way society expects you to. I had an existential crisis because I was worthless inside.
I do live at least in part in defiance of the aspects of my life that's been challenging. I've learned to name, recognise and feel my own emotions from a place of shutdown. Or to be comfortable sustaining eye contact with others. Or to be able to dance with others without self-consciousness. Or to be able to hold conversations with people.
And that is an accomplishment. I was shut down too. But then why was I, not an alcoholic? Because I did not like the taste and I did not have the feelings or the urges to numb myself. I faced my pain without it. but at the cost of determination. I was not angry at people or life or God. But I was alone. People who do become alcoholics do not have hope. I suppose I did even when I had no faith in myself.
It improves gradually with time and effort. Personally I think it's bollucks that neuroplasticity stops when you're 30. It never stops. But I do think it takes more effort as you get older, just as it takes more effort to keep the body fit.
I was psychologically beaten down so much that my development was stunted. emotionally and cognitively. I did not know what to do so I wasted away. It took my entire willpower not to die. And that ages you.
I was not extraverted in the sense that I expressed myself like people would on tv. And I was not like people who just do things in their social way. I had no friends to take care of me, no parents who could do it either. I had to go to the group home when I graduated high school.
The body/brain of children just can do so many things adults cannot do.
But then what is a personality?
The core personality is about what you do to survive.
How does that work?
It is not that plasticity does not exist it is the frequency at which plastic can change.
This tells you how your body moves.
As the brain grows it builds layers, layers are the structures of development.
These structures are the foundations of the organism's motion.
So if you have these conditions early or later your body grows into them.
Growing out of one's conditioning requires more than just self-determination.
Before self-determination is possible one needs a strong front brain to stop oneself from engaging in certain behaviors that became burned in. They were burned in by repetition and pain/pleasure and by social reinforcements.
If different parts are growing at different speeds then it matters what we are exposed to when that is happening at each place and as a whole.
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I do not believe that I can catch up to people who have been doing maths way longer than I have. And why should I? What will it do for me? I have to become a janitor because I have no money and people who can do math have millions of monies I will never be able to get for decades because I will never be able to catch up. It takes money to get a job so if you have no money you cannot get a job. I could, if I tried, make friends so I could use math to help people but then it is going to be decades before anything happens.
So whether brains have personality or not is not the issue with me personally.
The issue is that I cannot do stuff.
It is too hard.
I was stunted.
And other people get to do what they want because they had a support system.
mine was not there.
progress is not impossible but it will never be the full potential.
I only have what I have and that is it.
when people hurt my feelings I guess that it is impossible to defend myself.
but other people get away with so much.
I think personalities do exist.
and that means they can become disfigured, warped, and misshapen.
personality is just the way/shape in which the psychology of a person moves.
