Thank you all guys for such deep and constructive attention. You give me exactly right insight and inspiration I need for further development and evolution of my music. I'm reworking some tracks now and trying some new projects, l'll share results when they'd be ready, so you can be in touch with my progress and
guide it further.
Now on questions almost all the sounds I use, including singing bits, are reworked free samples I downloaded from internet. I usually take random sounds and try them in the mix until I find some interesting interaction, some subtle harmony, and then I refine this interaction by editing added sound and mix, so they better fit, better work together. I also use sounds synthesized on software synths, when I need more flexible, more live, organic sound. I also try random presets on random synths with random notes and rhytmic patterns until I find something interesting, some translucent, distant idea, spirit, some evoked mood - and then refine it by editing preset, making sound more complex naturally, according to what ensues from that "interesting" interaction. It's entirely intuitive search of harmony in chaos, and then entirely rational refinement, jeweler's cut of what's been found. I don't use any recording or hardware synthesis, my music is absolutely abstract, digital, software-based. I think of it as compositions, to be opposed to recordings, and see myself as programmer rather then musician.
"discours" track is entirely synthetic too, it's programmed in Guitar Pro with custom edited RSE, its drum track is hand-programmed midi track on hand-made samplepack. I don't use foreign melodic or rhytmic sequences, instead i get extrinsic sound samples and use it in intrinsic way (so to say I prefer buy ingridients and improvise with recipe rather then produce own ingridients and use it in good old classic formula).
Also thanks very much for notes on vocals and repetition. I thought that vocals and bass was strongest, coolest parts of my production, but after your comments I saw that it's indeed weakest part. I considered it from this new perspective and found many, many harmonic and rhytmic errors in vocal's score, and sound-design of it turned out primitive and underworked. I was so convinced that it's "cool" and "trendy" that I lost contact with sound, percieved it abstractly, delusively and didn't recognized its underworkedness. Working on it from this new perspective gave tracks huge musicality boost straight away, so thanks once again for such constructive insight.
About repetition - it's VERY interesting, I have to sleep over it for some time. Maybe it's what I missed all this years and may be my way to harmony i lost in time (I noticed that my music degrades in some ways, hard to describe, but it's very objective feeling. old tracks, such as "dicsours"(its 2007), feels way more musical in some subtle way, newer tracks lacks this higher musicality; production and sound-design, style gets way better with time but that subtle spirit, musicality is lost, sound is beautiful but empty, and it only gets worse, I cant grasp it and lose it every time). This is serious philosophic question, and I feel it can change my vision in wide, universal way. Has to think about it very thoroughly.