New here..

[Sweetheart]

Hi all. Newbie here. I'm just finding my way around the forum, and I'll probably post here and there, wherever I think it's most appropriate. Because, you know, it's complicated.

I've known I'm an INTP for years, but with some major life changes, I'm trying to find my authentic self.. live the way I was born to live. I've been on a journey to fulfill my destiny, and I'm still on that journey. I've got a long way to go, and yet I've come a long way. Last year I intellectually powered my way out of a cult, and in the process realized I'm in a toxic relationship (with an ENTJ) I'm in the process of leaving, but it's difficult, as I've been indoctrinated my whole life to blindly obey leadership. I'm not used to speaking up for myself, let alone with such a formidable, overpowering personality. I better stop before I verbally vomit everywhere. .

Just wanted to introduce myself and say hi. More later..

 

[Black Rose]

 

[Lot]

Welcome!

Glad to knoe another INTP also got caught up in a cult. I was in one for 6 or 7 years. It was really hard to get out. The emotional toll of just thinking about leaving would leave me in tears. All those people that I'll probably never see again. All the relationships that I knew would crumble. All the guilt that the elders and pastor put on me. Every Sunday it was just a long guilt trip.

Now I'm out and I'm exploring the world of shamanism and eastern philosophy. Cannabis has given me more religious experiences in one year than Christianity and the cult ever did. I'll never listen to "Benny and the Jets" the same way.

ENTJ's can be tough. My best friend is an ENTJ. HE went from a womanizing, self righteous, hyper angry person, to a loving, respectful, understanding, father and husband. He doesn't even yell at his kid and is completely against spanking. Like a total 180.

There is hope, but toxic is toxic, and it'll probably take you down with her. Love and understanding go a long way. Is she a cult person? I'm super glad I didn't marry one of the girls from the cult. I would have probably killed myself by now.

Good luck

 

[somebodiesfool]

How did the cult come about?

Seems like an ENTJ could be dominating. I don't have much experience with them. How long has the relationship been?

 

[Sweetheart]

How did the cult come about?

Seems like an ENTJ could be dominating. I don't have much experience with them. How long has the relationship been?

I was essentially born into it when I was adopted by my cult parents as a baby. It's very difficult to get out. Psychologically it was horrible trauma, I wouldn't wish it on my enemy.

Almost 10 yrs.

 

[Sweetheart]

Welcome!

Glad to knoe another INTP also got caught up in a cult. I was in one for 6 or 7 years. It was really hard to get out. The emotional toll of just thinking about leaving would leave me in tears. All those people that I'll probably never see again. All the relationships that I knew would crumble. All the guilt that the elders and pastor put on me. Every Sunday it was just a long guilt trip.

Now I'm out and I'm exploring the world of shamanism and eastern philosophy. Cannabis has given me more religious experiences in one year than Christianity and the cult ever did. I'll never listen to "Benny and the Jets" the same way.

ENTJ's can be tough. My best friend is an ENTJ. HE went from a womanizing, self righteous, hyper angry person, to a loving, respectful, understanding, father and husband. He doesn't even yell at his kid and is completely against spanking. Like a total 180.

There is hope, but toxic is toxic, and it'll probably take you down with her. Love and understanding go a long way. Is she a cult person? I'm super glad I didn't marry one of the girls from the cult. I would have probably killed myself by now.

Good luck

He has not gone for months, but it was superficial. Sometimes it crops up now and then (for example, driving by the building).

 

[somebodiesfool]

I was essentially born into it when I was adopted by my cult parents as a baby. It's very difficult to get out. Psychologically it was horrible trauma, I wouldn't wish it on my enemy.

Almost 10 yrs.

Is it religous?

 

[QuickTwist]

The best way to "find yourself" is to be open with those around you. IDK if this is a good place for you to do that here or not. It highly depends on you and what people think of you.

 

[Lot]

He has not gone for months, but it was superficial. Sometimes it crops up now and then (for example, driving by the building).

Sorry bout that. Must have not caught genders. My bad.

I was a rage filled mess after I got out. So angry at those people. I'm mostly over it now. I know what things are their fault and what things are mine. Made it a lot easier to forgive and move on.

So is he not going because he wants to or because of you? I'm a bit confused here. Brings up going back? Sorry if I'm missing something obvious.

 

[QuickTwist]

Lot is also correct. It highly depends on where you are in life to determine if you will like it here.

 

[Sweetheart]

Sorry bout that. Must have not caught genders. My bad.

I was a rage filled mess after I got out. So angry at those people. I'm mostly over it now. I know what things are their fault and what things are mine. Made it a lot easier to forgive and move on.

So is he not going because he wants to or because of you? I'm a bit confused here. Brings up going back? Sorry if I'm missing something obvious.

Sorry, I am being vague. The last time I was part of a forum, it was one of the recovery forums for the cult I was in, and when his family found out I no longer believed, they found me out on the forum, and printed and archived all of my posts. Drama ensued. He took our kids away to a relative's and abandoned me at the house, more drama, etc etc. It's better now but I'm emotionally checked out. He stopped going in an attempt to save the marriage, not because he theologically didn't agree with it.

 

[QuickTwist]

It sucks what you went through. I hope things get better for you.

 

[The Gopher]

Heyo! Welcome welcome. Hope things go better.

 

[Direwolf]

Cult?!?!
Well shit, that must have been hard, well done on getting out, not just anyone could have done it. Remeber that if stuff gets difficult.
Oh and hello welcome to the forum.