Negative you!

[shortbuss]

I just accidentally hit myself in the face with my head phones. I think that was the perfect way to start this post

I am a little slovenly. I let my room, and even my personal hygiene to a smaller extent, go unchecked. And I wonder why I have no dating prospects. I almost NEVER clean the outside of my car, and one day at school I came back from class and someone wrote on the dirt on the car 'how embarrassing'. I thought it was really funny, even though they probably thought they were sticking it to me, but that's their shallow problem, haha. My only prerogative is that the car drives- I couldn't' give a shit what it looks like.

This year in particular my procrastination has gotten out of control. My grades are suffering, and that's something I never let happen before.

My worries are vain and small, and I willingly let myself get swallowed by feelings of depression and inertia.

My shyness limits me substantially, and causes me to miss and even pass up opportunities for happiness. I refuse to do anything to make my situation better- too scared to take risks. I am definitely my own worst enemy.

I have an amazing and unfortunate ability to turn any thought into a subject about myself. I try not to do this aloud, but I'm still afraid I have this proclivity at times...

Well, that was fun :P

 

[Chronomar]

but your avatar is Jon Stewart creeping on CSPAN...so you're okay.
- procrastination, check. Not as bad as before, but still lingering.
- depressive moments, though I'm manic depressive.
- having an odd sort of self-centeredness that I personally hate.
- missing class when I know it hurts the professor's feelings (small class sizes = absences being noticed) and when it hurts my grade
- getting involved with extra things (taking an art class, starting a sustainable growing club) when I SHOULD be focusing on GPA.
- spending my damn money on my stupid friend more than I usually would for a Christmas present because he's the only damn friend I've got. I need my money, but it's already spent.
- making small stupid decisions that add up to extra misery in my life (e.g. not wearing a coat out in cold weather because I didn't think of it, not checking the calendar for when finals are until the last minute...etc.)
- not keeping in touch with relatives I know I should be writing/calling/e-mailing
- judging/hating people I'm around even though I know such judgments are usually egotistical/baseless, and hatred is not a good thing to keep around.
- forget to brush my teeth and wash my face if I'm reading before bed.
- violent instincts I would rather not have.
I think a lot of us are going to have similar negatives. To write them down might seem self-defeating, but to me it helps to remember what I need to work on.



Good luck with the items on your list

 

[Dr. Freeman]

I'm so awesome I make others jealous, often to the point of violence.

Spoiler

But seriously, I have problems dealing with superiors (in authority) who make illogical decisions, especially those that inconvenience me. I tell them exactly how they are wrong and what the best alternative would be. Unfortunately, they tend to take this as a challenge to their authority and maintain their prior decision.

 

[tepellian]

I want things to happen in my life, and am not audacious enough. Instead I will come up with many half-baked ideas for getting them in the future, which I don't even know if I'll solidify and take the logical steps to put in place, never mind execute.

Somewhat relatedly, I'm still pondering writing a book, have had years of writing starts to stories, thought harder about them, got discouraged because I didn't think they were perfect, and left them to rot. Not quite the same issue, but still related to not taking action.

What makes this tendency worse is being in one place for too long. Literally, if I'm living somewhere for more than a year, maybe two, at a time, I will get further stuck in this way. I can be over-engrossed in my own thoughts and not even seek the outside world for any reason other than food or information.