Waterstiller
... runs deep
I was supposed to graduate last Spring, but the paper I had turned in for my History seminar was shit. It was one of the rougher patches in my life, but I still had managed to do rather well and thought I'd be graduating. Unfortunately, the professor ended up not liking my paper so much that she was going to give me an F. I persuaded her to give me an incomplete so that I could get my shit together. I was supposed to have done the paper by mid August.
I've been unable to do it. Technically, I've got till the end of this quarter (this week) to change an incomplete before it turns to an F. I haven't had the guts to contact the professor, however. It has been tearing me up that I can't write the damned thing.
It's truly a herculean feat for an INTP, too. I didn't even want to take the class; I was more interested in History of Science, but my school wasn't offering a minor in History of Science and so I had to do European History which I ABHOR but had already taken my share of classes. It was supposed to be one last push.
The particulars: ESTJ professor, 25 pages, based solely on primary texts, the text is Leonardo's notebooks. It's open-ended. My previous paper was written in a rush, and I had written 75 pages total during the final week of school. It was 5 pages short and she despised it, saying I could do better. She gave me a B+ in another class I had her in.
My question to you is how should I approach this? I am completely lost.
How do I get through 25 fucking pages? What argument could I possibly stretch to that length? What would you find interesting in Leonardo's notebooks? Anything that I could back up with great detail that wouldn't go extremely out of line with a traditional view of Leonardo (estj prof)?
If you can't think of anything, please motivate me. I'm on the fence as to whether or not I want to live, and the whole notion of doing this and not getting a job because A) the economy and B) me being a tranny is really putting me off.
I've been unable to do it. Technically, I've got till the end of this quarter (this week) to change an incomplete before it turns to an F. I haven't had the guts to contact the professor, however. It has been tearing me up that I can't write the damned thing.
It's truly a herculean feat for an INTP, too. I didn't even want to take the class; I was more interested in History of Science, but my school wasn't offering a minor in History of Science and so I had to do European History which I ABHOR but had already taken my share of classes. It was supposed to be one last push.
The particulars: ESTJ professor, 25 pages, based solely on primary texts, the text is Leonardo's notebooks. It's open-ended. My previous paper was written in a rush, and I had written 75 pages total during the final week of school. It was 5 pages short and she despised it, saying I could do better. She gave me a B+ in another class I had her in.
My question to you is how should I approach this? I am completely lost.
How do I get through 25 fucking pages? What argument could I possibly stretch to that length? What would you find interesting in Leonardo's notebooks? Anything that I could back up with great detail that wouldn't go extremely out of line with a traditional view of Leonardo (estj prof)?
If you can't think of anything, please motivate me. I'm on the fence as to whether or not I want to live, and the whole notion of doing this and not getting a job because A) the economy and B) me being a tranny is really putting me off.