My Condition (video)

[Black Rose]

I made a video on my mental health condition.

My Condition

 

[Ex-User (14663)]

Makes sense to me

 

[QuickTwist]

Thanks for sharing AK. I would say you are very, very open to ideas.

I would like you to do this: https://intpforum.com/showthread.php?t=22832 and tell me the results. you can PM them to me if you don't want to share them in public.

I also want to tell you that I think you are a wonderful individual and I wouldn't at all mind getting to know you better.. Still am serious that I would like to meet you at some point in person. IDK if you remember me saying that or not, but regardless, you are def an individual I would like to get to know better because, if for nothing else, I find you an interesting person. I really like how creative you are.

[Edit] Also, I believe that you do have a good understanding of how people work. IDK that you are ENFJ because I know that knowing how people work isn't a trait synonymous specifically to ENFJ. For example, my brother knows how people work really well even tho he is ISTJ.

 

[Black Rose]

I would like to meet you to QuickTwist.
I did use that text analyzer of two of my blog posts.
My posts generally are not that long, my blog has over 200 posts
If you want you can analyze any of them you like.
I do not have time to do allot so here are just two of them.

https://illuminaticatblog.wordpress.com/2017/07/12/fish-eye/

Personality Portrait
289 words analyzed: Weak Analysis
Summary

You are inner-directed and somewhat indirect.
You are independent: you have a strong desire to have time to yourself. You are calm-seeking: you prefer activities that are quiet, calm, and safe. And you are deliberate: you carefully think through decisions before making them.
Your choices are driven by a desire for stability.
You are relatively unconcerned with both achieving success and taking pleasure in life. You make decisions with little regard for how they show off your talents. And you prefer activities with a purpose greater than just personal enjoyment.

https://illuminaticatblog.wordpress.com/2017/07/06/how-process-more/

Personality Portrait
325 words analyzed: Weak Analysis
Summary

You are tranquil and somewhat insensitive.
You are independent: you have a strong desire to have time to yourself. You are reserved: you are a private person and don't let many people in. And you are self-conscious: you are sensitive about what others might be thinking about you.
Your choices are driven by a desire for discovery.
You consider both independence and helping others to guide a large part of what you do. You like to set your own goals to decide how to best achieve them. And you think it is important to take care of the people around you.

 

[Reluctantly]

You seem pretty normal to me. Just a bit uncomfortable talking about yourself (like frustrated about how you label yourself or something), but not mentally ill or autistic or anything. Maybe a bit nerdy. But you sighed a lot, lol.

I relate with you about the freezing up thing though. I've been thought of as high functioning autistic from a couple people before, but that was in an environment that was high social anxiety. Plus it doesn't help when most of the people around me are socialites that think anyone that isn't must be autistic.

 

[QuickTwist]

I would like to meet you to QuickTwist.
I did use that text analyzer of two of my blog posts.
My posts generally are not that long, my blog has over 200 posts
If you want you can analyze any of them you like.
I do not have time to do allot so here are just two of them.

Thanks.

Can you link me to a place where I can easily navigate all your blog posts? I would like to add enough of your blog posts to get a very strong analysis. If I can navigate all of your blog posts easily I can just copy paste most of your blog posts in one go which will give a more accurate result.

 

[QuickTwist]

OK, I found out how I can do this. Is it OK if I copy paste a lot of different blog posts you have made all at one time, AK?

 

[nanook]

Nice to hear from you. <3

You may be referring to me in your video, since i probably mentioned Aspergers once. There is so much miscommunication involved here. I believe how i see you is accurate and how you see yourself is also accurate, yet we conceptualize it differently and it makes a difference: i just feel there is hidden potential for you, in how I conceptualize your situation, which is why i bother to say anything about it at all, occasionally

(whereas you feel my message implies the opposite: loss of potential. and i understand how scary a word like asperger is with its connotations of developmental arrest, rigidity, blocked - nobody deserves a self-image like that. i once wrote the word on a piece of paper and burned it, to get it out of my self-image forever.)

and it all would be worth being sorted out, but is just so overwhelming.

(i can't keep up with all the thoughts about all the subjects that move me)

I really despise all the conceptual frameworks in the general area of psychiatry. Behavioralistic flatland. I would never even use a word like aspergers, if there were better alternatives. It just sucks how stupid humanity/common-language is at this time. I could vomit all day long, thinking of all the confusion in samsara.

Time to get grounded, eat watermelon, chew lettuce, meditate, etc. Good old monkey stuff. Just Works™

 

[Black Rose]

OK, I found out how I can do this. Is it OK if I copy paste a lot of different blog posts you have made all at one time, AK?

as many as you like.

@nanook

No, it is not you nanook, it is really about two people on an IQ blog whom I am in conflict with. They are alt-righters and believe in the Jewish conspiracy and since it is an IQ blog everyone shares scores and they say theirs are both 140 (I take this at face value because both their personalities do not seem like they are fakers) I have my own theory that complexity is important to intelligence so I think maybe I have a genius crystallized intelligence. Like I said in my video I think they are wrong and they make assumptions about me because of what they think Aspergers is. I still wish to comment on the blog so I need to avoid them to a mild degree. The blog has 30,000 unique visits per month. The blogger is 36 and lives in Toronto. I read his blog because I find it educational. But the internet is the internet. Trolls are everywhere.

 

[Pyropyro]

Anime, are you eating healthy food and exercise regularly? My grandpa has some seizures and good food helped reduce their occurrence. Maybe that can help.

 

[Black Rose]

I think that most of my problems stem from lacking intimacy.

Dr. Dan Siegel - On Avoidant Attachment

 

[Grayman]

What do you look for in a women or man or whatever
.

 

[Black Rose]

What do you look for in a women or man or whatever
.

I have no idea what you are talking about so here is a bunny with a pancake on its head. (image.jpg)

I am not good with descriptions so I googled "dere types".
In 2009 I met a girl who was the combination of the two bellow.
See the image of me below to make comparisons.
(Actually, assortative mating is a good description of what I look for)

5. Kuudere
Emotionless, cold, and distant. On the rare occasional that a kuudere does speak, they tend to be very blunt and cynical. A blank face and a flat voice is a must. Despite their icy nature, kuudere characters are capable of caring and forming romantic bonds.

Popular examples: Eucliwood Hellscythe (Is this a Zombie?) / Kanade Tachibana (Angel Beats!) / Mashiro Shiina (The Pet Girl of Sakurasou)

4. Dandere
Quiet, shy, and harmless. Dandere characters typically wear glasses and are always buried in books. However, they can become talkative when around their love interest.

Popular examples: Urara Shiraishi (Yamada-kun and the Seven Witches) / Shiori Shinomiya (The World God Only Knows) / Onodera Kosaki (Nisekoi)

[bimgx=600]https://i.imgur.com/ccXSQWa.png[/bimgx]

I am so sorry, here is the bunny.

 

[Grayman]

Dr. Dan Siegel - On Avoidant Attachment.

I think that doctor needs to see a therapist if hes got worlds inside of himself.

 

[Black Rose]

I think that doctor needs to see a therapist if hes got worlds inside of himself.

Him and J. K. Rowling author of Harry Potter.
That world in her just ain't normal.

 

[Black Rose]

None verbal learing disability.

What is NVLD?​

Study finds differences in brains of children with nonverbal learning disability

https://www.eurekalert.org/pub_releases/2013-11/msu-sfd112013.php​

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Attachment_theory

Anxious-avoidant attachment[edit]
An infant with an anxious-avoidant pattern of attachment will avoid or ignore the caregiver—showing little emotion when the caregiver departs or returns. The infant will not explore very much regardless of who is there. Infants classified as anxious-avoidant (A) represented a puzzle in the early 1970s. They did not exhibit distress on separation, and either ignored the caregiver on their return (A1 subtype) or showed some tendency to approach together with some tendency to ignore or turn away from the caregiver (A2 subtype). Ainsworth and Bell theorized that the apparently unruffled behaviour of the avoidant infants was in fact a mask for distress, a hypothesis later evidenced through studies of the heart-rate of avoidant infants.[51][52]

Infants are depicted as anxious-avoidant when there is:

"... conspicuous avoidance of the mother in the reunion episodes which is likely to consist of ignoring her altogether, although there may be some pointed looking away, turning away, or moving away ... If there is a greeting when the mother enters, it tends to be a mere look or a smile ... Either the baby does not approach his mother upon reunion, or they approach in 'abortive' fashions with the baby going past the mother, or it tends to only occur after much coaxing ... If picked up, the baby shows little or no contact-maintaining behavior; he tends not to cuddle in; he looks away and he may squirm to get down."[35]

Ainsworth's narrative records showed that infants avoided the caregiver in the stressful Strange Situation Procedure when they had a history of experiencing rebuff of attachment behaviour. The infant's needs were frequently not met and the infant had come to believe that communication of emotional needs had no influence on the caregiver. Ainsworth's student Mary Main theorized that avoidant behaviour in the Strange Situational Procedure should be regarded as "a conditional strategy, which paradoxically permits whatever proximity is possible under conditions of maternal rejection" by de-emphasising attachment needs.[53] Main proposed that avoidance has two functions for an infant whose caregiver is consistently unresponsive to their needs. Firstly, avoidant behaviour allows the infant to maintain a conditional proximity with the caregiver: close enough to maintain protection, but distant enough to avoid rebuff. Secondly, the cognitive processes organising avoidant behaviour could help direct attention away from the unfulfilled desire for closeness with the caregiver—avoiding a situation in which the child is overwhelmed with emotion ('disorganized distress'), and therefore unable to maintain control of themselves and achieve even conditional proximity.[54]

 

[QuickTwist]

The link to the video in the OP no longer works :/

 

[Black Rose]

The link to the video in the OP no longer works :/

It was on private, I set it to public. Does it work now?

 

[QuickTwist]

It was on private, I set it to public. Does it work now?

Yes, it does. I remember what it was about now.

 

[Black Rose]

 

[Black Rose]

Schizoaffective disorder
(weird thoughts) (negative affect)
criterion met by examination of two certified psychiatrist

 

[Black Rose]

2007-2009
2010-2011

dissociation

the disconnection or separation of something from something else or the state of being disconnected.